InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Scars ❯ Scars ( Chapter 1 )

Author’s notes: Yes, another song fic by me, Crystal-ice. And yes, this one shall stay a one shot. No more song fic chapter things for awhile. Anyways, I hope you guys like this one, and hopefully you won’t be too pissed to not leave a review. Oh, and here’s a little key to remember. Bold: Song lyrics Italics: Flashback ‘Text’: Kagome’s thoughts Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha and I do not own ‘Scars’ by Papa Roach. Now go read and review Mr. Whiney Pants.   Scars   Everything was still in the Sengoku Jedai. The air held a calming countenance within it, and no sounds could be heard from all around. No ominous figures were lurking through the forest’s depths, nor were there any animals for miles... Nothing, except for her. There she stood, not a glimpse of emotion could be seen on her face. Azure blue eyes were for once empty of anything to do with life, but she did not care. Not anymore. Kagome sighed deeply as she walked onwards to the well. Her steps were cautious, and you could see a sadness in even her stance. Yet as she walked on towards her only escape from the Sengoku, only one thought resonated from inside her mind. ‘Why?’ I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut! And my weakness is That I care too much... There it lay in front of her. Her well. One leap was all it would take, and all of this would be behind her. Her life. Her pain. Her heart. Before Kagome could finish her thought however, she blindly clutched her arm before she suddenly hissed out in pain. As Kagome let go of her arm, a small amount of blood seeped through her shirt’s sleeve and slowly trailed down her arm. ‘Why?’ My scars remind me That the past is real. Pain was the only thing she could feel anymore. But that was alright... At least she felt something! I tear my heart open Pain... Pain was the only emotion that came without strings attached. It was the only feeling she could embrace without a second thought... And she welcomed it. Just to feel. “Inuyasha!” Kagome squeezed her eyes shut as she took in a deep breath and kept walking forward in albeit a much slower pace. ‘It’s over, so stop thinking about it Kagome!’ “Inuyasha, please! Just stop it! JUST STOP IT! DON’T DO THIS, PLEASE!” Kagome stumbled forward before she unceremoniously hit the unforgiving ground. She coughed up a bit of dust, not noticing the splatter of blood that came along with it. ‘He... he needed me. And I was stupid enough to just come to him!’ Drunk and I’m feeling down, And I just want to be alone... I’m pissed cause you came around- ‘He asked me to come back. I thought... I thought that... No. I can’t. I don’t want to remember.’ Why don’t you just go home? ‘I wanted to help him. To make him better. I loved him, damn it! Why wasn’t that enough?’ “I wanted you to be here Kagome...” Crystal azure eyes met amber as Kagome glanced up at the Inu-hanyou curiously. “Really Inuyasha? Why... ?” “He seemed... so sincere...” Kagome trembled as the winds cold breeze harshly hit her body. Kagome coughed once again, as she felt a small amount of bile rise up in her throat. “Why did you do this to me, Inuyasha?” Cause you channeled all your pain- And I can’t help you fix yourself! ‘Why... why, why, why, WHY!’ A dry sob escaped Kagome’s lips as she shuttered against the wind’s heavy chills. Kagome picked herself up and began walking, but at this point it was more of a slow limp. But she didn’t care. You’re driving me insane, All I can say is- It didn’t matter much anymore. And maybe, if she just kept telling herself that... Kagome would eventually believe it too. I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut! And my weakness is That I care too much... But the past was the past. That was all it would ever be now. As soon as she got to the well, everything would get better. But... She was so tired... Kagome stopped herself mid-stumble. Her cerulean eyes fluttered shut as she flopped onto the ground. As her body once again crashed onto the forest floor, Kagome grasped her ribs as she gasped in sudden pain. And if you looked closely enough, you could almost make out the blood soaked bandages... The scars remind us That the past is real. “Inuyasha, I...” “So stupid! I was just... Agh!” I tear my heart open “How... why... Inuyasha. You know I love you... You know.” “Loved you. I loved you.” Just to feel. “Why