InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ No longer Breathing ❯ Backing into a wall ( Chapter 1 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

(I do not own Inuyasha and I never will.)



No longer Beating

Chapter 1
Backing into a wall

To have a reason to get up in the morning, it is necessary to posess a guiding principle. That reason for Inuyash was long past gone. Gone to where he could never reach it again. It happend so fast. One moment his father was there and the other he seemed to had disipeared like the snow on a warm spring day. Only this time the snow wasn't coming back around with the whiteness of winter. All that would come with winter would be the cold emptieness that Inuyasha now felt.
He didnt want to feel this way. He kept on trying to feel normal again but it was like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands, useless and disapointing.
Inuyasha couldnt do anything but stair up at his sealing, now blank, where the Baseball poster had been. Inuyasha hesitantly sat up in bed, knowing he would have to get up eventualy, and look around his room, now also devoid of the Baseball trophys, Awards, Highschool momentos, and the pictures of memories long past forgoten.
He lays back down and pulled the pillow over his head to block out the rays of sun peirceing through the window. He has to get up. If he doesnt do it now he's not sure if he ever will.

He hates morning. Too much to think about. Too much to do. Brush your teeth, wash your face, should he wear this or shoud he wear that.
The doctor tells him he shouldnt think so much but just live in the momment. Inuyasha would be able to do that once he got "The Liveing" part down.
He sits there for awhile and just listens. There is only silence and it dawns on him that he will no longer hear his dads wistle as he walks down stairs to get something to eat. He will never smell the bittersweatness of the newly brewed coffee or the sound of his dad running up stairs to wake him. He waits to hear his dad call to him through the door to get up but only hears the muffeled cries of his mother acrossed the hall.
He knows that he shouldnt feel sorry for himself when his mom is going through so much pain. She lost her best friend, the only man she would ever love. She no longer had her life line and she was slowly slipping into darkness and there was nothing Inuyasha could do about it.

He lay, quiet, for a long time knowing that he had to get up soon or he would miss the bus. ' I can't be late for the first day of my senior year! ' he tryed to be happy about it but i just wasnt working. Taking one last deep breath he slowly sat up and slid off the bed.
'ok im up...now what?'
He looks around the room almost feeling as if he was a stranger in some one elses bedroom.
'bathroom...yeah thats right'
he slowly shuffels to the door on the far side of "his" room. He wasnt even sure if he could call it that anymore. Walking into the bathroom, he looks at the reflection in the mirror. The news isnt good. His skin is pale and his hair now short and choppy, not his usual long black hair. His eyes no longer glowed like most people said they did. They were now just a dull amber surrounded by dark circles.
'cold water....might wake me up a bit more'
Inuyasha tiredly turned on the foset taking as much cold water into his cuped hands as he could. he slowly lowered down and dunked his face in not feeling the least bit better. Looking up again he looks at the clock on the wall through the mirror. It read 7:15.
"Shit!" he growled a little to loudly then he had wanted it to be. The bus was going to be here in 5 minutes.
'shower?...no...there's no time'
"clothes?" he wispered as if he were asking someone a question...'no time to really worry about that either....just pick something up and put it on.'
Inuyasha quickly grabed the nearest item a clothing and put it on not really careing if his underwear was on the out side or if his shirt was on backwards. All he needed to do was get outside before the bus passed. Inuyasha searched around his room looking for his books.
"Shit ! were the fuck did I put those!?!" he mubbled as he bent over to look under his bed. As he stood up he saw them on his desk. Right were he left them the night before.
'still didnt remember even though I told myself not to forget'
FORGET
Inuyasha found himself doing a lot of that lately but only things that he didnt really want to forget. Things the he did want to forget were the memories that stayed with him and would never leave.
Things that would always saden him
like the glove that now sat on his window sill

-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-Flashback-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-



"H EY DAD! LOOK WHAT I FOUND!"
"Wow thats great yash....maybe I could teach you how to throw one of those"
"Really?!?"
" Yeah...actually how about right now...im sure I have an extra glove that might fit you"
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"here you go son!"
a young Inuyasha's face brightened as he took the old tattered glove from his father and put it on.
"Like this?"
"yeah thats it...now make sure all your fingers and in the right place"
"I think I got it"
"good now I want you to catch this"
His dad said as he crossed the yard and held up a small white ball that he had found earlier.
"ok now hold your glove up and try to catch the ball ok...?
"ok dad !"
His father through the ball and Inuyasha caught it.
"Way to go son!" his dad said as he ran over and patted him on the head.
Inuyasha felt so acomplished and smiled back at his dad, his roll model, who stood high above him.


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Inuyasha now stairing out the window,his head somewere else was suddenly snaped back to reality as a streak of yellow caught his eye.
"Fuck!" He yelled as he sprinted out of his room, down stairs, and out the door right as the bus was about to drive off.
'DamitDamitDamitDamit' his mind yelled.
He jumped off of his porch to stop his only way to school and sprinted as fast as he could to get to it. banging on the side trying to get someones attention so they would tell the bus driver to stop but they did nothing but point fingers and laugh. One girl caught his eye. A girl he had never seem on his bus before. The girl had the sadest look on her face and stood up and yelled something. After that the bus slowed to a stop and opened its doors.
Inuyasha, now winded from his previouse exercises, shuffled to the door, walked up the stairs and looked up at the some what over weight bus driver who was giving him an apoligentic look.
"Sorry abou that...I didnt see you...Bur try and be at the bus stop on time ok?"
"Yeah...sure im sorry"
He only noded and signeled for him to take his seat.
Inuyasha slowly turned around and looked at all the people who had been laughing at him just momments ago with now uncofortable and nervouse looks on there faces.
he only smirked.
"Thought I wouldnt make it huh?" he said to no one in general.
He only smiled a bit as everyone looked out the window not wanting to earn to much attention for stairing.
Inuyasha's eyes scanned the bus for an empty seat and only came apon a pair of chocolate brown eyes looking up at him with an unreadable look to them. He slowly walked over not once breaking eye contact until he sat next to her.
She shifted a little.
He knew she was nervous.
"Thanks...you know for stoping the bus"
She smiled and oh it was a beautiful smile
"your welcome...Im kagome...Kagome Higurashi. I just moved here from japan"
Inuyasha only noded before he looked out the window.
"Im sorry...I must of missed your name?" he couldnt help but notice the irritation in her voice.
"No you didnt i just didnt say it" he said calmly
"hmm...ok then...nice meeting you too" 'Jerk' she thought to herself and she turned and looked out the window
Inuyasha just rolled his eyes and looked at the oppisit window acrossed the bus
'What a great way to start off the year'


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AN: ok first chapter....took me forever...I just cant think of anything to write...AHHH! I need some inspiration !