InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ My life, my Tragedy ❯ Chapter 1

My Past - My Tragedy

Disclaimer: Yes, I own inuyasha, I own everybody, and there's nothing you can do about it!!!!!
O.o; get a life people. I don't own the show. So leave me be.

Authors notes:

Nothing much here, in fact you only get ONE chapter of this story until my inspiration comes back. Heh, aren't I an evil wench?

Below are the Japanese terms you'll see in the story.. so, enjoy.

Oh another note: again, Inuyasha's 1st person pov. ^^

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Haha-ue: Childs (very honorific) way of saying mother.

Iya!: No!

Ano...: Um...
Nan Demo Nai: Nothing.

Daijoubu desuka?(Alternately could be just Daijoubu ka?): Are you alright?

Hai, Daijoubu: Yes, I'm fine

Yamero-yo!: (Semi-slang term) Stop it! (use cautiously)

Nigero: Run

Youkai: *think about that one* Demon

Oni: Ogre

Taijiya: Demon Exterminator

Kaasan wa: My mother

Doushita no?: What's wrong?

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It was just after sunset by the time I was able to get away from the group and be by myself. Leaning up against the tree I was lounging in I looked silently up into the darkened sky and allowed a sigh to escape my lips as I closed my eyes.

I just had to be alone tonight, if only to avoid all the questions that Kagome and the others had been throwing my way all evening. It was starting to take a toll on my nerves, and for once I didn't want to just blow up and start a fight, especially not over something like this.

Kagome had asked me more than once if there was something the matter, and Miroku, in his own idiotic way, had voiced his own concern as well, this of course leading himself to be slapped by Sango in what looked to be a little cycle they had.

I'd told them, and atleast semi-truthfully, that there wasn't anything the matter with me. And that was true, to a point. Nothing was wrong, I wasn't sick...I don't get sick. I wasn't anything that they needed to worry about.

No, it was just me being a bother to myself for the time being. That in itself warranted some down time. I didn't need any irritating comments from Shippou, or encouraging thoughts from Kagome. All I needed was to be alone. Well, at least I think that's what I needed...

It probably would have been better to try and distract myself than dwell on such needless memories, but for some reason tonight, I just couldn't help it. And I suppose, for this one time, I wouldn't try.

The little child tried valiently to obtain the ball he'd lost hold of, and raced quickly after it, over the bridge and into the vast flower gardens that lined the grounds of the village and towered over him.

Casting a glance into the rapidly darkening sky, he sighed quietly and blinked, amber eyes glowing slightly against the setting sun.

Now all he needed to do was find the object of his thoughts...

There, he spotted it near the edge of the lake in the center of the flower gardens. This was where he often came to play with his mother during the night time when everything was quiet. She'd sing him lullaby's and tell him stories of his father, or at least what she herself could remember. He always loved to hear about their first meeting, that was his very favorite story for her to tell him.

Tonight she was in a council meeting with the other noblemen.. so he was alone for the time being.

Her handmaidens had given him permission to go outside as soon as the sun started to set, so long as he was well behaved and did not disturb anybody else.

So he did just that, he played with his ball quietly, that is, until he bounced it a little too hard off one of the pillars of his home and it flew behind him and into the courtyard. Leading him to where he was now... standing near the edge of the water, and looking on quietly, the ball he'd been searching for, forgotten at his feet. What he was watching was far more interesting now..

A group of older kids were playing on the opposite side of the lake, out in the center of the village. The laughter echoed in his ears and he smiled quietly. How he wished he could be playing with them now, instead of just watching from afar.

But mommy made it perfectly clear, as did her hand maidens, that he was to stay on this side of the lake, where they could keep an eye on him. They didn't want him to get hurt, after all.

He understood, not that he was too happy about it. He could see their smiling faces as they stood around, and laughed, pointing at each other and occasionally tossing a ball back and forth.

"Just like mine!" he exclaimed in a loud whisper, eyes bright with wonder.

There was another girl though, that joined the group eventually. She was more his age though.. which was about 4 years old.

