InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sins of Her Future ❯ Home again ( Chapter 5 )
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By: luna_sea 
Dreams are windows to the soul...
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 06.20.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 1.2K | Status: Completed
Dreams are windows to the soul...
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 06.20.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 1.2K | Status: Completed
Sins of her Future
Chapter 5 Home again
Rating : PG
Author : Sami-chan ^.~
Author's Notes : Oh my!! I'm so sorry it took so long to write this chapter!! You wouldn't believe the writer's block I've had lately!! I've rewritten this chapter like 4 times and then my other stories! ACK! They are just as cramped up right now.. ::sigh:: oh well.. Hopefully the next chapter won't take so long..
Thanks to everyone who has been so patient in waiting for my chapters. I really appreciate all the reviews!
I hope that you all enjoy this chapter, even if it is a bit short.. Mostly fluff and thoughts. The next chapter should be a bit more... active? I dunno ^^
Anywho! Thanks again!
ja~
~~Sami-chan
Disclaimer : I don't own Inu yasha.
Please also be warned that this story deals with rape. There will be *no* detailed rape scenes but there will be suggestions of it. Please, if this offends you in anyway please do not read my story.
Thank you.
@>~~~^~~~~
Bloody and tired, he stood.
His eyes roamed over the desolate wasteland that had once been the battlefield and took notice of the damage. Trees were uprooted, grass burned away and the only things that seemed even slightly alive in what had once been a green forest were those who had battled... Save for one.
His eyes came to rest upon the beast that they had fought. A monster that had touched each of their lives with a withering hand of death and infected each traveler with the poison of vengeance.
He was dead now, the battle finally ended and grieving souls finally found rest.
A movement to his right snapped the hanyou's attention to the young miko who had helped him deal the final blow. She was bloody too but mostly tired, a great deal of her energy spent in that one last arrow.
She moved slowly towards the remains and removed something. For an instant the object appeared dark and foreboding but with but a simple touch of her delicate fingers the darkness faded to a soft pink and the now, nearly complete Shikon no Tama was once again with its keeper.
The woman sighed and moved towards him now and his eyes remained fixed on her in both worry and awe. He'd called her weak just that morning and now here she was, in obvious pain, standing before him with the most determined look on her face. He'd never say it aloud but, at that moment, he knew for sure that he did truly love this woman.
She held out her hand silently and he nodded. No words needed to be exchange.
His hand pulled out a small jar from his pocket, several pink shards glittering through the glass. She smiled as he removed the cork and poured the last three shards into her hand. Her eyes fixed suddenly on his and the two remained locked in an intense gaze before the hanyou nodded to her.
With a deep breath, she slammed her hands together, the large almost complete shikon no tama meeting its remaining splinters. The light flashed for only a second before fading to a soft glow.
The jewel was complete.
Kagome smiled and wrapped her arms around Inu yasha, her excitement causing her to forget her normal blush.
"We did it!" she cried, tears of joy rolling down her cheeks. "We've won!"
Inu yasha smiled and hugged her close. "Yes..." he whispered. It was finally over and he was finally free. No more battles, no more Naraku, Kikyou could rest...
No more obligations.
"Kagome, I want to tell you something.." he whispered, pushing her back to arms length. He meant then to confess, to spill his heart but the sight before him sent cold chills through his body.
Kagome's eyes widened in an almost horror filled expression as she looked down at her hands and saw her normally firm body becoming transparent. She looked into his eyes, horror and realization playing through her eyes.
"Inu yasha?!" her voice cracked.
"Kagome!" He tried as hard as he could to hold her there but once his hands slipped through her, he knew it was impossible.
Squaring his shoulders, he reached out and gently brushed a thumb over where her cheek should have been. "Don't be scared," he said softly, tears welling at the edge of his eyes though he refused to let them fall. "I'll find you soon."
She nodded and her lips moved to say something but in that moment she was gone and he was left standing, alone and heartbroken...
@>~~~^~~~~
Inu yasha awoke with a start, panting softly. He tossed the covers off his legs and moved to sit on the edge of the bed.
It was the same dream every time. Well, memory really. A living nightmare he'd been force to endure only to relive it every night there after.
