InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Nothing Left to Lose ❯ Thoughts ( Chapter 8 )

A/N: Sorry this one is a little short, way too much homework! Thank you for the review, ReMbY! I try to keep these critters in character, but sometimes they just insist on disobeying me. Maybe if I owned any of them, but I don't. I'm still coping. Very small lemon warning.

 

 

`Ah, hot, relaxing hot spring. Relax. Deep breaths. Oh, who am I kidding?'

 

Kagome's eyes flew back open as she groaned. `Sure, I could have relaxed, but that damn arrogant bastard had to ruin my soak! What's the big idea, anyways? Why on Earth had he decided that he wanted to talk while he was naked! And who knew those stripes made it all the way down his body . . .'

 

Water splashed as Kagome smacked the water, trying to get her attention back on the matter at hand. `Who cares where his stripes go? What is he trying to do? Oh, wait, I know what he's trying to do.'

 

A mouth descending onto her neck, working from her shoulder up to her jawline, kissing her fiercely and nipping just below her ear. Hot breath at her ear, “This Sesshomaru is patient.”

 

Even in the steaming hot water Kagome shivered. `This is insane. I do not love him. I would really like to knock him flat! Why do I want this?'

 

A small voice whispered to her, `It's called lust, Jo-chan.'

 

`Lust is for hentai like Miroku, not me. I am not going to start chasing men around asking if I can have their children! And you can just be quiet!'

 

Kagome ducked under the water, soaking her hair so that she could wash it. `And why didn't I just tell him to stop it? He said he would not do anything to an unwilling female, what was I thinking?! Baka, Kagome, now he's going to really be after you!'

 

`And? You don't want him to?'

 

`I told you to be quiet!' Kagome was scrubbing her hair so hard she was afraid she would go bald. `I'm not that kind of girl! I do not do things like that! Not that I've ever had a shot. I waited and waited for Inuyasha, but I never got a chance.'

 

Dunking back under the water kept her from having to follow that thought for a few minutes.

 

`Is that what this is all about? Curiosity? Am I so eager to try this `stuff' out that I'm willing to do it with someone I don't even like much?'

 

`But you saw him! Wow!'

 

`Last warning! I'm not going to listen to you! I don't care how great he looked in that towel, or that he has those cool stripes running across his stomach, and that one that disappeared under the towel.' Kagome's hands went to her face. `Even by myself I'm blushing! I wish Sango was here.'

 

Shoulders sagged as Kagome thought of her best friend. `She would know what to say to me to snap me out of this. I'm so lonely! I wonder if she's okay. She probably thinks I went home to stay this time. My note said I was going home, and that Inuyasha was gone. They won't even be looking for me. I wonder if Sesshomaru would let me try to get a message to them. Am I a prisoner?'

 

“Huh. Good question.” Kagome heard her voice echoing off of the walls and realized she really did need someone to talk to. `Boy trouble is when a girl needs her friends the most, and Sesshomaru has definitely been upgraded to boy trouble!'

 

`Okay, I'm on my own for this one. What's the plan?' Kagome pulled her feet up out of the water and studied her toes. `Huh, not helping me think. Focus, Kagome! What do I want? Not him, not Rin, just me?'

 

`I want him.'

 

`Damn. Not the answer I wanted to hear. Could I do it? Could I do stuff like, that, with someone I don't even like much?'

 

More water splashed as Kagome launched herself out of the spring. `I tried the whole love thing, it wasn't all that great. Let's try this one. What have I got to lose? No one is going to tell me no, no one here is even going to care. I won't be hurting anybody. Besides, like he said, I'm not `unwilling'.'

 

`Then why do I feel like there should be something more?'

 

The robe was on and she was in the hall before she had an answer to that one.

 

`Because that's what I want. I want the whole thing, love, romance, everything. But I'm getting too old for fairy tales. Sesshomaru is no Prince Charming, there's no romance or love there. My happy ending walked away, remember?' Kagome wiped a tear off of her cheek. `I will not cry!'

 

*~*~*~*

 

`I am a cowardly idiot.'

 

Takanou was looking up at the moon, sitting in the alcove where he had found Kagome those weeks ago. That was the first time he had blindly obeyed Sesshomaru and abandoned the ningen. He had cowered when Sesshomaru told him that he was not to touch her or befriend her. And even today he had stood to the side when Sesshomaru had snatched her off the ground and threatened her.

 

`And now he will court her. She has no idea what is going to happen, she has no friends, and Sesshomaru will care not for her feelings. He only wants to break her. No allies, no companions other then a little girl, she is completely on her own. And you dare to call yourself her friend. What kind of a friend will stand by and let that bastard hurt her? You know he will.'

 

A groan escaped the healer as he remembered her injuries from the first encounter. The second encounter had not been any less violent, and today's encounter held the threat for more than physical violence. `He will break her spirit, then become bored and throw her away. She will be a shell of what she was.'

 

`And will I stand by and just let this happen?'

 

`I cannot challenge Sesshomaru. He is a great warrior, a youkai lord, while I am a healer. While I come from a family of great warriors I cannot face him. He would kill me.'

