InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Protection from afar, only seems to bring me closer ❯ Goodbye, and hidden strangers ( Chapter 1 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]
S.M: Usually I would have Yu-gi, or Gene or one of my other anime buds help me out. But for the first chapter of this story we're going to introduce to you a key player to this very plot…

???: Wench!

S.M: You guessed it here he is the main Hanyou man… Inuyasha…

Inuyasha: You're damn right. I am the best and don't any of you forget it.

S.M: Well Inuyasha, what do you think so far.

Inuyasha: You smell like Duo, and this is really stupid.

S.M: (Vain bulges in forehead, as well as wild blush.) I meant about the story you jerk.

Inuyasha: Feh…

S.M: What's up with that?

Inuyasha: What?

S.M: That "Feh" word you seem to say.

Inuyasha: I just do. Why do you flirt with almost every male you meet?

S.M: (Blush harder) I DO NOT!

Inuyasha: Not now. (Smirking)

::Osuwari! A familiar voice calls and InuYasha's face down on the ground.::

S.M: (Looks around and sees a black haired girl walking out of the invisible door.) Kagome-san?

Inuyasha: WENCH! (Lifts off the ground and glares at the girl)

Kagome: Osuwari

::Face plant again on the ground::

S.M: (Falls over laughing.) Welcome Kagome.

Inuyasha: (Evil glare at both girls)

S.M: Kagome would you be nice and sweet and kind and…

Kagome: What?

S.M: Will you do the Disclaimer… I forgot that I'm- I'm allergic to admitting that things don't belong to me… And- And- I have something- something to do. Yea.

Inuyasha: Don't believe her she's going to go meet DO-U-san! (He yelled)

Kagome: (Looked at her) I'll do it for you but you have to do something for me.

S.M: What?

Kagome: (Whispers in S.M's ear. And giggles.)

S.M: Well of coarse.

Kagome: (Blushes)

S.M: Oh yeah… I have one thing I need to ask. I've only seen the first like 2 episodes of Inuyasha and I've read a lot about it online but I can't find exactly what Kikyo and Kagome's miko powers are if anyone can help me I'd be very grateful. Let me know in a review if you can help me out. Thanks… Now buh-bye. (Leaves)

Inuyasha: Kagome… why'd you sit me> I didn't…

Kagome: Osuwari

::Smack::

Kagome: Serenity Madison does not own Inuyasha-

Inuyasha: Damn right…

Kagome: Osuwari…

::Smack::

Inuyasha: God damn it that hurt!

Kagome: Well maybe if you'd keep your big mouth shut.

Inuyasha: …

Kagome: You learn quickly… Anyway, Serenity doesn't own any characters or the rights to them or any part of the show. But she did write the story and does own the not so original plot line, as well as the characters Yui, Yue, Umi, Akio, as well as the sometimes-appearing Kagime. Also she does not own Syaoran or Meiling who make a slight appearance as my cousins from Honk Kong, or Sakura who may visit. So please don't sue her. Because she only has a dollar to her name, so if you take that from her she won't be able to take the bus to school on Monday. And then she'll be absent for class, and then she'll end up dropping out of college. And she won't get a good career, and she's be a bum who lives in her mom's basement only to come out to tell you if there'll be 6 more weeks winter, sorry the Pensacola Phil, a groundhog… well you get where I'm going with this… So please believe that she doesn't own the show Inuyasha or any of us.

Inuyasha: Damn Straight

Kagome: Osuwari!

::Smack::

Kagome: Well I hope you enjoy the first chapter of Serenity Madison's very first Inuyasha FanFic ever.





Protection from afar only seems to bring me closer.

@~~Goodbye and a hidden Stranger~~@

By: Yui





"Kagome-chan!!!"

The not so young Shippou whined to the teenage girl. She looked at him through watering eyes. They have been searching for the shards for just under 2 years and have finally collected them all and beat Naraku. And Kagome decided as much as she didn't want but she thought should return home and try being a full time student again. They've all changed both physically and emotionally but none probably as much as Inuyasha and Kagome. Neither the whiney annoying youth they used to be.

"You can come visit me sometime, OK."

