InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Pride (In the Name of Love) ❯ Chapter 97

Pride (In the Name of Love) 97 / ??
Written by Jezz-Ra
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A/N - Wasn't sure if I was going to get this one done in time. It took a kinda unexpected turn, and I work during the day today so...lol. I hate waffling between day and night shifts, its havoc on my sleep schedule.
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Toga slowly lifted his right arm, flexing his fingers. A slight wince marred his features. // Damn...I must have cooked it a bit more than I thought. At least I can move it again...it should not take much longer. //

After he had stretched and yawned, the taiyoukai slid out of bed and gathered up a change of clothes, making his way to the bath. Stripping was still a bit difficult, what with his arm injured. He slid into the water, hissing sharply as it touched his scorched flesh. // Perhaps this was NOT such a good idea... //

"My Lord Father?...Are you alright?"

Toga's eyes snapped to the door, locking on Sesshoumaru. A tight smile crossed his face. "Heh. I will be. Where have YOU been? I was looking for you for a good while when I returned..."

"I have been...out." Sesshoumaru began systematically disrobing as he spoke. "I did not wish to...deal with a situation that presented itself immediately."

"I see...trouble?"

Sesshoumaru let out a huff as he slid into the water. // Of the worst kind... // "Nothing to concern yourself with." Sesshoumaru calmly reached for Toga's hair.

"I'm not an invalid, you know..." Toga sighed, rather enjoying the claws carefully raking through his hair.

"My Lord Father, I would never think you an invalid or incapable of anything. However...allow this Sesshoumaru to assist you. There is no point in you suffering needlessly. How in all the hells did you burn yourself like that?"

"Meh...by being foolish and consumed with rage. Your brother had to get it from somewhere..."

Sesshoumaru frowned slightly. "It is unlike you to be rash."

"I had that filthy wretch, Jormandar, a few inches in front of my face but could not reach him for his barrier. I tried. Hence the burn. I probably would have gotten it a bit worse if I hadn't had to go to Sairex's defense."

Sesshoumaru's eyes widened and he froze for a moment. "You...went to that place? THAT was your business?"

"Well...yes. I did not wish to cause you worry." Toga shifted around so he could face Sesshoumaru, his voice soft. "And he has much to pay for. I will not allow the pain he has caused you to go unanswered, my Sesshoumaru."

Sesshoumaru sighed heavily, casting a slightly guilty look at Toga's scorched arm. Toga's other hand caught him abruptly under the chin and lifted his gaze, his fingers lightly trailing over the crimson slashes on Sesshoumaru's cheek.

"Do not look so. You must not feel any guilt for anything that happens as a result of this situation. Somehow, ultimately, this is all my fault.""It is not your fault."

"No, it is. All you have suffered...all that was done to you, all that is still being done...it started as a result of one of MY old enemies. For that, I am deeply sorry. I would rather suffer a thousandfold what you have than to see you hurt, now or ever. It seems I have done you many wrongs, my Sesshoumaru..."

Sesshoumaru blinked. "What?...That is hardly true, my Lord Father...you have been nothing but good to me."

Toga sighed and closed his eyes. "No. I have not. I was....selfish."

The younger inu slowly arched an eyebrow. "How so?"

"It is my fault that you have suffered, and not just because of all that has happened with Tsetsukosei and his ilk. From the day you were born, you were all I had that mattered to me. I poured all my heart into caring for you and making sure you wanted for nothing...and in doing so, entirely monopolized your time. Instead of pushing you more to socialize with others, I allowed you to spend all your time with me...because I enjoyed your presence. It occurred to me what a lonely, solitary life you had begun to lead...but I did nothing to try to resolve the issue. I suppose some part of me rationalized that you surely must find some joys in life outside of the ones you found when in my presence...but I knew better. You always were different around me than you were when around any other. I knew all of these things...but ultimately did little to nothing about them."

"My Lord Father..." Sesshoumaru's voice was something of a shocked whisper.

"I kept you."

"My Lord Father, please...it was not all your doing. I...this Sesshoumaru could not find any joy from the presence of others. They all were measured and found wanting. None can compare to you...no one ever could. I cherished every moment in your keeping." Sesshoumaru closed his eyes and bowed his head. "I belong to you. I always belonged to you, will always belong to you. You have always held my heart and soul in your hands, and can make or break my world. You made me what I am, and never have I regretted it. Do not say my devotion is misguided, that my love is a mistake. You have always been everything in my world. Everything, everyone else...it is simply background noise."

