InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Scribbler ❯ I am a little bit of loneliness ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha that lives in feudal Japan but I do own Inuyasha that lives in New York City and is the most kick ass scribbler in Manhattan. Oh I don't own faint by Linkin Park either.

Ok I know that I don't really up-date my stories regularly but I have this new idea for a story and I really want to write it because it sorta relates to my life in a way. I try to write stuff I already have experienced so I can describe it better. Hope you like it!!!

~Scribbler~

I am a little bit of loneliness

~*~

The sweat was pouring off of him as Inuyasha was about ready to play the next track.

The lights were dimming from the previous song he just played and right now he knew what the crowd and himself needed to get them all pumped back up.

He put the track on play and raised the volume as high as it would go, relishing the feeling of the first twelve string notes that played followed by the guitar solo that he just learned only three days ago.

It was his favorite song and ironically enough it was the song that was corresponding most with his life at that point.

Yup, this was he song all right.

I am a little bit of loneliness

A little bit of disregard

A hand full of complaints

But I cant help the fact that

Everyone can see these scars…

He looked down at his left arm to see the fading scars that was once a sign of their love together. She thought it would be cute if he carved her name into his arm and he being young and stupid gladly went along with the idea.

If he knew then what he knew now he would have smacked her up and told her no way. What kind of girl wasn't to date a guy with his ex-girlfriends named carved into his arm?

Not many.

I am

What I want you to want

What I want you to feel

But its like no matter what I do

I can't convince you to just believe

This is real…

He did everything in his power to make her happy.

He changed his look, his style, and his attitude. Hell he even changed friends for that stupid bitch.

Him and Miroku were tight since he could remember…which was when collage started in the fall. So that was like what 1 yr and 6 months. That pretty long considering Inuyasha's past record of keeping friends, and he dropped his like it was nothing for her.

But then he realized that he had to draw the line somewhere.

So I let go watching you

Turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that im not

But ill be here cause you all that I've got…

He let her trample him over and over again, always saying to himself that maybe next time she would change…but she never did.

He waited for her and is still waiting but really he doesn't know how much longer he can wait.

I cant feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me

I wont be ignored

Time wont heal

This damage anymore

Don't turn your back on me

I wont be ignored…

He was going to talk to her about how he wasn't going to change anymore for her. That she should accept him for what and who he is and to not make him into something she wants.

Not to mold him into her creation out of dirt and bones.

That he finally had enough of her bull shit because he knew that she was hanging around with the asshole Naraku when he was working at the club, hell he even saw her at his club a couple of times with him!

His pacents was running thin with her.

I am a little bit insecure

A little unconfident

'Cause you don't understand

I do what I can

But sometimes I don't make sense…

But he never had the courage to face her. She always was there for him and ever since he let her down that one time he practically owed his life to her.

His carelessness almost got her killed and she would never let him forget what happen that night.

I am what you never want to say

But I've never had a doubt

Its like no matter what I do

I can't convince you

For once just to hear me out…

A if he ever did sum up the courage to talk to her she would just shot him down automatically like it was nothing of her concern.

Saying she was too tired for it or if they could talk about it later. She knew what he wanted to say but she was just afraid to actually admit that she'd been creeping around.

She didn't want to lose the "security blanket" that was Inuyasha.

So I let go watching you Turn your back like you always do

Face away and pretend that im not

But ill be there cause your all that I've got…

The club was jumping now with chaos happening everywhere. It was getting him dizzy just watching the people below him spin and twirl with each other in time with this music.

The lights dimmed a little lower to welcome the chorus of the song again and Inuyasha complied gladly by pushing the bass buttons to their max.

I cant feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me

I wont be ignored

Time wont heal

The damage anymore

Don't turn your back on me I won't be ignored…

Time didn't heal the damage that Kikyo cause him. In fact it just grantee it to a new lever he never thought imaginable.

When she wasn't with him it hurt because he knew that she was with another man getting the attention that he rightfully deserved but had been deprived of all of those months that they had been going out.

But he wasn't going to ignored anymore

Last night he was finally going to make her listen to what he had to say. Either way, if she listened or not, he was walking out the door…without her.

No

Hear me out now

Your gona listen to me

Like it or not right now

Hear me out now

Your gona listen to me

Like it or not right now…

He was going to take it maturely, something he doesn't do quite often, but he thought if he could approach thing matter like an adult then maybe Kikyo would listen like an adult.

But when she stumbled into their apartment at 2 in the morning with the stench of alcohol all over her and gabbing on the cell with some random guy she swears was her brother (we all know Kikyo doesn't have a brother) he just lost it.

