InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sacrifices ❯ Unexpected Visitor ( Chapter 11 )

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Chapter11: Unexpected visitor

Twelve days had passed since the day Kagome lost her memory. Twelve days that seemed to have flown away just as quickly as the cool autumm breeze that blew around them. It was almost unbelievable that in such a short period of time, such unexpected and terrible things could've happened to them. From the moment Kagome lost her memory, to the 'incident' that happened just a few days ago.

Everything seemed so unreal that sometimes Inuyasha and the rest wondered if this wasn't some sort of dream they were having, or if it was some kind of trick a demon was playing on them. But it wasn't; all they had to do was turn around and look at Kagome. The once cheerful and loud girl was gone. Well, not exactly 'gone', because she was still there, she was still Kagome, but her strong personality and loud tone of voice were not there anymore. She was more quiet now, and she didn't snap at Inuyasha or anyone of the guys like she usually did when they werent behaving correctly. Though she still held that smile of hers that could ease anyone's heart, especially Inuyasha's.

The last couple of days had been difficult ones; the thing or person that was trying to control Kagome's mind kept tormenting her and the rest. She had snapped at Inuyasha and little Shippo again in one occasion, and Miroku and Sango in another. But now everything was ok, or at least it seemed to be. Whenever Kagome felt like she was about to start saying hurtful things to the people she cared so much about, she'd clench her eyes tightly and hold her head between her hands in an attempt of taking back the control of her mind. And it seemed to work, because after a few seconds of struggling agaisnt this power, she'd get back to normal, breathing heavily and with her eyes out of focus, but with control of her own mind and thoughts again. Of course everytime she had one this outbursts, Inuyasha, Miroku, Sango and Shippo would be right there next to her; and it did have a good effect on her, because it gave her the strength to keep fighting it. She felt glad they were right beside her, even when it was under such stressful situation.

But things were ok this morning. Inuyasha and Miroku had gone who knows where. Probably the hanyou chose to practice his sword skills and went in search for a quiet place so no one could interrupt him while he was practicing; and the monk probably went chasing after the village's girls like he used to do everytime they got to a new village.

Sango, Shippo and Kagome were sitting under a tree that was next to the hut the head of the village had given them. Sango was petting Kirara while Shippo sat on Kagome's lap watching the little cat-youkai sleep on her friends lap.

"Ah!! This feels so great!!" stated Shippo with a big smile on his face as he stretched his arms.

"You're right Shippo... The weather is great, we've already cooked what we're going to eat, we don't have to hear Inuyasha's complains every five minutes..." Sango got a funny angry expression before she got to say the last part of her sentence. "... and we don't have to worry about a ceritan Houshi's perverted hand..."

"I think that hand is not 'our' problem really..." stated a smiling Kagome. They all giggled at her comment and then Shippo turned his face towards her.

"Ne, Kagome... feeling ok?" the little fox-demon asked with a slightly concerned face, getting a sweet smile in response that assured him everything was fine.

"Hai... don't worry Shippo everything's ok..." Kagome started staring at the clear autumm sky above them, her smile not leaving her face. " I think I'm finally able to control it... now things are easier for all of us to handle... ne?"

"You're right Kagome-chan... everything is ok now..." stated a smiling Sango.

"Hai... arigatou Sango-chan, Pou-chan... if it wasnt for all of you then I dont think things would be... eh?" she stopped and stared at the surprised faces of her friends. "Is everything ok?" she asked in concern.

A blinking Sango stared back at her in surprise before she answered. "Hai everything's fine... Kagome-chan... how did you... call us?..."

"Sango-chan and Pou-chan of course..." She windened her eyes in surprise as the little fox youkai started jumping up and down on her lap. Happiness spreading all around him as he stared at Kagome with big sparkling eyes.

"Kagome! You called me 'Pou-chan'! you remembered!" he stated in the most happy tone of voice ever.

"Pou-chan..." she mumbled softly to herself, a smile already forming on her lips. "That's what I used to call you, isnt it? Pou-chan and Sango-chan..."

"Yes! Kagome you're starting to remember!" cried a happy looking Sango, getting a nod and a smile in response. "This is great!"

"Hai!"stated a smiling Kagome.They turned around when they heard someone approaching, and when Shippo noticed it was Inuyasha, he ran off to meet him.

