InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Rewinding time ❯ Negotiations ( Chapter 5 )

Part V: Negotiations

 

A/N: Here s part 5, it's extra super long, so enjoy.

 

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Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, I do wish I did.

 

 

I heard the door bell and hurriedly opened the front door of my apartment. As expected it revealed Kagura wearing a light brown suit with a white shirt, so I assumed she came straight from work. I led her to the living room.

 

“Did you make these?” Kagura asked me pointing to a plate of crust free peanut butter marshmallow sandwiches resting on the coffee table. They used to be her favorite, she could eat platters of those along with a few root beers. I made the sandwiches myself for her, but I would never eat those abominations.

 

“Yes I did. Why are you surprised?” I asked her as I sat down on one of the leather sofa.

 

“No, it's just that you used to hate these” she said before wolfing down a sandwich. I almost smiled, I knew she just could not resist. It appeared that Kagura really had not changed that much.

 

“I still do. But I made them for you” I then stood up and hurried to get a can of root beer for her and a bottled water for me.

 

“I knew something was missing.” she said taking the beverage from my hand.

 

I watched her eat and wondered if she was really hungry or just trying to occupy her self as she seemed very nervous. Or maybe she was just trying to mock me by ignoring me. Anyway I was getting irritated by her silence.

 

“Kagura, why did you not tell me about Rin? Did you not think I had a right to know I was a father?” I asked her looking at straight in her ruby red eyes.

 

She looked like she was going to choke. She coughed and took a long gulp of her drink before looking at me with flaming orbs.

 

“And how was I supposed to do that? By telepathy? I had no idea of where you were! You are the one who disappeared without letting me know. And now I'm the bad guy? Give me a break! We slept together, I gave you my virginity and then you disappear without a word or telling me where you were. I went up to your house and found it empty, imagine my shock!” Kagura screamed.

 

“What are you talking about? I wrote you a letter. You are the one who did not write back!” I screamed at her, how dare she say that?

 

“A letter? What letter? I never received anything.” She exclaimed shaking her head.

 

“I wrote you a letter, where I explained everything and gave you my address. I also asked you to write back. Besides a year after that I went to your house but your family moved”.

 

“I'm telling you I never got any damn letter! Get it through your thick skull! And yeah my dad got a new job so we moved a few months after you left.”

 

I could feel my inner demon screaming inside me, it was not mad at Kagura for say, it was just mad. Taking out my anger and frustration on my wind witch was tempting, but it was not a good idea. Right now I was really mad and needed to vent, where was Inuyasha when you needed him?...

 

But I managed to calm my inner beast down when I saw tears falling from Kagura's eyes. I presumed they were tears of anger, but I was not sure. I breathed deeply and walked towards her, with the pad of my thumb I wiped her tears away.

 

“Calm down. Let us start from the beginning, something does not sound right”. I spoke as gently as possible and took her hand. We sat next too each other on the couch. For a long time we just stayed in silence.

 

“The night after we…” I struggled to find a word to describe the night we conceived Rin, and this amused Kagura to no end. She started to giggle then just exploded in a fit of laughter. Even if she was making fun of me I liked her smiling face.

 

“The night you popped my cherry, deflowered me. Or rather if I remember it was the other way around” she said with a wicked smile. “Oh you're blushing, how cute. I see you're still a stuck up, and I thought that the years would have loosened you up”.

 

“This Sesshomarou does not blush!” I exclaimed, sending her one of my famous death glares. She just smiled and reached up to cup my cheek, she then gently stroked my lower stripe with her thumb. How I loved and missed this simple gesture, I almost purred in contentement.

 

“So what happened after you left my house?” She asked me on a serious tone staring right in my eyes.

 

“When I got home, my father was there. I thought he just came over to visit my mother and I. But I was wrong, he said that I was going to move in with him, Izayoi and Inuyasha, here in Shikon city.

Of course I refused, but mother said it was for the best, since her illness was not improving. He only gave me an hour to pack my things, I would have called you, but if you remember at the time your phone was out of order. Mother suggested I write to you, once I arrived at my father's house, which I did”.

 

“It's the letter you've been talking about?” she asked me.

 

“Yes, in it I explained everything. I figured you would be angry, and that a long distance relationship would be hard on us. Therefore, in the letter I told you to write back if you wanted to continue with our relationship, otherwise not to bother writing back. When I did not receive an answer I thought you did not want me anymore.”

 

I figured I said enough, I did not want to tell her about the sadness, the pent up anger and the endless questioning of why she would not want me anymore.

 

“I never received your letter, too bad it would have saved me a great deal of sleepless nights.” Kagura then let out a humor less chuckle.

 

She then continued “I thought you just did not want me anymore, at first I was just sad. But when I found out I was pregnant, I was just mad, and I'm still mad. You left us alone you jerk.”

 

Kagura then raised the hand that was resting on my cheek I awaited the blow, but it never came. She threw herself in my arms and hugged me as if I was going to go away, little did she know that now that I had her I would never let her go.

 

“I am sorry” I said hugging her back, holding her in my arms just felt so right.

 

“It was hard, just so hard.” She murmured against my chest.

 

“I know”

 

“No you don't, I was pregnant and alone at seventeen. You have no fucking idea how it was like”.

 

“What about your parents?” I asked, I just felt so guilty. It must have been hell for Kagura. I had a hard time managing school and working part time at the law firm when I was a student. Just thinking about how she alone had to provide for our daughter made me sick. But I would make it out to her. I then swore to myself never to leave my girls ever again.

 

“Dad wanted me to give up Rin after her birth. That was the original plan.”

 

Hearing that I growled low in my chest, I just could not help it. The thought of her abandoning our daughter enraged me. But then again was it not what I did, I abandoned my child too.