She told the little kitsune in front of her. He smiled and propelled himself into her arms and she hugged him tightly. She let go of him ruffling his hair as she rose to her feet. And looked to her 2 other companions. She walked up to Miroku and hugged him tightly something she was never able to do for some reason without Inuyasha getting agitated. He ruffled her already messy hair as he stepped back from her with a sad smile.

"Kagome, don't worry someday he'll come around and realize that he needs you he's just to stubborn right now, you know him."

The monk reassured her as he lifted her chin so she was looking at him.

"I- I don't care what Inuyasha feels for me!"

The girl lied.

"Yes you do Kagome-san…"

She shook her head trying to hide the tears that wanted desperately to fall.

"Miroku-kun… You don't know what happened between us. Kikyo's to important to him… We aren't friends anymore. I've severed the bond with him and he's quite happy about it, I might add."

She bit sarcastically as she kissed Miroku on the cheek and turned to Sango. She smiled lightly and Sango enveloped her in a tight hug. She herself let out some tears and began to cry with Kagome. She looked up at the Youkai Exterminator in front of her and sighed as she smiled again.

"I'm going to miss you Sango-chan."

She told her friend.

"Kagome-chan..."

Sango sighed as she handed some articles of clothing and stood next to Miroku. Kagome sadly lifted her pack onto her shoulders and looked back at all her friends.

"I really hope that you'll all come and visit me sometime. I'll be hurt if you don't."

She said trying to the seriousness of her statement with a fake laugh. They saw through it though.

"Kagome, you don't have to pretend to be happy we know you're sad about leaving us. We'll miss you too, but I'll visit you as soon as I can."

Shippou said in a mischievous tone that made her genuinely laugh. She smiled at them one last time and turned and headed into the forest towards the dry well her smile fading once again, to change into a frown for a long time. She looked up at the listless and depressing sky as she stopped in her tracks looking around her; she felt like someone was around her but she soon ignored it and let the sadness inside overwhelm her. She looked straight ahead as she fell to her knees in tears.

"I'm so sorry Inuyasha!!! What have I done to make you disgust me so much? Even before our fight you've been angry with me."

She sobbed as she tried to clear her eyes, she worked her way to her feet once more. And made her way to the well, she was now in front of the well and she took one last look at the world that's held so much adventure, and the people she cares about and the person she loves even if he doesn't love her in return.

She slowly climbed into the well and flowed through a calm sea of breathless water and found herself again on the hard ground and looked above and found herself in the safety of her well house. She knew she was going to be a surprise to her mother in her present state. Her clothes and skin were stained with dirt, mud and stench. Her hair was down past her butt with 2 ponytails by her ears, and the same crust with clods of dirt and blood and even cut in some places from battles, and close calls. Her skirt had been ripped and torn, and was scantily short, and she was wearing her hanyou protectors undershirt which was 3 sizes to large and hung practically off her body. She lifted her shirt and looked at the discolored skin on hr stomach, she had gained 2 severe scars and a strange mark that looked like a human and paw print combined on her hip with deep claw marks.

Not to mention that she's grown a few inches and isn't the same little girl that left her home time and time again.

"I forgot to give it back to him, oh well if he ever comes to see me I'll give it back to him."

She said to herself as she walked out of the shrine and towards her home. She walked in the front door kicking off what was left of her rotted shoes and was about to yell for her family when she heard her moms shrill yell.

"Souta did you forget to take the trash out again?"

She heard her mother yell as she walked in the house, she felt embarrassed knowing it was her.

"I took it out the other day."

He yelled in reply to his mother's question. She listened to them talk and enjoyed the sounds of their voices a well as the smell of the warm clean home. She looked up and saw as her mother came into view heading into the living room. She stared at her, as her mother turned and noticed the dirty girl walking into her home. She seemed to look at her like she didn’t know who she was. She opened her mouth to say something but stopped herself as she just stepped closer to her. Her eyes grew large as a realization hit her. She knew she had recognized the dirt-encrusted girl that walked in the house.

"Kagome?"

She asked. The ball of crusty dirt looked at her still in a state of surprise.

"Mo- mother?"

Kagome asked not quite confused just stunned and overwhelmed. Her mother ran over to her to hug her but nearly passed out from the smell that was pouring from her tinted daughter. She blocked her nose and slowly crept towards her…

"Kagome, you need a long bath and then we can talk."