But now it wasn't true. Now she was here.
And he had to see her.
Standing and walking quickly to the door, he paused only a moment to collect his robe and put it on, he head towards her room. Sure it was nearly 2 in the morning and she was probably asleep but his present state of mind was not allowing him to consider any alternative.
Quietly, he crept down the hall to her door and ever so gently pressed a dog-ear against the wooded barrier.
She sounded as if she were asleep. He could hear her light rhythmic breathing echo gently in the night air and it allowed some of his anxiety to flutter away but still, it wasn't enough.
Cautiously, his clawed hand reached out and took hold of the knob, turning it slowly to keep it as quiet as possible. He quickly pushed to door open to keep the squeaky hinges to a minimum before tiptoeing into the room and closing again.
His golden eyes took almost no time to adjust and easily found the petite figure resting in the oversized feather bed. Still on tiptoes, he made his way to the prone figure resting in the darkness and kneeled down next to her like he had so many times in the past.
Inu yasha took a deep, calming breath, allowing the heavenly scent that was hers to fill his lungs and put his mind to rest. He had missed the simple affect that this one action had upon him the last 500 years without her. Too many times in the past he had dreamed of this scent, almost to the point of insanity. He'd prayed and wished and begged who ever would listen that that one wonderful smell would be real and that the young woman to which it belong would be at his side when he opened his eyes.. but it never happened.
Until now.
His eyes slowly fluttered open and he was almost surprised to actually see the woman who haunted his dreams. He knew she was there, she'd been there for weeks but after a dream like that he needed reassurance.
The young woman in the bed stirred slightly, her eyes opening slowly to stare into his. She blinked for a moment, wondering why the hanyou was standing a nose's length from her in the middle of the night, gazing at her as though she had just appeared out of thin air.
She sat up on her elbow. "Inu yasha?" she whispered.
"I'm sorry," he shook himself out of his stupor. "Did I wake you?"
She shook her head. "What are you doing here though?"
He shrugged.
She smiled. "Afraid I'd escape in the middle of the night?"
The hanyou blushed and turned away. "Not exactly."
She couldn't help the giggled that escaped her lips. "Well am I still here?" She reached over and pinched her arm.
A gently clawed hand touched her cheek and she found her eyes locked in two golden pools.
His hand gently caressed her cheek and soft smile tipping the corner of his lips. "Thank the gods.."
Kagome blushed but didn't turn away. Her eyes looked down into her lap, staring at her hands that were now clenched together at her stomach. She didn't move, didn't say a word. She just sat there, enjoying his touch and warmth.
A long moment passed, then another. Finally Kagome couldn't hold in the yawn any more and announced her exhaustion to the room. Inu yasha chuckled.
"You should go back to sleep." he said, softly pressing her back into the mattress.
She nodded and allowed him to tuck her back in. She watched, almost sadly as he moved towards the door and wanted to stop him. "Umm.."
He turned back to her, golden eyes illuminated in the darkness. "Hai?"
"Would you.. That is.." she stammered, looking for a good way to say what she wanted. "Did you want to... " She blushed and looked away from his piercing gaze, "Stay?"
A smile of pure joy threatened his calm features and he so desperately fought the urge to simply jump into the bed. He cleared his throat and gently shook his head to keep his cool exterior going.
"Are.. Are you sure?" he asked cautiously.
She blushed but flashed him a genuine smile that, for a moment, made he forgot that they had moved far beyond the days of the Warring states.
"I wouldn't offer if I wasn't." She pulled down the covers and patted the edge of the bed.
Slowly, he walked over to the end of the bed and carefully climbed in beside her. She rolled over to face him as he crawled under the covers. She couldn't help but giggle as he nervously smiled at her, though she herself was still blushing.
"Don't be so worried!" she gently kissed his nose. "I trust you Inu yasha. Of any one in the world, I know you'd never hurt me. I'm really ok."
His heart felt like it would burst but he played it cool. A small smirk touched the corner of his mouth and his hands slid around the petite woman before him, pulling her close to his chest.
She squeaked a bit in surprise but, after a moment to adjust, she relaxed in the familiar safety of his embrace. A deep sigh passed her lips and in a moment she once more fell into a deep sleep.
