InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sedirea ❯ Repetition ( Chapter 10 )

Repetition

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Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha

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“Are you alright?” Kagome suddenly turned her head to him.

 

Kin had closed his eyes and he was breathing hard; his arms kept tightening around her as Kagome began to struggle out of his hold.

 

“Inuyasha!”

 

“What- What is it?” He finally opened his eyes and managed a croak answer.

 

“What happen to you? You were for a moment so tense.” Kagome raised a hand up to his face and lightly touched his forehead.

 

He caught her hand and kissed it softly. “You won't believe me when I tell you.”

 

Kagome frowned. “Try me.”

 

He looked at her for a moment, reweighing if he should tell her or not. “I've been having blackouts ever since I was twelve. There were times when I found myself waking up in strange places and forgot how I even got there or why I was there. After these things happened quite often, I was taken to a hospital for a checkup.” He stopped when he realized that her eyes were misted over.

 

“Hey! Hey,” he called out to her in panic. “It's nothing serious; they couldn't find out what was wrong with me and concluded that the blackouts were of psychiatric causes.” He smiled at her reassuringly. In his heart he was feeling strangely elated watching her so sad, and it urged him to attempt more sentiments out of her.

 

“Are you sure?” Kagome asked him in a pitiful tone. Her face held the most heartbreaking pout he had ever seen.

 

“Yeah.” He grinned. “Of course I could be mistaken when suddenly it turns out that they had misdiagnosed the cause of my symptoms. It could be caused by some acute neurological problems like infection in the brain or some failure in its circulation.” He looked at her seriously. “I could possibly die right in the next minute.” He then gazed down at her pleadingly.

 

Kagome, who had tortured herself with qualms the moment he had had a blackout, began to snivel, and then her light whimper exploded into uncontrollable sobs. She buried her head in his chest and hugged him tightly.

 

Kin froze in shock; he wasn't prepared for such extreme reaction. He started to rub her head affectionately. “There… there… Don't take it too seriously. I was only joking.” He chuckled softly; in his heart the elation elevated.

 

“But- there is that- possibility.” She stuttered heartbreakingly, her face was still kept hidden in his chest.

 

“There is no such possibility. When I was at the hospital, they ran all kinds of tests on me, included EKG and EEG. And they found nothing; there were no abnormalities in any of my vital organs' functions.” He explained with alacrity. Suddenly her pain became visible, and the sound of her sobs was no longer fretful; it was heart-wrenching and tragic to hear. He could no longer bear it because it hurt him too.

 

“I'm sorry.” He said. “Why does it seem as if I make you sad all the time? Every now and then I did something that turned out to have pained you. I never meant it so.”

 

His words took quite awhile to register into her mind. And exultation overtook her at the realization of his account, but only for a moment. In the following minute she disengaged herself slowly from him. Cold anger took over. Cold shoulders ensued.

 

“Kagome…” He tugged on her cardigan's sleeve pathetically.

 

She refused to spare him the slightest bit of attention. Still hiccupping, she tried to control her breathing.

 

And there went the slight tugging again. The universal dilemma of male helplessness invaded his coolness.

 

If this was a movie, there would be a voice-over imparting that this was the ignoring game's scene.

 

But Kin wouldn't be Kin or reincarnated Inuyasha if he wasn't classically impulsive. Kagome felt then a strong pull that sent her colliding against him immediately.

 

She gasped furiously in reaction. “Inuyasha-”

 

Now Kagome might not realize it, but Kin never missed a beat as he closed his lips upon hers.

 

Too late was her realization of the slip. The sensation of his lips against hers was sumptuous in intensity that it stopped every thought running through her mind.

 

And then he ended it as quickly as it had begun. She was still closing her eyes when her body swayed forward out of balance. She opened her eyes and blinked.

 

He was grinning like mad. Kagome immediately narrowed her eyes at him. “What the hell was that?”

 

“Excellent long-term memory?”

 

Kagome glared at him, and then she bit her lip, trying to keep a smile out of her face. But the treacherous reaction escaped her anyhow, thanked to her responsive facial muscles.

 

The train came gradually into a halt. Kin stood up and pulled her out of her seat. She took his hand a bit reluctantly, but even that manner was half-hearted. She knew she would take the extended hand again and again each time he offered it, guiding her to wherever he wanted to take her. The sublime, yet elusive, moment that had been gone resurfaced.

 

He continued holding her hand until they exited the train, and then suddenly a passerby, who seemed to be in a great hurry, broke their contact. Kagome was for a moment stunned; her gaze glued fixedly at her now empty hand. Such was impermanence of unity.

