InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ One Final Time ❯ Chapter 1
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By: Inusgirl189 
I chose to end all my pain and suffering.
One final time, i shall see my love and as I close my eyes and breath one last time, promise me you wont forget me
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.30.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 1.7K | Visits: 563 | Status: Completed
I chose to end all my pain and suffering.
One final time, i shall see my love and as I close my eyes and breath one last time, promise me you wont forget me
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 12.30.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 1.7K | Visits: 563 | Status: Completed
One Final Time
Summary: I chose to end all my pain and suffering.
One final time, i shall see my love and as I close my eyes and breath one last time, promise me you wont forget me.
Rating R
Lyrics by Evanescence:Missing
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<Please please forgive me
But I won't be home again>
I climb out of the well. I am so sick of coming here only to be hurt by him.
He knows I love him so why must he do this? Oh right he doesn't know I love him. Cuz he's to busy loving that bitch Kikyo.
But hey after today he will remember me.
<Maybe someday you?ll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you?ll say to no one:
"isn?t something missing?>
Today I plan to go back and act like i usualy do.
I feel bad I mean noone knows I have been hiding my pain from them
Shippoe knows only because he sensed it. InuYasha of course is oblivious.
Not that I have to worry about you being hurt after this. I promise you will never hurt me again.
<You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.>
Finally, after that annoying walk I reach the hut.
Time to put on a fake smile, fake laugh and fake cheery attitude,.
Damnit I didn't realize I had become so fake lately.
I reach the entrance and as usual InuYasha is pissed
"Damnit wench where have you been?"
"Sorry I took so long I didn't realize the time" I say as cheerily as possible
"Damnit you are so pathetic. "
<Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?>
"I'm sorry" I say sarcastically
Apparently Sango and Miroku are the only one who caught that sarcasm,
"It's good to have you back Kagome" Miroku says changing the subject
"Arigotu Miroku-sama, atleast someone misses me"
I added that last part to annoy him.
< Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me?>
"Uhh Kagome wanna help me gather fire wood?" Sango asks hastely
trying to keep me from yelling at the hanyou
"Hai sure" I say walking away
As soon as we're out of sight and range to be heard she questions me
"Kagome are you ok?"
"Huh yea sure why?" I lied again...I hate lying to my friends
"Stop lying ...I can see straight through that act and I have been for some time now ..tell me whats bothering you"
"InuYasha ...and Kikyo were at the tree....our tree..well InuYasha and mine that is.....they were there...making out ....Kikyo ....and InuYasha ...I can't believe it...He promised me....and lied..." I began sobbing again.
"Ohh Kagome...I'm so sorry I thought he had stopped"
"Well he hasn't and what hurts is that...I loved him soo damn much"
"Loved....?"
"Ok I still do..."
"So whats your plan?"
"You are way to observant" I laugh
"Yea well ..."
I pull out my knife..and hand it to her
"Killing Kikyo won't help"
"I never thought of that...." she looks at me like 'you liar' so I continue
"Ok I thought about it but that isn't my plan"
"Well then you actually want to kill InuYasha?"
"Sango...myself" I'd figure she would have allready known
"kagome ..no"
"Listen I have to "
<Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?>
"Kagome please don't...think about your friends"
"I have and this is the only way to end my pain.
I know I'd never stop coming here so this is all"
Sango began crying and hugged me
"Sango please don't cry"
"Kagome please don't commit suicide"
"I can't"
"Me either"
< Please, please forgive me,
But I won?t be home again.>
We walked back to camp and set the fire wood down.
There was an eerie silence. Sango was still moping and I was still
hurting. InuYasha looked at me for a moment.
Miroku ran over to Sango and pulled her away.
I saw him ask what was wrong.Sango looked at me, I looked back
basically telling her she could tell.
I saw her tell him. She fell out in tears again. Miroku gave me a sympathetic look and walked over to me after comforting his love.
He pulled me away .I saw InuYasha get a furriated 'what the hell have i missed 'look.
Miroku pulled me aside and questioned me like sango had.
<I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me? ">
"Kagome I thought you were stronger then that"
"I thought I was too" I almost begin crying.
"Kagome ..why?" he looks so pained the way I wish InuYasha would.
"I can't take ot any more." here come the tears. I wrap my arms around me and try to comfort myself before dying.
"All the time he cheats on me.....and then says I love you ..and leaves
and then...I gave up everything for him and he won't even get rid of her"
I fell out in tears.