Inu yasha laid there in the dark, gentle clawed fingers passing though ebony locks. With each breath he took he couldn't help but smell her sweet scent, the scent that he had dreamed about for so long. He couldn't help but bury his nose in it, cuddle as close as he could to it. For too long he'd slept alone and felt dead.
Now they were reunited. After long and dangerous trails, they were together and as he drifted off into a dreamless sleep he couldn't help but feel like he was alive once more.
Like the first time she had removed the arrow from his chest, he was falling from the tree but this time, instead of allowing her to stumbling to the ground, he was going to catch her....
@>~~~^~~~~
Once the soft rhythmic sound of her companion's breathing filled the room, Kagome allowed her eyes to open.
Two perfect blue eyes stared out, casting a sad accusing glare at the wall to her right.
A poem had been replying its self in her mind over and over for the last few minutes as Inu yasha snuggled closer to her body.
(Seems like I'm spending most of my time in the night
Something about it, don't feel like facing the light
Starin' at pillows in the middle of fights
Knockin' on doors down at the hall with red lights
I dream of you constantly
I wonder how wrong I can be)
Everything was a dream to her. Her life, her fleeting happiness...
Inu yasha.
She felt the man behind her wrap his arm more tightly around her waist and pull her close. A soft breath tickled the back of her neck as the inu hanyou let out a deep slumbering sigh of content.
(Moments of splendor wind up like ashes in rain.
One look you're smiling, another your face is in pain.
I wake up at night with the sweat on my head
A look in those eyes that will haunt me till dead.
I just can't seem to shake it
Something about what you said
I just can't seem to make up my mind about you.
Maybe what they say is true
Maybe lovers can never be friends.)
The soft patter of raindrops beat against the window of the quiet room and Kagome's gaze shifted to watch the fragile drops shatter against the glass. Just like the small moments of joy in her life, the raindrops were short lived..
Washing way hope like a tear. Killing the ashes in splendor.
(Laugh with the joker
Hold back the tears till they're gone.
Drink and be merry, they'll find us all dead men at dawn;
Visions of paradise scramble my head.
Something I've wanted so long's in my bed.
I'm dreaming my life away.
I'm wasting the best of my days.)
Her hand slid down the strong arm wrapped protectively around her waist and she couldn't help but think that, indeed, someone out there was laughing at her. Finding joy in her deepest sorrow.
This man, that she had dreamed about, and wished for, and prayed for, was now lying in her bed with her as if it had always been this way. As if nothing had happened between the well sealing and her rescue.
This man wiped her slate clean and gave her another chance.... But she could still be dreaming...
(Scribbled and scratching, half finished pages at dawn.
People that live here are wondering
Where all their strength's gone.
We're so far away from wherever we came
That sometimes I wonder we'll see it again
You can't always go home
You can't always be warm inside.)
Her life was this poem and she knew deep inside...
No matter how much the man with her now told her he loved her and proclaimed she was nothing but a princess, that her slate would never be clean. That her past would come back to haunt her time and time again.
She could never go home again... She couldn't always be warm inside.
But...
Turning slowly over, until she was facing the sleeping Inu yasha, Kagome allowed a single hopeful thought to enter her mind.
A single, gentle fingertip trailed over the hanyou's sleeping face. Softly she traced the curve of his cheek and his round lower lip, grazing one of his slightly exposed fangs. Sleepy eyelids fluttered under her gentle touch and a soft, sleepily moan passed though red lips.
For the first time since returning, Kagome felt warm. A soft light seemed to flicker on at the base of her soul and with each moment it seemed to get brighter. For now it was dim but nonetheless it was there and it brought a warm smile to her face.
Maybe all wasn't lost...
She knew she couldn't go home again.. but that didn't mean she couldn't build a new one.
@>~~~^~~~~
A/N: Sorry it took sooo long everyone but this chapter was actually really hard to write! This is the 4th draft I think? I dunno.. The first part was easy but this last part had me stumped for a while!
Either way, credits!
The poem is the original version of "You Can't Always Go Home Again" by Terry Moore.
He writes an AWESOME comic called Strangers in Paradise (AKA SiP). This is not the only poem he's written that will appear in this story so look of for them ^^ He's got some beautiful work.
