InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Rain ❯ Turbulent Emotions ( Chapter 4 )

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Inuyasha

 

I'm quiet the entire way home. I realize I should say something to Kagome, comfort her or hug her or something but my mind is racing with thoughts and every time I find something worth saying I freeze.

 

 

 

This damned Naraku guy has me wanting to go after him and kill him now for making Kagome so miserable and practically making her life a living hell but I know that that won't be possible until Kagome's settled in. Instead, I dwell on what Kagome's going to do now that she's going to live with me (no exceptions) and how we're going to get her life back on track to what it was before Naraku crushed her spirit.

 

 

 

Of course we'll have to put her through the rest of school but there's no way I'm sending her back to the United States lest she run into Naraku again so I'll just have to get her to take the same courses online or something…I'll have to get her a job or something so she doesn't feel like I'm paying for everything (Feh, women) but I'll still probably get her a credit card under my name, knowing Kagome well enough to know she won't spend it all…

 

Helping her pick up her old life again won't be so hard. I'll take her to see her mom, call up a few of her friends from high school that are still hanging around Tokyo and pretty much make her as socially happy as I can. There's also the issue of her living here at the mansion with me. I'll have to do a lot of remodeling, get Sango and a couple of her friends to come over and help paint her room all kinds of girly colors that I would never have come up with in a million years…

 

 

 

I nearly pass the house as I go driving by, lost in my own thoughts and it takes all my concentration to park the correct way in the driveway. When we pull in and I cut the engine I don't move and it takes me a minute to realize that Kagome hasn't moved either. She's still staring out the windshield as though we're driving, eyes still flickering over different objects, taking in the expansive lawn and the elegant columns in front of my mini mansion. Glancing in her direction I sigh mightily and she turns her head slowly to look at me and I open my mouth only to find that I'm speechless.

 

 

 

However, when I catch the silent tears rolling down her face I solidified my resolve and whispered, “Oh Kagome its okay…” I reached over for her and my heart nearly broke when she flinched away, closing her eyes tightly as though she were afraid of me. “Kagome? Kagome what the hell's wrong with you?” I ask, getting angry all over again without meaning to.

 

 

 

This combined with learning about Naraku today was just too much and I was starting to feel like it was all my fault. I should have been there to protect her. Without meaning to I let out a growl and jumped out of the car quick fast and in a hurry, scurrying around the front of the car before reaching Kagome's door and wrenching it open.

 

 

 

Instead of the effect I had hoped for however, she merely sat there sobbing quietly as she whispered, “Inuyasha…please don't do this…”

 

 

 

This only caused my infuriation to grow into a blinding rage and it took all self control not to grab her out of the car and shake her frantically until the information I wanted came tumbling out of her. Instead, I took a deep breath and leaned against the door frame, my face in my hand as I listened to her sobs become even greater with each passing moment. It was ultimately a few minutes before either of us said anything.

 

 

 

Then, Kagome murmured in a shaky voice, “Why are you doing this Inuyasha? You promised that you wouldn't get mad…”

 

 

 

“How the hell am I supposed to feel Kagome? I just found out that you've been kidnapped and raped for the past 3 years and I wasn't there to protect you! You expect me to be happy about that?”

 

 

 

“Don't you see? This is why I didn't want to tell you it's tearing me apart!”

 

 

 

“Kagome I'm trying to protect you and you won't even let me near you now! What the hell is so wrong with you now that you feel you can't trust me?” She was silent for a minute muttering something quietly under breath.

 

 

 

“What?” I asked and she turned to me, whispering in tones I could barely hear, “I said you wouldn't understand…”

 

 

 

Running a hand through my snow white hair I felt like ripping it out as I sighed and replied, “Kagome…come on. Help me to understand so that I can help you. Don't you see? I would do anything for you and you're cutting me off. Kagome-,”

 

 

“Inuyasha…”

 

 

 

“-I'm really trying to understand. Is it me?”

 

 

 

“No, of course not…”

 

 

 

“Because if it's me I can change Kagome. I'll change for-!”

 

 

 

“Inuyasha STOP IT!”

 

 

 

The outburst has me frozen as I stare at her as though she's lost her mind. For a minute we just breathe hard, looking at each other with pain mirrored on each others faces. I don't understand why she is being so difficult or why she's cutting me off suddenly. The only thing that I want is for her to be safe and how can I protect her if she isn't telling me from what?

