InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sins of Her Future ❯ My Other Life ( Chapter 7 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: luna_sea 
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream."
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.18.2004 | Pages: 5 | Words: 4.7K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Work In Progress
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream."
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.18.2004 | Pages: 5 | Words: 4.7K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Work In Progress
Sins of Her Future
Chapter 7 My Other Life
Rating : PG
Author : Sami-chan
Author's Notes : Ohiyo minna-san! How is everyone doing? Well here it is! The next chapter to SHF ^^ It feature's another poem by the great Terry Moore, this one entitled "My Other Life". It's a beautiful poem that seemed to perfectly fit Kagome's state of mine at this point in time, as I see it ^^ Also the name of this chapter ^^ I hope you all agree ^^;;
Anywho! I hope you all enjoy the chapter and feel free to drop any questions, comments or ideas my way! I'm always happy to hear from fans!
I'd like to thank everyone, too, that has reviewed so far! I so love all the nice things you all have had to say! Thank you thank you thank you!! Big huggles to all of you!!
::giggles:: Anywho! better get outta here before I babble too much more ^.~
Enjoy minna!
Ja~~
~~Sami-chan
Disclaimer: I don't own Inu yasha! This story will deal with Adult situations and some suggestive rape. I will *not* put in a rape scene at any time nor do I advocate rape in any way shape or form. If this offends you or you do not wish to think about these kinds of things PLEASE don't read this story.
Thank you.
@>~~~^~~~~
He opened the door slowly and stepped into the room before closing it behind him. The room was dark and if not for his golden youkai eyes he probably wouldn't have seen the small figure resting on the bed just ahead of him.
Very slowly, he made his way over to the prone figure and sat on the edge of the bed. She appeared to be asleep, her breathing soft and regular. He placed a gentle hand on her shoulder, "Kagome?"
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream.
If only I could find a way don't you believe
That I'd be there today?
But for my clever mind, to punish me,
I'm trapped inside this black design
My eyes are gallows and my heart's a nevous wreak
Trapped in confusion all around me I forget
My real name,
But they call me profane."
His breath caught in his throat as he listened, her soft whispered voice cutting through the still air of the room like a knife. She continued on like he wasn't even there...
"When I had angry eyes
To see beyound the veil of lies was nothing,
But now they're baby blue and don't see any answers,
I'm as blind as you.
If what they say is true then anything can happen
There are no border lines.
Tho' deep inside I hold the child I think I am,
My hands were midwife to the hell I'm living in.
Oh believe me,
I'm running out of time."
Her face was emotionless, her eyes glazed over. He wondered if she even knew what she was saying but the words were so deep, and so moving.. there was no way they were meaningless to her heart.
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream.
But every dawning day the faith in me
beyoud my reach more distant fades.
My eyes are gallows and my heart's a nervous wreck;
My cries are fondled by the hangman's deadly kiss.
Oh believe me,
I'm running out of-"
Then she stopped. That was it. The poem ended as if she could no longer speak. As if her time really had run out and it made his heart break. In a movement he didn't even expenct, he gathered her into his arms, pulling her as close to him as he could. She didn't fight, didn't move, didn't even try. It was like she was dead.
"Kagome," he whispered softly, desperately. "Please Kagome, don't give up. You know I won't let anything happen to you, ne?"
As if coming out of a trance, she blinked. "In-Inu yasha?" her shaky voice asked.
He nodded and hugged her again, his lips pressing soft kisses to her temple. "Hai. I'm here."
Her delicate arms wrapped themselves slowly around his chest and she buried her face in the curve of his shoulder. He felt the tears on his shoulder and gently nuzzled her cheek.
"Please Kagome, I can't stand it when you cry." He whimpered softly in her ear.
It only made her cry harder, deep heart wrenching sobs escaping her lips and echoing through the hollow room. He just held her, rocking her slowly on the bed until her sob slowly died into a gentle sniffle.
She pulled back and wiped her tears roughly from her cheeks. "Oh gods..." She stood, a sudden urge to pace the room controlling her feet. "What am I gonna do? I can't-"
Strong arms stopped her mid-step, pulling her back against a hard chest. Inu yasha buried his nose in her hair, taking a deep wiff to calm his own jossled nerves. "We'll get though this Kagome." He turned her around to face him, glittering gold meeting watery blue in the deep darkness. "Together we defeat hundred of youkai, killed Naraku and completed the Shikon no Tama. We can get through this too..." His hand gently caressed her cheek. "I waited 500 years to be with you again and I'm not going to let anyone take you away again."
She smiled at him and though her eyes filled with tears, it was a hope filled smile. She leaned forward, moving onto the tips of her toes, and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. "Arigatou..."
"Well that's all well and good," a voice called from the door, "But do you really think you can do it alone otouto?"
Inu yasha's head shot up to stare at his brother and sister-in-law standing in the open doorway. He cursed under his breath. "What do you want?" he barked.
"We just want to help Inu." Rin replied, flicking on the lights as she entered the room.
"What do you think you can do?"
Sesshoumaru shrugged. "I'll have to know what's going on before I can tell you that."