"Nani..?" he muttered and blinked, he'd never seen her around before. Not that he'd seen much of the village before...so there was always a first time for everything.

He focused on her attentively. Watching how her shoulder length purple hair blew slightly in the breeze, and how she giggled happily as one of the elder kids tossed the ball to her.

Sighing slightly he smiled almost whistfully and knelt down, grabbed his ball and bounced it once, watching it come back up to his hands. Ears twitching atop his head absently he watched them for another moment before sitting down and staring into the water quietly. Gazing at his reflection he was startled to see somebody gazing quietly down at him.

"Haha-ue!" he cried out gleefully and jumped up, ball bouncing over to rest next to the bank of the lake as he ran to her and hugged her around the waist.

"Hai, angel, I'm here..." she whispered in her gentle voice and picked him up, wrapping him tightly in the thick silky folds of her robes, and the little boy nestled in deeply, burying his face in the crook of her neck and almost purring in content.

"You're so far away from the house little one, what are you doing out here?" she asked, gently running her hands through his hair.

"My ball...I, it got away, and it came into the flower garden, I had to get it or it would have gotten lost. Gomen..." the child whispered sadly, afraid his mother was upset with him.

"Oh, no no, I'm not mad at you child...I was just wondering, you know I don't like you to wander too far away from home, especially not with out anybody else here.." she said and knelt down alongside the edge of the water, staring out at the children her son had been watching only moments before.

"I just want you to be happy Inuyasha..." she whispered in his ear, and settled him down in her lap, so that he could rest in the crook of her arm, and still look up at her, like he always did. "So," she said with as much cheerfullness as she could pull off, "what story shall I tell you tonight my little one?"

His ears twitched and he perked up. "Tell me how you and chichi-ue met! I wanna hear that again!" he cried out and giggled slightly, blowing a piece of hair out of his face as he fingered the edge of her sleeve absently.

"You've heard that so many times, you could almost tell me the story if you wanted too." the obsidian haired woman giggled along with her son, a sadness tinging her eyes as she watched him.

"Please haha-ue, please tell me?" he begged and tugged at her sleeve tightly, eyes alight with cheerful hope.

"Alright Inuyasha.. I'll tell you a story. How your father and I first met not so very long ago..." she started and the white haired child rested comfortably in her arms, all forgotten but the woman holding him.

Closing his eyes he let her retell her story for the hundredth time and just listened to her speak...

To this very day, the sound of her voice still lingers on my mind, and brings a certain comfort when I really need it. And truth be told, even after so long, I could still tell that story, like she said, from memory with no trouble at all, word for word even, if I ever chose to do so. Not, of course, that I actually would. That was something my mother and I shared, and something that I would keep with me forever.

Opening my eyes again I sighed, wondering exactly why now, of all obsurd times, these memories were becoming so strong and overpowering. The only thing I could conclude, apon inspection, that was nearing the time when...well that doesn't matter.

Blinking suddenly my tears twitched at the sound of Kagome's giggling over by the campfire, and I found the annoying urge to be down there. Well wasn't I a walking contradiction tonight?

I couldn't go down there, especially not now, could I? I'd told everybody, quite peevishly, to back off and leave me alone for the rest of the night, what would they say to this sudden change of heart?

Keh, nothing if they knew what was good for them. Besides, I couldn't stand to think of her anymore, not tonight, no...not ever. it just leads to way too many different memories and emotions that I could most certainly do without.

So, with that thought, I leapt noislessly to the ground and wandered over towards the campfire.

"Inuyasha...?" Kagome looked over at me from her spot in her sleeping bag inquisitively at my sudden arrival around the fire, but smiled never the less.

"Yeah?" I asked half-heartedly as I settled down next to her.

"So, you decided to join us for a while then after all, I take it?" she muttered quietly and my ear twitched slightly.

Nodding absently I folded my arms into my sleeves and glanced over to Sango and Miroku, who seemed to be in the middle of a game of...what was it that Kagome called it again? Oh, cards, yeah. Shippou was planted next to Miroku, cheering him on, and Kirara was perched on the deep in concentration Exterminator.