Anyway!! Thank you all again for being so patient! I do appreciate it!
Ja~
~~Sami-chan
Chapter 5 Home again
Rating : PG
Author : Sami-chan ^.~
Author's Notes : Oh my!! I'm so sorry it took so long to write this chapter!! You wouldn't believe the writer's block I've had lately!! I've rewritten this chapter like 4 times and then my other stories! ACK! They are just as cramped up right now.. ::sigh:: oh well.. Hopefully the next chapter won't take so long..
Thanks to everyone who has been so patient in waiting for my chapters. I really appreciate all the reviews!
I hope that you all enjoy this chapter, even if it is a bit short.. Mostly fluff and thoughts. The next chapter should be a bit more... active? I dunno ^^
Anywho! Thanks again!
ja~
~~Sami-chan
Disclaimer : I don't own Inu yasha.
Please also be warned that this story deals with rape. There will be *no* detailed rape scenes but there will be suggestions of it. Please, if this offends you in anyway please do not read my story.
Thank you.
@>~~~^~~~~
Bloody and tired, he stood.
His eyes roamed over the desolate wasteland that had once been the battlefield and took notice of the damage. Trees were uprooted, grass burned away and the only things that seemed even slightly alive in what had once been a green forest were those who had battled... Save for one.
His eyes came to rest upon the beast that they had fought. A monster that had touched each of their lives with a withering hand of death and infected each traveler with the poison of vengeance.
He was dead now, the battle finally ended and grieving souls finally found rest.
A movement to his right snapped the hanyou's attention to the young miko who had helped him deal the final blow. She was bloody too but mostly tired, a great deal of her energy spent in that one last arrow.
She moved slowly towards the remains and removed something. For an instant the object appeared dark and foreboding but with but a simple touch of her delicate fingers the darkness faded to a soft pink and the now, nearly complete Shikon no Tama was once again with its keeper.
The woman sighed and moved towards him now and his eyes remained fixed on her in both worry and awe. He'd called her weak just that morning and now here she was, in obvious pain, standing before him with the most determined look on her face. He'd never say it aloud but, at that moment, he knew for sure that he did truly love this woman.
She held out her hand silently and he nodded. No words needed to be exchange.
His hand pulled out a small jar from his pocket, several pink shards glittering through the glass. She smiled as he removed the cork and poured the last three shards into her hand. Her eyes fixed suddenly on his and the two remained locked in an intense gaze before the hanyou nodded to her.
With a deep breath, she slammed her hands together, the large almost complete shikon no tama meeting its remaining splinters. The light flashed for only a second before fading to a soft glow.
The jewel was complete.
Kagome smiled and wrapped her arms around Inu yasha, her excitement causing her to forget her normal blush.
"We did it!" she cried, tears of joy rolling down her cheeks. "We've won!"
Inu yasha smiled and hugged her close. "Yes..." he whispered. It was finally over and he was finally free. No more battles, no more Naraku, Kikyou could rest...
No more obligations.
"Kagome, I want to tell you something.." he whispered, pushing her back to arms length. He meant then to confess, to spill his heart but the sight before him sent cold chills through his body.
Kagome's eyes widened in an almost horror filled expression as she looked down at her hands and saw her normally firm body becoming transparent. She looked into his eyes, horror and realization playing through her eyes.
"Inu yasha?!" her voice cracked.
"Kagome!" He tried as hard as he could to hold her there but once his hands slipped through her, he knew it was impossible.
Squaring his shoulders, he reached out and gently brushed a thumb over where her cheek should have been. "Don't be scared," he said softly, tears welling at the edge of his eyes though he refused to let them fall. "I'll find you soon."
She nodded and her lips moved to say something but in that moment she was gone and he was left standing, alone and heartbroken...
@>~~~^~~~~
Inu yasha awoke with a start, panting softly. He tossed the covers off his legs and moved to sit on the edge of the bed.
It was the same dream every time. Well, memory really. A living nightmare he'd been force to endure only to relive it every night there after.
But now it wasn't true. Now she was here.
And he had to see her.