She said as she grabbed her newfound daughter dragging her to the bathroom. She grabbed her bag and all her stuff and set it on the floor while she ran some warm water.

Two and a half-hours later Kagome arose from the bath smelling clean and looking like a normal human being once again. She smelled her skin and was disappointed when she didn't smell the scent of Inuyasha she was so used to on her skin, from always being so close to him. She grabbed a large towel and wrapped it around her and looked in the mirror observing herself. She had changed slightly her hair was still a wavy intense black but it was longer flowing almost to her knees now that it wasn't tangled into a nest, and she was taller and had a figure now. She finished observing and left and walked out of the bathroom and found her mom in her room. She waked in slowly as to not startle her but she failed and her mom jumped.

"Is it really you or is it just a wonderful dream that you have returned?"

She asked her daughter. Kagome smiled and sat besides her mother hugging her tightly.

"I'm home mother, for good, the hunt for the shards, is over and Inuyasha and the others have beaten Naraku… And there's peace once again and with the jewel here they don't have to worry about danger."

She had to force herself to finish as Inuyasha came to her mind again. Her mother looked at her for a moment as if she really was a figment of a dream, and would slip away.

"You know you start high school tomorrow?"

She asked anxiously. Kagome looked at her and nodded. She went to her closet to grab some pajamas and left to go into the bathroom to toss them on and returned to her room to find her mother was still standing in her room staring out the window.

"You know when you first left us on your long stay I was fine with it expecting you to come back in a day or 2 a week tops… But you never returned, I waited and you never came back. I had no idea, what you were doing or where you might be and I had no idea. I- one day I even tried to climb into the well but all I found was hard dirt bottom that almost looked like it was mocking me. Like it knew how to get to you but wanted to string me a long. I stayed out there for nights till one day I just gave up. I wanted you to return. No not even that I just wanted some sign that you were alive, alright and happy."

Kagome's mother told her while staring out the window facing the well house. Kagome didn't know what to say. She went up to her turned mother and startled her when she wrapped her arms around her apologetically.

"I'm sorry mother. I couldn't return we had traveled away from the bone eaters well so I couldn't return and rather than coming back arbitrarily I just came back when we finished."

She explained with a saddened look peeking on her features. She let go of her mother and sadly smiled up at her trying to appear happy. Her mother gave her a concerned look.

"Sweetie you think someday you can tell me about your adventure?"

She asked with a pleading smile. Kagome gave her a nervous laugh and nodded and finally noticed something. She looked around to see if she could find her clothes but they were nowhere.

"Mom, where did my clothes that I was wearing go?"

She gave me a strange look,

"What? Oh, you mean that disgustingly torn skirt and that large and dirty shirt?"

She asked suspiciously. Kagome nodded her head slowly and her mother smiled.

"I threw away the damaged clothing."

"You what!"

She paused for a moment before continuing her rant.

"I really don’t care about the skirt but the shirt- that shirt wasn't mi- It was Inuyasha's…"

She whimpered as tears were starting to well in her smoky eyes.

"Relax Kagome honey, I never said I threw a way the shirt, I said I threw away the damaged clothing, the shirt was perfect just dirty, so I washed it. But it is really big, but maybe it'll shrink."

She smiled an amused smile at her daughter. Kagome shook her mothers arm playfully and fell into her bed and lay under the covers.

"We can wear normal clothes at our high school right?"

She yawned; her mother nodded quietly in reply and Kagome rolled over asking if her mom could have Inuyasha's shirt ready for tomorrow. And fell into sleep.



The Next Morning

"Kagome, wake up."

Her mother called to her sweetly. She eventually rose from her sleep and wandered over to her desk when she saw something on it. And found the shirt was neatly folded, along with a pair of jeans that looked like they'd fit her new figure, she grabbed the shirt hugging it tightly to her. And she ran to her closet grabbing a plain light gray T-shirt. She put her clothes on and then put Inuyasha's shirt on over her own, and swirled around hugging the shirt close to her body and inhaling the musky scent that was embedded in it. She grabbed her book bag, which her mother had gotten ready for her, and ran downstairs. She grabbed a piece of toast and made it out of the house before her mother even knew she was awake and walked alone down the street.

"Ka- Kagome!"