 

And as clichéd as it sounded, she lost him in the crowd. Out of nowhere a swarm of tourists passed by, blocking their way. Kin, who had thought that she had followed him, didn't realize at first that they were separated, and Kagome, who always acted out of panic, left the place they had separated to frantically search for him. It was devastating; it was a simple idiocy of a slip, and yet both managed to make it more dramatic than it seemed.

 

The situation took over; as if everything was against them from the very beginning, small incidents began to take place. And the first one appeared in the form of drunken men.

 

As she ran desperately through the crowd, she crashed into a group of four guys. Having no time to apologize profusely, she excused herself briefly and was about to leave when one of the men caught her arm.

 

“You call that an apology?” He leered at her.

 

“It's going no need more than that; our friend Goro here got battered pretty bad.” His friend added.

 

Kagome's face hardened. “I'm sorry.” She gritted. “Now, if you please excuse me.”

 

“Not quite yet.” One of the men blocked her way. It was ironic how alcohol could boost up the newborn courage of the most coward of an ass. “We're not going to let you off yet.”

 

Kagome ignored the man and continued walking, taking the path around them. Suddenly both her arms were yanked roughly. She tried to scream, but as if sensing her action, one of the men, whom they had called Goro, brought his hand up to muffle her cry. She bit his hand, kneed him in the groin and stepped hard on the foot of the man, who was holding her.

 

As she was about to struggle out of the man's weakening hold, one of his friend decided to assist him by yanking her roughly toward him. Suddenly she heard a livid bellow from behind.

 

“Let her go!”

 

Kin threw a punch to the man near her. The man, who now had Kagome, pushed her away hard in order to help his friend. He moved forward, his motion unsteady so that it was easy for Kin to down him the moment he tried to attack him. The third attacker lunged for his legs, and Kin lost his balance as he fell on his back. The fourth attacker, who was apparently not so drunk, kicked him repeatedly in his abdomen while he was down.

 

And that was when Kagome realize that Inuyasha was no longer a hanyou. He was mortal, dangerously so right now. She then noticed the guy named Goro picked up a random, heavy, tube-like stick and headed towards Kin with it.

 

Everything was only blurs of motion from then on. All she could think of was that she couldn't let him get hurt. So she failed to see how Kin grabbed the kicking foot and twisted it until one could hear a resulting, sickening crack of sound. He then brought his knee up and knocked the man holding his legs with it. As he was finally on his feet, he felt a soft body pushed against him. Kin quickly turned around, and what he saw almost stopped his heart.

 

A man was coming towards him, holding a piece of metal above his head, and Kagome, her head held down and eyes tightly shut, had positioned her body between them in intention of intercepting the strike.

 

He felt fury like he never had felt before. With an almost inhuman strength he caught the metal before the strike was executed and wrenched it away from the man's hand. He then pushed Kagome behind him and delivered his opponent the most beautiful straight right of the century.

 

Still far from satisfied he looked around to find another opponent, but the men, who became painfully sober at the time, scrambled on their feet and scattered away from the place hastily, carrying their unconscious friend with them.

 

Kin then turned towards her. His eyes seemed to hold the greatest wrath on her. Holding both her arms, he brought his head down so that they were in the nose-level.

 

“Did you just put your body before mine in the fight?” His eyes blazed into hers. “Do you even realize how dangerous that is, how terribly stupid that is?” His voice was cold and deadly.

 

Kagome's wide eyes were focused on his. And slowly her orbs filled with tears; one by one it glided down her smooth cheeks to the ground. A sob was weakly held down.

 

And then another sob came up, and another, and yet another, until she was coughing up sobs fitfully; she had never been so frightened. Everything came out all at once, her fear while they had been separated in the crowd, her fear of the fight, and most of all her fear that he had been hurt.

 

He pulled her into his arms abruptly. “I'm sorry.” He whispered to her as he felt her shaking body against him, but he was shaking too; heaven knew what would've happened if he hadn't noticed the attack. His arms tensed tighter around her when he thought of the horrifying possibilities.

 

“Please.” He whispered to her desperately. “Don't ever do that again, please.” She responded with sobbing even harder. He subsequently felt the sudden need to emphasize the warning into her head. “Do you hear me, Kagome? I'm sorry I frightened you, but please promise me you'll never put yourself in a dangerous position like that ever again.”

 

“I'm so- sorry they- hurt you.” She stuttered heartbreakingly.

 

Kin's arms immediately relaxed around her; he kissed the top of her head firmly and massaged her nape. “Sweet baby,” he whispered out to her. “I'm sorry. I didn't plan our day to turn out this way.”