Inu yasha growled. "It's none of your bus-"
Kagome place a finger of his lips, cutting off any further protest from the hanyou. She looked up at him with sad eyes. "Inu..." She turned in his arms to face the new occupants of the room, a quivering feeling in the pit of her stomach. "I think it's time you heard the whole story behind my return..."
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~~5 years ago, The old well house~~
Kagome fell to her knees unable to believe that it was true. The well was sealed. She couldn't go back to the past... She couldn't go back to Inu yasha.
His last words echoed in her head, a song of comfort she would sing over and over in the years to come.
"Don't be scared. I'll find you soon."
But some how that didn't stop the tears that trailed down her cheeks. She felt as if she were completely alone in the world and in a way she was... The only people that understood her now were trapped 500 years in the past, just out of her reach but never out of her tormenting memories.
A voice called down to her, breaking apart her depressed haze.
"Kagome? Kagome is that you?" her mother called.
Kagome sighed and wiped the tears from her eyes. She cleared her throat, "Hai mama. I'll be up in a moment." With that she began the long trek up the side of the well. She'd forgotten exactly how annoying it was to climb that old rope latter. Normally Inu yasha would..
She shook her head, unwilling to let new tears form in her eyes. There would be time to morn later, for now she would just remember he'd be there soon.
Throwing herself over the edge of the old well, she was immedately scooped into a warm embrace by her mother. She gasped, the bone crushing hug from the older Higurashi knocking the air clear of her lungs.
"Ma-ma!" she gasped. "Can't... Breath!"
"Oh!" Kaiya exclaimed, pulling away from her daughter with a deep blush. "Gomen but," she smiled brightly and hugged her daughter again, this time a bit more genltly. "I'm just so glad you're home."
Kagome smiled, though it never reached her eyes, and hugged her back. "I guess it's good to be home." But the words sounded hollow to her.
This wasn't her home any more...
~~1 year, 4 months later~~
Kagome stood on the dark stage of "La Blue Girl's" waiting nervously for the lights to flash on and the music to cue her dance. She'd never done anything like this before, dancing on stage and stripping away her clothing for money, but she reminded herself quietly what she was doing this for.
She gave up highschool about 6 months after her return from the Sengoku Jidai, taking the time to continue her miko training and tend the shrine. For months, her friend Eri had been telling her about the great money she'd been making as a stripper downtown. She claimed someone like Kagome could make a killing but Kagome couldn't say she was thrilled with the career choice and in the back of her mind she wondered what Inu yasha would think if she did.
Then her mother had been diagnosed with cancer and shortly after her grandfather had passed away, leaving Kagome as the sole bread winner for the family. Because of all the bills, both doctor and funeral, it hadn't taken long before the Higurashi's had to take out a second morgage on the shrine.. Even less time before it was passed due.
She'd finally given in. Eri had helped her get a job at a pretty up scale joint and the pay was good. Though the job was degrading, the money was a life saver.
The lights flashed on, interruptting her thoughts, and her head shot up to stare out over the crowded room. She stepped across the stage, sure and confadent on the outside, shaking and scared on the inside. Piece by piece, her clothing was removed and dropped to the floor of the stage, a trail leading back to the innocence she was slowly leaving behind.
Men crowded the edge of the stage, eyes oogling and voices calling for her attention. She gave it, crawling on hands and knees to each man offering their money and allowed their cold hands to press their bills into her g-string.
Oh Gods how she wanted to cry.
She crawled down to the end of the run way, finally stopping before the last man. His eyes were cold as they wondered over her exposed skin, flashing with a deep emotion that Kagome wouldn't have reconized if she hadn't seen it in the eyes of another.
Lust.
Naraku had looked at her like that. Like a piece of meat good for only as long as she could be used before he had to spit her out. The look made her shiver and she would have moved away if she hadn't needed the hundred dollar bill he head in his hand.
She finished her dance and bowed before turning to gather her clothing and moving off stage. She had just made it behind the curtain when the man from before stopped her and pulled her roughly to the side.
Kagome stared at his hand on her arm then up to his face. He smiled at her before releasing her arm and bowing politely.
"Gomen, but I just wanted to talk to you." he said.
Kagome nodded, unconiously moving her pile of clothing up to cover her still exposed breast.
"It's ok. Can I help you?"
"I was hoping you could... You're new here aren't you?"
Kagome nodded.
He smiled. "Excellent. I was thinking about buying this little club, you know, expanding my 'empire' and all. What do you think?"
Kagome shrugged. "The place seems nice enough. Very high class from what I've seen."
He nodded, a hand coming up to scratch his chin. "I tend to agree. From what I've seen this place is very up scale but what I was really wondering is, if I buy this place, do you come with it?"
Kagome blushed. "Umm, I suppose. I mean, inless you plan to fire me when you take over?"
He laughed. "No no. I don't think I've even seen a crowd react that way to a dancer before in all my years in the business!" He extended his hand, "Oh excuse me. My name is Aku. Kagashi Aku."
She wiggled a hand free of her clothing and shook his offered limb. "Kagome. Higurashi Kagome."
