InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Never Stop Loving You ❯ Here Without You ( Chapter 2 )

Never Stop Loving You

AN: Ok so here's chapter 2… it's a Songfic to Three Doors Down's "Here Without You". Just so you know this is longer than my prologue and Chapter 1 Combined. In this fic, I say that Inu Yasha writes this song. But I know that he really didn't. I just did that for story purposes.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own this song "Here Without You" that is total copyright of Three Doors Down… Oh Yeah and I do not own Inu Yasha! That is complete copyright of Rumiko Takahashi.

Chapter 2: Here withoutYou

Kagome sighed next to her sleeping little girl. They were both young-too young. Her parents, as irresponsible and uncaring they were of her… condition… were very wealthy-just as he had been. She shook her head furiously hoping still that there was a chance to forget him. But she knew the truth… she could never forget him. Her eyes darkened at the sight of her little girl… she looked just like him. She reached out to feel the soft hair of her four-year old daughter. Soft long silvery locks curling down to frame an adorably round face. Even in her sleep she looked just like him… how she missed…

A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face

She shook her head…no… how could she forget what he did to her. He left her… but… that was… maybe... she couldn't doubt what happened… the letter… he signed it…

A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same

She sometimes dreamed of where he could be. He was a traveler. She loved that about him. He had all kinds of stories to tell. He was the greatest story teller. His favourite stories to tell were of Feudal Era Japan; About Dog Demons and a Sacred Jewel. Then there was this psycho dude, Naraku who allowed a hundred or something demons consume his body and he became a demon himself. Then he claimed that the sword Tetsusaiga which was a family heirloom given to him, belonged to the Dog Demon who had slain Naraku. Even now she had a hard time believing his stories.

So here she sat in a dark corner of her cabin with her little girl looking out the same window that overlooked her private island. She wondered again. Maybe he went back to Egypt where his mother was. Or maybe he left her for Mexico to discover ancient Mayan ruins with his father. But there was no point in dreaming of him and where he was. The point was that he was not with her.

She sighed knowing that deep down, no matter how hard she'd try-and she tried very hard-she could never stop the dreams…the thoughts… the endless love she had for him. No matter how much he didn't deserve it.

~*~

But all the miles that separate
They disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

Inu Yasha looked around his small apartment. He could afford more, but had never gotten around to it, what with all the events that had taken place ever since he came to New York. He walked over to his extra bedroom.

This room was one of abandonment. All the things he had abandoned. He had promised to never enter this room again, but he just couldn't forget all that had happened to him. And he knew he could never forget her. There were no windows in this room-just walls. He walked closer inside the room toward the center feeling the claustrophobic tidal wave hit. The ever familiar feeling that would engulf him every time he dared to enter hit him-only this time it was different.

He saw his old guitar resting in the same place he had left it four years ago. Right after… he smacked himself. This was the second time today he thought of that day-a record. He picked it up blowing off all the dust on it. His hands traced over each string gently on the third string he struck a chord-the first chord in the song he wrote for her. The rest of the song came to him easily. He sang the words in his tenor voice.

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

As he sang, he imagined her standing right there-how wild his imagination was to imagine the love of his life next to him even though he knew she had hated his very being, with the knowledge that they're through. There the words were again… His heartstrings were plucked upon in synchronism with his guitar.

I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
andtonight, there's only you and me

Yah right… he scoffed. His days as the lead singer were over.

~*~

It was final. Kagome could no longer live in Tokyo. And with the news of the death of her parents she was given their estate and all that once belonged to them. She was the only child in her family, so it was all hers. This was her one way ticket out of here; this prison where she'd been surrounded by memories of him. She was on her way to her friend Ron's for he had just offered to take care of her daughter while she worked.

She entered his apartment to find him on his knees before her. She raised an eyebrow in disapproval.

"Please Kagome!" he begged. "Have mercy! Please take her away!"

Kagome continued her glare saying, "Ronnie, you know that there are two things that I don't respond to," she paused looking at him closely so that he would be able to understand her gist. "and one of them is snivelling." She was about to continue when her little girl poked her head out.

"MOMMIE!" she exclaimed her big brown eyes glazed with joy.

"Hey Suteki, did you have fun with Uncle Ronnie?" she inquired instantly cheering up at the sound of her voice

"Did you know that Uncle Ronnie is GAY?" she giggled. And of course, Kagome knew. He had been like that ever since the formation of "Crimson" the band they were in. His… lover was a good friend of hers too, Ritchie, who was also a key member of "Crimson". Of course Kagome and… him… never minded their relationship at all. Kagome smiled at Suteki's expression. She looked back into those big brown eyes and felt as if she had been slapped. Why did she have to look so much like her father? She asked herself.

The miles just keep rolling as the people leave their way to say hello

She drove her Civic all the way to the airport. She glanced back at her baby girl. Suteki. Her name meant "Sunset".

