InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Petals in the Wind ❯ Quartus: Flashbacks ( Chapter 4 )
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By: Odi et amo 
Rin has a series of flashbacks that have nothing to do with her lost past.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 06.03.2006 | Updated On: 07.18.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 357 | Status: Work In Progress
Rin has a series of flashbacks that have nothing to do with her lost past.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Psychological / Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 06.03.2006 | Updated On: 07.18.2006 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 357 | Status: Work In Progress
Two hours later Rin sat curled up into a ball and staring at the pacing Taiyoukai Lord of the Western lands, where ever those were. The little green taod thing had apparently healed from its encounter with the boulder, and was now staring at her like she was some freak of nature. The huge dragon on the other hand, had pranced up to her upon arrival and licked her face. It had been a really awkward moment for her, but somehow it had been natural. Like having dragons lick her face was something that happened often, although Rin was fairly positive that she had never seen a dragon in her life, let alone had been licked by one.
She wasn't sure that it hadn't happened before though, just as she couldn't state with entire honesty that she had never ment "Sesshomaru-sama" in her entire life. After all, she was missing some valuable memories of her past, such as how he knew her name, who her parents were, and how she had become comfortable with dragons licking her face then proceeding on to curling up against her when she sat down.
Not that the curling wasn't nice. In fact, the heat from the beast had quite warmed her and her hair was no longer as wet as it had been. She had much to be thankful for.
Her largest thanks went to her thoughts being entirely wrong upon being tackled by him while nude. It was bad enough that the first man to ever see her unclothed self was a youkai, but it would have been one hundred times worse if she had been right about the circumstances. After all, not only was he a demon (Her brothers said demons were BAD), but he was also a complete stranger to her although she still had her doubts that he wasn't a stranger. If he was a complete stranger then how the hell had he known her name when he coudn't read minds?
She had already tested him on that regard.
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Flashback
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*Oh, to be fully clothed again is a marvelous thing* Rin sang happily in her mind. She wasn't sure how she had done it, but at least he was no longer on top of her naked self.
She was now trudging behind him wearily, her supplies caught up in one of his clawed hands. It was if he knew that she wouldn't run away with the rest of her clothes, her personal effects, and the food. Which automatically made her train of thought veer directly into the mind reader thing again. Suddenly curious she ran up beside him.
"How did you know my name?" She queried, hoping against all hopes that he wasn't really a mind reader. If he was then he would know that about twenty minutes ago, while getting dressed, she had suddenly thought of the fact that that would probably be the only time in her life that she would see a fully unclothed man, and, youkai or not, she should have taken advantage of the opportunity. Curse it! Now she would spend eternity never knowing!
She gazed up at him hopefully and almost squealed with a combination of joy and dismay when he answered.
"I was your guardian when you were little."
Well that certainly wasn't the answer she expected. But that would explain how he knew her name. Then again, if he was her guardian then how was it that she was sold by a slave trader into a brothel only to end up fortunate enough to be adopted? Demons were supposed to be very protective of what was theirs and a ward is undeniably something you're supposed to protect. One of her eyes narrowed in confusion and sudden wariness.
"How was I taken away from you if you were supposed to be my guardian? You are a dog demon right? Dogs are supposed to be loyal and protective and all that good stuff." A sudden thought popped up in her mind. "And how did I end up being your ward anyway? Did my family die and leave me to you or did you kill them and spare me?" Her imagination becan to go as wild as it had been going at the waters edge. Mild hysteria and anger began to sound in her voice as she started throwing out a ton of false accusations.
"Oh my God! You killed them didn't you? You killed them so you could get to me! For what purpose!!! Oh God! I bet you're the reason I don't rememeber my past! You did things to me didn't you!!!! Are you the reason I have scars on my wrists and ankles!!!! What about the bite marks on my neck? Demons leave bite marks there when they mate, especially the animal types!!!!"
She began hyperventilating.
"Are we mated? Did you and I...When I was only a child did you and I...? Tell me now or I swear I won't be responsible for my actions! Am I your bitch!?!?!?!"