He smiled, "Well Kagome, how would you like to earn a little more money? Beside what you earn working here, I'm in need of a personal assistant."
Kagome felt weary of this man. He reminded her so much of an evil she had fought 500 years in the past that she almost felt the urge to run. His aura screamed at her 'Beware! Danger!!' but he was offering the one thing she couldn't refuse right now.
Money.
With a slow nod, she agreed. "Hai. I would appreicate that."
The smile dropped from his lips, replaced with a light smirk that sent shivers though her spine. "Great... Excellent. I'll be by your place tomorrow night at 8pm and we'll discuss this further?"
He turned and retreated back into the club and for a moment Kagome wondered silently if she had just made a pact with a demon...
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Kagome lay on the floor, staring blanky up at the white ceiling of her apartment. Aku's talk, she thought, had been a bit one sided.
A soft murr murr reached her ears and she turned her broken body to face Eri who sat, bonded and gagged, on the far side of the apartment. Slowly, Kagome rolled onto her stomach, pulling herself up to stand and walk over to her friend. Her shaky hands made slow work of her friend's bonds before her body finally gave in and collapsed to the floor.
Warm arms embraced her and pulled her close. Tears finally made their way into her eyes, sliding unhindered down her cheeks. She fely humilated, unclean. She felt worthless and used like a piece of trash. Oh Gods, how she hurt but still the only thing that she could think about as she lay in Eri's comforting embrace was...
What was Inu yasha going to think of her now?
~~End Flashback~~
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That was as far as Kagome could get before the urge to vomit became to much for her and she fled the room. Inu yasha had just sat their for a long moment, eyes locked on her empty seat as the images she had induced danced around in his head.
He had know the story but the details had always been vague when he and Kagome discussed this. Now he knew why.
Two emotion fought for control in his mind. Anger and sorrow.
He was angry at Aku for daring to touch her, daring to hurt her and use her and steal her innocence from her. He was angry at himself for not being there to stop it.
He was filled with sorrow, because she had been broken. Because he knew that the one thing she had always been proud of was her independance and her strong will but this man had come into her life and killed that fire that burned in her eye. She would never be the same Kagome again and that made him want to cry.
Slowly, he stood, leaving his brother to grit his teeth and comfort his crying mate, and made his way down the hall to the door where Kagome had disappeared. A shaky hand reached up to knock on the door but as he knuckles brushed it the door creeked open. She hadn't even bothered to shut it all the way.
Cautiously, he entered the large bathroom and shut the door. His eyes drifted over to rest his gaze upon the small woman hanging haphazardly over the edge of the toilet, currently reliving the evening's dinner. He moved towards her, a gentle clawed hand pulling her raven locks back while the other reached into his hair and pulled out the rubber band holding together. He gently tied her hair back before turning to the sink to retrieve a washcloth.
He ran the cloth under some cool water before turning back to Kagome and placing in on the back of her neck. His hand took hold of her hair once more to keep it out of her way as she continued to empty her stomach. The he just sat there, waiting patiently.
A few minutes later, with her stomach now empty and her dry heving having stopped, Kagome slumped back away from the toilet and against Inu yasha. She panted softly, a hand moving up to wipe the side of her mouth, not really caring much if it was discusting. Her eyes closed and her head fell back against Inu yasha's shoulder, her body too tired to hold it up any longer.
Inu yasha picked the cloth back up and placed it on her forehead, wiping away the bit of sweat that had acumulated there. "Feeling better?" he whispered.
She started to nod before shaking her head. She may have finished throwing up for now, but that didn't mean she had stopped for the evening.
"Is there anything I can do?"
She shook her head, a hand reaching up to grasp his. "Thank you."
"For?"
"Staying.." she whispered. A light smirk crossed her lips. "I'm sure I must look oh so attactive with my head in the toilet."
He gently leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on her cheek. "Absolutely beauty," he relied with all conviction.
She laughed a bit, almost instantly regreting the action when her stomach once more started to churn. "Oh Gods, I feel awful."
He brushed some stray hair from his princess' face, "Do you want to stay here for the night?"
She laughed a bit, "I don't think I could move from this spot if I tried."
Inu yasha nodded. "Will you be ok if I go out for a moment to talk to Sess?"
Kagome nodded and Inu yasha stood up. He gently laid her on the soft bathroom carpet before turning and exiting the bathroom. He moved back to where he had left his brother and sister in law and found the pair in relatively the same position he had left them in though, Rin's tears were now gentle sniffles.
Sesshoumaru turned to his younger brother as he retook his seat across from him. "How is she?"
"Sick. I don't think she'll make it all the way home tonight either."
Sesshomaru nodded before turning to his mate. Without a word exchanged between the two, Rin nodded and stood from the table. "I'll go help her clean up."
Both men watched as the young woman left the room before turning back. A long pause permiated the room.
"He was the one that beat her before wasn't he?"
Inu yasha nodded. "Hai, he was. He broke into my house while I was away. Luckily, Kirara stopped him."
Sesshomaru growled. "Kuso. Why did you wait so long to tell me? I could have helped."
