InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Malice ❯ Interlude, Part Two ( Chapter 29 )

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Chapter 29: Interlude, Part Two

Kagome sighed into the kiss, not really sure what to expect. Obviously, she knew the mechanics of sex, but... this was a totally different thing, and so, she felt like a fish out of water in a sense.

Idly, she wondered if Inuyasha had any experience.

Inuyasha, on the other hand, was trying desperately to keep certain memories, memories that were not his own, out of his mind. He knew that what he and Kagome were doing now was completely different than what had been done to her before... but he couldn't stop the flashbacks - and they were vivid.

Pulling back from her, breathing hard, he lay his forehead against hers, eyes closed, and whined as a particularly bloody picture fried his mind.

Kagome's eyes opened wide as she heard that. "Inuyasha? What's wrong?" She sounded almost panicked, and he tightened his grip on her, opening desperate eyes to look at her.

"Kagome," he breathed, pain twisting in his voice. "I don't... want to hurt you..."

She stared at him blankly for a few moments, then her eyes filled with tears as she realized, he has my memories... making it just as though it happened to him as much as me - and it's hurting him. He's afraid to trigger bad thoughts in me, because it's making him see things, too.

"Oh... Inuyasha, I'm so, so sorry!" she wailed, plastering herself to his chest. "If I had just been stronger and fought him off, you wouldn't have that in your mind. It's all my fault for being so weak - you were right to call me that all those times!"

"No! Don't talk like a baka, Kagome! Sango's a warrior, right?" He waited for her to pull away and nod, then finished. "And if Naraku had grabbed her, the outcome would still have been the same. I have your memories, Kagome! I saw you fighting - you even purified several parts and injured others. Some of that blood... wasn't yours, you know. It was his. You fought - that's what counts."

"B-but now... now you can't even look at me without those memories taking over, Inuyasha!" she sobbed, totally heartbroken.

"And don't you see them when we..." he blushed, "... well, you know...?"

At that, Kagome turned her face aside and slowly shook her head. "No," she said slowly. "I..." she trailed off, a haunted look settling over her features.

"What, Kagome? What is it that you see?!"

"I see you leaving... to go to Kikyou," she finished in a whisper, eyes lowered in pain - and shame.

He reared back in shock, staring at her with his mouth hanging open. "Wh-what?" he sputtered. "That's what you see? Why?!"

Inuyasha would never forget her next words.

"Because those memories hurt worse." Tears still flowed from her eyes, and she refused to look up at him.

He lurched backwards, almost dropping her from his lap, staring at her in horror. "What?! Kagome... oh, gods... no!" I can't believe... how...? His mind was almost blank, he was so shocked by the words she'd said that he couldn't even speak.

"I'm sorry, Inuyasha! I..." she sighed, then, twisting her hands in her lap. "I didn't mean to make you angry, honestly! It just..."

He stared at her for several long moments, horrified at the amount of pain tainting her aura, and knowing that this pain was all his fault.

It hurt worse than being gutted.

"Kagome," he sighed, finally, scooting forward again to pull her back into his arms, "it's not like that. I'm not... mad at you. I'm mad at myself. For hurting you like that." He nuzzled his nose into her neck, growling softly to comfort her. "I don't know how you don't hate me, you know. I've caused so much damage to you..."

"I can't hate you, baka. No matter what. I never could." She clenched her fingers in his suikan, breathing in his scent with abandon, letting it soothe the ache and the fear. "It's not in me to be able to do that."

He bumped against her, trying to get her to look up at him, and when she did, he put a hand under her chin, keeping her there.

"I don't understand it, Kagome, but I'm sure as hell not going to fight it. I can't. There's no way I could live without you... so. This," he blushed, "mating thing. We're just gonna have to fumble our way through it together."

She nodded, eyes still trained on his. "Hai," she whispered. "Together." And she shifted up, pressing her lips to his, shyly, chastely almost.

Inuyasha took what she offered, running his lips softly over hers, taking his time. Slowly, he parted his lips, and nibbled lightly on hers, from one side to the other, tilting his head when necessary to get the angle he wanted. He refused to rush - after all, they had all night, and he was going to savor every second of that time.