Standing and walking quickly to the door, he paused only a moment to collect his robe and put it on, he head towards her room. Sure it was nearly 2 in the morning and she was probably asleep but his present state of mind was not allowing him to consider any alternative.
Quietly, he crept down the hall to her door and ever so gently pressed a dog-ear against the wooded barrier.
She sounded as if she were asleep. He could hear her light rhythmic breathing echo gently in the night air and it allowed some of his anxiety to flutter away but still, it wasn't enough.
Cautiously, his clawed hand reached out and took hold of the knob, turning it slowly to keep it as quiet as possible. He quickly pushed to door open to keep the squeaky hinges to a minimum before tiptoeing into the room and closing again.
His golden eyes took almost no time to adjust and easily found the petite figure resting in the oversized feather bed. Still on tiptoes, he made his way to the prone figure resting in the darkness and kneeled down next to her like he had so many times in the past.
Inu yasha took a deep, calming breath, allowing the heavenly scent that was hers to fill his lungs and put his mind to rest. He had missed the simple affect that this one action had upon him the last 500 years without her. Too many times in the past he had dreamed of this scent, almost to the point of insanity. He'd prayed and wished and begged who ever would listen that that one wonderful smell would be real and that the young woman to which it belong would be at his side when he opened his eyes.. but it never happened.
Until now.
His eyes slowly fluttered open and he was almost surprised to actually see the woman who haunted his dreams. He knew she was there, she'd been there for weeks but after a dream like that he needed reassurance.
The young woman in the bed stirred slightly, her eyes opening slowly to stare into his. She blinked for a moment, wondering why the hanyou was standing a nose's length from her in the middle of the night, gazing at her as though she had just appeared out of thin air.
She sat up on her elbow. "Inu yasha?" she whispered.
"I'm sorry," he shook himself out of his stupor. "Did I wake you?"
She shook her head. "What are you doing here though?"
He shrugged.
She smiled. "Afraid I'd escape in the middle of the night?"
The hanyou blushed and turned away. "Not exactly."
She couldn't help the giggled that escaped her lips. "Well am I still here?" She reached over and pinched her arm.
A gently clawed hand touched her cheek and she found her eyes locked in two golden pools.
His hand gently caressed her cheek and soft smile tipping the corner of his lips. "Thank the gods.."
Kagome blushed but didn't turn away. Her eyes looked down into her lap, staring at her hands that were now clenched together at her stomach. She didn't move, didn't say a word. She just sat there, enjoying his touch and warmth.
A long moment passed, then another. Finally Kagome couldn't hold in the yawn any more and announced her exhaustion to the room. Inu yasha chuckled.
"You should go back to sleep." he said, softly pressing her back into the mattress.
She nodded and allowed him to tuck her back in. She watched, almost sadly as he moved towards the door and wanted to stop him. "Umm.."
He turned back to her, golden eyes illuminated in the darkness. "Hai?"
"Would you.. That is.." she stammered, looking for a good way to say what she wanted. "Did you want to... " She blushed and looked away from his piercing gaze, "Stay?"
A smile of pure joy threatened his calm features and he so desperately fought the urge to simply jump into the bed. He cleared his throat and gently shook his head to keep his cool exterior going.
"Are.. Are you sure?" he asked cautiously.
She blushed but flashed him a genuine smile that, for a moment, made he forgot that they had moved far beyond the days of the Warring states.
"I wouldn't offer if I wasn't." She pulled down the covers and patted the edge of the bed.
Slowly, he walked over to the end of the bed and carefully climbed in beside her. She rolled over to face him as he crawled under the covers. She couldn't help but giggle as he nervously smiled at her, though she herself was still blushing.
"Don't be so worried!" she gently kissed his nose. "I trust you Inu yasha. Of any one in the world, I know you'd never hurt me. I'm really ok."
His heart felt like it would burst but he played it cool. A small smirk touched the corner of his mouth and his hands slid around the petite woman before him, pulling her close to his chest.
She squeaked a bit in surprise but, after a moment to adjust, she relaxed in the familiar safety of his embrace. A deep sigh passed her lips and in a moment she once more fell into a deep sleep.
