InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Silence the Fairytale ❯ To Start Anew? ( Chapter 45 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: White Luna 
Kagome and Inuyasha suffer the affects of boredom and receive a surprise vistor.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Comedy / Romance / Angst / Fantasy | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 10.16.2012 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 1.9K | Status: Work In Progress
Kagome and Inuyasha suffer the affects of boredom and receive a surprise vistor.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Hentai / Drama / Comedy / Romance / Angst / Fantasy | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 10.16.2012 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 1.9K | Status: Work In Progress
A/n: Few things as always before we get started. Sorry it's been so bloody long... I switched jobs twice between May and August, but I am in loooove with my new job so that is all good! Second, I've been absent because I've been working on my latest story. It's a Sess/Kag story and it seems to be completed now. 8 chapters, it's got long ones but it's a lovely short story. Please read it? “The Nature of Change”. Thank you.
Third... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT. March term I had won 1st place Inuyasha portrayal and 2nd place Best Romance. *bow* I nearly cried. It was an honor to win tied second place because some amazing, classic fics won first place. Congrats to all who won!
Last but not least, WOW. We got to 400 reviews!! This has been an amazing adventure for me. Really. I doubt I would have lasted this long without all the wonderful people who have been with me, all my silent readers and reviewers who have followed me for SIX FREAKING YEARS. Guys. You're so incredible. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
***And a wonderful, heartfelt thanks to my beta, KnittingKnots. You've managed to keep this story together, managed to help me pull loose strings through, and have been with me for many years as well. This chapter is dedicated to you. Thank you for helping talk me through how to wrap up the story all those months ago darling. I still and will always remember it. Blessings, girlie. ****
KnittingKnots: hehe<3. Grats on winning in the March term!!
Ivellios: thank you ;-;<3
SplendentGoddess: Thank you dear! Grats on winning in the March term, you deserved it!!
psychokitten: :3
LunaGirl: Moon sistah! There you are! You will do great, promise. Missed you tons too girly, stay strong!
Sutlesarcasm: thank you dear... :) I'm happy you're around. Thanks!!
Soul23: You're welcome ^-^
foxtale23: HI DAR.
Bluerose3514: ^^
Sovergeinty: Don't overwork yourself dear!!
JassJung: I try to keep it real. You drive me crazy but I love you anyway sort of thing LOL
MaryMomu: That's... such a huge compliment. Thank you so much @@
JK: Yay thanks :D
inuluvr4evr06: Darling, that's so sweet. You know what? Thank you so much
animefreak492: TEN HOURS? HOLYSHIZNIT. I've done that before but wow! Thank you! This fic will probably continue for a looong time. Long time. I'm hopping to wrap it up by next year but we'll see what happens lol. Never thought it'd go on this long though!!
deipurple: Haha. You're welcome!
Riversan: That's so sweet, thank you...!
Warning: Lemon. Yea last chapter had one but I was feeling raunchy lolz.
They had finally made it to their den, and safely to Inuyasha's relief. Kagome had spent the last few days recovering from the remnants of her cold, and Inuyasha had tended to her every need-- especially since he had over-taxed her by sleeping with her in the snow. To his embarrassment, it had made her cold a bit rougher on her, but she didn't seem to mind.
But besides recovering, Kagome had been doing one other thing.
She had been peeing.
A lot.
He didn't know it was physically possible for someone of her small size to have to go that often. But regardless of that particular, the fact had no bearing on Inuyasha's current finding.
The only way he had ended up with his current conundrum all began with Kagome's incessant complaining that she was hungry and she wanted FRESH food and NOW for the seven-hundred sixty-eighth thousand, five hundred and twenty-third time; and Inuyasha found himself caving to what he dubbed her irritatingly unreasonable whims. She wanted something new even though the fish he had caught earlier, that morning no less, laid not but three feet from their futon. And even though it was below freezing outside, given to the snow drifts that found their way through the small entrance of their den. And even though it was nice and warm inside their den, with a nice fire and cuddling with Kagome was toasty and warm and he could rub his face into her stomach while snoozing and recovering from the last vestiges of his injury....
