InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Shield of Hate Part1: This is My Life ❯ This Is My Life ( Chapter 4 )

Okay fans! I want you all to know! That when I started making these next few chapters I was listening to a lot of music! From the artists; The Used, Trapt, Shakira, Hossam Ramzy…and so on! Yeah and I took up a bit of belly dancing, but that's okay! The idea of angst has gone out the window and down the fire escape!

I've mixed it all up because that's what I do best!!!!!*runs around screaming Penis* Okay don't run away screaming now, just go on and read this fic. It's going up and down. Be ready… for ANYTHING! *starts eating a cookie* Yum

But then it came to my attention, that when I wrote the first two chapters, I was very depressed. But then I came abck to this story three months later and couldn't be happier and was back to my random self. So I will try to stay on track because as one reviewer said, this can be a good fic. Because I saw you guys liked the angst-ness, and that's why you're here. So yeah! Tell me if I get off topic, but don't get me all sad again, you might really get what you asked! Lol.

Disclaimer-Oh my darlings I'm sorry to disappoint you but I don't own InuYasha, but if I did you know that every night I would put him up in handcuffs and start slapping him around with my whip. That is all. Thank you for your time. *bows*

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Shield of Hate

This is My Life

Author's POV

"They were what?!" Kikyo hissed and smacked Josh upside his head.

"Ow! That hurt…." He stated the obvious. "You were supposed to keep an eye on them you idiot!" and she jabbed him in the stomach.

"Well MAYBE if he wasn't so WEAK that wouldn't of happened!!!" Kouga came in holding frying pan with scrabbled eggs in it.

"And you want me to listen to a man in an apron?! What are you on?!" Josh came over and started to eat the eggs out of the pan. And then Kouga smacked his hands with the specula. "Damn you!"

"I don't care! Now go!!! Keep an eye on her we are going to get her and that is that!!!" Kikyo kicked Josh out the kitchen door, into the direction of the bedroom.

Kagome's POV

Ughh….why? I felt so groggy…I opened my eyes and squinted in the sunlight. And I looked around. Okay, this isn't my room…

What happened last night? All I can remember is squirrels!!!

I HATE THOSE THINGS!

AND WHERE AM I?!

I jumped out of the bed but then just fell right back into it. My head hurts….I know what I'll do!

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!" okay I screamed, maybe that would get someone in here so I can find out who the hell got me here.

Ah crap. This is bad, I am in an unknown house, no doubt of a drug dealers! And I really want to cuddle a squirrel right now and I don't know why! Okay yes I have faced my fate this is my life. A series of Unfortunate events.

Anywho I screamed again and…and…

"GYAAAHHHH!!! WHAT THE FUCK?!!!" I screamed and jumped on the bed pointing my finger at guess who? Well none other than Josh! That sex fiend!! Oh shit! What did we do last night? O.O I started to cuss him out until my face started to get all blotchy and I'm sure his head was spinning.

I didn't stop there though. Oh hell no I didn't stop. What kind of girl would I be then? He started quickly advance on me like everything I said didn't mean a thing to him. I drew in a deep breath. Could the end be near?

He started to push me into a corner and for the first time in a long time I felt…small. I mean really besides the fact I'm just five feet tall.

"What…." I breathed "are you…?" I didn't get a real chance to finish. He had the nerve to kiss ME. But here's the funny thing, I liked it and I wasn't going to pull back just yet. Funny how the circumstances change when the real events happen. (1) I guess we're all Jack Slaps in the end eh? (2)

After a while we pulled back to breathe and went on. Somehow we got ourselves on the bed, well la de freakin dah! (3) I got a bit bold and sat on his lap which was really comfy actually. I bet his butt is too, note to self: remember to grab his butt later. I licked his lips since he was failing to act and I drove my tongue right in there. Geez that sounded wrong…

Mmm..his mouth tasted good…so very good either it was just me or he just brushed his teeth. I smirked at the thought and snaked my arms around his neck and started to slide my tongue over his teeth. I think I felt him shiver. Awe how sweet…my pet..this time he pulled back and was gasping. I chuckled.