Inuyasha saw Shippo approaching at high speed towards him, and got a suspicious face as he thought of a reason why he was so happy to see him.

" 'Eh? And just why is he running towards me now? I bet he did something wrong... Feh! I will not stand up for him if that's what he's thinking! That's Kagome's job...'" he thought to himself as he stopped his way towards them.

Shippo jumped to his head and sat on his shoulders while grabbing Inuyasha's dog ears, forgetting completely about the most sensitive part of the hanyou's body, and making him get an angry expression.

"OI!! What do you think you're doing you little brat!!?" asked an annoyed Inuyasha while trying to get rid of Shippo.

"Kagome! She called me 'Pou-chan' again! And she called Sango 'Sango- chan'!" cried an excited Shippo.

"Really?" Inuyasha turned towards her and met her smile, then he smirked and started walking towards them again. When he got near, Shippo jumped off his head and went running towards Kagome.

"Isnt it great Inuyasha?? Kagome's starting to remember again!!" cried a happy Shippo.

"Hai, Pou-chan and Sango-chan are happy that I called them that... It's funny, it just came out of my mouth..." stated a smiling Kagome.

" 'Good then! This means you'll be callinng me Inuyasha again instead of using that stupid nick name...'" the hanyou thought to himself while drawing a smile of satisfaction on his face.

"Isnt it great?... Inu-san!"

A sweat drop fell from Inuyasha's head. Well, at least it was a good thing she remembered.

"Hai..." the hanyou grunted, arms crossed in front of his chest. They all turned around when they heard the sound of footsteps approaching. And when they did, they found a smiling Miroku walking towards them, with a red mark in the shape of a hand printed on his cheek.

"Hello everyone! I see you're all in a rather good mood this morning!" the monk stated happily as he approached them.

They all stared at him with suspicious faces, even Kagome, who by this point had acknowleded the monk's odd behaviour when it came about women.

"Houshi-sama..."

"Ah, don't worry about this, it was just a little...mmm... misunderstanding with one of the girls... Ah, some people just don't appreciate it when you offer them a hand..."

"Feh! I bet I know where that hand of your was Miroku..." stated the hanyou.

"Please do not jump into conclusions Inuyasha... anyway, what are you so happy about?"

Little Shippo widened his eyes in happiness. "Kagome called me 'Pou- chan'!..." As Shippo told the good news to Miroku, Kirara, who was resting peacefully on Sango's lap, started twitching her ears. She opened her eyes and jumped off her lap to everyone's surprise, and stared at the direction Miroku had come from.

"Kirara?..." Sango asked with a worried expression on her face. Kirara changed quickly into her tiger-youkai form while grunting with a fiercing expression. Sango and Kagome stood up inmediatly.

"What is it?!" asked a concerned looking Shippo.

"It must be a demon..." Stated Miroku while holding onto his staff in a defense position. Inuyasha quickly unsheathed Tessaiga and turned towards the rest with an angry expression.

"Sango! Shippo! Take Kagome out of here now!..." He turned around again when he saw them nodding. "I'll get rid of you piece of scum!!" he yelled while running towards the direction Kirara had sensed the shouki.

"Inuyasha wait!" yelled Miroku while running after him.

Sango, Shippo and Kagome turned around when they felt a strong breeze blowing in the area. Inuyasha and Miroku had to cover their eyes and stop at the sudden situation.

"Damn it! Kagura show your face and stop hiding you coward!!!" yelled Inuyasha with an angry epression while holding Tessaiga in front of him. But his expression quickly changed into a surprised one as he saw Kouga bursting out from the trees behind him at full speed. Apparently, it was due to the incredible speed of his that made the breeze become stronger.

Now they were all surprised. What was Kouga doing there? Miroku sighed and turned around.

"Well, it was nothing after all..." he stated with a sigh.

Inuyasha put Tessaiga back on its sheath and closed his eyes. "Feh! What are you doing here Kouga..." A sweat drop fell from Inuyasha's head when he noticed Kouga had run passed him and was now standing next to Kagome, holding her hands between his. Inuyasha turned around with a funny angry expression.

"Kagome!! I knew it was your scent the one I had smelled!" Kouga stated with a grin on his face while staring at the shocked blushing girl standing in front of him.

"Eh?..."