He merely sighed complacently, giving a short leap up the twelve foot rock face to go catch her something to eat. He had managed to capture a snow hare relatively easy, rushing back to their den as quickly as possible. Though he wasn't susceptible to the elements, he was definitely feeling more sensitive to them, as drained as he had been feeling lately. The cold caused an ache to present itself deep inside the bones of his hand, and not for the first time he wondered if there had been irreparable damage caused to himself.
Crouching down at the entrance, he was about to leap inside to his oh-so-humble abode when the alluring sound of Kagome's moans greeted him. His ears, previously buried in his hair for warmth, stood stock straight at attention to be sure he wasn't fooling himself.
“Inu...yasha....”
He watched as she threw her head back sensually, her fingers working her sensitive pearl. She had her index and ring finger parting her nether lips as she vigorously rubbed her nub, releasing another breathy moan for her efforts. Her kimono had ridden up to her waist, giving him an open view of her self-indulgent foreplay, and it didn't take long for Inuyasha to realize he was panting. Small wisps of perspiration released themselves into the air before his trembling lips- the display shredding his waning sense of self control to bits- belying his rapidly growing excitement at finding his mate masturbating while moaning his name out loud.
His pupils dilated and he realized she hadn't noticed him above her yet. Ducking his head down, he allowed himself inside the entrance of the den, sliding down the rock face with preternatural stealth available only to one of youkai blood. Rolling his eyes upward at heaven, he murmured a small 'thank you' in response to the bright light during what he had dubbed a rather dubious day.
He ogled her, feeling rather like a voyeur and obnoxiously perverse, yet he couldn't help himself. He dropped the hare to the ground, his fingers twitching at the thought of touching her, his mouth watering from the memory of her taste... and then she raised her hips off the futon and whined, trying to desperately find completion. The sound alone was what drove him to action, and an unsatisfied growl ripped its way through his throat as he rushed toward her. Before she knew it, her hands had been thrown back and Inuyasha's face took over the place her fingers had previously been. She squealed in delighted surprise, as he lapped at her core feverishly. An awkward giggle presented itself for his efforts, as he clumsily pushed her knees over his shoulders to gain more access.
Kagome weaved her fingers through his snow-kissed tresses, a soft smile taking over her features before a look of immense pleasure took over her face.
In his desperation to please her, and please only her, Kagome was reminded why she loved him so dearly.
Inuyasha tried to suppress a groan, though his attempt at it was only half-hearted.
“It's a known fact it's uncomfortable Kagome, so why are you surprised?” he mumbled, but it was still loud enough for her to hear. Kagome in return shot him a death glare that rivaled Sesshomaru's magnificently and he felt himself cringe in ways he hadn't since he was a pup.
“Fine, why don't YOU be pregnant and I'll go traipsing around all of Nihon when you so much as open your mouth to say one word? I didn't make myself this way, I didn't magically poof myself into this state of being, Inuyasha, so if you don't like it how about we never have sex again so you never have to hear me complain about being pregnant again, hmmmm?”
Inuyasha fell silent for a few moments in deep contemplation, as if actually considering the proposition. Kagome was torn between either crying and giving him another earful for even thinking about it, until he answered her as any dutiful male would under such circumstances.
“I'm sorry. You're beautiful, and I love you. Forgive me?”
And just as any hormonal female would under such circumstances, she replied just as expected. She melted into a puddle of goo, and cried.
“B-but I'm the size of a hut! How can I be beautiful?! I'm hideous!”
She threw herself face-down on the futon for luckily only the first time that day and cried.
At least the outbursts are happening less and less...
Lowering his ears in frustration, he decided on a new tactic.
“Fine, you're not beautiful.”
Kagome lifted her face in an outrage, her tears ceasing instantly and her face pink with her torrential anger instead.
