InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Please Don't Leave ❯ Chapter 1

This was it. I was going to tell him how I felt, whether he felt the same or not. He needed to know… before I left.

I could tell in his eyes that he hadn't chosen me to be with. Why choose the copy when you can have the real thing? Kikyou and I were so different, yet we share a soul. I am her reincarnation, her copy as she likes to put it. I just wish that he could love me, be with me and not see her when he sees me. I guess that could be asking for too much though. Fifty years is a long time to still have feelings for someone.

So here I am, walking along the path to the Goshinboku. That tree… The only thing in this entire era that is the same in mine. It never changed through the years. The place that I first laid eyes on Inuyasha. I smile, his ears were so soft, and he looked so peaceful. Who would have thought he would have a mouth on him?

Looking up at the tree, I can remember all the good times we had together, as well as the bad. I feel a light breeze blow by and gently kiss my face. Moving to sit down at the base of the tree, I look up into the branches, hoping to see some red, but I don't see any.

Sooner or later, I know that he will come looking for me. Follow my scent to right here. And then I am going to tell him how I feel, then I'm going to go through the well and not look back. My heart will break but time heals all wounds, I'll get over it eventually.

I hear a faint rustling behind me and know it's him, Inuyasha. He came looking for me sooner than I thought, but might as well get it over with….

“There you are wench.” He was standing in front of me, arms crossed, scowl on his face. The way the sun was hitting made him look surreal. In my time he's nothing but a fairy tale, a legend. His ears twitched at my silence.

Well, here goes nothing….

“Inuyasha,” I began. I still had no idea how I was going to word this, but I had already started, no going back now. “I love you.” There, no sugar coating it.

He faltered at my words. The number of emotions that crossed his face were numerous. I just didn't expect anger to be the last one.

I always knew he was fast, but it took a moment for me to realize that he was pinning me to the truck of the God Tree. He wasn't gripping me hard, but it was enough to make me wince a little from his claws. Claws that I have seen disembowel demons within seconds.

`What did you say?” There was something different in his voice, I couldn't place.

I closed my eyes tightly, trying to force the tears that were threatening to break through, when I answered, “I said that I love you.”

He dipped his head, hiding his eyes from my gaze. “Why?”

“I love you because of who you are. You can be a bastard sometimes, but it's just all part of the package. You're kind, though you don't want to admit it. You're everything that I could ever want.”

At that moment he let go of me and turned away. I thought that he was going to run way, until he spoke.

“You love me, even though I'm,” he paused for a moment, “tainted?”

“I don't know why you think that, but you aren't tainted.”

He snorted. I guess he thought that I was full of it. “You're the only one to say that. After hearing everyday for practically my whole life that I was tainted, do you think I would believe otherwise?”

He just pissed me off at that moment. I marched up to him and turned him around as forcefully as I could. “If I would have known that you react like this, I would have just left for my era without telling you.”

That seemed to get to him. His eyes widened and he seemed to get even more pissed off. “You were going to leave without telling me?! What about the jewel shards?!” I knew he was going to say something about that accursed marble. I hate that rock more than anything...

I just smile at him. "It's always about the jewel, isn't it?"

He just stood there in front of me looking confused, and then he crossed his arms and began the tirade that I knew was going to come. "You are the only one who can see the goddamned shards!" Yah... He was pissed.

I just shook my head. "No," I looked him straight in the eye, "Kikyou can also see the shards. In case you forgot." I was surprisingly calm.

Inuyasha, on the other hand, looked like he was going to hit something. If it was me, I didn't know. "I don't want to travel with Kikyou."

I couldn't help myself at that statement, I had to laugh. I know it probably pissed him off more. It most definitely pissed him off for I could read it on his face. I immediately regretted it.

“I'm sorry,” I had to apologize, “But we all know that you love her, and have loved her since before I unsealed you from the tree.”

His face softened, maybe realizing what I had been put through all of these years. Watching him love another woman while I was in love with him myself. My leaving will help him build a new relationship with her and be happy. I want him to be happy.

“I'm not in love with Kikyou.”

I smiled at him, even though it was fake. “You don't have to hide you feelings for her to make me stay. I'm going.”

I started to move past him towards the well. I knew that the tears I have been holding back were going to break through at any moment so I had to go while I was still strong. I didn't get very far, for he grabbed my wrist before I could get away from him.

“Kagome, I know I should have said this sooner,” he stopped for a moment, “like when you confessed your love to me.” I could tell he was getting nervous, his palm was getting sweaty. “Kagome…”

I stared into his golden eyes. They held so much emotion. He had such an intense gaze that I don't ever think that I could look away.

“…I love you.”

