InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Pride (In the Name of Love) ❯ Chapter 113

Pride (In the Name of Love) 113 / ??
Written by Jezz-Ra
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A/N - The edit is done! I have officially gone back and changed and reuploaded every single chapter of this beast, plus my sidestories. I gave each chapter a fancy new header with updated warnings and whatnot, added a line or two as I went to clarify some slightly sticky parts...occasionally changed a word or two for one that fit better...changed a lot of Sairex's old parts to fit how things SHOULD be (considering his original storyline in here didn't match the one I gave him when he became a major character). Ultimately, though, there are no major content changes and I fixed as much as I could. The other big thing was changing all instances of Toga's name, considering I changed from calling him simply Taisho to Toga after like 30 chapters. @_@

So if anyone finds anything that needs editing...let me know, because I've missed it. =D
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Once the trio returned to the Western Castle, Kagome took the time to sort out the bags of drugs they had acquired. Inuyasha had managed to grab several sorts of morphine derivatives, which Kagome put in a special pile. There were several medications that were entirely unrelated to anything they needed, due to the nature of Inuyasha's random heist, but Kagome figured they had enough to help out some.

Miroku frowned uneasily when Kagome gathered up some vials and a few needles, as well as her book to guide her in dosing. "Kagome, perhaps you should let me..."

"Nonsense. I'm quite capable of sticking a demon with a needle."

Miroku sighed. "Yes, but...well...it's bad. I don't think you really need to see it."

"Sesshoumaru was blasted halfway to bits from the Wind Scar and I saw him."

"He was unconscious."

"All the more reason for us to hurry. Now move it, monk."

Inuyasha was on Kagome's side, even if he really wasn't sure he wanted to see his father in such a state. As it turned out, he regretted not following his initial instinct. The moment he entered the room his ears slicked back and he whined.

Toga was curled into a ball and clutching himself tightly, although it was obvious from the clawed and shredded bedding around him that he had definitely had his moments of thrashing and writhing. His eyes were wide and rolling, almost as crazed as Sesshoumaru's had been. A thin thread of blood had worked it's way from the corner of his mouth and a low, raspy noise that might have been a whine at one point rattled in a throat long since worn raw from screaming. Toga was drenched in sweat and quivering, and the sight of such extreme physical anguish brought tears to the miko's eyes before she remembered that she was here to try and fix exactly that.

Kagome hurried over before Inuyasha could stop her. The hanyou was afraid that Toga's mind was gone as a result of his condition, but was surprised to see him actually focus on Kagome when she spoke to him. "Lord Toga...I've brought some things from my world to help with your pain. We were able to help Sesshoumaru when he was hurt and I think I can at least help your pain. But I have to stick this needle in your arm, alright?"

Toga didn't manage to speak but did push his arm out towards her. The veins were visible due to the extreme strain in his muscles, and he never even felt the prick of the needle.

Kagome started him on the highest dose of morphine that the drug handbook had stated was considered safe for a human. She had no doubt that his demon system could handle more, but there was no sense in starting higher than was necessary.

As it turned out, it was pretty much exactly what was necessary. While Toga's body could surely have handled a much higher dosage, his body had never experienced much in the way of painkillers and had built up no tolerances. Slowly the tension faded from his muscles and he uncurled, his breathing calming. His eyes were rather glazed and it was clear that his coherency had probably been vaporized under the effect of the narcotic...but at least his pain had went with it.

Inuyasha breathed a sigh of relief that turned into a yelp of shock as the door burst open behind him and a rather excited Sairex almost collided with him. "Ack!"

Sairex eeped and only managed to stop the collision by shooting out his wings to either side. A few rapid flaps provided enough reverse momentum that he was able to halt and keep his balance.

Miroku blinked. "Sairex, what's the rush?"

Sairex looked about to answer before he took a good look at Toga. "Vhat did you do to him?"

Kagome smiled slightly. "Medicine from my time. He's pretty well out of it now...but he's not feeling any pain, at least."

Sairex nodded. "Vell, dat's zometing of a zhame...but probably for da best. He needs to rest and recover as much as possible."

"What's going on, bird?" Inuyasha asked with a squint.

"Your brother!" Sairex grinned, excited. "He's come to, more or less. He's lucid."

Inuyasha was out of the room almost before Sairex finished speaking.

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Inuyasha hurried into the dungeons and stared at his brother for a long moment without saying anything. Sesshoumaru was sitting in a chair and very slowly sipping at a cup of tea. He had flinched when Inuyasha entered. "Sessh...?"

Sesshoumaru's eyes slowly turned to Inuyasha and he set down his cup. "Yes. I apologize for...anything I may have done or said since I've been back. I...I do not recall..."

Inuyasha almost sobbed in relief. "Oh, shit, Sessh, don't worry about it...I'm just glad that you're alright. We were so worried...its been horrible since you've been gone."

Sesshoumaru just nodded, fingering his cup. Inuyasha frowned at how...fragile...his brother looked at that moment. While it was true that he was indeed coherent....his personality had changed. He seemed infinitely breakable, like a beaten puppy...nervous and shy and somewhat twitchy, not really making direct eye contact. "What...happened to my hair?"

Inuyasha smiled feebly. "I...had to cut it off. It'll be back just as crazy-long as ever in a couple days, you know how fast we heal. It was kinda an impossibly tangled mess. It's already grown back a few inches since my hack-job."

"Oh. Well...thank you."

"How about we get you out of this cell and to your own room?"

"I...alright. How....how is my Lord Father? I was told he sustained a severe injury."