 

Takanou climbed to his hooves, staring up at the moon and stars. `How can I save her? Do I dare talk to her, tell her how I feel? Maybe if she feels as though she has a friend she will be able to refuse him. He would not force himself on a female, I do not think. But a lonely female, she would have a hard time refusing one such as him.'

 

`Yes, I should talk to her. It will be difficult, Sesshomaru watches her every move, but there must be a way. Maybe I could help her to escape! She is a prisoner here, brought here against her will. She would be very grateful if I was able to help her escape. Perhaps it would be enough to make up for my cowardice.'

 

Feeling stronger with a plan in mind, Takanou returned to his rooms in the palace. `Tomorrow. Tomorrow I will find a way to let Kagome know of my feelings.'

 

*~*~*~*

 

Laying back on his bed, Sesshomaru remembered his encounter with the miko, Kagome.

 

`An innocent. I would have never suspected. She had seemed naïve, but I thought it was an act. It seems that she and that hanyou never had a relationship. I am surprised, after all of the time spent together and his concern for her. Stupid hanyou..'

 

Sesshomaru paused, a new thought occurring to him. `I have never been with an innocent. All of my partners have been well educated, skilled even. This will need to be approached differently. She is very nervous about being near me, much less touching me.'

 

A groan escaped the youkai as he remembered his own words. `This Sesshomaru is patient.'

 

`But is he that patient.'

 

`I mean the ningen no harm, but she is fragile and unsure. This will be a greater test of self control then avoiding her entirely. Is this how humans court? Slowly and carefully? It must not be, or there would not be so many of them! At the pace that this female would set she would die of old age without offspring.'

 

Thoughts wandered back to the conversation held that night. `She tastes like honey with spice. She may have been uncertain, but she smelled of arousal. Her body is very willing, even if her mind will need convincing. Perhaps the body will help the mind to follow through on these urges.'

 

New images were filtering into Sesshomaru's mind as he drifted into sleep.

 

Kagome was dressed in a simple robe, walking into her room. She stretched, the moonlight illuminating her figure as she made her way to the bed. Untying her sash, she let the robe slip from her body to puddle around her feet. Unaware that she was being watched, Kagome gazed out the window, staring at the moon and stars. Her slightly damp hair swung down her back and covered her breasts, shining in the moonlight. In the cold air her nipples had hardened, attracting her observer's eye.

 

Sleepy, the young woman returned to her bed, sliding across the top of the blankets. Stretched out on her back, Kagome's hands wandered listlessly over her body. She ran her hands over her breasts, running her thumbs over her hardened nipples. A hint of a smile appeared on her face, a memory bringing her enjoyment. The smell of arousal was in the air and her hands became more insistent, running over her body. Her eyes were closed, her mouth parted as her breathing became faster.

 

A new pair of hands were running up her body, and she welcomed them. His mouth descended onto hers, stroking her tongue with his. He caught her hands, pulling them up over her head and giving him an unobstructed view of her luscious body. Eyes dark with lust, he gazed at her body. His mouth moved from her mouth down her throat, nipping and kissing his way down to her breasts. One hardened nipple was pulled into his mouth, making her body jump and moan. While one hand held her hands, the other worked her other breast, making her pant. “Please!”

 

A smile appeared on his face at her pleas. His mouth worked lower, stopping at her navel to run his tongue across her stomach. He could feel her shiver beneath him, her body tight with longing. His mouth traveled lower, brushing down to her thigh. He kissed and nipped at the inside of her thigh, nudging her legs apart. He lowered his mouth to her center, inhaling the sweet scent of her. She shook around him, moaning in pleasure as he flicked his tongue and teased her. Gasping her pleasure, she grabbed his hair, pulling his face to hers. “Now, please!”

 

He lowered his body over hers, pressing against her.

 

“Sesshomaru-sama, where is the cat? Rin cannot find the cat. Maybe it has the toy already.”

 

Sesshomaru jerked awake at the sound of the innocent voice at his door. The door was closed, and Rin was moving down the hall. `Sleepwalking again.' He stifled a groan. `It will be most difficult to go to sleep now.'

*~*~*~*

“Do you think she will come back, Miroku?”

 

“I do not know, Sango. She was very upset about Inuyasha, I am sure.”

 

Sango was pacing around the cottage where she and Miroku had been staying while they recovered. “Maybe we could check on her.”

 

“We cannot go through the well, you know that.” Miroku put his arm across her shoulders. “I would not worry about Kagome-sama. She needs some time alone, to think things through. I am sure she will come back to see us when she is ready.”

 

“Maybe she talked to Kaedae. If we went to see her, maybe we could find out what her plans were!”

 

Miroku knew when to back down. “Yes, she might at that. Are you strong enough for that journey?”

 

“Of course, we'll leave tomorrow.”

 

“Ah, then we have the night together, my lovely.”

 

A familiar hand was on Sango's bottom. “Hentai!” The smack could be heard three cottages down as Miroku was reminded of his manners.