InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Passionate Disputes ❯ Inu Yasha's Thoughts & Sharing Secrets ( Chapter 1 )

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Passionate Disputes

 

By MelMuff

 

Chapter #1: InuYasha's Thoughts & Sharing Secrets

 

Disclaimer & Author's Notes: I don't own InuYasha although I wish I did since he looks so hot. *Drools* A girl can dream, can't she? Anyway, this is my first InuYasha fan fic. I fell in love with the show back in January 2004 when I finally watched some episodes that a friend taped for me to see since I have neither cable nor a satellite dish. All my life, I've been stuck using an antenna. But I don't mind. I'm used to it. Anyway, InuYasha was a show that they somewhat liked and thought that I'd be interested checking out the show myself. I regret not watching InuYasha sooner because since early December 2003 I could have watched the episodes but I was too lazy to watch them until near the end of January. Anyway, also after reading tons of fan fiction online, that fueled my passion for InuYasha even more. So finally, I was inspired to write my own InuYasha fan fic. At first, I planned it to be a one shot fic but afterwards I changed my mind and decided to make it longer instead. The pairing for this fic are Kagome and InuYasha. It is going to be a lemon and it will contain course language. This chapter is not hentai however. Any lemons will come later in upcoming chapters. I hope that everyone who reads my fan fic will enjoy it. This is my second attempt at a writing lemon but I never did complete my first one yet, which was based on a video game called Final Fantasy 8, so this is the first lemon that I've actually completed so please be kind and enjoy. Ja ne!


InuYasha and the gang have finally beaten Naraku and also completed in gathering all the shards to form the Shikon jewel once again. Now the gang is walking back to the Bone Eater's well to see Kagome off while she goes back home. After hours of walking, night descends upon the group forcing them to break for the night. InuYasha goes off by himself to sit up in a tree to guard everyone from unexpected intruders while they are sleeping. Now that the jewel is complete many more monsters may be after it.

While he's up there, he has a lot of time to think to himself and starts to reflect upon things about his life. 'Man! Can my life get any more complicated than it already is? But most importantly, we finally defeated that bastard, Naraku, not too long ago and we've finally gotten all the shards back together to once again form the Shikon jewel.' InuYasha snickers. 'Now all I have to do is steal it from Kagome so I can finally become a full blooded demon.' InuYasha grins evilly then his face softens into a sad expression. 'Humph! Well that is what I wanted at first but after all this time I've spent with everyone...no...with Kagome especially, my feelings have changed because of her. I wouldn't be who I am today if it weren't for her. She helped set things in perspective for me. Humph! I'll never admit that to her though. It'd never would work out between us anyway. There's just too many factors to take into consideration. First of all, we live in two different eras. One of us would have to make a sacrifice in which era to live in. I would never force her to make that decision. Never! Never ever! Secondly, there's the fact that I'm half demon and, if I ever turn into a full-blooded demon again, I could hurt her or even worse kill her unintentionally. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I ever harmed her in any way. And third is Kikyo. I am over Kikyo. I fully understand that we were never meant to be. She is and always will be part of my past. Kagome is my future. Well at least I want her to be. I wanna hold her in my arms forever and never let her go. Kiss her fully on those beautiful lips of hers and all over her face too. I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with her but it may never be. And she still thinks that I would prefer Kikyo over her any day.' He growls. 'Never! I would choose her over Kikyo in the end. Kikyo was my first love so I will sort of always have feelings for her but I've dealt with them and put them behind me. I really don't regret the love I had with Kikyo but it was never meant to be. I finally understand that now. And we never even trusted each other completely which got her killed in the end. At least, Kagome has always been there for me and trusts me. Well, I'm going to start trusting her fully too. After all, it's the least she deserves. And after all this fiasco with Naraku and Kikyo, I met Kagome in the end because of it which I don't regret either. I'm so glad that I've met Kagome. And I don't love her alone for the fact that she Kikyo's reincarnation. There's a little bit of truth to that fact but I really do see Kagome as a whole different person than Kikyo ever was and I love her for it. In the end, Kikyo is really dead now so I now have a chance to be with Kagome. And finally, what about Koga? If I really do want Kagome as my mate, I've gotta act soon before he claims her.'