“How can you say that?! Of course I don't look the same as I did before, I'm carrying your progeny you jerk, and this is the thanks I get for carrying your child? I have half a mind to--”
“Kagome.”
“--you know, and maybe I was right about never sleeping with you ever again because then I won't have to put up with your annoying attitude when it comes down to the side affects--”
“Kagome.”
“--and really, I really am much bigger than I should be at this stage, but who-in-hells even knows what hanyou and human pregnancies are like, I mean they're not that common--”
“Kagome.”
“--and don't tell me I'm the only woman who's ever gone through this because that's just not true, there are loads of women who do this and they don't have to deal with the Shikon no Tama, so on top of my pregnancy I have to have all the duties of a miko too anyway--”
“...Kagome. Really.”
“--and still, even though they might have to work in rice fields, I have to risk life and limb for those sorry jerks who don't have a grateful bone in their body. I mean, look at you, you nearly lost your hand and did you even get one thank you? NOOOO--”
“Holy shit, Kagome.”
“--and really, what's up with these kimono? They don't even fit right, how am I supposed to even move around in these things soon? Heck with it all--”
“KAGOME,” Inuyasha finally bellowed out to cut off her rampage, and she looked up at him, blinking innocently and tilted her head to the side in curiosity.
“Why are you yelling Inuyasha? What were we talking about again?”
Inuyasha lowered his face to her stomach and grunted in defeat.
“...I think I can try to remember... what was it?” she placed a single fingertip against her chin and tapped it contemplatively.
Inuyasha instantly bolted up and waved his hands nervously, “It was nothing! Nothing! Say, eheh, weren't you saying you were hungry?”
Kagome brightened up considerably at the sound of food and clapped her hands childishly, in such a way Inuyasha's brow twitched. “Starving!”
Dragging himself from their futon, Inuyasha wondered when the madness would end.
Probably when she gives birth, but that in and of itself will bring on a whole new world of madness...
Though grateful for the successful diversion, he wondered if he could survive the next few months without strangling her or himself. As he would never harm her, he was sure he'd be the first to go.
And somewhere in the distance, Buyo proclaimed loudly of her own hunger with a humbling, “Mew.”
He was nervous to leave her side, the memory of their close encounter still too fresh in his mind. Though she normally would have complained, she agreed this time. She was more than a touch nervous as he was; she was in fact downright fearful to leave their home after facing Kaede again. Though his concern was obvious, he did not say much to her about her withdrawal from the outside world.
There were times when he slept that she would flip through Kikyou's writings at a slow pace, but her mind was too clouded to soak up the meanings of her words. There were other times she was jealous of the obvious love her grandmother had for Inuyasha, but at the end she merely pitied the woman for her narrow minded view and her perceived societal prison. The only person who held Kikyou back was Kikyou herself. Yet those days that she stared at the cavern wall, or up through the entrance of their abode into the deep, dark sky before dawn, Kagome wondered...
Isn't it the same for me, too?
Wasn't she hiding? Wasn't she allowing the weeks to fall by seamlessly, as she grew larger, and the reality of being a mother became more prominent, and the Shikon no Tama shined with that same innocent pink light of purity that spoke volumes of her self-labeled damaged heart.
Was she really damaged? She had already faced her greatest fear, and survived. So what was holding her back? What was she really afraid of?
Myself.
That was the conclusion she had come to. The steady resurgence of the realization her judgment was fallible. But wasn't everyone's? Hadn't Inuyasha had fallible judgment when he had placed his heart into Kikyou's hands, a woman who betrayed him based on the selfish whims of her own desires? And yet, he had come to trust her. Kagome, a woman who not only shared the same blood as Kikyou, but had the same burden?
He had not left her.
Though he had proven to Kagome, he too had made mistakes.
So, how had he found the ability to move past it?
She had asked him, three days prior, what had been buzzing around her mind for a short while.