"It wasn't my secret to tell!" Inu yasha yelled. "Kagome is really ashamed of everything that's happened to her! She thinks it's her fault! She didn't want you and Rin looking down on her because of her past!"
Though he was still growling his disappoval, the lord of the westernlands nodded his understanding.
Inu yasha sighed, laying his head in his hands. "I just don't know what to do any more Sess.. If this were the Sengoku Jidai I could just kill the bastard and be done with it but.."
"It's a bit more complicated today, ne?" He sighed. "I understand."
Just then Rin reentered the room, moving over to stand by her mate. "How is she?" Sesshomaru asked looking over to her.
"I've cleaned her up and gotten her a change of clothing but I don't think she can make it to the room by herself. She gets too dizzy when she moves and it makes her feel ill again." She turned pleading eyes to her brother in law. "Would you please take care of her?"
He smiled sadly and stood from the table. "You didn't need to ask." He moved towards the door way.
"She may stay in the same room as before. You know where your room is." Sesshomaru called after him.
Inu yasha only nodded and headed back to Kagome.
He found her laying out on the cool tile of the bathroom floor, face down and body shivering slightly. He moved over and knelt down next to her. "Kagome?"
"Hm?" came her muffled reply.
"Are you ok?"
"Hm." she replied. "Just feeling kinda hot."
"You're shivering.."
"Am I?"
Inu yasha sighed. "Hai you are. Do you think I can move you into the bedroom?"
Kagome rolled onto her back, a deep groan escaping her lips as she attempted to sit up. A clawed hand stopped her, lightly pushing her back to the floor. "No, don't move. I'll take you up if you feel like it?"
Kagome nodded. "Hai. It'd be nice to get off this floor."
He smiled and gathering the petite girl into his arms, cuddling her close to his chest. She gave a light moan with the movement but was otherwise fine. Inu yasha very carefully and very slowly, so as not to jossle her too much, climbed the stairs to the room that Sesshoumaru had given Kagome for the night. Very carefully, he laid her down on the bed and pulled the covers over her body.
He lightly smoothed out the covers, "Do you need anything else?"
Her small hand reached out and took hold of his. "Stay with me?"
He smiled and nodded before climbing into bed with her and pulling the covers over his own body as well. He lightly brushed her bangs out of her face, placing a gentle kiss on her forehead. "I'll stay as long as you like. Just try to get some rest ok?"
Kagome nodded, her eyes closing even as she spoke. "You won't leave me?"
"Not ever.." he lightly caressed her cheek. "Just rest."
In a moment she was sleeping and Inu yasha was watching as her chest rose slowly and fell with each of her gentle breaths. With a deep sigh he laid down beside his princess, pulling her close to the warmth of his body when he noticed her still shivering.
He placed a soft kiss on her temple, nuzzling his nose to the same spot. "Oyasumi, hime-sama. I'll be here when you wake. Always here."
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A/N: I think this is probably a bit of over kill but I figured rather then missing words in one story I'd just combine the list for all my stories ^^ Hope I don't confuse anyone with this idea but I didn't want to forget anything ^^;;; Anywho! Thanks for reading everyone!
Ja~~
~~Sami-chan
Japanese translations:
oyasumi nasai (Or the short version 'Oyasumi') : Good night
honto/honto ne : Really? (or Really.)
jii-chan : Grandpa
nee-chan or onee-chan : sister
nii-chan or onii-chan : brother
ja ne : see ya
hanyou : half breed
youkai : demon
jaki : evil air/that stuff that Naraku's always throwing around ^^;;
koiishi : lover
daisuki : (I think I spelled that right) I love you. Not quite as hardcore a confession as Aishitaru but still ^^; It's pronounced 'Dai skee' (the su is really soft and hardly pronounced)
hai : yes
kitsune : fox demon
miko : priestess, unusally a virgin woman
otouto : brother
baka : idiot, stupid, you're an idoit/stupid...
Arigato : thank you ^^
Kami : Kami is the word of 'God' or 'God(s)' in japanese. It is both purlar and singlar but in my stories you can assume it is the purlar.
minna-san : Everyone (formal)
Gomen nasai : I am very sorry
Gomen : I'm sorry
Anataka suki desu, (name here). Itsumo. Itsumademo : I love you, (name here) I always have. I always will.
Shikon no Tama : Jewel of Four Souls
Goshinboku : God Tree
Kuso : Shit
Sengoku Jidai : Feudal Age
inu : dog (together with hanyou we have half dog demon ^^)
hime : princess (with sama added as a term of respect)
oi : hey
Ohiyou gozimasu : Good Morning (Ohiyou would just be like " Morning!" but is not the word for Morning.. that would be asu ^^ )
mou : the word that accompanies a pout (example : "Mou!" she pouted. )
daijobu : are you all right, it'll be all right, it is all right. Depending on puncation.
taijiya : demon exterminator
houshin : monk
neko : cat
iie : no ( I was told recently that this is actually a disrepectful term in Japan but I do use it in some of my chapters so here is the basic translation and no I didn't mean it in a disrespectful way when I wrote the chapters.)
onegai : please
aniyome : sister in law
ginkei : brother in law
ookami : wolf
Chapter 7 My Other Life
Rating : PG
Author : Sami-chan
Author's Notes : Ohiyo minna-san! How is everyone doing? Well here it is! The next chapter to SHF ^^ It feature's another poem by the great Terry Moore, this one entitled "My Other Life". It's a beautiful poem that seemed to perfectly fit Kagome's state of mine at this point in time, as I see it ^^ Also the name of this chapter ^^ I hope you all agree ^^;;
Anywho! I hope you all enjoy the chapter and feel free to drop any questions, comments or ideas my way! I'm always happy to hear from fans!