She heard being yelled unsurely from behind her. She whirled around and saw 2 guys and a small group of girls behind her. She waved to them not sure exactly who they were, as she knew they weren't sure of her. (Kagome's last trip to feudal Japan spanned over 2 and a half years. So she hasn't seen her family, or people from school in a long time.) She looked at them slowly remembering the guy in front of her.

"Hojo-san?"

She asked questioningly. He smiled and ran up to her and hugged her, she looked at him closely he was now almost 6 feet and quite muscular, and his deep chestnut hair had lightened to a musty brown color. He still had those geeky glasses but now they seemed to fit him better.

"You miss me?"

She questioned sarcastically as she gave them a fake laugh. She smiled at him and the others as she slowly start remembering all of her friends. The girls looked at her strangely as they walked towards their new school.

"Kagome it hasn’t been the same without you I thought you had died or something but your mother told us she sent you to school in Hong Kong with your cousin's. (Guess their names. hehe) You even missed the first day of school on Monday. (It's Thursday)"

Kagome sighed deeply and looked at her friends all around her once more.

"You have all changed so much since the last time I really saw you."

She said with a sophisticated smile.

"Us??? I wasn’t even sure it was you. You're beautiful, you've gotten taller, your hair is so long, and pretty, you're very different from the Kagome we know."

A girl spoke.

"I really haven't Kagime. Just aged by pain."

Kagome whispered to herself as she waved a hand in the air and absently watched her large sleeve fluttering.

"That's quite an interesting shirt Kagome, did you get it in Hong Kong?"

She nodded thinking back to the little incident that led to her getting to wear Inuyasha's shirt.



FLASHBACK
"STUPID GIRL LOOK OUT!"

A watchful Inuyasha yelled to Kagome who was in the way of some projectiles that were heading for her. She looked away from the demon she was fighting and was paralyzed by what she saw coming for her. A few things happened from her mistake, the demon found a perfect opportunity to stab her with the fire spear. And when she snapped back into awareness one of the arrows that was coming for her hit their mark but Inuyasha jumped in front of her before the others could hurt her. He was pushed forward by the force of the arrows hitting him and he stumbled forward landing on top of Kagome who screamed in excruciating pain. Inuyasha quickly jumped up and looked at her she was charred and had 2 sharp objects stabbing through her. He tossed an evil glare to the 4 demons that had attacked and injured Kagome.

"In- uya- sha"

Her frail voice whimpered. He looked down to the girl who was bleeding, burnt and gasping next to him. They'd split up from Sango, Shippou, and Miroku so he alone had to protect the Miko reincarnation. He looked to the large demons around him.

"Soul stealer!"

He yelled as he attacked the Youkai without mercy. Once they were all dead he was quickly at Kagome's side. He managed to pull out the spear that had been lit because it was smooth and didn't fight but the arrow was designed in such a way that it would stay in the skin so he broke the long arrow and ignored Kagome's cries. He lifted her shirt as much as he could with out causing her anymore pain. And dug his hand into the side of her hip bearing his claws deep as he called a chant. By the time he was done he felt weaker but she was going to be ok. He took off her shirt putting his large off-white under shirt on her.

ENDFLASHBACK



"Kagome?"

Her friend broke her reverie.

"Uh… Yep, my cousin Syaoran's (hehe like you didn't see that coming.) best friend gave it to me one day when I ruined my shirt and I've had it ever since."

She looked at her female friends and they were all giving her dreamy looks and Hojo gave a scowl. They had since arrived in front of the new school and Kagome walked in nervously and went to the office to see if she could get a schedule seeing as how she just returned the night before.

She hassled with them about why she was away and why her mother didn't get a schedule with her and other junk. She finally made it out of the office and made it to her homeroom and joined her friends who were talking with some other girls she didn't know.

"Hey everyone, this is the friend I've mentioned Higurashi Kagome."

She introduced quickly and went back to the gossip they were doing before I got there. I noticed a small group of guys looking at me out to the corner of my eye but ignored them.

"Yea… I hear he has short dark hair, the color of hers and his eyes are dark as well but they are a violet color but look black, well at least that's what was said of him."

Kagome cocked her head in mock attention at what her classmates were talking about.

"Kagome? Are you OK, you've looked so sad since we met up with you this morning."