"You are…good" He got up and slowly made his way to the closet and threw out some clothes of his for me. Not like I would mind! "Yes I know" I replied even though it was kind of late to say it. He came and patted me on the back "I'll be back in a bit, get ready, school you know" he shrugged and was out the door.

That was good…wait what does this mean? What happened last night? Did he do something bad to me? Like put that new drug in my drink?? If not then should I hang onto my "rescuer"? I got up and headed to the shower. And for Gods sakes, WHY DO I WANT TO CUDDLE THE RABIES INFESTED SQURRILS?!?!

I grabbed a random fuzzy slipper on the floor and began to cuddle it. This will have to do. Lucky me, it's sorta new. No smell and I can still see the sales tag. O shake my head and looked at my watch, 8:30. Another late school day and a detention. What a freaking GLORIOUS morning!!

InuYasha's POV

Ugh, damn it what happened? I got my ass up and looked around. I was in my room? But how? I got up quickly and fell back on my bed. Shit. I remembered going to see my bastard brother. He tried something but of COURSE I got him back for it! Whatever it was… You know the deal. Miroku was goofing off with only god knows who. But after that…the bar, man I dunno.

Maybe it was the mushrooms? They make people hallucinate, but I never ate them! Grr… I threw my clock across the room into a wall. I CAN'T REMEMBER! I looked at my now half broken clock. I was late, no big deal though. I got up and got dressed and fished my pants out from the night before to get my wallet, but there was a note instead.

InuYasha,

You fool! Did you realize what you did? Not like I care so I took yo money because of the services I provided you with! You know what I mean. Smell you later hanyou! Muwhahaha!

-The dude that defiantly is NOT

your half brother.

I growled. WHY?! He can still manage to piss me off AND THE BASTARD ISN'T EVEN HERE! This is my life. It sucks mushrooms I mean, monkies! Damn, mushrooms? I walked out the door and walked to my car, my baby.

I looked around and saw the wench!!! I got into my car trying desperately not to turn the car around and run her over. A smear of colors passed over my mind and I shrugged it off. Feh.

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Walked up into class, lucky me the bell had just rang. I sat by my girl Kikyo and kissed her lips. She simply kissed me back and stared at me. She looked colder than Usual. Creepy. I sat down and stared aimlessly at the board. I looked through the corner of my eye. Kikyo was glaring daggers at me. What's that all about?

I turned and looked a the door, the knob turned and the devil came bursting through the door with this dude, no doubt it was her trusty side kick behind her. I slightly tilted my head to the side.

"You're late" Mr. I'm-a-very-boring-teacher-rapist said.

"Yeah I am aware, but I have a note" and the devil flung the note in his face with a huge Freaky Fred grin on her face.(4) Like she was five years old or she something! Nah she's just insane, where's the men in white jackets when you need them?

Anyway, I mean her clothes were barely on her it was just nasty. I cringed. The teacher grumbled, Kagome skipped…freaking SKIPPED, over to her seat! Wait, why did I call her Kagome? What is wrong with you boy. I mentally slap myself, she is the devil that's all there is to it, but with this intense evil glare I'm getting from Kikyo is making me think differently.

So she skipped, this is one more reason to add to the `Why I Hate HER' list. BECAUSE SHE'S A PSYCHO!

"Yeah, new student, Josh, sit down right over there" he motioned over to a seat next to Kikyo. Hey! She's mine damn it what's this old man trying to pull? I saw him lick his lips. He looks interested. And he will die because I looked over to the window where Kagome..gah DEVIL was sitting next to Sango. And she looked all pissy giving Sango angry whispers. I think the day is looking up.

-Later-

I spoke too soon Too fucking soon! Today at lunch in front of everyone.

FlashyBacky

"Hey Inu baby," she sat down next to me she hadn't greeted me like that before.

"Hey" I reply.