I'd like to thank everyone, too, that has reviewed so far! I so love all the nice things you all have had to say! Thank you thank you thank you!! Big huggles to all of you!!
::giggles:: Anywho! better get outta here before I babble too much more ^.~
Enjoy minna!
Ja~~
~~Sami-chan
Disclaimer: I don't own Inu yasha! This story will deal with Adult situations and some suggestive rape. I will *not* put in a rape scene at any time nor do I advocate rape in any way shape or form. If this offends you or you do not wish to think about these kinds of things PLEASE don't read this story.
Thank you.
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He opened the door slowly and stepped into the room before closing it behind him. The room was dark and if not for his golden youkai eyes he probably wouldn't have seen the small figure resting on the bed just ahead of him.
Very slowly, he made his way over to the prone figure and sat on the edge of the bed. She appeared to be asleep, her breathing soft and regular. He placed a gentle hand on her shoulder, "Kagome?"
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream.
If only I could find a way don't you believe
That I'd be there today?
But for my clever mind, to punish me,
I'm trapped inside this black design
My eyes are gallows and my heart's a nevous wreak
Trapped in confusion all around me I forget
My real name,
But they call me profane."
His breath caught in his throat as he listened, her soft whispered voice cutting through the still air of the room like a knife. She continued on like he wasn't even there...
"When I had angry eyes
To see beyound the veil of lies was nothing,
But now they're baby blue and don't see any answers,
I'm as blind as you.
If what they say is true then anything can happen
There are no border lines.
Tho' deep inside I hold the child I think I am,
My hands were midwife to the hell I'm living in.
Oh believe me,
I'm running out of time."
Her face was emotionless, her eyes glazed over. He wondered if she even knew what she was saying but the words were so deep, and so moving.. there was no way they were meaningless to her heart.
"When I wake up at night
Remembering my other life,
I scream.
But every dawning day the faith in me
beyoud my reach more distant fades.
My eyes are gallows and my heart's a nervous wreck;
My cries are fondled by the hangman's deadly kiss.
Oh believe me,
I'm running out of-"
Then she stopped. That was it. The poem ended as if she could no longer speak. As if her time really had run out and it made his heart break. In a movement he didn't even expenct, he gathered her into his arms, pulling her as close to him as he could. She didn't fight, didn't move, didn't even try. It was like she was dead.
"Kagome," he whispered softly, desperately. "Please Kagome, don't give up. You know I won't let anything happen to you, ne?"
As if coming out of a trance, she blinked. "In-Inu yasha?" her shaky voice asked.
He nodded and hugged her again, his lips pressing soft kisses to her temple. "Hai. I'm here."
Her delicate arms wrapped themselves slowly around his chest and she buried her face in the curve of his shoulder. He felt the tears on his shoulder and gently nuzzled her cheek.
"Please Kagome, I can't stand it when you cry." He whimpered softly in her ear.
It only made her cry harder, deep heart wrenching sobs escaping her lips and echoing through the hollow room. He just held her, rocking her slowly on the bed until her sob slowly died into a gentle sniffle.
She pulled back and wiped her tears roughly from her cheeks. "Oh gods..." She stood, a sudden urge to pace the room controlling her feet. "What am I gonna do? I can't-"
Strong arms stopped her mid-step, pulling her back against a hard chest. Inu yasha buried his nose in her hair, taking a deep wiff to calm his own jossled nerves. "We'll get though this Kagome." He turned her around to face him, glittering gold meeting watery blue in the deep darkness. "Together we defeat hundred of youkai, killed Naraku and completed the Shikon no Tama. We can get through this too..." His hand gently caressed her cheek. "I waited 500 years to be with you again and I'm not going to let anyone take you away again."
She smiled at him and though her eyes filled with tears, it was a hope filled smile. She leaned forward, moving onto the tips of her toes, and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek. "Arigatou..."
"Well that's all well and good," a voice called from the door, "But do you really think you can do it alone otouto?"
Inu yasha's head shot up to stare at his brother and sister-in-law standing in the open doorway. He cursed under his breath. "What do you want?" he barked.
"We just want to help Inu." Rin replied, flicking on the lights as she entered the room.
"What do you think you can do?"
Sesshoumaru shrugged. "I'll have to know what's going on before I can tell you that."
