InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Scars of Agony ❯ Scar of Hate ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the other characters that belong to RumikoTakahashi, I only own this story line, though it may not be all that original about Kagome's father, this is my own version.

A/N: I've decided to try typing in a different way, and it's a bit dark. But it has to deal with somethings that people go through with every day. It may not be you but someone.

Summary: Your always thinking that your glad it's not you, well, everything happens to her, Kagome Higurashi seems like the normal girl. She just wears pants and sweaters all the time, which is a bit odd seeing as in the summer she does too. She is often with her boyfriend and she always looks tired. Well, Kagome Higurashi has a dark secret only one-- er two people in her life know. Her father and her boyfriend..... she loves them both, she doesn't want them to be hurt, but when her boyfriend has had the last straw...... what is she to do? Side with her boyfriend... or father? Also can she survive when thoughts of suicide fill her head. Can she keep herself alive long enough to grow old and see her father in jail? Or will suicide take her from the world first?

Scars of Agony

I. Scar of Hate

I'm always thinking of how I want it to end.

How that if I'm gone, I'll find happiness

There's some bliss in blood, don't you agree?

True happiness is made by the ones you love and yourself, if you don't allow yourself to be love or allow yourself to give love, how do you expect to find happiness?

Huff, huff, huff..... she was panting as she pressed herself against the wall, she had to get away. At least once, she had to get away. With her family passed out, how could she be safe? Slowly, she climbed down the dark stairs, hoping not to trip over the cat and make a noise. As she creeped slowly down, she was in the clear... the door was right infront of her. She would make it....

Run..... run, you'll make it.

He was pissed today, not like he wasn't everyday. She sucked in a ragged breath, trying to calm her pulsing nerves. She took one step forward calmly, soon the steps grew faster. Making the thump thump thump as her bare feet hit the hard wood floor. A ball of fur walked between her legs, sending her flying to the ground with a horrible crash,

"Damnit Buyo!" she yelled as his figure looked down the stairs,

"Come here Kagome dear...." he called out in his husky tone as he made his way down the stairs to her trembling figure.

"N-no D-dad..... calm down..... please......." she whispered as he drew closer, knowing him, he wouldn't calm down.

"What did I tell you about running in the house?!" he yelled throwing in her into the wall, hurting her already abused back. She didn't cry, it only hurt more when she did.

Not too long, he was over her, ripping off her clothing, ignoring her pleas for him to get off her. He looked at her abused skin, bruises, cuts, scars.... He looked at her, eyes shining with their evil as he stripped himself of his clothing, ignoring her screams for her mother. He was lost in his own insanity, no longer knowing what he was doing anymore, or perhaps he did, he just wished to ignore it.

Her high pitched scream filled the house once more, as her body recived her normal abuse. Driving himself in her, taking away his stress with a blissful moment, only adding to her stress. Her small whimpers went unnoticed as he continued, she begged, pleaded, tried anything, trying with all her might to get him off of her..... but.... there was no way.

As he felt he was done, he slipped out and dressed, walking upstairs. Leaving her to find her clothes in the dark, as she slipped on the clothes, the feel of he cotten and other fabric made her shiver. Slowly slipping out of the house, she hurried down the steps of the shrine.

Run..... never look back......

Her mind told her once more.

It was 3 A.M. in the morning, she was running in the streets, bundled up in her sweaters and pants. It was ice cold in the morning, but not the reason for her sweaters. She never liked showing off her body, the only people that ever saw was her boyfriend and him. She'd known her boyfriend for so long, only he could protect her... she looked in the driveway, his car was parked where it always was.

He lived alone, so she could come whenever she wanted. And he was always home when she needed him. Slowly, she made her way up the frozen driveway, making her way to the door, hoping no to slip and fall on her abused ass. She shivered at the thought, the pain it was in right now was all the pain she wanted.

Digging further in her pockets as she approached the door, she was glad she did not drop her second happiness when she ran. Pulling her frozen fingers from her pocket. She banged on Inuyasha's cold, red door. Why it was red? It was his favorite color, that's why. Practically everything he had was red, and all her clothing were red, for two purposes.