Inu yasha laid there in the dark, gentle clawed fingers passing though ebony locks. With each breath he took he couldn't help but smell her sweet scent, the scent that he had dreamed about for so long. He couldn't help but bury his nose in it, cuddle as close as he could to it. For too long he'd slept alone and felt dead.
Now they were reunited. After long and dangerous trails, they were together and as he drifted off into a dreamless sleep he couldn't help but feel like he was alive once more.
Like the first time she had removed the arrow from his chest, he was falling from the tree but this time, instead of allowing her to stumbling to the ground, he was going to catch her....
@>~~~^~~~~
Once the soft rhythmic sound of her companion's breathing filled the room, Kagome allowed her eyes to open.
Two perfect blue eyes stared out, casting a sad accusing glare at the wall to her right.
A poem had been replying its self in her mind over and over for the last few minutes as Inu yasha snuggled closer to her body.
(Seems like I'm spending most of my time in the night
Something about it, don't feel like facing the light
Starin' at pillows in the middle of fights
Knockin' on doors down at the hall with red lights
I dream of you constantly
I wonder how wrong I can be)
Everything was a dream to her. Her life, her fleeting happiness...
Inu yasha.
She felt the man behind her wrap his arm more tightly around her waist and pull her close. A soft breath tickled the back of her neck as the inu hanyou let out a deep slumbering sigh of content.
(Moments of splendor wind up like ashes in rain.
One look you're smiling, another your face is in pain.
I wake up at night with the sweat on my head
A look in those eyes that will haunt me till dead.
I just can't seem to shake it
Something about what you said
I just can't seem to make up my mind about you.
Maybe what they say is true
Maybe lovers can never be friends.)
The soft patter of raindrops beat against the window of the quiet room and Kagome's gaze shifted to watch the fragile drops shatter against the glass. Just like the small moments of joy in her life, the raindrops were short lived..
Washing way hope like a tear. Killing the ashes in splendor.
(Laugh with the joker
Hold back the tears till they're gone.
Drink and be merry, they'll find us all dead men at dawn;
Visions of paradise scramble my head.
Something I've wanted so long's in my bed.
I'm dreaming my life away.
I'm wasting the best of my days.)
Her hand slid down the strong arm wrapped protectively around her waist and she couldn't help but think that, indeed, someone out there was laughing at her. Finding joy in her deepest sorrow.
This man, that she had dreamed about, and wished for, and prayed for, was now lying in her bed with her as if it had always been this way. As if nothing had happened between the well sealing and her rescue.
This man wiped her slate clean and gave her another chance.... But she could still be dreaming...
(Scribbled and scratching, half finished pages at dawn.
People that live here are wondering
Where all their strength's gone.
We're so far away from wherever we came
That sometimes I wonder we'll see it again
You can't always go home
You can't always be warm inside.)
Her life was this poem and she knew deep inside...
No matter how much the man with her now told her he loved her and proclaimed she was nothing but a princess, that her slate would never be clean. That her past would come back to haunt her time and time again.
She could never go home again... She couldn't always be warm inside.
But...
Turning slowly over, until she was facing the sleeping Inu yasha, Kagome allowed a single hopeful thought to enter her mind.
A single, gentle fingertip trailed over the hanyou's sleeping face. Softly she traced the curve of his cheek and his round lower lip, grazing one of his slightly exposed fangs. Sleepy eyelids fluttered under her gentle touch and a soft, sleepily moan passed though red lips.
For the first time since returning, Kagome felt warm. A soft light seemed to flicker on at the base of her soul and with each moment it seemed to get brighter. For now it was dim but nonetheless it was there and it brought a warm smile to her face.
Maybe all wasn't lost...
She knew she couldn't go home again.. but that didn't mean she couldn't build a new one.
@>~~~^~~~~
A/N: Sorry it took sooo long everyone but this chapter was actually really hard to write! This is the 4th draft I think? I dunno.. The first part was easy but this last part had me stumped for a while!
Either way, credits!
The poem is the original version of "You Can't Always Go Home Again" by Terry Moore.
He writes an AWESOME comic called Strangers in Paradise (AKA SiP). This is not the only poem he's written that will appear in this story so look of for them ^^ He's got some beautiful work.
Anyway!! Thank you all again for being so patient! I do appreciate it!
Ja~
~~Sami-chan