 

“Please, Inuyasha; let's just to go home.” She replied tiredly.

 

~*~

 

It was nine in the morning when they finally reached their dorm. Kin stopped the engine and turned his head towards Kagome. She was fast asleep in her seat. He smiled and woke her gently.

 

Kagome opened her eyes tiredly; she felt as if she hadn't the energy to do anything anymore.

 

She looked around her sleepily and realized that they were in front of their dorm. She then noticed a couple of packers coming out of the main door carrying out some cartons. And that was when everything else came to place.

 

Before she had even the chance to explain, a set of knuckles rapped on the window, startling them both.

 

Annoyed, Kin frowned. “What the hell is he doing here?”

 

Kagome ignored his question and started fumbling with her seatbelt hastily without eventually succeeding of freeing herself.

 

She then felt rather than saw him moving toward her. She looked up to the most intriguing mixture of mischievous and possessive look in his eyes. Their faces were only 0.5 cm from each other; she really thought he was going to kiss her. And then there was a snap, and the belt was loose. He grinned smugly as he backed up to his seat.

 

Embarrassed beyond repair, she opened the door and hurried away from the seat. A hand helped her up, and she looked up to the curious eyes of her current boyfriend.

 

“We already finished taking your cartons to the van; now they just need me to come with them to show them where the stuff would go. I'll come back to pick you up as soon as I got everything set, okay?” Hojo rubbed her arm up and down while he was speaking to her.

 

Kagome smiled up to him. “Thank you for taking care of everything.”

 

Hojo smiled back at her; he weighed his chances of kissing her before he left, but there was this fixed gaze glued on them, making both of them feeling self-conscious.

 

As soon as Hojo went in his car, Kin stalked up to her and was about to question her when suddenly someone called out to him from behind.

 

“Kagome! Inuyasha! Help me with my stuff, will you?” Mai was on the process of carrying a carton from her car.

 

They went up to her and helped her.

 

“You're moving here?” Kin asked her bewilderedly.

 

“Actually I'm moving in with you, right partner?” Mai replied. Seeing his confused reaction, she lifted her brow. “Ne? Inuyasha, you don't know anything about my moving in?”

 

“Temporarily, right? Because I don't think the dorm's regulation allows three people living in the apartment.” He answered in puzzlement.

 

“No, you dummy! Kagome's moving out; I'm moving in.” She explained exasperatingly.

 

He froze on the spot.

 

“Inuyasha? Are you coming?” Mai called out to him.

 

“In a second.” He gritted out. “Kagome, can I talk to you?” He put down the carton on the ground and grabbed Kagome's arm, stopping her.

 

The moment he saw Mai disappeared into the building, he turned to Kagome. “What's the meaning of this?”

 

Kagome found that it was hard to answer him. She hadn't anything to say. She didn't know anything to say.

 

“Answer me!” He demanded angrily.

 

“I want to thank you for today. I had a really nice time.” She answered with a blank expression on her face.

 

He stared at her in bewilderment for a moment. He then laughed bitterly. “I don't believe this.” He continued laughing.

 

“Stop it.” She whispered. “I'm so tired right now; I don't think I could barely able to stand on my feet.”

 

“What-!? What the fuck does-”

 

“Ask me later again why I'm moving out. Because right now I can't think of any polite reason to answer you.” She disentangled her arm from his hold and ran inside.

 

~*~

 

“Kagome-chan, did you have everything?”

 

Kagome nodded. She smiled tiredly at her. “Guess, I'll see you tomorrow, right?”

 

“You're coming too?” Mai asked her curiously.

 

“I guess, I promise Nozomi-chan I'll come.” Mai walked her out to the door. Kagome then turned to her. “I'm sorry about what happened to you and your boyfriend. I hope you guys make up soon.”

 

“No, no chance of that.” Mai answered her lightly. “It's such a coincidence, right? After you told me that you're moving out, I had that big fight with my boy- I mean ex-boyfriend.”

 

“Yes, such a coincidence. But it's for the better.” Kagome quickly added. “Such coincidences, I mean; don't you agree?”

 

“Kagome-chan,” Mai answered her laughingly. “I really think you need to go home and rest, and most importantly sleep.”

 

Kagome laughed a little. “I guess you're right. Bye then; See you tomorrow.”

 

“Bye Kagome-chan. And if you meet Inuyasha on your way, please tell him to get his lazy butt in here.”

 

Kagome smiled and nodded.

 

As soon as the door was closed, the friendliness in Mai's eyes disappeared. She smiled bitterly to herself. “Stupid girl. There's no such thing as coincidence.”