 

 

 

Finally I just sigh exasperatedly and walk away, heading up to the house before I do something we'll both regret. I think I hear her call my name softly but I don't even bother to turn around nor acknowledge that I've heard her. My mind is a wreck right now and I just need to be alone and think.

 

 

 

I'm halfway to the front door when her gentle hand grasps my shoulder and I hear her whisper, “Inuyasha…please…don't leave me…I-I don't have anyone else to turn to right now…Just…help me?”

 

 

 

It takes only a moment before I've whipped around and I'm holding her protectively against my chest letting her tears cascade down the front of my t-shirt for the second time in as many days. Her sobs drown out anything she's trying to say but I do catch words like “sorry” and “my fault” before she gives a final shudder and goes quiet though my t-shirt is getting steadily wetter.

 

 

 

At last, I feel her collapse against me and I realize she must be exhausted between crying herself to pieces and reliving her worst past memories so I carry her into the house as careful as though she's a china doll, settling her down on my bed to let her rest.

 

 

 

Kagome

 

One minute I'm in Inuyasha's warm embrace and the next I'm floating in the dark, nothing around me as I look around confusedly. In a way this place is peaceful; so far away from my troubles I find myself wishing I could stay in this dark place for a longer time than I know my dreams will allow.

 

 

“Kagome…my sweet you've disobeyed me…” Naraku's cold voice breaks through my senses and I turn around frantically in the dark, spinning around like a top and searching for the source of the dreaded voice from my past.

 

 

 

“Where are you you coward? Come back to kill me?” My voice echoes around me and even as I listen to it I think I sound frightened.

 

 

 

His cold laugh sends shivers up my spine and he suddenly appears in front of me, a menacing creature in a suit. I cry out in fright but then immediately quiet down enough to look at him defiantly.

 

 

 

He rearranges his features into a frown as he whispers, “I am no coward. I have come to retrieve what is mine and that is you.”

 

I could feel my eyes widen and I stepped back, a cold sweat breaking out as I shook my head boldly, determined not to give in. I whisper, “No…you'll never get me. Inuyasha will protect me!”

 

 

Smiling cruelly once more his hand turns into a large black tentacle that grasped my wrist, pulling me sickeningly close to him until I couldn't breathe. Gasping, I tried desperately to pull away, twisting and writhing and pulling away as though my life depended on it.

 

 

 

Finally I gave up; tears of frustration pouring down my face as I completely surrendered to my traitorously tired body. I heard Naraku laughing above me before he turned my sobbing form around so that my back was pressed against his chest.

 

 

 

His voice vibrated through my body causing my sobs to increase tenfold as he spoke, “But Kagome dear, Inuyasha is your punishment…”

 

 

Gasping I look up in time to see Inuyasha before me, crouched down on one knee, breathing hard and bleeding everywhere form what it seemed like. “Inuyasha? Inuyasha get up! Get up and fight you said you would protect me!” I screamed but the hanyou on the ground in front of me didn't seem to hear me.

 

 

Chuckling darkly once more Naraku pulls out a gun as he exclaims, “This is your punishment Kagome. To watch everyone you love die at my hands…” I only have time to scream as the gun shot goes off and Inuyasha collapses to the floor in a puddle of blood…

 

 

“Inuyasha!”

 

When I open my eyes I'm not surprised to find myself in Inuyasha's bed once again feeling incredibly sore and incredibly drained. My dream has me more than a little shaken up but I've had far worst nightmares that involved torturing and then killing every member of my small family. Sitting up carefully I grasp my spinning head and groan lightly, the pounding sounding like some kind of rhythmic drum that just won't let up.

 

 

 

At a glance out the windows I notice that it's pitch black outside and realize I've been asleep for hours and that it's most likely about 1'o clock in the morning, maybe later. I feel bad for kicking Inuyasha out of his bed but he wouldn't have let me sleep on the couch anyway so what was the point of arguing.

 

 

 

Looking around at the red curtains and poster covered walls I wonder vaguely what Inuyasha has been up to all these years by himself. The last I heard from him in America he was dating some super hot model but that didn't seem to be the case anymore and if it was she would get quite a shock if she found me in his bed one morning looking as disheveled as I was then…

 

 

 

“That's what I'm saying mom she's back…Yes mom I know…I know you haven't seen her in 7 years…I just got her about 3 days ago…But mom she just got home…Mom please don't cry she hasn't seen her own mother yet…Of course she'll want to see you…”

 

 

 

I'm jerked out of my thoughts as I hear Inuyasha on the phone, apparently having a hard time convincing her about me. I had to smile at that. Inuyasha who had the large reputation of kicking someone's ass over something as trivial as saying the wrong thing had a hard time with his own mother. How ironic.