“What gave you the courage to decide to love me?”
“I didn't have the courage. You made me decide to love you.”
“That's silly, I never made you decide to love me.”
“But you did.”
“...how?”
“Heh... you were just you. And that's all it took.”
“But how did that give you courage?”
“...I don't have the kind of courage you're thinking, Kagome. I'm still scared. I was always scared.”
“But then how...?”
“Because the alternative is much worse. Much worse. And so I had to make a decision, and I decided this. And that's what gave me to courage to face my fear and just try.”
“What was the alternative?”
“Loosing you, and the chance of having all this. A family. A beautiful mate. A woman who was the most loyal, stubborn as all hell, drives me nuts, selfless to a fault... Yet... one who loves and adores me in all that I am, and never has asked me to change. That's what gave me the courage to never let you go, because I knew in a thousand years of my life I'd never find it again.”
She hadn't known what to say to it all. Inuyasha's honesty was admirable, and Kagome knew he wasn't the sort to speak his heart so freely and openly without reservation, even to her. Yet the steadfast look in his face told her all he hadn't said to her, the realization that she needed that same strength... and had it, somewhere deep inside, to make a decision.
To decide that, in the end, she'd always fulfill her duty; but she would never relinquish her family. And she'd find a way to fulfill it, soon, and destroy the Shikon no Tama permanently. A wish, one that was selfless, and pure... what were the right words?
As she laid in Inuyasha's lap, lifting the shining pink bauble that pulsed lightly in her hand like a young heartbeat... she felt her fear subsiding. She knew she didn't need to be afraid, yet procrastination was a warm shell of denial she wasn't quite ready to lift yet. She wanted to pretend just a bit longer that everything was fine, and that she and Inuyasha could have the happy family life they wanted so dearly, and that there was nothing else to worry about.
And though it was constantly at the back of her mind, this fact, this truth, she wouldn't allow it to dim her happiness for the time being any longer. She would appreciate the moments she had, and no longer take for granted what she had always taken for granted.
Inuyasha's always right there.
She lifted her free hand and gripped his thigh gently, and his fingers stilling for a fraction of a moment in her hair from the contact, before resuming their previous journey. His claws grazed her scalp gently, and she found herself lulled into a warm doze. Still yet, her lips parted and she mumbled out to him what laid in her heart.
“Thank you, Inuyasha.”
He snorted, “What for?”
A gentle smile curved her soft, pink lips.
“...for loving me.”
“Well, it ain't a big de---”
Inuyasha was abruptly cut off by the sound of a small voice crying out to him, “INUYASHA-SAMA!” Kagome felt Inuyasha tense beneath her, his fingers gripping her hair so tightly it was nearly painful, but not quite. The suddenness of it all caused a swell of anxiety to rise within her, but it didn't last long when she lifted her gaze up to find a youkai the size of her fist plastered to Inuyasha's nose. She widened her eyes at the insanely comical sight, unsure whether or not to remove the flea-looking-parasite from her husband's nasal structure.
One look at Inuyasha's face, and she decided against it in favor of giggle-snorting.
He had a vein popping from his forehead in irritation, his mouth firm and set into a grim line with the promise of harm evident in his countenance.
“Inuyasha-sama! I have been looking for you!” the bug-like youkai declared, as Inuyasha lifted it off his face and held it out to Buyo, his face darkening with maniacal glee.
“Buyo, food!”
Buyo cracked open one green eye and opened her mouth. Kagome then decided to intervene, “Inuyasha, no, it's rude---!”
“INUYASHA-SAMA, PLEASE HAVE MERCYYYYY!”
And thus, the old flea youkai known as Myouga, retainer of Inuyasha-sama, ended up in the jaws of the Buyo.
A/n: Sorry for the short chapter, but really it was to fulfill the purpose of furthering the plotline. As it was a filler chapter, I promise to have another out by at least next month. Thank you for your patience, <3 you all.