The name thought up by… him… One of the questions she asked Inu… him... before she went for her pregnancy test. He thought for a while and looked up at the sun ready to set, and the name was heard in barely a whisper off his very lips. Then she asked him what he would name his son. He grinned widely and said, "he'd be Junior."

She sighed and gazed at the road ahead, her mind still dwelling on the past

*~*Flashback*~*

"So this is it then?" said Ronnie.

"Yep. I'm taking all my parents' fortune and heading on the first plane out of here.

"You know… I'll miss you…" Ron half-sobbed. Kagomelooked at him. He was crying but this time it was understandable.

"AWW Ronnie… I'll miss you too.." she said opening her arms for a friendly embrace. He accepted and they hugged for a while. When they were free Ron reached for some red roses.

"Farewell," he said.

*~*End Flashback*~*

I've heard this life is overrated but I hope that this gets better as we go

Kagome looked at the dozen roses she received from Ron. She had placed them on the seat next to her after she had loaded Suteki into her Safety Seat.

`I could have sworn that he brushed his hand on my butt when he gave these to me…' she thought to herself. She quickly dismissed the thought remembering that he was also GAY. `It was just an accident' she reassured herself. But she still felt rather uneasy about the whole situation.

~*~

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

The strings on his guitar played together, singing in harmony with one another. Inu Yasha continued to sing their song. He continued to write it with each fragment of his shattered, bleeding heart…

Everything I know, and anywhere I go

Itgets hard but it won't take away my love

He could never forget her no matter how hard he tried. Her face was still etched in his mind. Raven locks framing her perfect pale face. A vision of her tear-stained face from his dream struck his heart like a dull blade. The edge, wrenching itself deeper every time he'd recall that it was him who put those tears in her eyes. But how did?

And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done

His roof began to leak again. One cold drop landed on his cheek rolling its way downward onto his guitar. No… I won't deny it this time… he was crying… he missed Kagome so much… but she hated him… and he had no idea why. And he never will…

His shoulders began to tremble as his vision went blurry when suddenly, all the sadness he had held back was let out. Like Mount Vesuvius in Sicily did years ago, he exploded… oh Mount Vesuvius. How could he forget? They had their first concert in Sicily… and their first night of intimate passion. Why did everything have to remind him of her…? Why couldn't he just forget her?

it gets hard but it won't take away my love

Then it dawned on him…

He loved her.

~*~

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

Kagome had bought two one-way tickets out of Japan. But her flight wasn't until the next day, so she rented a hotel room across the airport. Kagome had rented out the room highest up. She had just tucked Suteki in bed. Kagome just couldn't bear looking at her anymore. She reminded her too much of him. Her albino hair, her amber eyes… it was just too much. But she loved her with all her heart. She loved her just like she loved him… if not more so. But she just couldn't forget him. She could distract herself all she wanted, but she would still think of him. He would haunt her like a ghost ever since he moved. If only the memories of him would go with him as well. Taking one last glance at her home of twenty years, lights of all colours speckled across the dark skyline, she closed the curtains and crawled into the bed next to Suteki.

I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams

She woke up shivering one hour later. She had dreamed of him again. His face shining, like a vision of salvation, it appeared. His gentle smile was still able to vanquish all sadness and bitterness that she had. His big amber eyes glittered with mischief. He was always getting himself into trouble. But this time, she could not forgive him. She would always try to tell him this in her dream, but he'd always respond in the same manner. He'd tilt his head to the right and say: "Wench. I never left you." She would always be ready to snap back at him but before she could say anything, he'd disappear in a heavy mist. She'd awake, always feeling damp as if she was sweating. But she never was.

And tonight girl, there's only you and me

She took another look at Suteki. She most definitely had her personality, but she couldn't get over how much she looked like her Daddy; she could do without that characteristic in her opinion. She just had to get used to it. She had to raise her all on her own. For the rest of their lives that is how it was going to be whether they liked it or not.

~*~

I'm here without you baby but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl, there's only you and me

Inu Yasha put his guitar away. How many times had he planned to burn it? The same amount of times I dream of her. He answered to himself. He dragged his feet over to his room, collapsing, face first on his bed. No doubt he'd dream of her again; her bloodshot eyes, her compacted figure and that voice. That haunting child laughter would haunt him forever. That same laughter echoed mercilessly in his mind every time he thought of taking the easy way out. Why a child would haunt him so ruthlessly he'd never know. In a way the laughter kept going. He felt he'd never be able to rest until he knew who this child was.

`Yes… I'll find you' he thought to himself `someday… somehow…'

AN: ^-^ YAYNESS!!! FINISHED! Gawrsh… that must me the longest songfic ever written… hope I didn't bore you… lol… that was lyke… longer than the Prologue and Chapter One combined… yikes… now you see that little purple button in the corner…? PLEASE CLICK IT AND REVIEW!!!

Anifreakangel…out!