InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Pride (In the Name of Love) ❯ Chapter 133

Pride (In the Name of Love) 133 / ??
Written by Jezz-Ra
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A/N - Yes, I've been distracted lately. Lol...I've actually had SOMETHING TO DO besides sit around and be bored and lonely, thus I didn't have all my life to devote to writing.

On another note, there is now a fic posted on all my sites called 'Of Doom!'. It is an RK / IY crossover colab I'm writing with the lovely Liera Antionette - go on and give it a look if you like. =D Hope you enjoy this chapter, and a huge thanks to everyone that sent me pics.
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Sesshoumaru glared at nothing in particular, laying on his back and staring into the sky at the clouds. A small flock of birds landed a short ways from him. He gave them a glare, too, but they seemed rather nonplussed by it.

One bird detached itself from the flock and hopped sideways closer to him. Sesshoumaru gave it another glare but then ignored it.

A few moments passed, and then the bird took another hop closer, looking completely innocent and nonchalant.

Glare. Hop. Glare. Hop.

The bird was fairly close by this point and it settled down comfortably next to his head and stared at the clouds with him.

Sesshoumaru finally sat up and gave the bird a snarl. "Sairex, leave me alone." He gave a halfhearted swat at the raven, who hopped backwards with a caw and a rapid flapping of wings.

Sairex shifted into his humanoid form. It was strange to watch, really...the way his body twisted and almost seemed to flow into his other shape. "Vell, aren't ve testy today..."

"Next time I won't miss."

"Zo you zay. Vhy are you on da roof?"
Sesshoumaru was silent. Sairex sighed.

"Look. Running avay from your father is NOT da answer. Vhat are you tinking, pup?"

"What are you doing out here following this Sesshoumaru in the first place?"

Sairex's lips twitched up in a smirk. "I vasn't, actually...I vas trying to figure out vhat I zhould do and den you appeared on da roof."

Sesshoumaru narrowed his eyes. "Why should you need to figure out anything, raven?"

Sairex sighed. "Vell, I vas actually running avay from you."

"A good plan, then, to confront me when I was unaware of your presence."

Sairex frowned. "Lord Zezzhoumaru...I cannot allow you to leave. I know vhat must have prompted it, and I'm zure you must be upset..."

"What would you know of it? Stay out of my personal affairs, raven."

Sairex sighed.

"Why would you be fleeing me in the first place?""Because it vas I dat helped da kumo absorb your father zo he could release him."

Sesshoumaru's spine shot ramrod-straight and he turned surprised on Sairex. "You....did....what?"

"I figured your reaction vould be zometing like dis, but you vould find out eventually zo I von't bother lying."

The raven was fast, but Sesshoumaru was faster. With a vicious growl, he sprang forward. Sairex's eyes widened in alarm and he leaped, but was caught and slammed back down into the roof. Sesshoumaru snarled, his claws suddenly glowing green. "What manner of fool ARE you?" Sesshoumaru hissed. "Do you realize what could have happened?"Sairex arched his back with surprising force, managing to buck Sesshoumaru off of him, but he was caught again before he could escape. "I don't vant to fight you, damn it...!"

Sesshoumaru snarled in helpless rage and slammed his hand forward. Sairex lunged to the side and Sesshoumaru's claws sizzled through the roof. Sairex caught him by the wrist before he was able to deliver another blow, and the two of them wrestles for a moment. Sesshoumaru managed to score several more acid-dripping hits to the roof, but the raven was agile enough to more or less dodge all but a few minor strikes.

Both parties froze in place at the sudden ominous groan beneath them, exchanging a startled glance...right before the roof gave way and sent them tumbling into the building.

Sairex landed with a pained woosh of air, although he was spared most of the collapsing roof by Sesshoumaru's body on top of him. Sesshoumaru looked rather dazed from a particularly hard blow to the head. Neither of them were able to move for a long moment.

Toga came flying around the corner and stopped, staring, at the scene in front of him. He had abruptly felt both Sairex and Sesshoumaru's auras flare up, then heard the tremendous crash. He stared slack-jawed at the hole and then the two of them.

Sesshoumaru stood up and wobbled, stumbling back and hitting the wall with a muttered curse. He lifted his hand to the back of his head and it came back damp with blood.

Sairex let out a little hiss as he sat up, clutching at his back. "Nn...dammit..."

