InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Scars ❯ Scars ( Chapter 1 )

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Scars

I tear my heat open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care to much

And my scars remind me

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

Kagome was at her last nerve. Sick of all the pain he hand been inflicting on her heart. Sick of being spoken down to, sick of being insulted. Sick of worrying about were he was, weather or not he was with her. She was finished. That's it. Done. She wouldn't play this game anymore. Not if she was going to care so much, and get nothing. There was one to many scars on her heart.

So she hunted him down. He was in a bar, of course. Nursing some shot of something, already drunk. A creepy old man in the corner eyed her, she resolutely ignored him and set her coffee colored eyes, filled with rage and hurt, on the lone man at the table.

She startled him when she sat, and he looked at her through bleary eyes, not registering who it was. "Inuyasha." She said softly.

"What then hell do you want wench?" Inuyasha spoke slowly, like he had a headache.

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just want to be alone

I'm pissed `cause you came around

Why don't you just go home?

She took a deep breath, trying to quell her rage. "Inuyasha, I can't do this anymore. I can't be at home, waiting for the phone to ring. I can't wait for you to make up your mind, to decide what is more important to you, avoid whatever it is your avoiding."

I've channeled all your pain

I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is:

I tear my heat open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care to much

And our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

He just watched her, not registering anything. Her rage boiled over and she started to yell. "I've tried to help you, you ungrateful dog! I've supported you, given you a damn roof over your head, paid off your countless tabs! And what do I get? You go fuck some ex-girlfriend of yours! I forgave you, god knows why! And you promised and promised." She did a sick imitation of his voice. "I'll always call Kagome. Don't worry, I'll quit drinking, I'll do this, I'll do that." She was livid now. "And I believed you! I sat there and drank it all in, hoping you would change!"

I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you goin' down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water,

So I offered you my hand

Compassion is in my nature

Tonight is our last stand

She calmed gradually. "I've tired and I've tried. Every time you lied to me, it added another scar. Now, there are one to many scars on my heart. I've showed you far to much compassion, you ungrateful whelp."

I tear my heat open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care to much

And our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

Inuyasha looked at her with slowly clearing eyes. "So you came here to tell me you're done? That you're sick of me?" He laughed, and sinister, echoing sound. "You don't have the guts to leave me. Go home, bitch. Maybe I'll call you later."

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just want to be alone

You shouldn't ever come around

Why don't you just go home?

Kagome's eyes filled with tears of rage, but her voice was deadly calm. "No, Inuyasha. I really am done. I'm not going to help you anymore. I opened my heart to you, and left it open. You just never got it. You were never around to get it. It was wasted affection, wasted on someone who I should have realized in the beginning would never understand."

`Cause your drowning in the water

And I tried to grab your hand

I left my heart open

But you didn't understand.

Kagome glared at the drunken man one more time, refusing to let her tears fall. "I won't help you fix yourself, even though I know I've tried. I am going to leave you, you selfish son of a bitch. Have fun screwing that other girl…Kikyo."

I can't help you fix yourself,

But at least I can say I tried.

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Inuyasha stared after her as she left the tiny bar, the liquor before him momentarily forgotten. His mind was in a state of mild shock. `She actually left me.' In his drunken stupor he didn't really register it yet, but in the morning her vicious words would sting his soul, and he would be alone.

Outside, Kagome sat in her car and let the tears spill down her face, but inside she was filled with an odd sense of relief. Like a burden had been lifted from her soul. She took a shaky, but cleansing breath, started her car and drove home.

I tear my heat open

I sew myself shut

My weakness is

That I care to much

And our scars remind us

That the past is real

I tear my heart open

Just to feel

Until next we meet!

Dragon Warrioress