 

“But when I held her in my arms, and I saw her beautiful amber eyes, it was like you were still with me you know. I just couldn't go through with it. I fell in love with Rin at first sight. My dad was mad, but mom stuck by my side, and eventually he agreed to let me keep her.”

 

“What happened then?” I asked letting her hair free of her bun, I just missed the sensation of combing her hair with my fingers. I could spend hours just running my fingers through her raven tresses.

 

“Well, I juggled between my part time job, school and Rin. Thanks to my parents and Kanna, you remember her, my little sister? She used to babysit for me all the time.” Kagura then laughed lightly as if remembering something good.

 

“So as I was saying, I managed to graduate from high school then I went to college and got a degree in communications. I wrote for the town's newspaper for a while. And then I moved to Shinkon city with Rin and I started working at Goshinboku magazine a few months ago.”

 

She then finished her story and relaxed in my arms. It surprised me how easy it was to talk to her just like old times. I still felt like the tall and thin teenager I used to be. It was as if eight years did not go by, and that Kagura and I were sitting in my living room watching a movie, her sitting next to me and cuddling against my side.

 

“What about you?” she finally asked.

 

“Not much, I followed the plan father had for me. I went to law school and ended up taking over the firm after father retired a year ago.” I did not know why but I did not want to let Kagura know about my marriage just yet.

 

“Based on what Kagome said you get along with Inuyasha. She also says he is the most wonderful man and I remembered him as a snotty brat” she said with a smile.

 

“He still is. But you have not seen that much of him growing up” I said. We stayed in silence before I added “Rin is beautiful”.

 

“Well she is her mother's daughter” she said wit a grin.

 

“Indeed.”

 

“You know, it's quite funny how much alike the two of you are”

 

“How so?” I asked, I had a hard time believing the hyper active smiling little girl had anything in common with me.

 

“Well she is a neat freak, and she hates peanut butter marshmallow sandwiches! Mom says it's because she ate a lifetime's worth when I was pregnant with her. At some point it was the only think I could stomach.”

 

How I would have loved to see Kagura pregnant with my child she must have been beautiful. I then realized all the things I missed from Rin's life all because of a lost letter. I missed her first word, her first steps, and her first day at school.

 

“And she is as stubborn as you are” Kagura said with a laugh.

 

“Look who's talking?” I asked cocking an eyebrow.

 

Kagura smiled and broke free of our embrace; she then stretched and looked at her watch. As soon as she left my arms a feeling of loss washed through my body, I had to refrain myself from forcefully pulling her back in my arms.

 

“Do you have to go?” I asked hopeful that she did not have to.

 

“No I still have time” she said before reaching out for her root beer and draining it.

 

“Kagura, I want to be a part of Rin's life from now on. I already missed on a lot and do not intend to miss anything else” I said on a determined tone.

 

“I figured you would want to. I guess we should think about how to tell her she is your daughter. Maybe you could come over for dinner…”

 

“I don't think you understand what I want” I cut her.

 

“Do you want to take my baby away from me?!” she asked rising up and looking at me with a mix of fear and anger.

 

“This Sesshomarou would never do such a thing!” I exclaimed louder than I intended to, but what kind of person did she take me for?!

 

“What I mean is that I want you and Rin to come live with me” I said.

 

“You're kidding right? You can't just barge in to my life and try to change everything. I understand that you want to see more of Rin and want to make up for lost time. But….” While speaking Kagura was slowly but surely heading towards the door. I wondered if I scared her off.

 

Using my demonic speed I was by her side in a fraction of a second. I held her tightly in my arms and nuzzled her cheek. I knew how much Kagura loved this simple gesture. And as I expected the relaxed in my arms, this might have been a cheap shot, but I would do anything to keep her close.

 

I was ready to give Kagura all the different advantages of living in my neighborhood, but I changed my plan and instead said “You are afraid of our relationship, and I understand. But I promise that I will never hurt you again. We will take things slowly, I just do not want to lose any more time. I want to be with you and Rin.” I looked down at saw that she was did not seem completely convinced.

 

I raised her chin and forced her to look in my eyes. I gently pressed my lips to hers, and as I expected a delightful tingling sensation spread throughout our bodies just like it used to. I broke our kiss and she whimpered at the loss of contact, I smirked and said “Do you remember: now and forever”.

 

She nodded and kissed me. This time our kiss was more passionate, I then realized we were not two love struck teenagers anymore, but a man and a woman. I gently grazed her lower lip with my fang, and she parted her lips offering me entrance. Our tongues entwined and we explored each other's mouth for a long time. I gently caressed her back, while Kagura's clever fingers lost themselves in my silver hair.

 

“Do you still have any more doubts?” I asked her as we parted our lips.

 

“Isn't it too soon?” she asked me breathless.

 

“Does it feel like it is?” I asked back.

 

Kagura looked thoughtful for a second before smiling and saying “actually it just feels right. Crazy no? But I'll have to talk to Rin first, she has her say in this”.

 

“Of course, but you meant WE will to speak to Rin?” I asked.

 

“Of course I did Fluffy” she said before kissing me. Her cherry red lips were so sweet that I did not care if she just used the nickname I hated the most.

 

`Fluffy' was on the `nicknames I hate, and you better not use unless you want me to beat you up or worse list' at the number one position right before `Sesshy'.

 

 

Now how to tell my daughter that I am her father?

 

 

 

To be continued…

 

 

A/N: Wow, hope you're happy that was a long one. Just so you know, it's not because Sesshy and Kagura are back together that it means the story is finished. No I have so mush more coming. Don't miss part six, it will be named Cohabitation.