Luna-
Third... THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT. March term I had won 1st place Inuyasha portrayal and 2nd place Best Romance. *bow* I nearly cried. It was an honor to win tied second place because some amazing, classic fics won first place. Congrats to all who won!
Last but not least, WOW. We got to 400 reviews!! This has been an amazing adventure for me. Really. I doubt I would have lasted this long without all the wonderful people who have been with me, all my silent readers and reviewers who have followed me for SIX FREAKING YEARS. Guys. You're so incredible. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.
***And a wonderful, heartfelt thanks to my beta, KnittingKnots. You've managed to keep this story together, managed to help me pull loose strings through, and have been with me for many years as well. This chapter is dedicated to you. Thank you for helping talk me through how to wrap up the story all those months ago darling. I still and will always remember it. Blessings, girlie. ****
KnittingKnots: hehe<3. Grats on winning in the March term!!
Ivellios: thank you ;-;<3
SplendentGoddess: Thank you dear! Grats on winning in the March term, you deserved it!!
psychokitten: :3
LunaGirl: Moon sistah! There you are! You will do great, promise. Missed you tons too girly, stay strong!
Sutlesarcasm: thank you dear... :) I'm happy you're around. Thanks!!
Soul23: You're welcome ^-^
foxtale23: HI DAR.
Bluerose3514: ^^
Sovergeinty: Don't overwork yourself dear!!
JassJung: I try to keep it real. You drive me crazy but I love you anyway sort of thing LOL
MaryMomu: That's... such a huge compliment. Thank you so much @@
JK: Yay thanks :D
inuluvr4evr06: Darling, that's so sweet. You know what? Thank you so much
animefreak492: TEN HOURS? HOLYSHIZNIT. I've done that before but wow! Thank you! This fic will probably continue for a looong time. Long time. I'm hopping to wrap it up by next year but we'll see what happens lol. Never thought it'd go on this long though!!
deipurple: Haha. You're welcome!
Riversan: That's so sweet, thank you...!
Warning: Lemon. Yea last chapter had one but I was feeling raunchy lolz.
Chapter 45: To Start Anew?
Inuyasha stared dumbly at Kagome. His mouth was hanging open in shock, ready to catch flies at a moment's notice. He also wasn't sure if he should be feeling aroused or disappointed for the time being.They had finally made it to their den, and safely to Inuyasha's relief. Kagome had spent the last few days recovering from the remnants of her cold, and Inuyasha had tended to her every need-- especially since he had over-taxed her by sleeping with her in the snow. To his embarrassment, it had made her cold a bit rougher on her, but she didn't seem to mind.
But besides recovering, Kagome had been doing one other thing.
She had been peeing.
A lot.
He didn't know it was physically possible for someone of her small size to have to go that often. But regardless of that particular, the fact had no bearing on Inuyasha's current finding.
The only way he had ended up with his current conundrum all began with Kagome's incessant complaining that she was hungry and she wanted FRESH food and NOW for the seven-hundred sixty-eighth thousand, five hundred and twenty-third time; and Inuyasha found himself caving to what he dubbed her irritatingly unreasonable whims. She wanted something new even though the fish he had caught earlier, that morning no less, laid not but three feet from their futon. And even though it was below freezing outside, given to the snow drifts that found their way through the small entrance of their den. And even though it was nice and warm inside their den, with a nice fire and cuddling with Kagome was toasty and warm and he could rub his face into her stomach while snoozing and recovering from the last vestiges of his injury....
He merely sighed complacently, giving a short leap up the twelve foot rock face to go catch her something to eat. He had managed to capture a snow hare relatively easy, rushing back to their den as quickly as possible. Though he wasn't susceptible to the elements, he was definitely feeling more sensitive to them, as drained as he had been feeling lately. The cold caused an ache to present itself deep inside the bones of his hand, and not for the first time he wondered if there had been irreparable damage caused to himself.