At this point Sesshomaru stopped and stared at her in shock. What was wrong with her? Had spending a few years around humans caused her to be as small-minded and idiotic as they were? Never mind the fact that she herself was human, Rin had always been different from them. But now he was having his doubts. Now that they were further away from the water his senses had already confirmed it was really her, but what was wrong with her? Calmly and slowly he began to answer her.
"No, we are not mated and neither did I kill your parents."
Satisfied that he had defended his honor he began to walk away again, only to stop and turn to look at her.
"Show me your wrists." He commanded her. He was mildly suprised when she obeyed him right away, rolling up her sleeves so that he could see the scars on them. He knew what they were the moment he saw them.
"Shackles. Probably iron."
Then they were back to walking towards the small camp he was sure Jaken had made for them. Rin was no longer panicking about being mated to a demon since she was a child, seeing as it hadn't happened, and a little more calm. She started following him again, this time silent.
She still didn't know how he came to be her guardian, but now she didn't doubt his word. He came across as the honest sort although that didn't suprise her. He hadn't lied when he said his designs on her weren't sexual.
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End Flashback
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Rin laughed softly to herself in embarrassment as she remembered when she had found that out. Boy she felt foolish over even believing that he was going to rape her.
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Flashback
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She was going to be raped.
Those were her last thoughts before the most shocking thing in the world happened to her. Instead of going right ahead and having his way with her he pulled her up to a standing position, whirled her around, and locked her hands behind her back with one clawed hand. She closed her eyes in humiliation.
So it was going to be a behind job was it?
Well, at least her most important virginity wasn't going to be taken, although this was undeniably just as awful. Unless he could take her actual virginity this way. But that was impossible. Men were supposed to be on top, and he was behind her. Not to mention they were both standing. People couldn't do that standing, could they?
Suddenly death seemed like a really nice idea.
"Walk."
His voice came seemingly out of nowhere and she jumped, her eyes snapping open.
"Please Mr...um...Sesshomaru-sama I would really appreciate it if you don't rape me. You see, without my virginity I can't ever hope to marry and that would be really bad. Especially since unmarried woman are forced to become whores and I don't think I'm cut out for making my living on my back. I don't think I could take it. So please, oh please, oh please could you not rape me? I don't want to get raped!"
She was rambling. She was walking and she was rambling and she knew she sounded desperate but she really was. She hadn't mentioned that being raped by a demon might not make her into a whore since she would be too dirty for anyone to evertouch again, but she didn't want to mention that she could easily starve to death without any honor. Women had a really tough time etching out a living on their own and she was too old to train as a priestess. And demon slayers just ticked her off for some reason so that was out of the question entirely.
What she wasn't aware of during her ramble was that she had made Sesshomaru not only extremely uncomfortable, but also extremely aware that not only was she an adult female, she was also a very nude, very curvy adult female. And thoughts like that were bad because he had raised her for a portion of her life and he was also her guardian, regardless of not seeing her for years.
With an extreme force of will he squashed down the sudden fascination with her hips and scent, and let out a soft sigh.
"This Sesshomaru does not need to rape young women."
There, honor satisfied, thoughs almost entirely banished, and arrogance restored. She gave a little eep.
"Thank you so much." She said on a sigh, then abruptly got offended. "What do you mean you don't need to rape women? You're a demon aren't you? Don't demons never see any action unless they rape something?"
He actually rolled his eyes this time, grateful that she couldn't see it. What a crude turn of phrase and what a horrible suggestion about demons in general.
"This Sesshomaru finds many willing so therefore rape is not necessary, nor would it be honorable."
"Wait...so the reason I'm not getting raped is because your basically some kind of demon sex god who has demon and human women practically falling at his feet in hopes of being ravished by you? I don't believe that. There is no way. Demon sex gods should be all...sexy looking, and you look more like some heartless son of a..."
A snort of restrained laughter escaped him when she stopped her tirade. Technically, being the son of a bitch was a compliment, seeing as his mother had been a dog demoness of a small clan. She was, in all actuality, a bitch. She was the bitch of a powerful demon lord and a highly respected one at that. It was only in the human realm that being a bitch was a bad thing. The old Rin would have went ahead with what she was saying if she had even known that word. The irony was not lost on him, and neither was the insult about him not being sexy.