"Oi, Kagome..." I said tilting my head slightly, "Now long have they been at this exactly?" I asked, taking the bowl of stew she'd offered up.

"Oh, about an hour or so now...it's the same game we played a while back, Miroku-sama and I, but this time Sango wanted to play, and they've been hard pressed to beat each other ever since." she whispered back in explaination, a look of extreme amusement in her eyes as Miroku set down a pair of cards then chose another from Sango's hand. This time around he donned a very depressed face as the Taijiya let out a cry of joy and dropped her last card to the ground.

"Yatta! I win!" the young girl exclaimed causing Kirara to jump from her shoulder, and startling me out away from my meal with raised eyebrows.

"Ah...Sango...Omedetou, you beat me again." Miroku muttered and cast a glare down at the Joker left in his hands, before smiling weakly up at the happily cheering girl in front of him.

I glanced over at a smiling kagome who nudged me slightly then chuckled. "Congratulations Sango-chan, that makes 4 times you've beaten Miroku doesn't it? and 3 times he's beaten you, if I counted correctly."

"Eh?" I questioned around a mouthful of stew, "they've played it more than once?" and earned a glare from her.

"Yeah...didn't you notice? I would have thought you'd more than heard Sango beating Miroku senseless after her first win when he gave her a celebratory groping." Kagome commented and I merely blinked then shrugged. "Whatever..." I muttered and went quiet again, the rest of the stew ignored as I set it down next to me and stared into the fire while Sango beat off a very amused Miroku, yet again.

I let myself go quiet and just watch the fire, entranced, and found myself caught up in my thoughts, drifting back again...

Watching the sun as it set completely over the horizon I winced and felt my body shift slightly. Looking down at my hands, I watched my claws disappear, and felt my fangs receeding as well. Whimpering slightly I looked into the river and watched as amber eyes faded into a deep purple, now resembling my mothers, as my hair immediately changed as well as it fell around my face in a veil of obsidian.

The night of the new moon had arrived again... I don't know why, but I hated this time of the month, sort of. It felt so weird, not being able to hear all the little things I was used to, like everything that went on in the village. Everything just seemed so dampened and quiet, and my senses were dull as well.

It was nice though, this was the one night when my kaasan let me out alone to play. I never understood that. She'd explained to me, not too long ago, after my first transformation that I was old enough to understand, about the reasoning behind it happening. That I was part demon, and part human...I still don't really understand it though. One night every month I look like my mother until sunrise, and at this time I can go outside and play without any real supervision except for her guiding eye.

It was nice, sometimes there would be another person out, and I could talk...but that rarely happened, I don't get it...

"Haha-ue..." I murmured quietly and gazed back at her, as she sat on the stairs to the largest of the village houses, our home and watched me with gentle eyes.

Wandering over to the edge of the lake I sat down for a while, and gazed at my reflection, sighing sadly as I closed my eyes and burried my face in my arms.

My thoughts however were halted by the inquisitive, "Daijoubu desu ka?" I heard moments later. The voice startled me back and the tears that had been threatening to fall disappeared without hesitation, and I looked up nervously, only to find a girl, the one from before, sitting next to me. Her deep blue eyes stared at me quietly, and her hair was a little longer this time, and pulled back into a half ponytail.

"Hai," I muttered in response, "Daijoubu..."

"You seem so down though, why are you so sad?" she pressed and tugged on my jacket, then realized what she was doing apparently and blinked. "I'm sorry.. I just saw you sitting here all alone, and my mommy says you should never leave somebody alone, everybody needs a friend. So I wanted to come and talk to you. I don't think I've seen you around the village before, are you new here?" she asked curiously.

I looked at her inquisitively and after a moment smiled tenatively. "Iie.. this is where I was born..." though not entirely where I was raised, at least for a little while. "I've been here for about 4 years, what about you?"