Inu yasha growled. "It's none of your bus-"
Kagome place a finger of his lips, cutting off any further protest from the hanyou. She looked up at him with sad eyes. "Inu..." She turned in his arms to face the new occupants of the room, a quivering feeling in the pit of her stomach. "I think it's time you heard the whole story behind my return..."
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~~5 years ago, The old well house~~
Kagome fell to her knees unable to believe that it was true. The well was sealed. She couldn't go back to the past... She couldn't go back to Inu yasha.
His last words echoed in her head, a song of comfort she would sing over and over in the years to come.
"Don't be scared. I'll find you soon."
But some how that didn't stop the tears that trailed down her cheeks. She felt as if she were completely alone in the world and in a way she was... The only people that understood her now were trapped 500 years in the past, just out of her reach but never out of her tormenting memories.
A voice called down to her, breaking apart her depressed haze.
"Kagome? Kagome is that you?" her mother called.
Kagome sighed and wiped the tears from her eyes. She cleared her throat, "Hai mama. I'll be up in a moment." With that she began the long trek up the side of the well. She'd forgotten exactly how annoying it was to climb that old rope latter. Normally Inu yasha would..
She shook her head, unwilling to let new tears form in her eyes. There would be time to morn later, for now she would just remember he'd be there soon.
Throwing herself over the edge of the old well, she was immedately scooped into a warm embrace by her mother. She gasped, the bone crushing hug from the older Higurashi knocking the air clear of her lungs.
"Ma-ma!" she gasped. "Can't... Breath!"
"Oh!" Kaiya exclaimed, pulling away from her daughter with a deep blush. "Gomen but," she smiled brightly and hugged her daughter again, this time a bit more genltly. "I'm just so glad you're home."
Kagome smiled, though it never reached her eyes, and hugged her back. "I guess it's good to be home." But the words sounded hollow to her.
This wasn't her home any more...
~~1 year, 4 months later~~
Kagome stood on the dark stage of "La Blue Girl's" waiting nervously for the lights to flash on and the music to cue her dance. She'd never done anything like this before, dancing on stage and stripping away her clothing for money, but she reminded herself quietly what she was doing this for.
She gave up highschool about 6 months after her return from the Sengoku Jidai, taking the time to continue her miko training and tend the shrine. For months, her friend Eri had been telling her about the great money she'd been making as a stripper downtown. She claimed someone like Kagome could make a killing but Kagome couldn't say she was thrilled with the career choice and in the back of her mind she wondered what Inu yasha would think if she did.
Then her mother had been diagnosed with cancer and shortly after her grandfather had passed away, leaving Kagome as the sole bread winner for the family. Because of all the bills, both doctor and funeral, it hadn't taken long before the Higurashi's had to take out a second morgage on the shrine.. Even less time before it was passed due.
She'd finally given in. Eri had helped her get a job at a pretty up scale joint and the pay was good. Though the job was degrading, the money was a life saver.
The lights flashed on, interruptting her thoughts, and her head shot up to stare out over the crowded room. She stepped across the stage, sure and confadent on the outside, shaking and scared on the inside. Piece by piece, her clothing was removed and dropped to the floor of the stage, a trail leading back to the innocence she was slowly leaving behind.
Men crowded the edge of the stage, eyes oogling and voices calling for her attention. She gave it, crawling on hands and knees to each man offering their money and allowed their cold hands to press their bills into her g-string.
Oh Gods how she wanted to cry.
She crawled down to the end of the run way, finally stopping before the last man. His eyes were cold as they wondered over her exposed skin, flashing with a deep emotion that Kagome wouldn't have reconized if she hadn't seen it in the eyes of another.
Lust.
Naraku had looked at her like that. Like a piece of meat good for only as long as she could be used before he had to spit her out. The look made her shiver and she would have moved away if she hadn't needed the hundred dollar bill he head in his hand.
She finished her dance and bowed before turning to gather her clothing and moving off stage. She had just made it behind the curtain when the man from before stopped her and pulled her roughly to the side.
Kagome stared at his hand on her arm then up to his face. He smiled at her before releasing her arm and bowing politely.
"Gomen, but I just wanted to talk to you." he said.
Kagome nodded, unconiously moving her pile of clothing up to cover her still exposed breast.
"It's ok. Can I help you?"
"I was hoping you could... You're new here aren't you?"
Kagome nodded.
He smiled. "Excellent. I was thinking about buying this little club, you know, expanding my 'empire' and all. What do you think?"
Kagome shrugged. "The place seems nice enough. Very high class from what I've seen."
He nodded, a hand coming up to scratch his chin. "I tend to agree. From what I've seen this place is very up scale but what I was really wondering is, if I buy this place, do you come with it?"
Kagome blushed. "Umm, I suppose. I mean, inless you plan to fire me when you take over?"
He laughed. "No no. I don't think I've even seen a crowd react that way to a dancer before in all my years in the business!" He extended his hand, "Oh excuse me. My name is Aku. Kagashi Aku."
She wiggled a hand free of her clothing and shook his offered limb. "Kagome. Higurashi Kagome."
He smiled, "Well Kagome, how would you like to earn a little more money? Beside what you earn working here, I'm in need of a personal assistant."