Her clothes and supplies were suddenly on the ground in front of them and realeased her with the order to get dressed. She did so gratefully, careful to keep her back to him and entirely oblivious to the fact that he had turned around so he wouldn't have to watch her bend over. In his society that would be a clear invitation and he didn't trust himself to not take up the offer and prove to her just how godlike he really was. But those were bad thoughts, and he mentally shook them away, hoping they would stop returning.
Damn her and the talk of rape and sex and willingness.
Bad thoughts....grr....
Rin was not stupid enough to try and run away this time, and her interest was caught anyways. He wasn't going to rape her, he knew her name for some odd, magical reason, and he obviously wasn't going to kill her. Life was good.
She turned around with a big relieved smile.
"Done!"
He turned barely, more looking over his shoulder than anything. Suddenly he was the only naked one here and while she still wasn't looking down, he was still at a severe disadvantage. She was clothed now after all.
"Lets go." He said, and they went.
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End Flashback
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Rin watched as he came over to her. He was blessedly enough, fully clothed now. He had gotten dressed the moment they arrived back at the river, then had practically forced her to go to his camp with her.
He sat down next to her with a soft rustling of the grass, and placed his hands in his sleeves while looking at her. During the time it had took to walk back to camp, decide to never again think of the bad thoughts or her being nude and bent over, let her eat some more, he had come to a very important decision regarding the future. Until she was eighteen she was still his ward. Sesshomaru was no fool. He knew she was still seventeen.
Sesshomaru decided that she was going to stay with him on that basis, as well as the basis that she had lost her memory and there was no logical way anyone could forget meeting him. He wanted to make her remember him. He also wanted to know about the last ten years of her life. She was his. He had saved her life numerous times along with the whole back from the dead thing, so she owed him that much. She owed him more to tell the truth.
He opened his mouth to speak but she beat him to it.
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Mmmyeah......cliffhanger ish thing. Anyways, as promised the chapters are getting longer. So just for that I deserve a review so you can tell me what you think or what I did wrong and stuff! I know there are probably tons of mistakes considering I don't have spellcheck or grammer check on my computer and I never read over to see what I did wrong, so you should tell me!
I apologize if they seem to switch character at this point. Lets keep in mind that people tend to be more reticent when butt naked. They relalx more with clothes on. So yeah....
She wasn't sure that it hadn't happened before though, just as she couldn't state with entire honesty that she had never ment "Sesshomaru-sama" in her entire life. After all, she was missing some valuable memories of her past, such as how he knew her name, who her parents were, and how she had become comfortable with dragons licking her face then proceeding on to curling up against her when she sat down.
Not that the curling wasn't nice. In fact, the heat from the beast had quite warmed her and her hair was no longer as wet as it had been. She had much to be thankful for.
Her largest thanks went to her thoughts being entirely wrong upon being tackled by him while nude. It was bad enough that the first man to ever see her unclothed self was a youkai, but it would have been one hundred times worse if she had been right about the circumstances. After all, not only was he a demon (Her brothers said demons were BAD), but he was also a complete stranger to her although she still had her doubts that he wasn't a stranger. If he was a complete stranger then how the hell had he known her name when he coudn't read minds?
She had already tested him on that regard.
oooooooooo
Flashback
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*Oh, to be fully clothed again is a marvelous thing* Rin sang happily in her mind. She wasn't sure how she had done it, but at least he was no longer on top of her naked self.
She was now trudging behind him wearily, her supplies caught up in one of his clawed hands. It was if he knew that she wouldn't run away with the rest of her clothes, her personal effects, and the food. Which automatically made her train of thought veer directly into the mind reader thing again. Suddenly curious she ran up beside him.
"How did you know my name?" She queried, hoping against all hopes that he wasn't really a mind reader. If he was then he would know that about twenty minutes ago, while getting dressed, she had suddenly thought of the fact that that would probably be the only time in her life that she would see a fully unclothed man, and, youkai or not, she should have taken advantage of the opportunity. Curse it! Now she would spend eternity never knowing!