"Really? I've been here about three months... My momma and I came here a little while ago. My daddy, he was killed in a battle..." she trailed off quietly and my eyes widened.

"Gomen..I'm sorry to hear that." I added gently and she shook her head.

"It was a while ago, don't be sad about it. Anyways, what's you're name?" she asked and tilted her head slightly.

"My name?" nobody'd ever asked me that before, "Inuyasha.." I replied somewhat sullenly and she looked like she was waiting for something else, of which i sort of knew, but.."What's yours?" I asked to fill in the quietness.

"Seishin Kijo." she said and I smiled slightly.

"I like your name. It's pretty." I said and turned so that I was facing her completely, putting my hands in my lap I looked at her Kimono, which was silky, black and blue with a pink sash and yellowish green flowers scattered about it.

She blushed slightly when I looked up at her but grinned anyways. "Well, Inuyasha, I like your name as well. You're really nice, you shouldn't be so sad." she said cheerfully and jumped up so suddenly that I gasped.

I watched as she looked behind her and sighed heavily. "I have to go though...Inuyasha..but, can we meet again sometime? I'd like to play, where in the village do you live? Maybe I could get my momma to visit with your family." she said so brightly that I just felt like agreeing right away, I wonder what kaasan would say.

Something told me to keep quiet, but this was the first person ever to be kind to me. And I wanted a friend so badly..

"Kaa-sa wa..ano.. my mother, we live..." I trailed off and decided to just point to the palace behind me.

Her eyes widened slightly and she blushed suddenly, I wondered why.

"Sugoi..." she muttered and giggled, which confused me even more, all girls seemed to be that way...

"Well then, I guess I'll see you later Inuyasha-sama." she said and helped me up then started walking backwards and waving. "Ja ne!" she called, turning around and skipping forward, towards somebody I couldn't quite see in the darkness.

"Ja...ne..." I replied slowly, and blinked, before turning back and heading away from the flower garden, crossing the bridge I turned around and watched her head into another section of the village, chatting with a woman who must have been her mother. Standing next to the river, I smiled and headed towards my own home with a more light hearted attitude. This wasn't such a bad night after all... even if I was human for a night.

"Inuyasha, Doushita no?" The sound of Kagome's voice worked to bring me back to reality and I blinked suddenly, looking up at her curiously. For a second I had to think about where I was, as my mind was still a little foggy.

"Hmm...Nani? Umm.. Nan demo nai." I replied quietly, and looked back into the fire, noticing that Miroku was no longer pursuing Sango, in fact he was asleep against a tree, and Shippou was now curled up in Kagome's lap.

"Nothing huh," she asked a hint of skeptisicm obvious in her voice, "Are you sure? You went quiet sometime ago you know, and didn't even notice Shippou taking the rest of your supper. There something you want to talk about?" she pressed slightly, a look of concern evident in her eyes.

Boy I hate it when she gives me that look. Now I was cornered, if I did, by some odd chance, tell her, she'd get all emotional on me. But, if I didn't tell her...well she'd either get upset at me, or wouldn't. Did I really want to chance it?

"I..." I trailed off though, slightly relieved, when the scent of blood reached my senses on the incoming breeze. It was very faint, but thick, and fresh.

Eyes narrowing I stood up suddenly, hand immediately hovering over Tetsusaiga.

"...Nani, Inuyasha, what's the matter?" Kagome asked and, still hugging a dozing Shippou to her, hopped up after me.

"Blood,"I replied grimly and turned to look at her.

Eyes widened she gasped and looked over to Sango and Miroku who were both up and alert as well.

"Human Blood." I concluded and they both nodded.

"I thought I sensed the youki, yes, there are youkai, a few of them actually," Miroku said as he grabbed his staff and doused the fire as I looked around back at Kagome.

Shippou had woken up and was now looking over at me curiously, "Inuyasha, what's goin' on?" he asked drowsily, rubbing his eyes and yawning.