"And yet, long after my death, your heart opened to a human girl, an imp...even your hanyou brother."

"You cannot know how your death broke me. Rin...is a small and brilliant sun no matter how dark the world becomes. She was impossible to resist and helped patch some of the holes in my heart. Inuyasha...I tried so hard to hate him, my Lord Father....I tried so hard to blame him in full for your death, to loathe him because your blood flowed through his veins with that of a human...and yet that is the very same reason I could never truly hate him. He was a part of you. I couldn't kill him. I admit, I tried. Many times. Even though I knew how you would have felt...he was a face and a name for the helpless, frustrated rage I felt at losing you."

"Oh, my Sesshoumaru..." Toga sighed softly. "I am not so sure I deserve such pure devotion...do you not understand? It was wrong of me to keep you, to allow you to shut out the rest of the world and care only for me. Just as I...I fear that our relationship of late...I do not know what ever possessed me to initiate anything intimate with you. Of course you would never think to resist me...but it is unfair of me, and again, selfish. It is...it is an abuse of my status as your father."

Sesshoumaru's eyes were wide and flickering somewhere between hurt and horror. "You...you regret...everything?"

Toga's eyes were full of fierce love. "No. I regret nothing. I have always loved you terribly. You have always been mine, and I have cherished that. I only fear I may have pressured you into it...that I realized your near worship and used it to unfair advantage."

"My Lord Father, this Sesshoumaru, for all my love, is no blind, mindless drone. I have gone into things with open eyes. You have never coerced or pressured or lured me into a thing I did not wish to do. Perhaps you were a major reason in why I never was interested in taking a mate...who could I find to share time with that meant to me what you do? Perhaps...this Sesshoumaru has not merely loved you but been in love with you longer than I have suspected, perhaps most all my life. But I have no regrets. I do not care if the rest of the world views it with abhorrence, as if it were an atrocity. Let them think as they will. All that matters to me is what you think. If this has been a flaw in my upbringing or some fault of yours, if this is wrong...I care not. Do not...do not cast me out. Do not end this out of a misguided sense of it being for my own good. Please."

Toga eyed him for a long moment before a faint smile flickered across his lips. "No, my Sesshoumaru...I have no such intentions. I am not so strong as all that. Even if sometimes I believe I have interfered and that it WOULD be for your own good...I have no wish to be parted from you, no wish to change things. You have claimed you need no others...well, nor do I."

Sesshoumaru felt the tight noose of fear that had been steadily growing within him and clenching around his heart vaporize in a flood of warm, blissful relief. He did not suppose he could speak around the lump that had somehow lodged itself in his throat, so he instead moved to straddle Toga's hips, curling his arms around his neck as he leaned in to give him a kiss. He tried to pour all his love, all his devotion, his relief and his gratitude...all the emotions he was ill able to confess fully into that one simple act.

As he wasn't sure if his first one got the message through quite well enough, Sesshoumaru found himself locked in a long series of deeply intimate kisses that sent fluttering bursts of heat through him. It became readily apparent that he wasn't the only one being affected, however. When he finally pulled back to suck in a ragged breath, it froze in his throat at the smoldering look in his father's eyes.

With a faint, rather mischievous smile, Sesshoumaru wiggled in Toga's lap a bit. Toga smirked at him. "Careful, pup, else you'll be spending more time in this bath than you originally intended."

Sesshoumaru's eyelashes lowered demurely as he spoke. "Ah, of course...since you previously stated you intended to keep this Sesshoumaru up all night and it is not even yet time for dinner, I best not tax your strength..."

Sesshoumaru gasped as Toga's uninjured hand suddenly snapped around his neck from behind and jerked him in close, a mere hairsbreadth from the elder inu. Toga growled softly, although it was not a growl of anger. "I do grow a bit weary of you constantly challenging me in this area...by the time I am done with you this night, my Sesshoumaru, you won't remember your own name for a week, let alone challenge me thus again."