Suddenly an astonishing thought crosses InuYasha's mind and he growls. 'He might even be capable of taking her against her own will. I would never let him hurt her as long as I live. I would die for her. That's how much I love Kagome. I know she loves me too but is she really ready to make that kind of commitment. That's why this is so complicated and serious and she doesn't understand any of it. She's already drives me nuts when she goes into heat and each and every time it's pure torture for me because I can't touch her the way I really want to. And she'll be going into heat soon too. At least this time I'll have a break since she's going home for a while.' InuYasha shakes his head in disgust. 'Ugh! I gotta stop thinking like Miroku. I'm not a pervert and a womanizer like him. I respect Kagome and her feelings too. She's changed me in so many ways. I'm so grateful to her. I'm so glad she entered my life. But I still can't be with her. I'm just too afraid that she may reject me even if she does love me. Human and demon relations! Humph! Maybe it worked out for my parents but that doesn't mean that it'll work with us. Arg! I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm so confused.' Suddenly, InuYasha is interrupted from his thoughts as Kagome walks up to him calling his name.

"InuYasha!"

His ears perk up at the sound of whoever is calling his name. He folds his arms across his chest and turns towards Kagome. "Yeah! What do you want?"

"I know it's really late but I'm having trouble sleeping."

"So! Why does that concern me wench?"

'Why that arrogant bastard! I would sit him for that if not for everyone sleeping and I surely do not want to wake everyone up.' "InuYasha, I just felt like taking a walk to clear my head and wondered if you wanna come with me to protect me. Well do you?"

InuYasha's heart swells up with joy when Kagome mentions for him to protect her. 'But I don't want to let on that that's how I really feel. I better act like my usual self.' InuYasha's shouts, "WHAT??? You wanna take a walk this late at night?"

"Please, keep your voice down! Or do you wanna wake everyone up? Yes, I do want to take a walk. Now are you coming or not?"

"Fine wench!"

"Good! And while we're at it, we can talk too. I really need to tell you something important." At the sound of that, he suddenly became very nervous. Kagome turns around and heads off into the forest with a very flustered InuYasha trailing not so far behind her. As they walk, she comments on what a beautiful night it is and he agrees with her still pondering about what she wants to tell him.

"So what do you want to tell me?" he asks nervously.

"Well as you know our mission is finally completed and it's time for me to go home for a while. But don't worry, I'll definitely come back real soon." InuYasha is glad to hear that. "Even though we've finally defeated Naraku, I still don't think that will stop me from coming back to the past to visit you guys. I'm still look forward to having more adventures with all of you."

"Yeah! But Kagome, don't forget that many other demons will still be after the jewel and it's the only way you can transport yourself through the well."

"I know that silly. We'll just all have to try extra hard to protect it. You'll help me of course to do that, won't you?"

"Of...of course," he stammers.

"But what about your desire to become a full-blooded demon?"

"People change Kagome. On a few occasions, I experienced what it was like to be a full-blooded demon. Truthfully, it really terrified me. I didn't enjoy it much like I thought I would. I really thought that I could hurt you and I would never be able to live with myself afterwards if I ever harmed you in any way."

"Oh InuYasha! That's so sweet of you to say."

InuYasha blushes. "I really meant what I said. People change and I have because of you."

Kagome giggles. "What? I changed you? Now I find that hard to believe."

"Well you did. Not all alone though. The others helped too as well as and our adventures but mostly it is because of you."

"I'm a bit surprised to hear that but I'm sure glad that I could help." Kagome kisses InuYasha on the cheek while he blushes even more then before. Then he puts his hand to his cheek and smiles back at Kagome. She returns the smile with equal passion and asks, "So after we get back to the well, what are you gonna do afterwards?"

"I'm not sure. I haven't decided yet."

"Oh!" Kagome sighs in disappointment.

"Anyway, we better get back to camp. Is there anything else you wanted to tell me?"

"Nope," Kagome responds almost cheerfully. Suddenly InuYasha grabs Kagome's hand, shocking the wits out of her. But then they both smile genuinely at each other and walk hand in hand back to camp.



Date: Mon. Feb 9/04