 

~*~

 

Somewhere in a concealed cavity he hovered in the dark.

 

As she was walking down to the elevators, Kagome suddenly was yanked forcefully into a corner.

 

“How can you just leave as if nothing had happened today?” He asked her, tortured. “Why are you being such a coward?”

 

Suddenly he moved forward and caught her forcefully. “Are you frightened?” His eyes were searching for any signs of expression on her face. “I'm frightened too, but you have to admit that you felt something today. I have to make sure.” He shook her in desperation.

 

“I'm a coward!?” She boiled. “You're the one who kissed me without telling your girlfriend about it. And you're the one who kissed me for the second time in full realization that you belongs to another. So who's the coward now, Inuyasha? Answer me!” She squirmed defiantly under his hold. “And you need a guarantee? For what? For being deceitful?”

 

He shook her again, this time more forcefully as if to accentuate each of his words. “I can't break it off yet with her because I fucking promised-” He bit his lip.

 

Kagome struggled against him still. “You and your stupid promises; what makes you think I give a shit about them!?” She finally managed to free one of her hands and brought it up to hit his face, but he caught her hand again and pinned it together with the other against her front, crossing.

 

“What does it take, Inuyasha? What does it take for you to let me go? Should I say that your kiss meant nothing to me? Should I say that? Because that's just like stating the truth; do you even wanna hear that? Do you want to hear the truth? It was just a passing mood; had it been anyone else, I would've returned it too. It could be anyone.” She whispered to him tauntingly, emphasizing each word to his face.

 

And he kissed her. Again. This time he just sealed his lips against hers roughly. Still burning with fury, she bit down his lower lip. He backed up only to move forward again and caught her lips; he gave her lower lip a punishing nip, enraging her further. She tried retaliating his action, but he kept his head expertly out of her reach, though not far enough because each time she failed to attack, he would leaned forward, if only for a moment, to brush his lips against hers firmly or to give her a soft nip playfully.

 

Frustrated, she kept chasing his lips; sometimes she caught his chin, and though he was able to escape the bruising graze of her teeth, he let her bite him. The chasing game gradually stoked the fire in her, and her movement became more sensual, teasing. Her eyes glowed with excitement as his were darkened with want. She caught his lip easily and gave it a playful nibble; her eyes unconsciously gazed up at his, sensually challenging. He responded by slamming his body against her, backing her to the wall and imprisoning her hands to each side of her.

 

She realized then it was no longer a kiss; at the high point of their excitement he had taken the level of intimacy far beyond repair. Though it was not the actual finality of the act, Kagome couldn't deny anymore that she was no longer a girl, who had believed that romance was kisses and warm fluttery feelings. The desire for him roused in her, and the force of it was scorching and sharp, not all pleasant but voracious, denying everything.

 

Their lips met again. No action was permissive anymore as they devoured each other's lips; it was pure want and absolute taking. His hands were all over her, groping her desperately through her clothing, and her hands locked themselves on the back of his neck, trying to push him as close as they could get, uniting if possible. As he kissed, nipped, and licked his way following an invisible path down her neck, he grabbed one of her slender legs and positioned it behind him. In this position the want was evident through every form of contour. Their motions were now growing frantic; his hand on her leg was gripping it so hard, she was sure that it bruised.

 

“I tried calling her mobile, but the batt's probably off I think.” Hojo's worried voice was then answered by cheerful Mai's. “Then we'll go search for her. I don't think she'll be far tho; she knows you're going to pick her up, right?”

 

“Fuck.” Kin whispered in frustration. They froze in motion. Kagome looked at him with wide, frightened eyes while he was keeping his head down. Frustration in every muscle, his jaw set tight.

 

They waited until the two unsuspecting people disappeared into an elevator. After the door closed, Kagome finally dared to breath. She extricated herself from him, realizing suddenly how wrong that had been.

 

His eyes silently pleaded her not to do what she was about to do, cutting off everything before giving them a chance.

 

She refused it. She had to. There was no way that she was able to accept any intimacy out of duplicity; she, who had known the bitter taste of betrayal, couldn't absolutely do this to another. Even if she had to deny herself and the one she most loved, she was set out to do what was right this time.

 

It was of course tiring to make the repetition of decision time and time again, but it was not as if she had any choice at all. There was this heavy encumbrance embedded in her heart shouting for attention. She esteemed promises highly too. And they were no longer in a time where they could take each other's affection for granted; that time had passed. This was a new story.

 

And yet treacherously she hoped a little that goodbye was not forever.

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*end of chapter*

 

AN: okay, I don't know if this chapter was any good, but gosh it was too damn long. Please do read and review.

 

 

 

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