"What?!" was his annoyed yell as the door creaked open, "Oh... Kagome....." he said and stepped out to the freezing air, getting gosebumps instantly, he looked at her face, "Don't cry..." he whispered as he picked up her small form and carried her into the house.

"Koi.... he..... did....... it again....." she whispered as she was set in the kitchen, in her chair.

"Hush, hush..." he said kissing her forehead, "I'll get you some hot chocolate.... or do you want... you know?"

"I.... I'm fine today... hot chocolate would be nice......" she said softly, placing her "happiness" on the table, "Can you get me a towel?" she asked with pleading eyes

"No Kagome! Kami! How many times are you going to do this?! I might lose you if you continue this!" he yelled slamming down a towel and he made his way to fix up some hot chocolate.

"Inuyasha! I..... I know that I can kill myself! I..... won't! I know where not to....." she said softly, "And if you want me to stop to much, then why give me the damn towel."

"Because I want you to be happy," he growled softly, "Make up your damn mind! Do you want me to give you the towel or not?! And if you do than why do you complain when I do?!"

"I'm sorry....." she said softly, holding the towel with a tight fist

"No, it's my fault. Here......" he said placing down her hot chocolate and taking a seat, watching Kagome with careful eyes.

Kagome took a sip of her hot chocolate, taking her "happiness" in her hand, rolled up her sleves and brought it to her arm. Placing the tip of it into her skin, she dragged it up, avoiding her wrist making a huge gash letting the blood slip down her arm and onto the towel, she placed down the razor and looked at Inuyasha who was staring wide eyed at his girlfriend.

"Kagome?! Why did you make it so big this time?!" he asked instantly putting a towel over it.

"Why'd you do that?" she asked with a small pout, "There's something blissful about blood isn't there? Maybe the color...... or the smell...... or maybe even the taste..... iron...." she said softly remembering the feel of the blood on her arm.

"No Kagome....." he said making sure all the blood was gone, he didn't bother to wrap up the cut knowing that she would scold him, "But, whatever you want....."

Kagome rolled her selve down once more, "I'm tired Inuyasha....... may I sleep in your bed?" she asked softly

"Sure...." he said looking at the red towel that now had a hint of darker red, he smelled the towel, almost all the towels smelled the same. Her blood, always hers....... why did this have to happen to his perfect angel?

Inuyasha sighed and threw the towel in the wash, along with all the others. He was Kagome's only help, she didn't have anywhere else to turn... he was glad that she relied on him, but not this much. He had sworn to protect her, and the next time her father did this. He'd send him to jail...

Kagome sat on Inuyasha's red bed, running her fingers over the material before letting some of them run along her scars. A small rumble came as Inuyasha sat beside her, laying his head on her shoulder.

"What do they all mean? What's the purpose of all of them?" his voice asked softly as he whispered in her ear.

"See, this one..." she said running her finger on a small scar, "stands for happiness...... as this one....." she said pointing to a bigger one, "stands for hope....." she said moving her finger to on that was jagged and rough, "this stands for pain...." her fingers traveled to the newly formed one, "This one stands for hate....." she whispered.

"And this one?" he asked, laying his hands over a smooth, wavy, curved perfectly scar.

"That one is for love," she said placing a small kiss on his cheek, "I love you...." she whispered as she fell asleep on him.

Inuyasha smiled, and held her close, allowing her to sleep, afterall, they did have school today, "I love you my angel...."

::..::

Inuyasha held Kagome's hand as they entered the building, she had hardly any friends, while Inuyasha's only known friend was Miroku. She eyed the hall way for the hentai, only to see him hanging out with a new girl.

"Koi-Inu? Do you know that girl?" she asked softly as they drew closer to Miroku and the girl.

"No Kag, if you want, we can talk to Miroku later...." he said noticing Kagura, Kanna, and their group heading to the new girl, they always spreaded trash about Kagome, ever since they were little.

"Yeah..." she whispered as she changed their path instantly to their first period, giving Miroku a look of 'talk to you later'.

::

Sango had been engaged in a conversation with Miroku, seeing as she was new to the school, and he was the first male to actually talk to her. Despite the rumors of her being a male killer.