"Boy he never gives up, does he?..." stated a funny looking Shippo while jumping to Sango's shoulder.

"Some people just never seem to understand..." she replied also with a funny look on her face.

" I knew it had to be you! I could never mistake that scent of yours Kagome..." Kouga stated still holding that smirk and her hands.

"Eh... excuse me but... who are you?..." Kagome asked with an awkward smile on her face. Kouga's expression showed how shocked he was when hearing those words.

"What??!! What do you mean who am I??"

Inuyasha walked up behind him with a triumphant smirk on his face. "She doesn't know who you are Kouga, so why don't you just get out of here..." Kouga stared at him from the corner of his eye. "You'll just bring her bad memories..." Once again, a sweat drop fell from Inuyasha's head as he noticed Kouga gad stopped paying attention to him and was back to holding Kagome's hands.

"Kagome! Is it true you don't remember me??" Kouga was shocked again when he noticed Kagome nodded in response. "No way!!"

"Oi! Get your fitlhy hands off her!" Inuyasha snapped at him, but Kouga continued ignoring him.

" Ah... I think this is gonna take way too much of our time..." stated Miroku while sighing.

"You're right Houshi-sama..."

"Why don't we go find something to eat... I'm getting hungry..." stated a funny tired looking Shippo. After all the encounters Inuyasha and Kouga had had, it was obvious where this one was going. Some name callings here and there, then of course death glares at each other, but in the end everything went back to normal. Sango and Miroku nodded in agreement and started walking towards the hut, leaving the three of them behind.

"Don't you think we should bring Kagome-chan with us?..." asked Sango while glaring at her from the corner of her eye.

"No, I think she'll be all right... I'm assuming Inuyasha wont be stupid enough to fight in front of her in her conditions... she'll be ok, I think..."

"Ok then..." after that short talk, they continued their way towards the hut.

Kouga stared at Kagome in disbelief of what he'd just heard. Was is possible that his woman had forgotten all about him?

"... Kagome... what has this Inukkoro done to you!!??"

Iuyasha was fuming now. He stood right in the middle of them with an angry look on his face. "What did you call me you wimpy wolf??"

Kouga turned to him with anger reflected on his eyes. Inuyasha stared back at him as well. If glares could kill, both of them would've been dead by now. Kouga faced the hanyou in a defiant way.

"What the hell is your problem dog face??"

"What?? What the hell is YOUR problem?? What are you doing here anyway??" Inuyasha snapped back at him.

"What do you care... I came because I smelled MY WOMAN'S scent!!"

Kagome was blushing now. "Y-Your... woman?..." Kouga quickly turned to her and took her hands between his.

"Yes! You're my woman Kagome! What has this retard done to you??"

"KOUGA!!!..." Inuyasha was about to snap at him again when he suddenly stopped. He noticed Kagome's expression was rather upset now and he wondered what she had to say about this.

"Kouga-kun...it's true that I don't remember you and I'm really sorry about that... but Inu-san, Miroku, Sango and Shippo have helped me a lot, and I wont let anyone insult them... I don't really know why you're refering to him as 'Inukkoro' but you should stop... if it wasn't for him then I wouldn't be here..."

Inuyasha had a deep tone of red on his cheeks by now. As he stared in surprised at the girl who had stood up for him, he couldn't help but to smile slightly at her sudden change."'Hn... now that is something the 'old' Kagome would've said... She still has all that temper inside her...'"

Kouga blinked at her and after a few seconds, he started laughing for no reason, leaving both, Kagome and Inuyasha, with surprised expressions as he chuckled. "Wahahaha... 'Inu-san'?? what kind of name is that??" he asked still laughing as hard as he could. The hanoyu held a reddened expression, but it was because he was deeply embarrased now.

"Shut up!!! What the hell are you laughing about!!!? Feh! You better shut your mouth up you filthy wolf!!"

" 'Inu-san'!!! Wahahahahaha..." Kouga kept making fun of him. He suddenly stopped when he noticed Kagome's saddened eyes.

" I didn't know you were offended by me calling you that way..." Kagome stared at the hanyou, who had gotten an awkward expression and didn't know what to do by this point.

"Eh??..." Inuyasha turned his head away slightly blushed and crossed his arms in front of his chest while closing his eyes. " Feh... I don't mind... you wench..." Kagome smiled slightly at his comment. Even though she knew he felt a little uncomfortable about his nickname, he let her call him that way. He could be so understanding sometimes.