One of Kagome's friends asked concerned. She looked to her side and saw Yue next to her, a petite girl thin with light blue hair. She nodded unconvincingly.

"I'm fine Yue-chan. Just a little sad about something."

She told her hoping she would leave it alone for now, when suddenly almost every girl in the class gasped except Yue, and Kagome. The teacher walked in and everyone took their seats, and Kagome's eyes too were drawn to the arrival next to the teacher. He was tall, and had short hair like people had said but it was a weird silvery gray color, and his eyes from far away were black. There was something about him that made Kagome feel strange but she wasn’t sure what.

"Class is there a Higurashi-san here today?"

He asked politely and Kagome raised her hand nervously. She could hear some people making mumbled remarks but ignored them and rose from her seat.

"Well class we have 2 new students with us today. Higurashi-san and Shitsuren-san."

The class looked at both eagerly; all the girls wanted the new boy, while the guys wanted Kagome. The 2 standing students looked at each other and Kagome blushed as she sadly took her seat. She looked out the window daydreaming about Inuyasha again. And the next thing she knew the ball rang and she packed up her stuff and started to the next class she saw on her schedule, she walked her head moping and she unexpectedly walked into someone and fell to the ground. She looked up to see a tall guy in front of her staring down at her annoyed through his smoky green eyes.

"Watch where you're going Higurashi-san."

The tall boy yelled. Kagome looked back down at the ground and continued to walk.

"Hey Higurashi-san, you're not even going to apologize?"

The rude boy asked walking up to her when she stopped to look at him. She muttered a nervous apology and kept walking the boy let her leave laughing hard. But Kagome was surprised when she heard a deep voice behind her that almost sounded like a growl.

"You ass, she didn't mean to bump into you why'd you have to be such a major…"

The deep voice yelled but was cut off by Hojo, who dragged the guy past Kagome. He stopped for a moment to stare at her and she felt another



She was going to decline but she could tell her friends wouldn't have that. She humble nodded and they walked to class. She sat at an empty desk and she found that a lot of her friends as well as the new guy were in her class, in fact all her friends were in all her classes and too was the new guy. Finally lunch came and Kagome found her friends at a table with the new guy she was on her way to go sit with them when a guy came over to her. And invited her to sit with him. She nervously accepted and quietly ate her lunch making conversation with the people sitting with her. She had a pretty good time but lunch ended and she walked the halls alone.

"Hey Hirugashi-san. I'll see you after school."

A tall boy she was sitting with short black hair said. She looked at him strangely and laughed.

"You don't remember me do you?"

He asked with a laugh as they walked.

"I'm Ekuno Akio. I knew you for like a month before you disappeared. I'm Yue-chan's boyfriend."

He said with a big smile. She nodded in recognition and they walked.

"So that's why you asked me to sit with you guys… I'm sorry I didn’t remember you at all."

She apologized and a strange look popped onto his face, as he shook his head.

"No… everyone thinks you're cute but my friend likes you a lot and he wanted me to see if I could get you to sit with us."

He told her she just stared at him not showing anything, not even a smile, a blush even a frown, and walked to her class. As she turned she noticed the new student staring at her again; she shivered and continued to her class. She walked into the classroom and took a seat and the bell rang and stragglers wandered into the room shortly after and she saw that new boy again. He didn't pay any attention to her and she was relieved and the class passed quickly and she was finally free to get out of that place.

She sighed as she walked and heard someone calling her name. She turned and saw a girl approaching her.

"Um… Yui-chan"

She said as she looked at the girl approaching her. She was about her height and had sandy short blonde hair and pointy ears. 'Theirs something strange about her but I can't place it.' She thought to herself as she found a group of people running to them, they ran up to them and dragged her with them as they headed for the mall. They hung out that afternoon for a few hours chatting and happily gossiping everyone was having fun that is except Kagome, she was still depressed over the proud and ridiculously obnoxious hanyou. She kept glancing at Yui a weird feeling gripped at her that she couldn’t drop. She talked a little with the Kagime that is when she could get her to stop starring at Hojo. She made small talk with Hojo, Yue, and Yui, they all tried to get Kagome to tell them what was wrong or at least crack a smile.