Crouching down at the entrance, he was about to leap inside to his oh-so-humble abode when the alluring sound of Kagome's moans greeted him. His ears, previously buried in his hair for warmth, stood stock straight at attention to be sure he wasn't fooling himself.
“Inu...yasha....”
He watched as she threw her head back sensually, her fingers working her sensitive pearl. She had her index and ring finger parting her nether lips as she vigorously rubbed her nub, releasing another breathy moan for her efforts. Her kimono had ridden up to her waist, giving him an open view of her self-indulgent foreplay, and it didn't take long for Inuyasha to realize he was panting. Small wisps of perspiration released themselves into the air before his trembling lips- the display shredding his waning sense of self control to bits- belying his rapidly growing excitement at finding his mate masturbating while moaning his name out loud.
His pupils dilated and he realized she hadn't noticed him above her yet. Ducking his head down, he allowed himself inside the entrance of the den, sliding down the rock face with preternatural stealth available only to one of youkai blood. Rolling his eyes upward at heaven, he murmured a small 'thank you' in response to the bright light during what he had dubbed a rather dubious day.
He ogled her, feeling rather like a voyeur and obnoxiously perverse, yet he couldn't help himself. He dropped the hare to the ground, his fingers twitching at the thought of touching her, his mouth watering from the memory of her taste... and then she raised her hips off the futon and whined, trying to desperately find completion. The sound alone was what drove him to action, and an unsatisfied growl ripped its way through his throat as he rushed toward her. Before she knew it, her hands had been thrown back and Inuyasha's face took over the place her fingers had previously been. She squealed in delighted surprise, as he lapped at her core feverishly. An awkward giggle presented itself for his efforts, as he clumsily pushed her knees over his shoulders to gain more access.
Kagome weaved her fingers through his snow-kissed tresses, a soft smile taking over her features before a look of immense pleasure took over her face.
In his desperation to please her, and please only her, Kagome was reminded why she loved him so dearly.
~~~*~~~
“Why is being pregnant so uncomfortable?” Kagome rubbed at her ankles, swelling again for the third time that day though she had remained faithfully off her feet on her husband's orders.Inuyasha tried to suppress a groan, though his attempt at it was only half-hearted.
“It's a known fact it's uncomfortable Kagome, so why are you surprised?” he mumbled, but it was still loud enough for her to hear. Kagome in return shot him a death glare that rivaled Sesshomaru's magnificently and he felt himself cringe in ways he hadn't since he was a pup.
“Fine, why don't YOU be pregnant and I'll go traipsing around all of Nihon when you so much as open your mouth to say one word? I didn't make myself this way, I didn't magically poof myself into this state of being, Inuyasha, so if you don't like it how about we never have sex again so you never have to hear me complain about being pregnant again, hmmmm?”
Inuyasha fell silent for a few moments in deep contemplation, as if actually considering the proposition. Kagome was torn between either crying and giving him another earful for even thinking about it, until he answered her as any dutiful male would under such circumstances.
“I'm sorry. You're beautiful, and I love you. Forgive me?”
And just as any hormonal female would under such circumstances, she replied just as expected. She melted into a puddle of goo, and cried.
“B-but I'm the size of a hut! How can I be beautiful?! I'm hideous!”
She threw herself face-down on the futon for luckily only the first time that day and cried.
At least the outbursts are happening less and less...
Lowering his ears in frustration, he decided on a new tactic.
“Fine, you're not beautiful.”
Kagome lifted her face in an outrage, her tears ceasing instantly and her face pink with her torrential anger instead.
“How can you say that?! Of course I don't look the same as I did before, I'm carrying your progeny you jerk, and this is the thanks I get for carrying your child? I have half a mind to--”
“Kagome.”
“--you know, and maybe I was right about never sleeping with you ever again because then I won't have to put up with your annoying attitude when it comes down to the side affects--”
“Kagome.”
“--and really, I really am much bigger than I should be at this stage, but who-in-hells even knows what hanyou and human pregnancies are like, I mean they're not that common--”
“Kagome.”