Miroku wrapped his arms around me, and rubs my back to calm me. this time there are no lecherous acts because he knows I'm hurting.
<Even though I?d be sacrificed,
You won?t try for me, not now.
Though I?d die to know you love me,
I?m all alone.>
"Kagome please don't I promise everything will be ok"
"How can you make it ok?"
"I don't know....I'll find away"
"Miroku ... I'm sorry.., but its something I have to do"
"I'll pray for your soul afterwords I promise"
"Arigotu"
I walk away. back to the warmth of the camp fire.
"KAGOME " InuYasha yelled while grabbing me up
He carried me to another spot.
I look at Sango .she understood that this was it,
"Kagome...what was all that about?" he questioned
"You took me out here to ask me what this was about?"
He sat me on a tree branch.
"yes....so what were you three talking about?"
"It's nothing"
"It's something otherwise you wouldn't have that gloomy scent"
"None of your business"
"Tell me" he growled
I shook my head
"Damnit tell me"
"OSUW..."
he slammed his and over my mouth
"Don't you finish that word...now tell me whats wrong "
Before I could say anything Kikyo's soul collectors came
"She's calling you InuYasha..go"
"But..."
"GO"
Before I knew it he was off.
And I jumped from limb to limb till I hit the ground.
I ran as far as I could.And I ran towards the well wich was around 7 miles away so I settle for the nearest clearing.
I sit by the brach and pull out my knife.
for once Kouga doesn't show up to stop me from doing something he'll regret. allthough he stopped coming when InuYasha made me his mate.
But InuYasha cheated and I never thought of that until now...
Any way my knife is out and I slash my arm
Warm crimson flows .
<And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.>
I continue slashing. The pain brings me such comfort oddly.
Blood is covering my arms.
So I turn to my smooth un-cut legs.
I take my blade and run in down my thigh and to my ankle.
It hurts so bad but not nearly as bad as what he did to me.
I sit and watch the blood flow.
I suddenly feel tired and shaky and I can't move.
<And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,>
I finally drift into my neverending sleep.
I hear one last thing before my final breath
"KAGOME...."
"Inu--Yasha ...promise me...you won't ...forget me"
"Kagome..what did you do...? why did you do this..."
"Because.... I had .....to love..... you...."
<Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t something...>
"Kagome...I love you...please..."
But it was too late I could feel that I had allready died.
<Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.>
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A/N hey hope ya liked it ya know the drill
R/R
Summary: I chose to end all my pain and suffering.
One final time, i shall see my love and as I close my eyes and breath one last time, promise me you wont forget me.
Rating R
Lyrics by Evanescence:Missing
><><><><><><><><>< ><><
<Please please forgive me
But I won't be home again>
I climb out of the well. I am so sick of coming here only to be hurt by him.
He knows I love him so why must he do this? Oh right he doesn't know I love him. Cuz he's to busy loving that bitch Kikyo.
But hey after today he will remember me.
<Maybe someday you?ll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you?ll say to no one:
"isn?t something missing?>
Today I plan to go back and act like i usualy do.
I feel bad I mean noone knows I have been hiding my pain from them
Shippoe knows only because he sensed it. InuYasha of course is oblivious.
Not that I have to worry about you being hurt after this. I promise you will never hurt me again.
<You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.>
Finally, after that annoying walk I reach the hut.
Time to put on a fake smile, fake laugh and fake cheery attitude,.
Damnit I didn't realize I had become so fake lately.
I reach the entrance and as usual InuYasha is pissed
"Damnit wench where have you been?"
"Sorry I took so long I didn't realize the time" I say as cheerily as possible
"Damnit you are so pathetic. "
<Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?>
"I'm sorry" I say sarcastically
Apparently Sango and Miroku are the only one who caught that sarcasm,
"It's good to have you back Kagome" Miroku says changing the subject
"Arigotu Miroku-sama, atleast someone misses me"
I added that last part to annoy him.
< Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me?>
"Uhh Kagome wanna help me gather fire wood?" Sango asks hastely
trying to keep me from yelling at the hanyou
"Hai sure" I say walking away
As soon as we're out of sight and range to be heard she questions me
"Kagome are you ok?"
"Huh yea sure why?" I lied again...I hate lying to my friends
"Stop lying ...I can see straight through that act and I have been for some time now ..tell me whats bothering you"
"InuYasha ...and Kikyo were at the tree....our tree..well InuYasha and mine that is.....they were there...making out ....Kikyo ....and InuYasha ...I can't believe it...He promised me....and lied..." I began sobbing again.