Kagome felt weary of this man. He reminded her so much of an evil she had fought 500 years in the past that she almost felt the urge to run. His aura screamed at her 'Beware! Danger!!' but he was offering the one thing she couldn't refuse right now.
Money.
With a slow nod, she agreed. "Hai. I would appreicate that."
The smile dropped from his lips, replaced with a light smirk that sent shivers though her spine. "Great... Excellent. I'll be by your place tomorrow night at 8pm and we'll discuss this further?"
He turned and retreated back into the club and for a moment Kagome wondered silently if she had just made a pact with a demon...
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Kagome lay on the floor, staring blanky up at the white ceiling of her apartment. Aku's talk, she thought, had been a bit one sided.
A soft murr murr reached her ears and she turned her broken body to face Eri who sat, bonded and gagged, on the far side of the apartment. Slowly, Kagome rolled onto her stomach, pulling herself up to stand and walk over to her friend. Her shaky hands made slow work of her friend's bonds before her body finally gave in and collapsed to the floor.
Warm arms embraced her and pulled her close. Tears finally made their way into her eyes, sliding unhindered down her cheeks. She fely humilated, unclean. She felt worthless and used like a piece of trash. Oh Gods, how she hurt but still the only thing that she could think about as she lay in Eri's comforting embrace was...
What was Inu yasha going to think of her now?
~~End Flashback~~
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That was as far as Kagome could get before the urge to vomit became to much for her and she fled the room. Inu yasha had just sat their for a long moment, eyes locked on her empty seat as the images she had induced danced around in his head.
He had know the story but the details had always been vague when he and Kagome discussed this. Now he knew why.
Two emotion fought for control in his mind. Anger and sorrow.
He was angry at Aku for daring to touch her, daring to hurt her and use her and steal her innocence from her. He was angry at himself for not being there to stop it.
He was filled with sorrow, because she had been broken. Because he knew that the one thing she had always been proud of was her independance and her strong will but this man had come into her life and killed that fire that burned in her eye. She would never be the same Kagome again and that made him want to cry.
Slowly, he stood, leaving his brother to grit his teeth and comfort his crying mate, and made his way down the hall to the door where Kagome had disappeared. A shaky hand reached up to knock on the door but as he knuckles brushed it the door creeked open. She hadn't even bothered to shut it all the way.
Cautiously, he entered the large bathroom and shut the door. His eyes drifted over to rest his gaze upon the small woman hanging haphazardly over the edge of the toilet, currently reliving the evening's dinner. He moved towards her, a gentle clawed hand pulling her raven locks back while the other reached into his hair and pulled out the rubber band holding together. He gently tied her hair back before turning to the sink to retrieve a washcloth.
He ran the cloth under some cool water before turning back to Kagome and placing in on the back of her neck. His hand took hold of her hair once more to keep it out of her way as she continued to empty her stomach. The he just sat there, waiting patiently.
A few minutes later, with her stomach now empty and her dry heving having stopped, Kagome slumped back away from the toilet and against Inu yasha. She panted softly, a hand moving up to wipe the side of her mouth, not really caring much if it was discusting. Her eyes closed and her head fell back against Inu yasha's shoulder, her body too tired to hold it up any longer.
Inu yasha picked the cloth back up and placed it on her forehead, wiping away the bit of sweat that had acumulated there. "Feeling better?" he whispered.
She started to nod before shaking her head. She may have finished throwing up for now, but that didn't mean she had stopped for the evening.
"Is there anything I can do?"
She shook her head, a hand reaching up to grasp his. "Thank you."
"For?"
"Staying.." she whispered. A light smirk crossed her lips. "I'm sure I must look oh so attactive with my head in the toilet."
He gently leaned forward and placed a soft kiss on her cheek. "Absolutely beauty," he relied with all conviction.
She laughed a bit, almost instantly regreting the action when her stomach once more started to churn. "Oh Gods, I feel awful."
He brushed some stray hair from his princess' face, "Do you want to stay here for the night?"
She laughed a bit, "I don't think I could move from this spot if I tried."
Inu yasha nodded. "Will you be ok if I go out for a moment to talk to Sess?"
Kagome nodded and Inu yasha stood up. He gently laid her on the soft bathroom carpet before turning and exiting the bathroom. He moved back to where he had left his brother and sister in law and found the pair in relatively the same position he had left them in though, Rin's tears were now gentle sniffles.
Sesshoumaru turned to his younger brother as he retook his seat across from him. "How is she?"
"Sick. I don't think she'll make it all the way home tonight either."
Sesshomaru nodded before turning to his mate. Without a word exchanged between the two, Rin nodded and stood from the table. "I'll go help her clean up."
Both men watched as the young woman left the room before turning back. A long pause permiated the room.
"He was the one that beat her before wasn't he?"
Inu yasha nodded. "Hai, he was. He broke into my house while I was away. Luckily, Kirara stopped him."
Sesshomaru growled. "Kuso. Why did you wait so long to tell me? I could have helped."