Every second - because he knew that they had almost lost every chance they had to be together.

Every second - because he had hours of torture, pain, and degradation to erase from both of their minds.

Kagome moaned breathily, seeming to know what he was trying to do - that he wanted to take his time - and she followed his lead, not pressing him, just accepting what he chose to initiate.

After several minutes of that almost chaste tasting, when he had the flavor of her lips themselves firmly locked into his memory for all eternity, he pressed her lips to open to him, and with a hiccuping sigh, she did. Heat flared to life within him as she flicked her tongue into his mouth, running the tip over his fangs and groaning approvingly, and he soon pushed his way into her mouth, once again tilting his head to get as deep as possible.

He wanted every part of her mouth mapped - it would be known territory by the time he was done.

This went on for endless minutes, they would pull away with loving murmurs for deep breaths, then slowly close the gap and begin the kiss again.

He wrapped his arms fully around her, and as they kissed hotly, sweetly, he ran his hands up her back, smoothing her skin lovingly. He pulled away for a moment, eyes slitted, he tugged on the hem of her shirt and asked softly, "Can I?"

Kagome blushed, but nodded, looking down shyly, she grabbed the hem and helped him pull it up over her head. A cold chill crossed her uncovered flesh just then, and she shivered, wrapping her arms defensively around herself.

Inuyasha dragged his gaze up from the skin he'd just uncovered when he felt her shiver, carefully checking her expression and scent for any trace of fear.

He didn't find any - but he did catch the gooseflesh that spread across her skin, and he smiled a little.

"Keh. Come here, wench," he murmured, picking her up gently as he stood in one smooth motion despite her added weight. Setting her on her feet right next to the fire, he stepped back to the little nest he'd made, and opened the bedding up, then looked up at her.

Holding out a hand, he waited for her to take it, and with a scorching, heated look when she did, laid her down gently on the bedding, stripping the rest of her garments as he did so. Once she was laid on the warm blankets, he crouched at her side, staring at her steadily. He held her gaze for several moments, then ran his fingers down her skin gently, his eyes breaking from her gaze to follow the path of his digits.

"So beautiful," he said, a husky, passionate note in his lowered voice. "I've dreamed of you, of this, for so long."

She blushed deeper, watching him watch her, and shivered even more when his fingers ran along her suddenly hyper-sensitive skin. Eyes closing almost involuntarily, she let out a deep, tension-draining sigh.

It feels so good... she thought, mind already hazy with pleasure.

The sound of Kagome's sigh tightened the tension within her hanyou so suddenly and deeply, that he put a fang through his lip in reaction, and as a tiny drop of blood dripped onto her ivory skin, he gasped faintly, as another flashback hit him.

There was so much blood... he deliberately did everything he could to draw blood, that bastard!

Closing his eyes tightly, he pushed those thoughts away relentlessly, then opened his eyes and smiled at her determinedly, reaching down and wiping that spot of blood away. Sitting back on his heels a bit, practiced fingers went to the ties on his suikan, and had them undone within moments, pulling it off, he proceeded to untuck his undershirt after loosening his hakama, and shrugged out of it, too.

It was his turn to blush as Kagome eyed him, running her heated gaze over his chest, but he gasped as she reached out with hungry hands and began smoothing them across every open bit of flesh she could reach, a dazed look settling in her eyes as she did so.

Passion sparking in him at the feel of her hands on him, he stripped his hakama from his body, and almost lunged forward towards her... freezing immediately as she whimpered, he looked up, and for the first time, noted a faint look of fear beginning to seep into her gaze. It took a moment, but then he realized...

Keh! That bastard took her that way... maybe I should be the one to lay down - or even just lay next to her.

Pulling back, he settled next to her on his side, propping his head up with one hand, and asked gently, "Is this better, koi?"

Kagome perked up at hearing the affectionate term, knowing it wasn't often that he chose to bestow them, and her fear scent faded as she nodded, a grateful, but rather shamed smile lit her features.