“--and don't tell me I'm the only woman who's ever gone through this because that's just not true, there are loads of women who do this and they don't have to deal with the Shikon no Tama, so on top of my pregnancy I have to have all the duties of a miko too anyway--”
“...Kagome. Really.”
“--and still, even though they might have to work in rice fields, I have to risk life and limb for those sorry jerks who don't have a grateful bone in their body. I mean, look at you, you nearly lost your hand and did you even get one thank you? NOOOO--”
“Holy shit, Kagome.”
“--and really, what's up with these kimono? They don't even fit right, how am I supposed to even move around in these things soon? Heck with it all--”
“KAGOME,” Inuyasha finally bellowed out to cut off her rampage, and she looked up at him, blinking innocently and tilted her head to the side in curiosity.
“Why are you yelling Inuyasha? What were we talking about again?”
Inuyasha lowered his face to her stomach and grunted in defeat.
“...I think I can try to remember... what was it?” she placed a single fingertip against her chin and tapped it contemplatively.
Inuyasha instantly bolted up and waved his hands nervously, “It was nothing! Nothing! Say, eheh, weren't you saying you were hungry?”
Kagome brightened up considerably at the sound of food and clapped her hands childishly, in such a way Inuyasha's brow twitched. “Starving!”
Dragging himself from their futon, Inuyasha wondered when the madness would end.
Probably when she gives birth, but that in and of itself will bring on a whole new world of madness...
Though grateful for the successful diversion, he wondered if he could survive the next few months without strangling her or himself. As he would never harm her, he was sure he'd be the first to go.
And somewhere in the distance, Buyo proclaimed loudly of her own hunger with a humbling, “Mew.”
~~~*~~~
Kagome had her head in Inuyasha's lap, her blue eyes dulled to a deep sapphire, colored with boredom. Inuyasha was running his fingers through her hair comfortingly, as the days slipped by without much effort. Buyo and Kirara laid on her stomach, sleeping soundly as they soaked up their Mistress's warmth. The days were entirely too fluid for her taste, falling in and out as lazily as a stream flows downhill. Inuyasha and her bickered out of restlessness, made love out of restlessness, and ate. Between those times, they hardly did more than sleep.He was nervous to leave her side, the memory of their close encounter still too fresh in his mind. Though she normally would have complained, she agreed this time. She was more than a touch nervous as he was; she was in fact downright fearful to leave their home after facing Kaede again. Though his concern was obvious, he did not say much to her about her withdrawal from the outside world.
There were times when he slept that she would flip through Kikyou's writings at a slow pace, but her mind was too clouded to soak up the meanings of her words. There were other times she was jealous of the obvious love her grandmother had for Inuyasha, but at the end she merely pitied the woman for her narrow minded view and her perceived societal prison. The only person who held Kikyou back was Kikyou herself. Yet those days that she stared at the cavern wall, or up through the entrance of their abode into the deep, dark sky before dawn, Kagome wondered...
Isn't it the same for me, too?
Wasn't she hiding? Wasn't she allowing the weeks to fall by seamlessly, as she grew larger, and the reality of being a mother became more prominent, and the Shikon no Tama shined with that same innocent pink light of purity that spoke volumes of her self-labeled damaged heart.
Was she really damaged? She had already faced her greatest fear, and survived. So what was holding her back? What was she really afraid of?
Myself.
That was the conclusion she had come to. The steady resurgence of the realization her judgment was fallible. But wasn't everyone's? Hadn't Inuyasha had fallible judgment when he had placed his heart into Kikyou's hands, a woman who betrayed him based on the selfish whims of her own desires? And yet, he had come to trust her. Kagome, a woman who not only shared the same blood as Kikyou, but had the same burden?
He had not left her.
Though he had proven to Kagome, he too had made mistakes.
So, how had he found the ability to move past it?
She had asked him, three days prior, what had been buzzing around her mind for a short while.