Three small words. That's all it took to bring the mighty hanyou to his knees. After they were uttered from his own mouth, he collapsed and hugged me around the legs, his head pressed to my stomach. He was begging me, in his own silent way, not to leave him.

I fell to my knees to be eye-to-eye with him. His eyes were glassy, like he was going to cry, but was trying so hard not to let the tears come.

“Please don't leave me.” He spoke in a soft whisper that I barely heard him.

 

His confession of love had taken me for a loop. I had never realized that he had such feels for me. Maybe because he hid them so well.

 

He was looking into my eyes with such intensity; I should have guessed what he was going to do next. He kissed me. Not just any kiss. I felt the emotion coming from him, his longing. And I responded in kind. It was a kiss unlike any other I have had before. I have been kissed before, but this one was different. It was filled with the love that we had for each other.

 

After about a minute, I could feel that I was getting braver. I hadn't done anything with a boy before so this was unknown territory for me. I traced my fingers down his chest, towards the waist line of his hakama. I fingers went lower and gently brushed the growing bulge there. Inuyasha took in a sharp breath and looked at me with wide eyes. It seemed that he was as inexperienced as I was.

 

He took the cue from me and moved his hands to my breasts. The sensations of feeling his fingers rub my nipples through my shirt felt so good to me. From then I just let instinct and feeling lead my way.

 

I removed his haori revealing the under kimono, which I slipped from his shoulders. Over the years I had seen him without shirt countless times, but this time was like seeing for the first time. His chiselled upper body was what any woman would want for their man.

 

He started running kisses along my jaw and down towards my neck. I moved my head to give him better access. My mouth opened in a low moan, and closed my eyes, immersing myself in the moment and feelings. His fingers moved to unbutton the blouse that I was wearing. He seemed to be getting frustrated, though, because of his claws. Finally giving up on preserving my shirt, he tore through it with those claws that I had seen slay countless demons over the years.

 

Discarding my torn garment, I removed the bra that was covering my breasts. His eyes moved over me in appreciation. I gave him a smile and moved to kiss him with a hunger that I had never known before. His hands moved over my chest, ever so gently, and moved down further, towards the wetness building between my legs. I gave a gasp as he move his hand past the waist band of my skirt and began rubbing the bundle of nerves there.

 

Taking my queue from him, I moved my hand in his hakama and started to caress the hardening member within. He let out a gasp, as I had, at the touch. I moved my hand in time with his, bucking my hips into his hand when he would move.

 

Inuyasha moved to lay us down under Goshinboku. He was looking at me with such intensity. “Kagome,” he started, probably knowing with this was leading up to. “I don't want you to leave.” He was touching my cheek ever so slightly with his knuckle, “I want you to be my mate.”

 

It was a shocking admission from him to say the least. Just by looking into his eyes I could tell that he was dead serious. I almost could believe it. One moment I was getting ready to leave permanently, the next I'm laying on the forest floor, on the verge of making love to my hanyou, and being asked the demon equivalent of marriage. But with Inuyasha's admission, it seemed that that changed everything.

 

I didn't have to think about my answer, “I will.”

 

Then Inuyasha gave me one of the few genuine smiles that he would give. His head came down and crushed his lips to my own. The torrent of emotion poured through me. We helped each other remove out lower garments. I think that I gaped at the size of his phallus, because he gave me his ever over confident smirk.

 

He was poised just at my entrance, when he asked, “Are you sure?”

 

I looked into his golden eyes. “I have never been so sure of anything in my life.” I know that is probably the most cliché thing to say at the time.

 

When my answer reached his ears he moved his hips and slowly entered me, as so I would get used to the feeling.

 

At first it pained me, and I may have grimaced, but as he started to move back and forth, in and out, I quickly got used to the feeling. I let the sensations wash over me, and I started moving my own hips in time with his.

 

It didn't take long before the two of us reached climax together. The feeling was amazing and I was panting just from the experience of it all. I felt Inuyasha empty himself, and he collapsed on top of me. I hugged him tight as my breathing slowed to it's regular rate.

 

“I love you,” he whispered into my ear. I must say that I was nice to hear him say it again; knowing that he didn't vocalize what he was feeling too often.

 

“I love you too.”

 

Inuyasha moved off of me so we could get dressed again. He gave me his haori to wear as he had shredded my blouse.

 

Once we were decent again, we sat together under Goshinboku. It was like something from one of my dreams. He held me tight as we just watched the cloud overhead. It was perfect.

 

He was the first to break the silence. “So when are we going to tell the others about this new development?”

 

I turned my head to look at him.

 

“All in good time. Let's just enjoy the moment.”