"It wasn't my secret to tell!" Inu yasha yelled. "Kagome is really ashamed of everything that's happened to her! She thinks it's her fault! She didn't want you and Rin looking down on her because of her past!"
Though he was still growling his disappoval, the lord of the westernlands nodded his understanding.
Inu yasha sighed, laying his head in his hands. "I just don't know what to do any more Sess.. If this were the Sengoku Jidai I could just kill the bastard and be done with it but.."
"It's a bit more complicated today, ne?" He sighed. "I understand."
Just then Rin reentered the room, moving over to stand by her mate. "How is she?" Sesshomaru asked looking over to her.
"I've cleaned her up and gotten her a change of clothing but I don't think she can make it to the room by herself. She gets too dizzy when she moves and it makes her feel ill again." She turned pleading eyes to her brother in law. "Would you please take care of her?"
He smiled sadly and stood from the table. "You didn't need to ask." He moved towards the door way.
"She may stay in the same room as before. You know where your room is." Sesshomaru called after him.
Inu yasha only nodded and headed back to Kagome.
He found her laying out on the cool tile of the bathroom floor, face down and body shivering slightly. He moved over and knelt down next to her. "Kagome?"
"Hm?" came her muffled reply.
"Are you ok?"
"Hm." she replied. "Just feeling kinda hot."
"You're shivering.."
"Am I?"
Inu yasha sighed. "Hai you are. Do you think I can move you into the bedroom?"
Kagome rolled onto her back, a deep groan escaping her lips as she attempted to sit up. A clawed hand stopped her, lightly pushing her back to the floor. "No, don't move. I'll take you up if you feel like it?"
Kagome nodded. "Hai. It'd be nice to get off this floor."
He smiled and gathering the petite girl into his arms, cuddling her close to his chest. She gave a light moan with the movement but was otherwise fine. Inu yasha very carefully and very slowly, so as not to jossle her too much, climbed the stairs to the room that Sesshoumaru had given Kagome for the night. Very carefully, he laid her down on the bed and pulled the covers over her body.
He lightly smoothed out the covers, "Do you need anything else?"
Her small hand reached out and took hold of his. "Stay with me?"
He smiled and nodded before climbing into bed with her and pulling the covers over his own body as well. He lightly brushed her bangs out of her face, placing a gentle kiss on her forehead. "I'll stay as long as you like. Just try to get some rest ok?"
Kagome nodded, her eyes closing even as she spoke. "You won't leave me?"
"Not ever.." he lightly caressed her cheek. "Just rest."
In a moment she was sleeping and Inu yasha was watching as her chest rose slowly and fell with each of her gentle breaths. With a deep sigh he laid down beside his princess, pulling her close to the warmth of his body when he noticed her still shivering.
He placed a soft kiss on her temple, nuzzling his nose to the same spot. "Oyasumi, hime-sama. I'll be here when you wake. Always here."
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A/N: I think this is probably a bit of over kill but I figured rather then missing words in one story I'd just combine the list for all my stories ^^ Hope I don't confuse anyone with this idea but I didn't want to forget anything ^^;;; Anywho! Thanks for reading everyone!
Ja~~
~~Sami-chan
Japanese translations:
oyasumi nasai (Or the short version 'Oyasumi') : Good night
honto/honto ne : Really? (or Really.)
jii-chan : Grandpa
nee-chan or onee-chan : sister
nii-chan or onii-chan : brother
ja ne : see ya
hanyou : half breed
youkai : demon
jaki : evil air/that stuff that Naraku's always throwing around ^^;;
koiishi : lover
daisuki : (I think I spelled that right) I love you. Not quite as hardcore a confession as Aishitaru but still ^^; It's pronounced 'Dai skee' (the su is really soft and hardly pronounced)
hai : yes
kitsune : fox demon
miko : priestess, unusally a virgin woman
otouto : brother
baka : idiot, stupid, you're an idoit/stupid...
Arigato : thank you ^^
Kami : Kami is the word of 'God' or 'God(s)' in japanese. It is both purlar and singlar but in my stories you can assume it is the purlar.
minna-san : Everyone (formal)
Gomen nasai : I am very sorry
Gomen : I'm sorry
Anataka suki desu, (name here). Itsumo. Itsumademo : I love you, (name here) I always have. I always will.
Shikon no Tama : Jewel of Four Souls
Goshinboku : God Tree
Kuso : Shit
Sengoku Jidai : Feudal Age
inu : dog (together with hanyou we have half dog demon ^^)
hime : princess (with sama added as a term of respect)
oi : hey
Ohiyou gozimasu : Good Morning (Ohiyou would just be like " Morning!" but is not the word for Morning.. that would be asu ^^ )
mou : the word that accompanies a pout (example : "Mou!" she pouted. )
daijobu : are you all right, it'll be all right, it is all right. Depending on puncation.
taijiya : demon exterminator
houshin : monk
neko : cat
iie : no ( I was told recently that this is actually a disrepectful term in Japan but I do use it in some of my chapters so here is the basic translation and no I didn't mean it in a disrespectful way when I wrote the chapters.)
onegai : please
aniyome : sister in law
ginkei : brother in law
ookami : wolf