Toga looked between the both of them in helpless concern. Sairex smiled ruefully and inclined his head slightly in Sesshoumaru's direction. That was all the prodding it took and Toga was at Sesshoumaru's side in an instant.

"My Sesshoumaru...""Leave me alone..." Sesshoumaru mumbled darkly. "I'm still leaving...I meant what I said."

Toga narrowed his eyes and then grabbed hold of Sesshoumaru, pulling him into a tight hug. "Damn it, pup....she means nothing to me. You confuse my mercy and my sympathy for caring. If I have to physically hold you here to prevent you from leaving until you see that, I will."

Sesshoumaru's glare turned to Sairex. "You are dismissed from your oath of fealty, raven. Get out of this castle."

Sairex arched an eyebrow. Toga was about to speak, but Sairex interrupted smoothly. "As you vill, Lord Zezzhoumaru. Zhould you have a change of heart...you vill be able to contact me."

Toga's look was extremely unhappy, even if he understood what the raven was doing. If he contradicted his son's order, it would lead to another battle just as unpleasant as the last one with likely the same result and he didn't think his heart could take it.

Sairex bowed and quickly made his way out of the room, rubbing ruefully at his back and flexing his wings slowly to try and ease some of the ache from his poor landing.

Toga turned his full attention back to the not-so-happy taiyoukai in his arms. "My Sesshoumaru...please. Let me talk to you. Do not leave."

"Is that an order, Father?"

Toga winced and closed his eyes. "No. A request."

"I am disinclined to acquiesce to a request at this time."

"Please, Sesshoumaru."

Sesshoumaru was taken aback, golden eyes widening when Toga dropped to a knee in front of him, clutching his hand and bowing his head. His Lord Father, proud and eminent, actually physically begging him to stay? It tugged at Sesshoumaru's confused and aching heart enough that he finally let out a little growl and mumbled, "Fine."

Toga did not rise. "My Sesshoumaru...I have not always been the best father to you. I openly admit that I have had my share of flaws. I have made my share of errors. I did not always treat you as you deserved. We have not spoken of it since my return...so I shall now. I know how...the whole incident with Izayoi must have hurt you. I never meant to make you feel second best. Just because I had come to love her did not mean I loved you any less....although I was remiss in paying you proper attention. I got so caught up in worrying for her that...I allowed things to change between us."Sesshoumaru bit his lip but said nothing.

"And I know I have made other errors. When it comes to your own mother...I cannot regret her because without her, I would not have you. She hurt me terribly and I know she hurt you as well with her abandonment. I do not know what you have suffered while in the clutches of those fiends, and to even imagine breaks my heart. But please, Sesshoumaru, understand... even if it was an illusion of her that did things to you... that does not mean it was her. I in no way excuse her or forgive her for her past, recent or distant. During my captivity we spoke at length. I do believe she regrets her actions of the past, and I believe her apology. For that reason alone, I would spare her life."

"I do not want her here, my Lord Father..." Sesshoumaru slowly slid to his knees, his hands dropping to his lap and his head bowing. "Please."

Toga wrapped his arms around Sesshoumaru and held him tightly, slowly threading his fingers through his hair. "I shall not have her remain. I.... I leave her fate to you. I will abide by any decision you make in this regards...but please, show her mercy even though she showed you none."

Sesshoumaru buried his face in Toga's chest, aware that he was starting to tremble slightly. With the self-righteous anger he had so carefully stoked boiled away, all that remained was a horrible, gnawing hollow pain that his beloved Lord Father would replace him....care more for her than he did for him. The fear of losing him again was the most dreadful thing in his life...the thought of losing him while he was still alive and present was unthinkable. "Exile her back to wherever she came from. I don't care...I just don't want her near me. I don't want to ever see her again."

"I shall. Will you come with me to my room?"

Sesshoumaru nodded quietly and they both stood up, making their way down the hall. Toga shut the door behind them and laid down, pulling Sesshoumaru into his arms and hugging him close to his chest. Sesshoumaru sighed and allowed himself to relax somewhat, lulled by the sound of Toga's heartbeat under his ear.

"My Lord Father...forgive this Sesshoumaru....please. Do not ever leave me...I can't even bear the thought."

"Hush, pup. I will do everything I can to stay with you always. Nothing and no one will ever replace you. You are the most important thing in all my world, and I love you with all my heart. Now sleep, my Sesshoumaru."

Sesshoumaru closed his eyes and allowed himself to be lulled to sleep, and Toga soon followed.