"I'm breaking up with you. You're a tad stupid, hell really stupid, useless, and let's not forget to mention a cheater. I don't see much of a reason for us to continue talking anymore." She stated, no anger, no sadness, no emotion, no nothing.

Me-*anime falls* "What" I flattened my ears against my head, I was dreaming right?

"Obviously I prove my point on your stupidness, you don't listen worth a damn, I thought that sensitive hearing was supposed to kick in." she smirked.

By this time I was just staring at her, jaw slightly hanging open, while whispers were clearly heard in the air. She blinked got her crap and got up. "I guess that's what happens with a hanyou, not as much as the real thing." And she walked away. "Kikyo…no…" I whispered and the door to the cafeteria slammed.

Flashybacky end

I was speeding down the streets, causing serious accidents, like I give a care. My hands were shaking, I picked up my cell and dialed the number three times before I got it right, I was really jittery. Miroku's phone rang, and rang. What kind of friend is he?! I don't need him, I don't need Kikyo, she always held back on me. No acceptions.

No, I don't.

Don't need anyone and with that I kept on speeding right on up to 100 mph while the police cars desperately tried to catch up. Catch me if you can.

Josh's POV

Ah yes. Excellent. I rubbed my hands together and smiled my insane smile. Obviously Kikyo dumped the idiot. The one that tried to ruin our plans! Trying to go around and fight me?! Well, we'll see who wins in the end. I was walking back to "headquarters" meaning they took over my house because I was the new. No respect.

This is my life I guess. I want sushi. I stopped behind a tree and held out my hands and whadda ya know! A bag of sushi materializes in my hand. I could get used to this.

Yeah

Yup

Yeah.

That's right. Mmm sushi! What was I talking about again? Oh yeah Kagome..mm she'll be mine. Bring her around kill off InuYasha, not that he'd help her anyway.

He's way to cruel to her. How sad. Uh..un steak gateau! (5) So anyway Kagome seems to be going down. Ow. I just ran into a pole. Oh! A jelly bean!

I picked it up off the ground and I ate it and you know what?! It was good!

OH yeah! Yup.

HYPER! And then I went off running down the street to my home stripping off my clothes screaming Tracy and jellybeans the whole way.

((I'm sorry, I prewrote five chapters! I need to leave some of this up!))

Kagome's POV

I shoulda jumped out that window when I had the chance! I'm running away now, I'm saying goodbye to all my lonely teardrops man! Running away from school and just my screwed up life I have!

I mean the only thing good that happened at school today was that Kikyo, as much as I hate her, broke up with doggy ears which got his undies in a bunch! Muwhahahahaha!!!

Okay that fun was short lived. "This be my life" I sighed and stopped.

Where was I? A block from my house. I should burn it down. Or blow it up. But then all the houses would get destroyed too and they didn't do anything to me…yet. "I wonder if there is a God, because if there is, he must hate the hell out of me. Take my good for nothing mom away. Being out kills you. Everyone should shut up and stay at home."

Oh goody.

I'm beginning to talk to myself.

Wonderful. "Ow! Watch it!" comes from someone.

A certain dumped dude with white hair. "Follow your own advice and just leave me alone!" I retorted weakly.I looked up at him and stared.

"Well at least I watch where I'm going! Life just sucks and..gr…" Oh wow I am so scared. Mr. High and Mighty has red little glints in his eyes because his girly friend dumped him.

"You think you got it bad? How would you even know? Does everyone resent you? Do you forget things all the time, do you ever just wonder for a second how it feels to have no one, NO one care about you? But no, you don't know…" I laughed but I started to cry at the same time.

He just stared. "Obviously no, how could you? And to know the feeling of waking up in the morning and wishing you were dead everyday. No love. Never anything. Why am I telling you this?" I look up to his face laughing through my tears. And I start to back away.

"I mean you HATE me, yet I'm sitting here crying right in front of you, you a guy who hates me and I don't even know why, I was never sure why. Not at all." I tilted my head to the side crying my eyes out and it was time.