All of Sesshoumaru's teasing - as well as his grip on coherency and reality in general - flew apart as Toga pulled him into a fierce kiss. He broke the kiss only to nip and lick his way to Sesshoumaru's ear, then down the slender line of his throat. The sharp, deep bite he delivered a moment later made Sesshoumaru gasp sharply, his back arching and his claws rather unintentionally digging into Toga's shoulders. A shattered moan escaped him as the elder inu's fingers curled around his cock and began stroking him firmly. For all his treasured self control and mastery over most all situations, Sesshoumaru could never help but be reduced to putty in Toga's hands...and they both knew it.

It was not, however, as if Sesshoumaru had no effect in turn on Toga. The sight of the proud, beautiful creature consumed with passion and writhing in helpless submission to his every whim was an extraordinary aphrodisiac for the inu patriarch. Not to mention that every motion of the wet body in his lap rubbed deliciously against his own aching erection...

Toga mentally cursed his inability to use both hands briefly, but figured he could get by well enough. He abandoned stroking Sesshoumaru's erection despite the soft moan of protest, instead slipping his hand around and wasting little time working his fingers into the boy. Sesshoumaru's groan only incensed him, and the way the younger taiyoukai was rocking his hips against him was maddening.

Sesshoumaru couldn't wait any longer, even if he knew he should give his body a bit more time to adjust. His self control was dashed and Toga was wreaking utter havoc on his senses. Much as he hated to beg for anything...he couldn't do anything but. "Oh gods...please...I need you in me...nn...

Toga let out a soft growl in response, unable to deny the breathless request. Dimly he thought that he probably should have waited a bit more so he didn't hurt Sesshoumaru, but his pup rather took that decision out of his hands. As soon as he had begun pressing his length up into him, Sesshoumaru had shifted position slightly and slammed his hips down, impaling himself fully. Toga let out a somewhat shocked groan.

Sesshoumaru cried out sharply, his eyes rolling back as he struggled to deal with this violent mix of pleasure and pain. It had stung a great deal more than he had expected - gods, he thought he was going to be torn apart! - but it brought with it an excruciating pleasure that slowly grew, inexorably eclipsing the burn. Sesshoumaru shifted slightly, aware of how tortured his groan must have sounded. It wasn't like he was a petite, fragile little thing...but damn, his father was huge.

Toga's eyes opened to the barest slits - Sesshoumaru had indeed sounded tormented. However, whatever anguish his pup was feeling must have not been near as strong as his pleasure. Sesshoumaru lifted his hips before driving back down, another delicious whimper coming from him. Toga's breath hissed out of him at the sharp motion. It felt too good for words, this sweet and forbidden love.

It didn't take long for Sesshoumaru to find a perfect rhythm, impaling himself over and over in a series of hard, deep, smooth thrusts. Every roll of his hips was sending devastating, white-hot pleasure through them both. Sesshoumaru had unintentionally sank his claws into Toga's shoulders again, and the burn of Toga's claws sinking into his hip and pulling him down harder registered as a confused jumble of anguish that was indecipherable from ecstasy.

When Toga's sharp fangs found the juncture of Sesshoumaru's throat and his collarbone and bit in hard, something in Sesshoumaru's mind ruptured, broke under the unexpected shock and unadulterated joy. THIS one would scar, leave him marked. Visibly and undeniably claimed, even if he would choose to hide it from the world. Claimed, claimed by this all-powerful, incredible god of a creature...claimed by his beloved Lord Father...!

Sesshoumaru let out a howl as his orgasm crashed through him almost violently, sparks exploding behind his eyes, eyes that weren't able to make sense out of anything before them. His back arched and his head fell back, powerful spasms wracking his lithe frame.

Toga let out a rather loud noise of his own, unable to hold out against the sudden added pleasure of Sesshoumaru's already impossibly tight body suddenly clenching and spasming around him. His climax overtook him with thunderous force, and he clutched Sesshoumaru tightly until it relented enough to let him draw something of a breath. Toga sank back heavily against the wall of the bath with a soft moan.

Sesshoumaru melted bonelessly against him, although his trembling fingers had slowly lifted to touch the bleeding wound at the base of his throat in wonder and disbelief. He said nothing, however, and simply reveled in it. Internally, his mind was doing a fanciful jig of celebration. Sesshoumaru closed his eyes and let the ghost of a smile drift across his lips.

No matter what happened, he was suddenly sure that things would end up alright.