did you do this to me Inuyasha? All I did was try to love and protect you. That’s all I did! So, why?” Kagome’s half sobs stabbed the quiet like a knife. No sounds could be heard except for her soft cries... and the sound of liquid splattering on the grassy floor. Her eyes shimmered with unshed tears as she took in the sight before her. No... he couldn’t have... Her fingers twitched in agony as the blood poured from her body in small streams and onto the grassy plain. It hurt... It hurt. Kagome slowly tilted her head up as she looked into the eyes that had once held her love, but could now be considered nothing but a stony gaze of red. Before Kagome could realize what she was doing, she leapt up and grabbed onto the person in front of her and kissed him desperately. Her heart finally reached its breaking point when he didn’t even respond. And that was one of her last memories of him, along with the unsettling image of his eyes. His blood red eyes. I tried to help you once; Against my own advice. Kagome just continued to cry as she thought back at their time spent together before this whole incident even took place. She really should have saw it coming. He had practically announced what he had wanted from her since the beginning of the quest... I saw you going down, But you never realized She had tried so hard in reaching out to him and grabbing him before he got too deep into the darkness that was power, but she had failed. ‘I guess I wasn’t as strong as I thought I was. I guess... he didn’t care as much as I thought he did. It’s too bad really...’ Her eyes once again clouded over with more unshed tears, but those were nothing compared to the unadulterated pain she now had to carry on her shoulders. “I tried so hard for you Inuyasha...” That you’re drowning in the water- So I offered you my hand. “Just tell me now, while you’re brain is still at least partially functional, why? Why did you bring me here? Why did you make me believe, for even a second, that you actually cared? Why, Inuyasha, WHY!” Inuyasha just continued to stare unemotionally into the eyes that he had so painfully scarred. The silence was nothing compared to the pain... He didn’t even feel regret. “Inuyasha...” “This is the way it has to be Kagome. This is the way...” ‘But you never answered me Inuyasha. You never told me why...’ “Fine then.” Kagome stared coldly into his eyes and for that one moment she felt absolutely nothing for the hanyou... no, youkai in front of her. She had given him everything that she could, but in the end it meant nothing. She meant nothing. Compassion’s in my nature, Tonight is our last stand. Kagome finally picked herself up once again and wobbly stood up, the blood all over her body re-emerging with a vengeance. The slippery, crimson substance surrounded her every limb, but the pain was more palpable in the young girl’s mind. It hurt just to be awake. “Ahhh!” Kagome fell onto the ground as she dodged another swipe aimed towards her body. “Inuyasha... ?” “Just give up the jewel Kagome, and... and I won’t have to hurt you!” “NO!” ‘Just a little bit more...’ “I... Kagome... I’m... ” The tears burned tracks down her cheeks as the miko’s breaths came in short pants. But none of it was as bad as the pain... and the blood. She was positive the fact that the blood on his hands was hers hurt the most in her heart. “No... You’re not.” I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut! And my weakness is That I care too much... ‘Step... breathe... step... breathe... step...-’ “Woah-!” Kagome once again staggered onto the ground in shame. She just couldn’t... The scars remind us The blood... the wounds... the scars... The pain. That the past is real. “I lost my heart... since it was yours all along Inuyasha.” He couldn’t take it. She knew it. She could see it in his eyes. With each drop of blood that fell from her body, a part of him died. But if that was so... why? “Why, indeed.” His grasp fell onto the jewel, but he said nothing. He looked down upon her partially mutilated body, but he felt nothing. And that was how he left her... With nothing. I tear my heart open Just to feel. “It’s been eight days since then, and it still hurts... but maybe... maybe that’s ok. Her heart was in so much pain, but it was not completely bitter. It showed her something. Her heart was still beating, and that’s what made it ok. “All I need is to be alone, in my own time. If I have that...” I’m drunk