 

 

 

Climbing out of bed I make my way to the sound of Inuyasha's voice which just happened to be downstairs, stumbling a little in the oversized bathrobe I had draped over me. He doesn't seem to see me even as I climb down the staircase so I decide that the best thing to do is just wait for the right moment to introduce myself (*wink, wink*). Going around to the back of the couch right behind Inuyasha I listen in on the conversation I can so audibly hear now that I'm right next to the speaker.

 

 

 

“Mom I understand that you wanna have a party and everything but Kagome's tired and I don't think that she's up to it yet…What do you mean what do I mean she's not up to it Kagome's been through a lot!...I can't tell you that mom she's got to tell you herself when the time is right…No you can't speak to her mom…because she's asleep…”

 

 

This is the break I've been waiting for and I snatch the phone out of Inuyasha's hand, ignoring the shocked look on his face and the growl directed at me. Taking a deep breath I answer in pleasant tones, “Hello there Ms. Izayoi how are you?”

 

“…I can talk to whomever the hell I-Kagome?”

 

I giggle a little as Inuyasha's mother realizes that she is no longer cursing at her son but at her pretty much adopted daughter.

 

 

“Yes, Izayoi it's me.”

 

 

 

“KAGOME!”

 

Her excited squeal has me pulling the phone away from my ear and Inuyasha to clamp his sensitive ones down on his head so that they're hidden in his hair. I replace my ear to the headset only when Izayoi's screams have died down to excited shrieks and catch only part of what she's said.

 

 

“…how have you been dear I haven't heard from you in years?”

 

 

 

Sighing I exclaim, “I've been…well Izayoi. How about you I heard you got your sons to get you a nice expensive home in the rural?”

 

 

 

I hear her chuckle lightly on the other end before she replies, “It was quite a simple process actually once I, ah, used my persuading talent on them.”

 

 

 

I laughed and noted Inuyasha's small grin, possibly at the pleasant memory of his mother threatening him but it was hard to be sure.

 

 

 

“Yes I've found that persuading Inuyasha is an easy task once you use the right technique.” I giggle at Inuyasha's glare and begin rubbing his ear so that he forgets all about being mad at me and slumps on the couch in quite the relaxed manner.

 

 

 

Going back to what Izayoi was saying I realize that I've missed her sentence completely so I say, “I'm sorry Izayoi what were you saying?”

 

 

“I was saying dear that I'm going to have a party for you in your honor! Think of it as a…family reunion of sorts! I'll have all the caterers called up and invitations sent out to only our friends and family. Oh Kagome it's going to be-!”

 

 

“Izayoi don't you think that's a lot for just me?” I interrupt and I hear the phone line go absolutely silent for a moment so that I have to ask, “Izayoi? Are you there?”

 

 

It was a big mistake it seems to throw her off her plans. I realize this as Inuyasha shakes his head and whispers, “You shouldn't have done that. You're gonna get cussed out now…”

 

 

“KAGOME HIGURASHI DO YOU NOT REALIZE HOW MUCH THIS FAMILY HAS MISSED YOU WHILE YOU WERE GONE?”

 

 

 

She explodes and all I can do is sputter, “No-I mean yes but-!”

 

 

 

“WE ARE GOING TO HAVE THIS PARTY IF IT'S THE LAST THING I DO DO YOU AGREE?”

 

 

“Yes Izayoi I agree…” I reply meekly and this seems to calm her down a bit.

 

 

 

However, I can't stop the heavy breathing coming from the other end and I'm too terrified to say anything until she does. Instead I occupy myself with punching Inuyasha in the shoulder who is laughing pathetically into his hand at my predicament. Finding it remotely unfunny I bopped him hard enough so that he had to rub the injured spot but just lightly enough so that he's glaring at me playfully.

 

 

 

Finally, Izayoi seems to regain her kind personality and she speaks into the phone, “Well then it's all set then. We'll have the party this weekend. That'll give you three days to go see your family and let everyone else know that your back and that'll give me enough time to send out the invitations and find a way to get everyone out here…”

 

 

 

Immediately she delves into preparations and I'm stuck on the phone for another 30 minutes before I proclaim that I need a nap as it's now almost 2 in the morning.