And I ran way from him. I ran into my house and into my room and laid on my bed of pain. Kagome's bed of Pain. I looked dreamily out the window. I thought I saw something, but I went to sleep. I'm tired. Just damn tired.

InuYasha's POV

Ahh. AHH I backed into my house. I grabbed my chest, it hurt. I swear if I could I'd make it so no damn woman could cry EVER again! Cause it eats the hell out of me.

FlashBack

I picked up the phone years ago only to hear her sobs, her mom had died I know how that felt, but it's not like I'd tell anyone about that. No one would ever know how alone I was so I told her off.

So she hated me. So what? I couldn't help, but feel bad after loosing a good friend I guess, but that was okay. I could find other people, if I wanted too and to get her out of my head. That's what I did.

I had taken a last glace at her window and shut the blinds of our friendship.

Flashback end

I started to walk upstairs to my room, tearing off my clothes on the way down. I got a perfect picture of her in my head. GRR BAD! I hit my head against the wall to get rid of the picture and left a little crack there. Whoops.

The things that she said and the look on her face. But it was useless. I plopped on my bed. I hope Kikyo dies. I think I would be happy. Kagome may be happy even if she is a little bit fucked. And since when the hell did I care about her happiness? That's the last thing I thought before I drifted off to sleep.

Dream

Catch me, as I fall

She stepped into the dark, her eyes fully dilated, mist rushing over her feet. She slowly walked over to a river and stopped.

Say you're here and its all over now

Across the edge was InuYasha standing there, staring at her. He narrowed his eyes and looked at her. He was about the jump in when with a flick of his wrist he motioned for her to jump in and she was suddenly dragged under. She tried to say something, but her voice didn't work.

Speaking to the atmosphere, no one's here and I fall into myself

She went spinning around under the water feeling as if someone was around her. Her clothes changed from her own to medieval. She closed her eyes and let herself be sucked under.

This truth, drives me, into madness.

And then she popped back up out right where she started, except there was a black panther next to her grinning in its own eyes.

`Hello?' came his voice and stepped out of the forest. He looked at her and the panther and ran away and the panther went right after him.

Wake up…

Dream End

Authors POV

They both woke up at the same time, confused and freaked out not knowing what to do except look out the window into the darkness wondering what that was about…

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Okay how many other people think Josh needs help? How many other people think that Kagome and InuYasha need to stop because they've lost enough brain cells?! Well this is starting to get complicated damn you Valea! *hits my head* No matter how hard I try! Well think of it this way. At least most of this is pre-written, so you won't have to wait a month for a chapter right? I suck. What else is new?

Oh yeah and if you didn't get that dream, it's okay really, I didn't get it either, but the real dream that stands for something makes some sense or at least isn't all messed up ya know? I may change this in the future to some other dream. I mean gosh that's crap! And yeah, it was hard, this was prewritten and now I must work to get this back on subject anyway, Hoped you enjoyed this.

Some things you may have needed to know…

(1) Funny events meaning anything having to deal with any kind of sexual connections.

(2) Okay I live in Oakland and there's this local band called the Matches. I got this from this song called the Jack Slap Cheer. It's a really cool song. In the song its talkin' about our town is getting old right about now and hell we can have a hallucination or two eh? Be a little bit crazy…muwhahaha. Put your email in your review if you want to see the lyrics. You'll understand better and by all means download the song and their other stuff on Kazaa.

(3) That's one of my friend's quotes, Tracy aka Traki's quotes!

(4) Okay if you have watched Courage the Couragly dog one of the first episodes there was this dude that had this huge smile and he cut hair and he was always saying he was very "Naughty" O.O wowzers anyway when I went to Europe one of the pretty boys in our group was like "Man you so have a Freaky Fred smile" and I do when I want to scare someone so yeah that's the grin Kagome has. It's scary, but still funny in the long run.

(5) It's French for steak cake you people! See we made a French movie and he helped make it, Josh I mean and they made all these infomercials and they made one about steak cake. Don't worry, I didn't get it either.