She gazed up at him hopefully and almost squealed with a combination of joy and dismay when he answered.
"I was your guardian when you were little."
Well that certainly wasn't the answer she expected. But that would explain how he knew her name. Then again, if he was her guardian then how was it that she was sold by a slave trader into a brothel only to end up fortunate enough to be adopted? Demons were supposed to be very protective of what was theirs and a ward is undeniably something you're supposed to protect. One of her eyes narrowed in confusion and sudden wariness.
"How was I taken away from you if you were supposed to be my guardian? You are a dog demon right? Dogs are supposed to be loyal and protective and all that good stuff." A sudden thought popped up in her mind. "And how did I end up being your ward anyway? Did my family die and leave me to you or did you kill them and spare me?" Her imagination becan to go as wild as it had been going at the waters edge. Mild hysteria and anger began to sound in her voice as she started throwing out a ton of false accusations.
"Oh my God! You killed them didn't you? You killed them so you could get to me! For what purpose!!! Oh God! I bet you're the reason I don't rememeber my past! You did things to me didn't you!!!! Are you the reason I have scars on my wrists and ankles!!!! What about the bite marks on my neck? Demons leave bite marks there when they mate, especially the animal types!!!!"
She began hyperventilating.
"Are we mated? Did you and I...When I was only a child did you and I...? Tell me now or I swear I won't be responsible for my actions! Am I your bitch!?!?!?!"
At this point Sesshomaru stopped and stared at her in shock. What was wrong with her? Had spending a few years around humans caused her to be as small-minded and idiotic as they were? Never mind the fact that she herself was human, Rin had always been different from them. But now he was having his doubts. Now that they were further away from the water his senses had already confirmed it was really her, but what was wrong with her? Calmly and slowly he began to answer her.
"No, we are not mated and neither did I kill your parents."
Satisfied that he had defended his honor he began to walk away again, only to stop and turn to look at her.
"Show me your wrists." He commanded her. He was mildly suprised when she obeyed him right away, rolling up her sleeves so that he could see the scars on them. He knew what they were the moment he saw them.
"Shackles. Probably iron."
Then they were back to walking towards the small camp he was sure Jaken had made for them. Rin was no longer panicking about being mated to a demon since she was a child, seeing as it hadn't happened, and a little more calm. She started following him again, this time silent.
She still didn't know how he came to be her guardian, but now she didn't doubt his word. He came across as the honest sort although that didn't suprise her. He hadn't lied when he said his designs on her weren't sexual.
oooooooooo
End Flashback
oooooooooo
Rin laughed softly to herself in embarrassment as she remembered when she had found that out. Boy she felt foolish over even believing that he was going to rape her.
oooooooooo
Flashback
oooooooooo
She was going to be raped.
Those were her last thoughts before the most shocking thing in the world happened to her. Instead of going right ahead and having his way with her he pulled her up to a standing position, whirled her around, and locked her hands behind her back with one clawed hand. She closed her eyes in humiliation.
So it was going to be a behind job was it?
Well, at least her most important virginity wasn't going to be taken, although this was undeniably just as awful. Unless he could take her actual virginity this way. But that was impossible. Men were supposed to be on top, and he was behind her. Not to mention they were both standing. People couldn't do that standing, could they?
Suddenly death seemed like a really nice idea.
"Walk."
His voice came seemingly out of nowhere and she jumped, her eyes snapping open.
"Please Mr...um...Sesshomaru-sama I would really appreciate it if you don't rape me. You see, without my virginity I can't ever hope to marry and that would be really bad. Especially since unmarried woman are forced to become whores and I don't think I'm cut out for making my living on my back. I don't think I could take it. So please, oh please, oh please could you not rape me? I don't want to get raped!"
She was rambling. She was walking and she was rambling and she knew she sounded desperate but she really was. She hadn't mentioned that being raped by a demon might not make her into a whore since she would be too dirty for anyone to evertouch again, but she didn't want to mention that she could easily starve to death without any honor. Women had a really tough time etching out a living on their own and she was too old to train as a priestess. And demon slayers just ticked her off for some reason so that was out of the question entirely.
