InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Secret ❯ She Has a Secret ( Chapter 1 )

She's quiet this morning
She can't say why
Sends her husband off to work
With a kiss goodbye
Unlocks that old diary
Turns to the third of May
Adds another tear to the page
And it's lonely being the only one
Who knows the truth

Kagome watched Kouga walk towards her before leaving for Taisho Inc. He kissed her on the lips and told her he'd be late getting home. Kagome watched him leave and walked back to her bedroom.

 

Kagome opened up a drawer in her bedside table and pulled out a faded diary with `Sorrow' written on the front cover. She took the key from the drawer and opened it. May 3rd. Kagome began to cry as she wrote about a secret she alone had been plagued with.

 

Silently, Kagome wrote down her agony.

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She has a secret
That she can never tell
One wrong decision
Still puts her heart through hell
Does he miss her
Did he forgive her
The love that they shared will
Always be a secret

 

A tear fell onto the page. Ever since she had left, she couldn't stop the `what ifs' from rolling around in her head.

 

`InuYasha' a name she would never be able to forget. The last time she had talked to one of her old friends, she had informed her that InuYasha wanted her to die, but she was devastated when Akira said he wanted her dead. That had been five years ago.

 

Ever since she had left InuYasha with… no. She couldn't bring herself to admit what she had done, more tears fell, but her words didn't smudge.

 

Kagome knew what her new life entailed and her old life couldn't be in it. No one would ever find out.

Only she knows, she still loves him
And she hates the choice she made
Wishes she could find him
Tell him why she walked away
Every day gets harder, livin' with herself
But she knew he'd be better off, raised by someone else
God, it's lonely being the only one
Who knows the truth

Akira, her son. He turned seven last month.

 

Kagome hated leaving him but it couldn't be helped. With everything that was going on then… no, it couldn't be helped, but he couldn't possibly know that.

 

Kagome began to reminisce and remembered the day she left, and it had been hard. Everyday she tried to forget her past. Everyday she attempted to live the new life she had set for herself.

 

Kagome halted her tears. `No, he's better off without me, they both are.' A tear fell despite her efforts to hold them back.

 

She wondered what would happen if someone in her new life found out about her mistake.

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She unlocks that old diary
Turns to the third of May
Adds another tear to the page

 

Kagome shook her head to sort out her thoughts and finished her entry, she could never tell anyone. With another tear, she locked the diary up and put it back into the bedside table, Ayame would be over soon and she didn't want anyone asking questions.

 

This was her secret.