“What gave you the courage to decide to love me?”
“I didn't have the courage. You made me decide to love you.”
“That's silly, I never made you decide to love me.”
“But you did.”
“...how?”
“Heh... you were just you. And that's all it took.”
“But how did that give you courage?”
“...I don't have the kind of courage you're thinking, Kagome. I'm still scared. I was always scared.”
“But then how...?”
“Because the alternative is much worse. Much worse. And so I had to make a decision, and I decided this. And that's what gave me to courage to face my fear and just try.”
“What was the alternative?”
“Loosing you, and the chance of having all this. A family. A beautiful mate. A woman who was the most loyal, stubborn as all hell, drives me nuts, selfless to a fault... Yet... one who loves and adores me in all that I am, and never has asked me to change. That's what gave me the courage to never let you go, because I knew in a thousand years of my life I'd never find it again.”
She hadn't known what to say to it all. Inuyasha's honesty was admirable, and Kagome knew he wasn't the sort to speak his heart so freely and openly without reservation, even to her. Yet the steadfast look in his face told her all he hadn't said to her, the realization that she needed that same strength... and had it, somewhere deep inside, to make a decision.
To decide that, in the end, she'd always fulfill her duty; but she would never relinquish her family. And she'd find a way to fulfill it, soon, and destroy the Shikon no Tama permanently. A wish, one that was selfless, and pure... what were the right words?
As she laid in Inuyasha's lap, lifting the shining pink bauble that pulsed lightly in her hand like a young heartbeat... she felt her fear subsiding. She knew she didn't need to be afraid, yet procrastination was a warm shell of denial she wasn't quite ready to lift yet. She wanted to pretend just a bit longer that everything was fine, and that she and Inuyasha could have the happy family life they wanted so dearly, and that there was nothing else to worry about.
And though it was constantly at the back of her mind, this fact, this truth, she wouldn't allow it to dim her happiness for the time being any longer. She would appreciate the moments she had, and no longer take for granted what she had always taken for granted.
Inuyasha's always right there.
She lifted her free hand and gripped his thigh gently, and his fingers stilling for a fraction of a moment in her hair from the contact, before resuming their previous journey. His claws grazed her scalp gently, and she found herself lulled into a warm doze. Still yet, her lips parted and she mumbled out to him what laid in her heart.
“Thank you, Inuyasha.”
He snorted, “What for?”
A gentle smile curved her soft, pink lips.
“...for loving me.”
“Well, it ain't a big de---”
Inuyasha was abruptly cut off by the sound of a small voice crying out to him, “INUYASHA-SAMA!” Kagome felt Inuyasha tense beneath her, his fingers gripping her hair so tightly it was nearly painful, but not quite. The suddenness of it all caused a swell of anxiety to rise within her, but it didn't last long when she lifted her gaze up to find a youkai the size of her fist plastered to Inuyasha's nose. She widened her eyes at the insanely comical sight, unsure whether or not to remove the flea-looking-parasite from her husband's nasal structure.
One look at Inuyasha's face, and she decided against it in favor of giggle-snorting.
He had a vein popping from his forehead in irritation, his mouth firm and set into a grim line with the promise of harm evident in his countenance.
“Inuyasha-sama! I have been looking for you!” the bug-like youkai declared, as Inuyasha lifted it off his face and held it out to Buyo, his face darkening with maniacal glee.
“Buyo, food!”
Buyo cracked open one green eye and opened her mouth. Kagome then decided to intervene, “Inuyasha, no, it's rude---!”
“INUYASHA-SAMA, PLEASE HAVE MERCYYYYY!”
And thus, the old flea youkai known as Myouga, retainer of Inuyasha-sama, ended up in the jaws of the Buyo.
A/n: Sorry for the short chapter, but really it was to fulfill the purpose of furthering the plotline. As it was a filler chapter, I promise to have another out by at least next month. Thank you for your patience, <3 you all.
Luna-