What she wasn't aware of during her ramble was that she had made Sesshomaru not only extremely uncomfortable, but also extremely aware that not only was she an adult female, she was also a very nude, very curvy adult female. And thoughts like that were bad because he had raised her for a portion of her life and he was also her guardian, regardless of not seeing her for years.
With an extreme force of will he squashed down the sudden fascination with her hips and scent, and let out a soft sigh.
"This Sesshomaru does not need to rape young women."
There, honor satisfied, thoughs almost entirely banished, and arrogance restored. She gave a little eep.
"Thank you so much." She said on a sigh, then abruptly got offended. "What do you mean you don't need to rape women? You're a demon aren't you? Don't demons never see any action unless they rape something?"
He actually rolled his eyes this time, grateful that she couldn't see it. What a crude turn of phrase and what a horrible suggestion about demons in general.
"This Sesshomaru finds many willing so therefore rape is not necessary, nor would it be honorable."
"Wait...so the reason I'm not getting raped is because your basically some kind of demon sex god who has demon and human women practically falling at his feet in hopes of being ravished by you? I don't believe that. There is no way. Demon sex gods should be all...sexy looking, and you look more like some heartless son of a..."
A snort of restrained laughter escaped him when she stopped her tirade. Technically, being the son of a bitch was a compliment, seeing as his mother had been a dog demoness of a small clan. She was, in all actuality, a bitch. She was the bitch of a powerful demon lord and a highly respected one at that. It was only in the human realm that being a bitch was a bad thing. The old Rin would have went ahead with what she was saying if she had even known that word. The irony was not lost on him, and neither was the insult about him not being sexy.
Her clothes and supplies were suddenly on the ground in front of them and realeased her with the order to get dressed. She did so gratefully, careful to keep her back to him and entirely oblivious to the fact that he had turned around so he wouldn't have to watch her bend over. In his society that would be a clear invitation and he didn't trust himself to not take up the offer and prove to her just how godlike he really was. But those were bad thoughts, and he mentally shook them away, hoping they would stop returning.
Damn her and the talk of rape and sex and willingness.
Bad thoughts....grr....
Rin was not stupid enough to try and run away this time, and her interest was caught anyways. He wasn't going to rape her, he knew her name for some odd, magical reason, and he obviously wasn't going to kill her. Life was good.
She turned around with a big relieved smile.
"Done!"
He turned barely, more looking over his shoulder than anything. Suddenly he was the only naked one here and while she still wasn't looking down, he was still at a severe disadvantage. She was clothed now after all.
"Lets go." He said, and they went.
oooooooooo
End Flashback
oooooooooo
Rin watched as he came over to her. He was blessedly enough, fully clothed now. He had gotten dressed the moment they arrived back at the river, then had practically forced her to go to his camp with her.
He sat down next to her with a soft rustling of the grass, and placed his hands in his sleeves while looking at her. During the time it had took to walk back to camp, decide to never again think of the bad thoughts or her being nude and bent over, let her eat some more, he had come to a very important decision regarding the future. Until she was eighteen she was still his ward. Sesshomaru was no fool. He knew she was still seventeen.
Sesshomaru decided that she was going to stay with him on that basis, as well as the basis that she had lost her memory and there was no logical way anyone could forget meeting him. He wanted to make her remember him. He also wanted to know about the last ten years of her life. She was his. He had saved her life numerous times along with the whole back from the dead thing, so she owed him that much. She owed him more to tell the truth.
He opened his mouth to speak but she beat him to it.
oooooooooo
Mmmyeah......cliffhanger ish thing. Anyways, as promised the chapters are getting longer. So just for that I deserve a review so you can tell me what you think or what I did wrong and stuff! I know there are probably tons of mistakes considering I don't have spellcheck or grammer check on my computer and I never read over to see what I did wrong, so you should tell me!
I apologize if they seem to switch character at this point. Lets keep in mind that people tend to be more reticent when butt naked. They relalx more with clothes on. So yeah....