"What did you call MY WOMAN you half breed!!??" snapped an angry looking Kouga.

"Quit calling her YOUR WOMAN stupid wolf!!"

Inuyasha and Kouga kept their argument for a while, with Kagome standing next to them, watching as they fought with confused and surprised eyes. She suddenly felt something pulling her skirt, and when she looked down to see what it was, she found Shippo's funny glare as he stared at the two fighting boys standing in front of him.

"Shippo?"

"We better get inside... these two are gonna be arguing all day here... don't you want to eat something?" he finnaly asked with a big smile on his face.

"Sure!" replied a smiling Kagome. Then they turned around and walked towards the hut, not before Kagome turned one last time to watch Inuyasha and Kouga argue.

"... Feh! Well you've caugth your food already! Why don't you go back to were you belong!!" snapped an angry looking hanyou while pointing at the boar Kouga was holding.

" This is were I belong!!... I don't know how I could've trusted you Kagome's life! You stupid dog boy! Look at what you've done to her!"

"What?? I didn't do anything!!"

"That's right!! You didn't! And because of it, now Kagome's memory's gone!" The words hit Inuyasha's ears roughly. He widened his eyes at the wolf's comment. After all, it was true; what he said was true. If he had done something other than to stay paralized in that moment, he could've stopped the demon's attack. "Stupid dog... you're worthless even as a hanyou..."

Kouga turned his back to him and then started heading towards the hut. "If it wasn't because I have to take this back to my gang and because we're damn busy with other things, you'd be damn sure I'd come back for my woman..." He turned once again to face Inuyasha, who just stood there staring at nothing. "If you fail one more time, I'll come back to get her for good... I cant trust you with her..."

"She's not your woman, you're not gonna take her away from..."

"From what? From you? I think she'd be safer staying with me than hanging around with you... you're obvioulsy not strong enough to protect her... damn dog..." Kouga turned around again and continued his way towards the hut, leaving a thoughful Inuyasha standing by himself.

The hours passed rather quickly from that moment. Kouga had entered the hut and started behaving like he usually does when he's around her: calling her 'his woman', holding her hands and stuff like that. The only difference now was that Inuyasha was nowhere to be seen. Shippo tried hard to keep Kouga away from Kagome, but he just was a little kitsune standing up against a wolf. Kagome too tried to keep his hands away from hers, so she moved next to Sango and stayed there for as long as she could, she was a much better 'wall' between her and Kouga.

Miroku and Sango explained all that happened in the last few days, and Kouga just sat there with a serious expression, listening to what they had to say. They didn't tell him everything, for he didn't need to know all the details. Actually, they wouldn't have told him anything if it wasn't for the fact that he already knew Kagome's memory was 'gone'. After some comments on how he could've protected her and how Inuyasha was just a lousy hanyou, which annoyed the heck out of Kagome, he stood up and left; but not before making clear that Kagome was HIS woman and that he'd be back for her.

Now they were all sitting inside the hut, taking a break from the loud wolf who had just left.

"Wow... that Kouga is sure a noisy and loud wolf!" stated Shippo with a funny annoyed expression on his face.

Miroku sighed and leaned on one of the walls. "You're right about that Shippo... Kouga can be even more annoying when he's upset..."

"I still don't like the fact that he keeps calling me 'his woman'... that is just wrong..." Kagome stated with an awkward smile on her face.

"Well, Inuyasha doesn't like that either... usually he stays right next to you whenever he's around... I wonder what he's doing, he's not showed up..." stated Sango while sitting next to Kagome.

"You're right... the sun is about to set and he's not showed his nose around here..." stated Miroku. They all turned towards Kagome, who'd gotten a concerned look on her face, though still smiling a little bit.

"Do you think he's upset?... Kouga-kun said some really hurtful things to him..."

"Nah!! Inuyasha and Kouga are always calling names to each other... he's used to it..." stated Shippo while jumping to her lap. Kagome smiled slightly while Sango and Miroku stared at each other.

"Really?... But I think it'll be better to look for him... I'll go..." stated Kagome, but she was quickly interrupted by Miroku.

"No, I think it'll be better for you to stay here... it's getting dark and we cant afford to let you go by yourslef... I'll go..."

