InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Resurgence ❯ Chapter 11 ( Chapter 11 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

One day changes everything, her hopes, her dreams�her love.

She thought her life was perfect, she thought she understood it all, but they took it away, and now�nothing could be as it were.

Warning: Contains material about rape.

Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Psychological / Hentai | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 05.04.2012 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 265 | Status: Work In Progress

Blanket Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha or any of the characters therein. They are the property of Rumiko Takahashi, and she does a beautiful job!

Please forgive any spelling and grammatical errors. I try to catch them if I see them, but I could have missed some. So just tell me if you see any, and I will change them.

Chapter 11

The last of my strength left as the door closed.

I covered my mouth with my hand as I began to fall to the floor on the other side of the door.

All the strength that I had built up, all the lies I would have to tell to myself and all those around me began to falter. My father had done it. He had pushed me over the edge.

My eyes started to mist over as soon as I turned away from them. Tears were pouring freely down my face now.

`Would this ever end? Would I not feel sad and ashamed every time someone would bring up his name?'

I tightly closed my eyes, `no,' I answered myself - it could never end.

As the silent sobs broke through my body I felt the footsteps outside my door retreating.

I tightly closed my eyes.

I wanted to hate my father for what he suggested. I wanted to scream that he was wrong - so wrong, but how could I? How could I hate him, yell at him…for something he knew nothing about?

He was just trying to protect me. He was only scared about the sanity of his daughter. I was the one at blame here. I was the one that was hiding everything in the dark. I was the one that was pushing all those close to me away, and I was the one that was throwing my life away.

If there was anyone to hate, anyone to scream at…it should all be directed at me - no one else.

I made to stand up and found my way over to my bay window. The sun shone brightly overhead, but I could also see a nice breeze playing with the greenery on the estate.

I turned my eyes to the left and my orbs froze where they sat.

`It couldn't be,' I admonished myself.

But there, in the tree line, was InuYasha.

He was away from the stable which is why I didn't think it was him to begin with, but as I saw his eyes lock unto mine, there was no denying it.

InuYasha was only a few hundred yards in front of me. His amber orbs penetrated me. I felt so open.

My lip trembled, but I couldn't look away.

For too long I had dreamed about him. His touch was hypnotic. His gaze was knee trembling. His love…his love was the best love I had the opportunity to know.

My eyes started to mist over.

Even from our distance I could see the pain in his liquid topaz gaze. He was pleading with me to tell him. Yearning for me to go and see him, but as much as I wanted to, I knew I couldn't.

I could not bring InuYasha into this. He still had love he could freely give. His life was not over. He was still so young. He could still move on. There was still hope for him, but for me. It was never met to be.

The sunshine that came when I found out he loved me was by far clouded, when the storm brew a month ago.

That was a different life back then. I was a different person - a different woman. The woman that he knows, the woman that he fell in love with, died the minute I made the promise to myself that I could never have him.

My life was no longer mine. The captors pulled out my heart. My heart that sounded for only him, and they stomped all over it. It was trampled now, alone in the dust of the earth somewhere along with my life with him.

He was my sweetest dream, but also my worst nightmare. He was the most perfect creature on the planet. My life with him could have brought me so much wonder. I would have never seen unhappiness with him, but now…as I thought about him, it tore at my soul.

The life I had at my fingertips. The life that I had envisioned was no longer meant for me. He was no longer meant for me. The beauty of it all was also my personal hell. The one always sought after but never obtained. That is what InuYasha now was to me.

I took one last look at the dark haired male. His stance was so much different after all this time had passed since our last encounter. Instead of standing tall, he looked almost broken, as if it were taking everything in him to stand firm in front of me.

With that thought, I had to turn away.

I could not bear to think that I was ruining him too. To hear of it was one thing, to see it was a different matter entirely.

With my back to him, I began to lower my head.

I knew he was still looking at me. I could feel his eyes penetrating my backside. They burned me where I stood.

I lowered my head, silently saying my goodbyes to the man out the window and the boy inside my heart.

A/N: Sadness!!! I just want to cry! T.T

So, I am officially back… and I am just going to post everything that I have, so if I end up going on a super long hiatus… at least you all will have something to look at

Also, as I was reading through this… I decided that it is a little dark… so I don't know if I want to change things or keep them as they are… because I do have a plan for the way things are, but like I said… DARKNESS LOL.

I hope that everyone has a great summer, and if you live in the southern hemisphere... a great winter haha.