She eventually had enough and excused herself making up some excuse about needing to take care of Souta for the night and headed back home staring up at the moon as she did so. She took a deep breath and noticed something out of the corner of her eye. She turned and saw that guy walking in the same direction she turned to face him completely, which caught him by surprise because he didn't even know she was there and he walked into her.

"OWW!"

She murmured. He looked down at her and jumped back.

"May I ask your name?"

She asked curtly feeling strange around him.

"I'm going home if you don't mind…"

He answered she swore she heard him mumble something but she didn't know what.

"I don't mind. I don't even care I just wanted to know your name."

She growled matching his sarcasm bite for bite. It felt so familiar and right for her to be like this with the strange boy but she didn't like it, she was acting like she did with Inuyasha. She shrunk back and turned to continue walking.

" Shitsuren… Shi- tsur- en Mamoru."

He yelled for some reason trying to get her to come back. She looked back at him uncomfortable but stopped and gave him an even stranger look.

"Broken hearted protector? Interesting. You seem to annoying to fall in love with, but I guess that's just me."

She shouted back to him with a smirk. She started to laugh as she could see the boy getting angry. He glared at her as she continued to laugh.

"Well excuse me… KA-GO-ME! Stupid girl…"

He finished in an almost inaudible mumble. She instantly stopped laughing and stared at him, having heard his last little remark.

"Don't ever call me that!"

She yelled as actual fire could be seen in her eyes. He had to back up slightly as she came at him standing only a few inches in front of her. His eyes look fakely dark like they were hiding something but she ignored that and also noticed they held something familiar but she didn't allow herself to stare into them and backed away.

"Sorry… didn't know you were so sensitive"

He mocked trying to hide his anxiousness with his mocking tone. But it didn't do very well.

"It's not that. And it's not any of your business."

She said with tears threatening to break free. She whipped around and brushed him off as she started to walk away again. But for some reason that guy couldn’t take a clue and in no time was next to her.

"This is interesting where the hell did you get it?"

He asked as he fiddled with her sleeve. She ripped her sleeve out of his caressing grip and ignored him but he stayed next to her the whole time an annoying smirk curled his lips. She stopped yet again and looked to him.

"Will you please leave me alone! Why did you choose me to pester?"

She yelled staring at the boy again. He just looked at her smugly. An urge crawled over her and she couldn’t control it and the words fell out of her mouth.

"Osuwari"

She said as if instinct. She jumped back and quickly covered her mouth. The boy fell to the ground and she looked at him even more confused. He pulled his face from the ground clearly unhappy and shocked.

"Why'd you do that stupid girl?"

He yelled as he got up from the ground.

"You- you moved... Mhmm… I was grabbing onto your- shoulders and you jumped back, and I fell forward."

He stumbled to tell her. She didn't believe him but tossed him a-whatever glance and continued home. She kept looking back at him from the corner of her eye and finally made it to her house. She glanced over to the well house and swore she saw a shadow duck inside with the well but was really to tired to go look and most likely fond an owl or a cat so she continued into the house. She yelled hello to her mom but continued upstairs. She got undressed and slipped into a pair of pajamas and stood in front of the mirror at her desk. She just stared at it and saw images of her friend's back in the feudal era. And Inuyasha and the new boy at her school as well. She shook the thoughts and forced herself to smile and lie down on her bed.



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Kagome: That was OK… I guess… I'm not that cranky am I?

Inuyasha: It's perfect. You were just right. (Laughs) My only complaint is I'm not in it.

Kagome: There's one really good point about it.

Inuyasha: (Frowns) I hope when I come along I get you for that.

Kagome: HA-HA-HA

Inuyasha: Kagome loves me…

Kagome: I do not…

Inuyasha: Yes you do. (Laughs evilly)

Kagome: DO NOT!

Inuyasha: Feh… Whatever you say.

Kagome: Thank-you

Inuyasha: Yeah RIGHT!!! You know you do!!!

Kagome: INUYSAHA!

::She instantly runs after him. A chase ensues. While they are busy trying to kill and avoid being killed by each other someone slipped in the invisible door.::



S.M: Hey there me once again. I've already gotten reviews saying people find it a little confusing. If you could tell me what parts are mixing you up I would appreciate it because then I can go back and fix it, and make it better. I always write confusingly, and people get lost all the time reading my stories. But if I can I go back and try to fix it or at least explain what's confusing. So PLEASE let me know.