"Wake up Shippou, don't you smell it? Human blood," I winced afterwards, "and it's getting stronger yet, as is the scent of those demons. Let's go!" I said and grabbed Kagome's wrist, pulling her up on my back and taking off into the direct the fight was sure to be.

A few minutes later Sango and Miroku caught up on Kirara, and I noted Kagome's backpack, taking off again at a quicker pace with the call of, "Keep up!" to the others.

However, as soon as we came into a clearing, just before more forest, I saw exactly what I'd been fearing. Youkai...Oni's to be exact, weere killing those who were obviously hunters. I noticed four of the humans on the ground already, and three that were trying desperately to escape.

This I didn't like what so ever, leave it to a bunch of idiotic demons to pick on the weak and useless. Growling low in my throat I dropped Kagome behind me, who let out a startled cry, and stepped forward. Drawing Tetsusaiga I ignored the warning from Kagome and charged forward just as one of the oni lunged on an already wounded hunter who was scrambling backwards.

"Yamero-yo!" I yelled harshly and swiftly sliced off the predator's hand before he reached the human, stopping him in his tracks. Glaring dangerously up at the youkai in front of me, I smirked toothily and he growed, holding his now bleeding stump of an arm.

Catching the sound of ragged breathing behind my, my ears pivoted to the noise, and I could sense the man's distress, heart pounding in his chest.

"You dare talk to me like that hanyou," the youkai growled at me, then laughed...a sound that grated on every nerve of my being at the moment.

"Shut up you overgrown half wit, you won't be laughing so hard once I slice you in half, head to toe." I said dangerously, which made him stop laughing and stare at me.

"Such bravery, for one who has the blood of a mere human coursing through his veins, you are not worth the challenge you have just given me," he said my eyes widened and I huffed, "I'll just kill you now, like the trash you are!" he said and laughed, his comrade's joining in. Heh, some joke...

"Nigero..." I muttered to the human behind me, who remained still, "Are you def! I said run away baka! Unless that is, you wish to die!" I snapped roughly, which got him moving, along with his fellow hunters. Luckily my enterence caused enough of a distraction that the three youkai were staring at me.

Of course, not that I liked having such attentive opponents, mind.

"Inuyasha, please be careful," Kagome yelled and started running towards me, much to my dismay, "I can sense a shard in the youkai you're facing!" she shouted and my eyes widened slightly. I had forgotten about a chance of shards.

"Well you could have said something sooner!"

Actually, she shouldn't have said anything now, I sensed the attack from the smart ass youkai only moments before it happened and managed to leap backwards into the air and land a few feet away.

He chuckled and stared at me, "very quick, Hanyou...impressive. But futile indeed..." with that, however he turned around in a flash move brought his arm, that had healed itself moments before, around and moved to slam it into me. I dodged, again, just barely and flipped over his head landing a few feet away once again and growling. He was quick for a dimwit.

However I completely forgot about the other Oni, and heard a shreak of fear as one decided Kagome would be a good target. "KAGOME!" I shouted and ran forward, shoving her out of the way just before she got hit and taking the blow to my head in turn. Flying sideways, I slammed into the ground and rolled for a foot or two before coming to a stop and wincing.

"Damnit..." I grunted, pushing myself to my knees and steadying myself with Tetsusaiga. I'd forgotten how much of a punch those damned oni packed when they wanted to. Shaking away the darkness pushing its way to my vision I looked over to see Sango pulling Kagome back by Kirara than getting ready with Hiraikotsu.

This unfortunately left me completely open for another attack, my mistake... "IYA! Inuyasha! Look out!!" Kagome cried and before I could even sense the incoming attack I felt a sharp pain in the side of my chest and flew backwards, Tetsusaiga nearly slipping out of my grip as I fell to the ground.

Growling I found myself unable to stop the darkness this time, and the last thing I heard was Kagome's cry, and the laughter of the oni as I slipped into nearly instant unconsciousness.

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Yup, and this is basically where it ended when my inspiration flew out the window. Damn my muse >.<

So, what do you guys think?

Honesty is a godsend... just be kind okay?
Arigatou!