 

 

 

Agreeing wholeheartedly she clucks, “Oh dearie you should be in bed! Curse that stupid son of mine for keeping you up this late! Both of you should get some rest. I'll give you a call in a couple of days to see how things are going and let you know the last minute plans. Remember this party is going to be all about you so nothing is too over the top. You can have whatever you want whether it's a house or a wedding cake. You name it. You understand?”

 

 

 

I smile and whisper, “Yes, thank you Izayoi.”

 

 

 

Chuckling the last thing I hear before she hangs up is, “And another thing Kagome, call me mother.”

 

 

I sputter as she hangs up and then hang the phone up on the receiver, looking a little dazed when my mind is really the whirling subject here. Turning at the sound of Inuyasha's chuckling I glare at him and yell, “And what the hell is so funny?”

 

 

 

He only laughs harder as he points his finger at me and says, “You're face! Man does my mom have you convinced or what?” Glaring daggers at him I suddenly get a picture from when we were younger of a tickling match that I won and smile deviously.

 

 

 

He obviously doesn't notice as he's still laughing but I exclaim, “Oh you think that's funny do you? Try this on for size!” I launch myself across the couch at him and the shocked expression on his face is enough to send me into fits of giggles as I tickle him relentlessly, ignoring his gasping pleas for me to stop.

 

 

 

My fingers continue along his ribs until there are tears pouring down his face when suddenly his hands grab my wrists. I form my mouth in a little O of surprise before he flips me over so that I'm underneath him as he begins my tickling session. Struggling underneath him his fingers moved openly along my stomach until I was screaming with laughter.

 

 

 

“Inuyasha…ha-ha...Inuyasha I can't breathe! HAHA!”

 

 

 

Laughing he exclaimed, “Feh, don't think you're gonna get off that easy!”

 

 

 

The tickling continues until I buck upwards wildly with my hips and then we both freeze as I realize what position we're in. Inuyasha is straddling my hips, one hand pinning my arms above my head while the other froze in mid tickle.

 

 

 

Blushing furiously he jumps off of me and scoots to the complete opposite end of the couch leaving me to my own flaming cheeks.

 

 

 

A few moments pass in silence before I whisper, “Inuyasha?”

 

 

 

He turns his head slightly in my direction though both his ears are swiveled my way as he replies, “Yeah?”

 

 

 

I take a deep breath and look away before continuing on what I know I have to say. “I'm…sorry. About earlier today. I should've told you what was on my mind.” I notice him shaking his head but I continue as though I don't notice.

 

 

 

“It's just… I didn't think that, after finding out about me and Naraku, you would want someone like me here with you anymore. I just feel so…dirty. So, it's not you Inuyasha it's me and I mean it. I don't want us to get involved anymore than we are as friends right now because I just…I don't think that I could handle that right-.”

 

 

 

I'm cut off as I feel Inuyasha wrap his arms protectively around me, pulling me into a tight hug that's nearly cutting off circulation to my spine. “There's nothing wrong with you Kagome don't let me hear you or anybody else say it. You're the best friend I ever had and you don't ever have to be afraid of me. I'm not like this Naraku guy. I would never hurt you. Do you understand?”

 

 

 

I nod and sigh contentedly, snuggling further into his chest as I reply, “I know you would never hurt me Inuyasha but it's just something that I have to get over for myself. Please. I know that what we have is special but I can't guarantee that we'll be able to be together with Naraku still out there and with me…getting over the past…”

 

 

 

I feel him nod above me before tucking my head under his chin in a more comfortable position. “Feh, get some sleep Kags. We've gotta go see your family tomorrow and I know how tiring that'll be for you.”

 

 

 

I shudder at the thought of seeing my mother again, wondering what she'll think of me once she finds out about my corrupted past but it disappears as suddenly as it started. I know my mother will accept me as well as Inuyasha did and I have nothing to fear about her reaction towards me.

 

 

 

Her vengeance on Naraku, however, will be more dangerous than even Inuyasha's once she finds out. I laugh softly before I drift off as I think, Gods forbid I tell Izayoi…

 

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A/N: Hey guys I've been biting my nails from the sidelines as I read this over and I'm not quite sure how I feel about this chapter but if I did all the crap to it that I wanted to you wouldn't get this chappie for another month so I'll just stick with what I got and hope you liked it!

 

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