and I’m feeling down. And I just want to be alone... Kagome’s legs cried out in pain as she got up and stumbled on forward. “Only a couple of steps... you can do it Kagome.” But before she could even take another step, a figure leapt in front of her and blocked her path. Kagome immediately stumbled back before a hand tightly- almost painfully- grasped her wrist. Her eyes widen as she finally took in the person in front of her. “Inuyasha.” You shouldn’t ever came around- Why don’t you just go home? “What do you want? Haven’t you done enough to me as it is?” The whisper was empty in itself, but it did hold a deeper meaning. It wasn’t just a question of what he wanted, but... ‘What else can you possibly take from me?’ They both stared into each other’s eyes for what seemed liked eons, but was only a few minutes. As Kagome continued to weakly tug her hand away from the strong grip, the grasp on her wrist slowly loosened. “What... what do you want, Inuyasha?” Cause you’re drowning in the water- And I offered you my hand. A raspy voice cut through the hazy part of her mind that was so filled with pain, and rang incessantly in her ears. This was his voice now... But... It just wasn’t the same. “You... you wanted to know... why.” Kagome’s eyes got twenty times wider as his response hung in the air. What would he say? “I... I want to tell you, but I can‘t. I‘m... I‘m sorry.” I left my heart open, “You’re... what? You’re WHAT! How can you even look me in the eye and just say SORRY and expect everything to be ok? Did turning full youkai impair your intelligence as well?” But you didn’t understand! With strength unknown, Kagome ripped her arm from the now youkai Inuyasha’s grasp and glared at him with an anger so fierce, even she wondered where it came from. “Don’t you dare give me such a half-assed sentiment to believe. I thought... I thought I deserved better than what you did to me, Inuyasha. I loved you... I did...” ‘I loved him... and maybe... maybe I still do.’ But you didn’t understand! “Inuyasha...” GO FIX YOURSELF! Her eyes were no longer empty, but a sad resolution had finally come upon them. She could no longer help him, no matter how hard she tried to. ‘How I wish I could... you really deserved better, Inuyasha.’ I can’t help you fix yourself, But at least I can say I tried. ‘I can’t put this off anymore.’ “I guess this is the last goodbye I’ll ever have to give you.” I’m sorry, But I gotta move on with my own life. “Kagome... ” “Just... don’t Inuyasha. Please, don’t.” I can’t help you fix yourself, But at least I can say I tried. “Then... goodbye Kagome. Have a nice life.” Kagome stayed silent as she now looked past the former hanyou and at the well which held her beloved future. I’m sorry, But I gotta move on with my own life! No longer would time be an obstacle. No longer would a hanyou torment her incessantly. No longer would her heart be betrayed. No longer would these scars bother her so. I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut! But my weakness is That I care too much... ‘These scars... will they truly never bother me again? Or will they simply haunt me forever?’ Her hands came upon the rim of the well as she held onto it as tightly as possible. One jump was all it would take. And the scars remind us That the past is real. One jump... I tear my heart open One... Just to feel. Kagome slowly gathered her legs over the well, careful not to injure herself further. Her knuckles turned a blinding white as she instinctively tightened her hold on the rim. ‘Please let me through.’ Kagome spared one last glance at the man who had given her a reason to live to have then taken that reason away. The man she had loved so faithfully for so many years. One glance... Now jump. I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut. And my weakness is That I care too much. ‘Huh?’ Kagome blinked tiredly as she suddenly felt suspended in mid-air. She looked up and gasped as she stared into a pair of familiar golden eyes. He whispered something in her ear and smiled gently before he let her go... Once and for all. The scars remind us That the past is real. Kagome stared up at the ceiling of the well house in shock as she laid on the dirt floor in exhaustion. The tears just continued to pour down her face as the blood continued to flow freely throughout her body. But that didn’t matter at the moment. ‘He said...’ I tear my heart open- “He said he loved me.” Just to feel.