"Yeah. I'm sorry, Inu--"

Inuyasha put a finger to her lips before she could finish that sentence.

"Don't. It's okay. I told you, we'd get through this together, didn't I?"

She nodded again, looking up at his earnest expression, she reached out a hand and cupped his face, unending love in her eyes. "I can't imagine my life now - without you in it, I mean. If I'd never fallen down the well..." she trailed off, a poignant sadness sweeping across her face as she considered such a thing. "Well, anyway, I don't want to think about that." She held his gaze, almost drowning in the intensity of it.

"I'd do it all again, you know," she whispered, running her thumb across his cheek, "go through every bit of everything that's happened a thousand times over just to finally be here with you... like this."

Inuyasha was stunned, searching her gaze, he found nothing but truth in her eyes.

She really would...

He was humbled, in that moment, everything that was Inuyasha was laid open for the first time in his life, he hid nothing of who and what he was. This woman, he decided, deserved nothing less than all of what made him Inuyasha - and he would go to his grave damned for all time if he ever gave her less than all of himself... forever.

Emotions running through him almost desperately, he leaned forward slowly, using every bit of self control that he had, and took her lips again, kissing her with all of the love trapped within his soul. He wrapped one large hand around her upper arm, steadying himself, and let himself go, passion and desire roaring to life inside him like an inferno.

And she answered.

Kagome could feel the difference in him immediately, and see it in his eyes, and she knew that no bitter, painful memories were drawing him away from her any longer - he was all hers, and the consummation of their bond was finally upon them.

With that in mind, she handed all control over to him - and submerged herself in his desire.

Within moments, he ripped his mouth away from hers, trailing his lips down her jaw, and nipping and licking his way across the tender flesh of her throat. He hovered for endless minutes over her pulse point, sucking and nibbling on it - there was just something that drew him about that spot, and he decided that he felt like leaving a mark there.

Kagome shuddered at the feeling, and even more at the touch of his silver hair skimming along her heated flesh, reaching upwards, she latched on to his ears, and began to rub - just because she wanted to.

Inuyasha stilled for a moment when he felt her hands on his ears, then sighed, his body relaxing a little at the comforting feel of it. After a moment, though, he looked up at her with a soft grin, and pulled her hands away.

"As good as that feels, relaxing my body isn't the effect we're really going for here, wench," he said teasingly, his eyes softening when she giggled, and with a decidedly wicked glint in his eye, he rubbed himself against her carefully, letting her feel his erection.

Her eyes widened, and he watched with interest as a flush spread from her cheeks, down her neck, and across her chest - drawing his gaze to her breasts once again, and all teasing fled from him then.

With a groan, he bent and latched on to a furled nipple, and she gasped, arching into his mouth, a low, sweet moan whispering from her throat.

Gods, he thought dazedly, does she have any idea what those sounds she's making are doing to me?

Wrapping his tongue around the turgid nipple in his mouth, he tugged, and she arched again with a choked scream, her arms coming up to wrap around him and pull him more atop her as she rolled onto her back, her earlier fears forgotten in the rush of pleasure Inuyasha was heaping on her willing body.

"Oh! Oh... gods... Inu..! Please - don't stop!" she managed to gasp out, and he sucked harder for a minute or two before he released that breast, and moved to the neglected one.

"Does it feel good, wench?" he growled out, his mouth locked around her nipple as the rumble sent shivers down her spine.

"Mm... Yes!" she sobbed, hands running almost frantically down his back, her nails digging into his flesh as his eyes flashed to red, then back to burnished gold.

Releasing the nipple with a pop, he moved down, kissing and nipping every inch of her abdomen, rubbing his hands up and down her thighs as well as he parted them gently, slowly, keeping her so lost in pleasure that she didn't have time to worry about flashbacks.

Kagome was a willing slave to the feelings he was evoking within her, and her haunted past was the furthest thing from her mind in the moment that his mouth opened over her core.