"Ohh Kagome...I'm so sorry I thought he had stopped"
"Well he hasn't and what hurts is that...I loved him soo damn much"
"Loved....?"
"Ok I still do..."
"So whats your plan?"
"You are way to observant" I laugh
"Yea well ..."
I pull out my knife..and hand it to her
"Killing Kikyo won't help"
"I never thought of that...." she looks at me like 'you liar' so I continue
"Ok I thought about it but that isn't my plan"
"Well then you actually want to kill InuYasha?"
"Sango...myself" I'd figure she would have allready known
"kagome ..no"
"Listen I have to "
<Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?>
"Kagome please don't...think about your friends"
"I have and this is the only way to end my pain.
I know I'd never stop coming here so this is all"
Sango began crying and hugged me
"Sango please don't cry"
"Kagome please don't commit suicide"
"I can't"
"Me either"
< Please, please forgive me,
But I won?t be home again.>
We walked back to camp and set the fire wood down.
There was an eerie silence. Sango was still moping and I was still
hurting. InuYasha looked at me for a moment.
Miroku ran over to Sango and pulled her away.
I saw him ask what was wrong.Sango looked at me, I looked back
basically telling her she could tell.
I saw her tell him. She fell out in tears again. Miroku gave me a sympathetic look and walked over to me after comforting his love.
He pulled me away .I saw InuYasha get a furriated 'what the hell have i missed 'look.
Miroku pulled me aside and questioned me like sango had.
<I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out:
"isn?t something missing?
Isn?t someone missing me? ">
"Kagome I thought you were stronger then that"
"I thought I was too" I almost begin crying.
"Kagome ..why?" he looks so pained the way I wish InuYasha would.
"I can't take ot any more." here come the tears. I wrap my arms around me and try to comfort myself before dying.
"All the time he cheats on me.....and then says I love you ..and leaves
and then...I gave up everything for him and he won't even get rid of her"
I fell out in tears.
Miroku wrapped his arms around me, and rubs my back to calm me. this time there are no lecherous acts because he knows I'm hurting.
<Even though I?d be sacrificed,
You won?t try for me, not now.
Though I?d die to know you love me,
I?m all alone.>
"Kagome please don't I promise everything will be ok"
"How can you make it ok?"
"I don't know....I'll find away"
"Miroku ... I'm sorry.., but its something I have to do"
"I'll pray for your soul afterwords I promise"
"Arigotu"
I walk away. back to the warmth of the camp fire.
"KAGOME " InuYasha yelled while grabbing me up
He carried me to another spot.
I look at Sango .she understood that this was it,
"Kagome...what was all that about?" he questioned
"You took me out here to ask me what this was about?"
He sat me on a tree branch.
"yes....so what were you three talking about?"
"It's nothing"
"It's something otherwise you wouldn't have that gloomy scent"
"None of your business"
"Tell me" he growled
I shook my head
"Damnit tell me"
"OSUW..."
he slammed his and over my mouth
"Don't you finish that word...now tell me whats wrong "
Before I could say anything Kikyo's soul collectors came
"She's calling you InuYasha..go"
"But..."
"GO"
Before I knew it he was off.
And I jumped from limb to limb till I hit the ground.
I ran as far as I could.And I ran towards the well wich was around 7 miles away so I settle for the nearest clearing.
I sit by the brach and pull out my knife.
for once Kouga doesn't show up to stop me from doing something he'll regret. allthough he stopped coming when InuYasha made me his mate.
But InuYasha cheated and I never thought of that until now...
Any way my knife is out and I slash my arm
Warm crimson flows .
<And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.>
I continue slashing. The pain brings me such comfort oddly.
Blood is covering my arms.
So I turn to my smooth un-cut legs.
I take my blade and run in down my thigh and to my ankle.
It hurts so bad but not nearly as bad as what he did to me.
I sit and watch the blood flow.
I suddenly feel tired and shaky and I can't move.
<And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,>
I finally drift into my neverending sleep.
I hear one last thing before my final breath
"KAGOME...."
"Inu--Yasha ...promise me...you won't ...forget me"
"Kagome..what did you do...? why did you do this..."
"Because.... I had .....to love..... you...."
<Isn?t something missing?
Isn?t something...>
"Kagome...I love you...please..."
But it was too late I could feel that I had allready died.
<Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.>
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A/N hey hope ya liked it ya know the drill
R/R