"Are you sure Miroku? You don't even know where to look for him..." stated a funny looking Shippo.

"Don't worry Shippo, I have ways to know that..." he stated with an innocent smile while walking towards the door.

"Houshi-sama... you're not planning to search for him as an excuse to go see the girls, are you?" asked a suspicious looking taijiya. A sweat drop fell from Miroku's head as he stood by the door.

"Wahaha... of course not Sango!..." They all stared at him with suspicious expressions."Well... I better go now..." and with that, he left the hut.

" 'Perverted monk...'"

" 'Miroku never changes...'"

" 'I hope Inu-san is ok...'" were the thoughts that ran through their minds.

Inuyasha sat with his legs crossed, staring at the sunset with a thoughtful expression. The things Kouga had said had annoyed him deeply; not because it was him the one who said them, but because they were the truth. And even though he'd heard from Kagome herself that he did all he could, and that he didn't need to feel guilty about it, he still couldn't get those oughts about him not doing a thing off his mind.

" 'Damn wolf! Why did he have to come anyway?...'" Inuyasha's thoughts were cut when he hear someone approaching. "What are you doing here..." he asked with a careless tone of voice.

Miroku stood behind him and stared at the sunset as well. " I came because we were all wondering where you were... you've been gone for hours and you even missed lunch, besides, Kagome was worried about you..."

"I'm fine..."

"Then why don't you come back to the hut?..."

"I need some time alone, would you mind?..." asked a now annoyed hanyou.

"Ah... of course... you're a loner... but being alone is not gonna help you solve your problems..." Miroku watched as the hanyou just made a signal for him to go away. Then he got a smirk. "You should learn from Kouga..." Inuyasha's ears twitched at the sound of his name. "He took Kagome with him and they both seemed really happy together..."

Inuyasha got to his feet and quickly grabbed Miroku by his clothes. He had a really angry expression and was about to hit the poor monk.

"What did you say???!"

Miroku smirked to Inuyasha's surprise. " Well that's better... I cant stand it when you're in that depressed mood... makes me want to slap you..."

Inuyasha let go of his grab and Miroku started dusting his clothes off. The hanyou went back to sitting on his previous spot, but this time, followed by the monk.

"Ok Inuyasha, spit it out..."

"What..."

"Why did you disappear? Usually you don't go anywhere when Kouga's around..."

"Feh... that wolf just annoys the hell out of me..."

"And that's why you left him to be all over Kagome?" Miroku turned to see his reaction.

Inuyasha's ears twictched quickly at the thought of that. He also got a serious expression."One of the things he said was true... if I had just done something else than to stay there... then Kagome wouldn't be like this now..."

Miroku looked at him and then went back to staring at the sunset. "So that's why you came here... to cry over spilled water..." Inuyasha turned to him with a serious look on his face."Well let me tell you you disappoint me very much..." after that, he got his feet and started to walk away.

"What did you say??" asked an angry Inuyasha.

"You keep feeling sorry for yorself even when Kagome has told you it wasn't your fault, in fact, we all know it wasn't, but you just insist on doing it..."

Inuyasha quickly got to his feet and stared at the monk's back. "What the hell are you talking about?? You very well know that I..."

"I, I, I... stop being selfish Inuyasha!..." the hanyou stood in surprise at the sudden outburst." Havent you ever stopped to think about how Kagome feels?..."

Inuyasha widened his eyes in surprise. "How... Kagome feels?..."

"That's right... she is the one who's lost her memory; she's the one who cant even recognize her own friends; she's the one who doesn't even remember her own family... not you... You keep telling yourself it was your fault, but come on, we all know you couldn't do anything... WE couldn't do anything... I know you cant help but to feel guilty, we all do... yet when you think of her, she still has a smile on her face... after all she's been through..." Miroku turned to the hanyou. "So why don't you try and get over the fact that there was NOTHING you could do and continue with your life? We're all trying to help here, trying to make her feel ok; but with you behaving this way it only complicates things..."

Inuyasha was about to say something, but Miroku interrupted him. " She is worried about you Inuyasha, havent you noticed? She is worried about you, she always is, she always has... while you're here complaining about how you didn't do things right, she's back in the hut thinking God knows what you're doing and if you're ok..."