Everything within her tightened up in that one tiny slice of time, and she blanked out - her first orgasm catching her completely unaware and spinning her into a splintered chaos of pleasure that was so intense it was only one step away from pain.

Inuyasha was himself caught a bit of-guard at the suddeness of her release - he'd barely put his mouth on her before it ripped through her, but as he tasted her, his own arousal surged, and he knew he wouldn't last too much longer.

Determined that he was going to bring her at least one more release before he joined with her, he continued licking and sucking at her tender flesh, every primitive part of who he was enjoying the taste of the writhing woman beneath him.

He was so lost in her and the pleasure he felt just bringing her to the edge, that he lost all track of time, and it seemed far to soon for him when she called out once again in orgasm - though in truth, it had been quite a long time that she'd held out.

Pulling away from her finally, with one last, loving lick, he moved up her body, and stared into her face, waiting for her to open her eyes. When she did, he asked, formally, and very seriously, "Are you sure you want this, Kagome? Once it is done, there is no turning back the clock. It's permanent."

Kagome met his gaze, mind still hazy, but smiled up at him, lovingly, blindly, and answered him.

The words echoed in the cave with absolute solemnity.

"I'm sure, Inuyasha. I have always been yours - you just didn't know it."

A groan was torn from him, then, and with his control finally gone, he surged forward, into her body - and into her soul.

Both of them froze, completely unprepared for what happened in that moment, their minds, hearts, and souls becoming one as surely as their bodies just had.

Wide-eyed, passion-dazed, the two stared at each other, absolutely overwhelmed at the pure, unadulterated love that shafted through both of their souls, and Inuyasha was awed... he'd had no idea that a mating bond was like this.

"What... Inuyasha, what was that?" Kagome breathed, eyes still wide.

He shook his head, just as stunned as she. "The mate bond. I just... I never knew..." he trailed off, unable to articulate his feelings.

It didn't much matter, though, since they lived inside each others souls, now. She could tell just what he was feeling - and she pretty much felt the same.

As the awe began to fade, Kagome shifted beneath him, and he was suddenly recalled to what he had been doing. With a growl that was almost a purr, he met her eyes... and began to move, slowly, allowing her to adjust to his larger-than-life size.

Her eyes fluttered shut quickly, being unable to handle the intensity - she could feel everything he was feeling - she didn't need to see it, too.

So that's how it feels for a guy... she thought vaguely, before her thoughts spiraled out of control and she was lost to the sensations he evoked within her taut flesh as he moved forcefully inside her, quickly finding the one most sensitive spot within her body.

"Faster, Inuyasha... please," she choked out desperately. She was overloading on pleasure, and he was abruptly made aware through their new bond that she couldn't take much more - truthfully, neither could he.

He quickened his pace, eyes once again flashing to red as his most primal self was released in lust - only this time, not for blood. He growled ferally as she began to tighten to almost impossible levels, and he threw back his head in a cascade of silver as she rippled around him in release, howling desperately as his own orgasm was forced from his willing body by the silken constriction around his heated flesh.

Long, endless seeming minutes he stayed that way, hovering over her, every muscle in his body tight, standing out in high relief as he spilled himself deep into her belly, and to the woman beneath him, still dazed by her own release, he was the most beautiful thing she'd ever seen.

That image would be burned into her memory, never fading, even were a thousand years to pass, she would always remember.

And then it was finished, and he slumped forward, pinning her more than willing body to the bedding. Her arms came around him, and she ran her fingertips up and down his back soothingly... she could still feel him, like a comforting warmth, his presence was still locked inside her soul.

"Will it always be this way, now?" she asked, voice low, husky with spent passion.

He lifted his head to look at her, then, wearily, and knowing what she was asking, nodded.

"Yeah... we live inside each other now, K'gome. You will never leave me - and I will never leave you."

The smile she gave him then would warm him for the rest of his life, it was so bright and beautiful as the same thought echoed through each of their minds...

Mine...

Mine... forever.

A/N: It's a little late for christmas, but I just haven't had a lot of time - and this chapter was very difficult and time consuming to write. I hope everyone enjoys!

Amber