"Who are those two?" she asked suddenly, seeing that Miroku was waving to them.

"Oh, that's my friend Inuyasha and his girlfriend---" he said before being shoved aside by Kagura, the normal thing that happened whenever there was a new girl.

"Kagome Higurashi, a loner, she is always wearing a sweater and pants. She is never seen with anyone but her boyfriend. I recomend that you stay away from that girl.... they say she..."

::..::

Kagome yawned, it was always boring in first period, the same old sceince. Reaching into her pocket, she ran her fingers along the blade when the door burst open, she shot a glance at Inuyasha signalling she needed a back up for the moment. Catching her glance Inuyasha rose to his feet.

"Sit down Mr.Tashino!" was the teacher's sharp voice, "We have a new student in our class." she said motioning for Sango to walk into the room, since she was a bit frightened of the principle since he slammed the door open.

Sango stepped into the room, looking at everyone. Her gaze stopped on Kagome but she bowed none the less,

"I'm Sango Hiro....." she said loudly, showing that she was not shy. And she shot a glare to all the males--but Inuyasha-- signalling that she would kick all of their asses if they asked.

"Welcome to the class Miss.Hiro, please take a seat next to Miss.Higurashi, Higurashi--" the teacher said going to signal for her to rise, which gave Kagome a look of horror that was unnoticed by the teacher.

"I know who she is....." Sango said making her way over to Kagome, she took a seat next to her, "Hello, what's wrong? You look sick." she said, noticing Kagome's look of horror.

"N-nothing.... don't worry about me....." she said softly, looking at Inuyasha who instantly rose.

"Mrs! I think that a rat got in the room." he said loudly which was followed by loud screeches of girls who feared the rats, some even started running around. But Sango did not move, she was watching Kagome.

Kagome stood up and was about to get a towel until Sango grabbed her shoulder.

"Your not leaving." she said firmly as her grip tightened with Kagome's struggles.

"I'm not leaving, I'm getting a paper towel."Kagome hissed and continued to struggle to get a paper towel.

"Oh......" Sango said as she released Kagome.

Kagome grabbed a paper towel with her hand that had not been abused with the blade. She took her hand out slowly and wrapped it with the towel. She accidently let Sango look, who was now wide eyed and staring at Kagome.

"D-did the rat bite you?" Sango finally spoke after her moment of shock wore off.

"No, Inuyasha said that so I could get up....." she said softly, "I did it...." she had never told anyone, now she was blabbing about it to the new girl, what was wrong with her?

"O-oh..... let's be friends, I promise I won't tell anyone...." Sango said, "Besides, Kagura and her friends are pretty odd......"

"Ok...." Kagome said, Dear Kami..... what have I gotten into now?

::..::

Kagome and Inuyasha were hand in hand once more, bringing Kagome home. The rest of her family was oblivious of what her father does, nor did they know about her. She sighed softly, her father would claim innocent if she tried telling anyone, she had no proof, and besides, she loved him... she couldn't just put him into prison....

"Don't worry Kag....." Inuyasha whispered as they approached the door.

"Kagome!" was her mother's voice as they approached the door, "We were so worried about you! It's a good thing Inuyasha found you and brought you home!" she said as she hugged her daughter, it was the same line everytime.....

Inuyasha laughed nervously, "Yeah, guess so...." he said, he said that everytime as well. He was really getting annoyed at how her mother could act so happy all the time, it sorta made him want to knock her out cold.

"Yeah.... it's a good thing he' always here....." she said softly as her mother let her go and walk into the house.

Kagome grew tense as the foot steps of the person came down the stairs grew louder, it was her father, she had memorized how he stepped and how it sounded. She hugged Inuyasha and looked at the stairs.

"Good afternoon, Mr. Higurashi....." was Inuyasha's response first a slight growl was hidden in his voice.

"Hello.... father......" she said softly, noticing his angry glare, he knew she told Inuyasha.... she always told him and was always punished if he didn't get so drunk that he forgot.

A/N: Everyone's a bit OOC, but hey, I had to mold them into the characters, don't worry... o.O Inu's still cocky when he's not talking to Kagome or her father.... ^ ^ let me know what you think, review please. Arigato.