Inuyasha stared at him with a softened expression. "I want you to answer something to me, and I want you to tell me the truth..." Miroku stared at him with a serious expression. "If I had noticed the demon, would Kagome still have her memories?..."

There was a brief moment of silence between them. Miroku kept staring at him and then, after a few seconds, he turned around and started to walk away.

" 'I thought so...'" thought Inuyasha to himself as he watched the monk walk away.

"You havent heard a word I've said, have you... What does it take for you to understand it wasn't your fault... And let me tell you just one thing before I leave you and your guilt alone..." Inuyasha stared at his back. "Kagome told Sango she was kinda glad this whole thing happened..."

Inuyasha's eyes widened as he heard his words. She was glad? How could she?

"...Because it gave her the change to appreciate what she had... the friends she had... Yes Inuyasha what you're hearing is the truth, she is glad she lost her memory because it gave her the chance to appreciate us even more, isnt that something?..."

Inuyasha was shocked now. After all the things she'd gone through, what she still thought of the most important thing for her was her friends. He understood then he had made a mistake. While his only concern was to get Kagome's memory back, he had missed a very importand thing. Her point of view. He had assumed that her only concern was too to get her memories back, but he'd failed there; she didn't feel sorry for what happened, she didn't blame anyone for what happned; she'd taken this bad incident and had turned it into something positive. Now this gave her the chance to meet everyone again, to get to know them again and appreciate all the things that maybe she wasn't able to see before.

He smiled to himself after thinking this, how could he be so stupid? But now things were gonna change. No more feeling guilty about something that couldn't have been stopped. No more being selfish. No more words about this.

Miroku kept walking away with a frustrated expression on his face. " '...why is he so damn stubborn?? I should just hit him on that big head of his so he can finally understand. That...'" Miroku was interrupted from his thoughts when he heard a familiar voice calling for him.

"OI!!..."

The monk turned around to find a smirking hanyou walking towards him.

"What's for dinner..."

Miroku smirked and then continued his way. "Ah... nothing unfortunately, since you were gone Shippo and I had to eat your portion..."

"What??? You mean there's no food for me??" asked a funny looking hanyou while his stomach made funny noises.

"You shouldn't have left... now that is your fault..." Inuyasha got an angry expression."Miroku!!"

It was late at night and everyone was asleep inside the hut. Only a small candle managed to illuminate the whole place. Sango was curled up against Kirara, who held her tiger-youkai form to keep her owner warm. Miroku was sleeping on a sitting position and Shippo rested his head on his leg. Kagome was sleeping too, she was next to Sango.

" 'Come...'" Kagome's eyes opened widely when she heard the voice. " 'Come to me... now...'"

Kagome's body had stiffened.She tried to call out for someone, but her voice was gone. Sango was just next to her, but she couldn't reach out to her. Why? She tried to stretch her arm but it was useless. The voice grew louder on her head to the point of making her cry in desperation.

" 'Not again...'" Kagome thought to herself before giving in.

Outside the hut, Inuyasha rested leaning on a tree, on top of one of its branches. His ears twitched at the sound of footsteps coming from the hut. He opened his eyes slowly. At first, his vision was flurry so he rubbed his eyes to catch a better look of the person that was standing by the door. His eyes widened as he saw Kagome standing there, holding her bow and arrows.

"Kagome??" His eyes widened even more when he met hers. Her eyes were dull, reflected nothing but emptiness, while her expression was that of an emotionless one. Kagome stared coldly at the hanyou sitting on one of the tree branches. She lifted her bow and placed an arrow on it to Inuyasha's surprise.

"Sayounara..." she whispered before she made the shot.

Author's note: Waaaaaa!!!! Cliffhanger!!! (*avoids rocks and tomatoes that are being thrown at her*) wahahahaha! Gomen nasai!!! I hope you're all enjoying the story so far.

And no, I didn't make up the story, it's just a bedtime story my ojii-chan (*grandpa*) told me and my onii-chan (*older brother*) before we went to bed. I just think it's such a cute story you know, I don't know if ojii-chan made it up, but I just thought it would be really sweet for Kagome-chan to tell Inu-chan that story. Ok, anyways, if you want me to update, then PLEASE REVIEW! I know it's weird when authors ask you to do this, but it helps us improve and gives us courage to continue. Anyways, Ja ne!