He got her attention finally by ripper her cell phone from her hands and slamming it against the wall so hard that when he pulled his hand away all you could see were pieces of wire and plastic fall all around it.

"What the fuck do you think your doing Inuyasha?" She hollered the anger surrounding her like a black aura.

"Im doing something I should have don't a while ago. Kikyo you are a cynical, self-centered little tight assed prissy bitch with no care in the world for anyone but your self and maybe the unfortunate guy you're fucking and the moment. I have put up with your two-faced shit for long enough and I think I have repaid my debt to you ten times over. And in case any of this flew in one ear and out the other, as most things do with people who have such high selective hearing such as yourself, let me make thing really clear for you. I am not your puppy anymore."

He spat the word puppy like it burned his mouth.

When he looked up to she her reaction her face was blank but then a small smile crept on her lips.

"Ok Inuyasha. You are a male and need a ego boost every once and a while so go and feel all high and might for the next couple of weeks 'cause kami knows that how long you can survive without me. But I just wana say, when you finally drag your lazy ass back up to my apartment you will need to do a lot of graveling before I even let you like the grim off of my …"

Kikyo didn't even get to finish her sentence because Inuyasha had already slammed the door on his way out and was now hurrying down the stairs and out the door to hop into Miroku's car that was waiting for him.

"How'd it go?" Ask Miroku softly. He knew that when they were in the prime of their relationship those two were very serious and very protective of one another. And judging form the screaming he heard upstairs one of them was going to get their heart trampled on.

That one was Inuyasha.

"Just drive." Was all he got back in return and he took it gladly.

A pissed of Inuyasha was better then an emotionally distressed Inuyasha any day.

I cant feel the way I did before Don't turn your back on me

I wont be ignored…

Inuyasha got pulled out of his memories of last night by the last couple of lines from the lyrics.

Well he wont let his ex keep him from trying to have a good time at his club tonight. Plus his eyes kept on wondering over to a specific girl that had a face almost like Kikyo's.

He actually would have bet money that it was her…until he saw her dance to that last song.

Kikyo never…ever danced. And when she did everyone wished that she would stop. It was sorta weird, their relationship.

He was the owner and main scribbler (d.j.) of his nightclub, Inferno. He wore his sexy tight black shirts with comfortable baggy jeans or kakis to work or even, on the nights where the club got really hot, just took off his top and wore his pants.

She was an office worker who always wore business suits and kept her hair in a tight bun. Maybe if she was feeling a little adventurous she might unbutton the first button of her blazer but that was about as frisky as she got when she was in business mode.

He worked with a bartender named Sango who has been sent to jail 3 times for assaulting people and probably has been in anger management a totally of 14 years of her life.

She actually offered to give him a free consultation with her because she memorized everything that they say and do there because she's been there so much but he declined the offer.

He also worked with his best friend Miroku who was the bouncer of the club. He wasn't that big but he had this freaky thing that he can do with his right hand. Makes you paralyzed for like 5 minutes or something. He really can remember that well because when your paralyzed your more concerned with other things.

She worked with that uppity boss of hers Naraku and his two personal assistance Kanna and Kagura. He was almost sure that the two girls were bi and they had massive orgies in his office but he only had those thoughts in his worst nightmares.

…ewww Naraku naked.

His eye traveled back to the girl that he established was not Kikiyo and looked her up and down.

She had nice moves. Her hips always accenting the drum beat of a song and she arms and upper body usually in sum rhythmical unison with the lyrics and guitar cords.

The more he looked…the more he liked.

Hopefully he would see her again sometimes in his nightclub.

~*~

Kagome just finished dancing to one of her favorite songs by Linkin Park and was thrilled when they started to play H! VOLTG3 by them.

She silently thanked kami that she practiced her dance moved to their cd before she came here tonight to see her friend Sango who worked the bar.

It was a perfect place to practice her dancing and since midterms were coming up and her assignment for her hip-hop dance class was to make up an original dance this was the place to practice the moves and combinations she had made up.

She actually liked this club a lot. Hot music, friend working at the bar, and the finest looking scribbler she had ever seen was checking her out the whole night.

Thanks to Sango's suggestion to her she was all up for the job.

Yup, Kagome could get use to being a featured dancer at this nightclub.

~*~

Few. That took a while. Well maybe not that long considering I took and hr brake in between to watching Inuyasha and Cowboy Bebop. I hope you like it and if you do review please. I have very high ideas for this fic but I wont update it unless I get 10-15 reviews for this first chapter because if I don't get feedback from you guys then I don't know what you want.

Nightynight.

Kamiyasha.