Inuyasha offered him a faint smile. "He'll be better in a few days, but he's resting right now. Kagome brought some medicine from her time to help keep him relaxed so he heals faster."

"I...may I see him? I need...I need to see him. Even if he's resting. I do not intend to disturb him." The need to confirm that this was not, indeed, a trick burned in the back of Sesshoumaru's mind. While he was indeed conscious and aware, that hardly meant he had become a stable individual with the flip of a switch. Dark things still loomed in the corners of his mind and voices still whispered deep in his subconscious. It would be frightfully easy for Sesshoumaru to relapse back into insanity at a moment's notice.

Inuyasha blinked and then nodded, fishing the keys for the cell out of his sleeve and letting Sesshoumaru out. The taiyoukai drifted past him almost immediately. He made a beeline for Toga's room, the hanyou following him silently.

Kagome, Miroku, and Sairex had apparently left Toga to rest and were not present in the room when the brothers arrived. Sesshoumaru slowly approached the bed, eyes riveted on Toga. A thousand unnameable emotions flickered through Sesshoumaru's eyes. He stopped just shy of being able to touch his sire.

A long, silent and still moment passed before Sesshoumaru soundlessly fell to his knees, his eyes shutting against the heavy tears that came anyways, his head falling forward and his hands dangling limply in his lap. His Lord Father...he was here, he was real...even if this was a dream he had finally fallen inescapably into, it no longer mattered. His Lord Father was here and alive, and Sesshoumaru could remain with him.

If nothing else, that was enough for the taiyoukai.

Inuyasha didn't know whether he should leave them alone or get Sesshoumaru back to his own room, didn't know if he should dare to disturb his brother. Luckily, he didn't have to worry about it. After an indeterminable amount of time, Sesshoumaru shakily got to his feet and headed for the door.

"I will...be going to the bath. I need to clean up and dress properly."

"Of course, I'll let ya be to do your thing, I guess."

Sesshoumaru paused for the longest time. "Would...you care to accompany this Sesshoumaru? I... I feel as if I have been alone for a very, very long time and would welcome the company."

Inuyasha perked up instantly. "Yeah, sure. Let me get a change of clothes and stuff and I'll meet you there!"

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Sesshoumaru sat on the edge of the bath and continued to unwrap the bandages on his arms with an expression that waffled between amusement and incredulity. Who in the seven hells had wrapped his injuries like this? The amount of bandaging clearly outstripped the wounds, and it wasn't very neatly done. A faint sniff confirmed his brother's scent, and a little trickle of affection drifted through Sesshoumaru. // Well. That explains it. Only he would assume I needed six leagues of bandaging for what was surely just a scratch. //

There WAS quite a bit of blood once he got to the inner layers of the bandages, however, and Sesshoumaru reformatted his opinion. // Well. Perhaps it was a bit more than a simple scratch. I wonder what the hell happened to me...? //

"Hey. How are your arms doing?"

Sesshoumaru jumped visibly at the sound, his head jerking around, unable to hide the blooming...but rapidly quelled...panic that spread across his features.

"Oops...I'm sorry, Sessh, I didn't mean to startle you...."

Sesshoumaru nodded and finished removing the bandages. "What happened to me to warrant this?" He gestured to the small mountain of discarded white strips.

Inuyasha frowned. "Heh...you...you wouldn't stop clawing your arms open. Not just little scratches, either...I mean you were really ripping them open."

Sesshoumaru frowned, and a terrifically alluring memory the color of deep crimson blossomed in his mind.

Inuyasha noted the drifting, increasingly vacant look on his brother's face with growing alarm. "Sessh?...Hey, Sesshoumaru!"

The taiyoukai jerked back to reality abruptly. He shook his head slightly and then stood, disrobing unceremoniously and sinking into the warm bathwater with an involuntary but contented sigh.

Crisis averted, Inuyasha decided to join him. The water DID feel terribly good, after all. He couldn't stop a slight blush and a grin as he recalled the last time he had actually ended up in this very bath with his brother.

"What is so amusing, Inuyasha?"

"Oh, nothin'. Just thinkin'."

Sesshoumaru was silent for a minute. "I suppose the concept of you thinking IS rather humorous."

Inuyasha blinked several times. Was...Was his brother actually TEASING him? "Well, aren't you the comedian? I was just thinkin' about the last time I ended up in the bath with you."

Sesshoumaru's mind helpfully supplied images of Inuyasha's hands roaming all over him and awakening sensations he had never thought possible and he felt the blush rising within him, saw the tiniest smug grin on his brother's face. // Hn...this Sesshoumaru is no blushing beta...nor am I some sentimental female. I will not ... not act like this! I am alpha and Inuyasha will NOT hold anything over ME! // His mental stiffening of his spine, however, did nothing to quell the redness of his cheeks.

Inuyasha jerked his head back in surprise when, with a sudden rush of water, Sesshoumaru was in his face and growling softly. "S...Sessh?"

"Shut up, hanyou." Sesshoumaru leaned in and kissed his brother with bruising force, nipping sharply at his lip and tasting blood. As abruptly as it began, however, the taiyoukai was suddenly back across the tub to his former position, his expression settling back towards meek and mild.

Inuyasha stared at him, eyes impossibly huge. Sesshoumaru ignored him and proceeded to start scrubbing himself up. Inuyasha had done a passable job at cleaning him, really, but he knew he could do better.

Inwardly, the taiyoukai entertained a small, private smirk. He had taken control of this situation and Inuyasha was now the one off-guard and flustered. In that tiny way, if nothing else, Sesshoumaru felt he had taken a step towards getting a handle on his own existence again...and for a while, at least, the gibbering in his mind was blissfully silent