InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sins of Her Future ❯ Crying Eyes ( Chapter 9 )
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By: luna_sea 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.27.2005 | Pages: 4 | Words: 3.4K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 04.27.2005 | Pages: 4 | Words: 3.4K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Completed
Sins of Her Future
Chapter 9 Crying Eyes
Rating : PG-13
A/N: Hey minna-san! I am SOOOOO sorry it's still taking me forever to update. Life just doesn't want to work with me on this one... But I do promise you, no matter how long it takes for me to update I *WILL* finish all of my stories! Just give me time ok? Since it does take me so long to update, if any of you want me to e-mail you when I do, just send me an e-mail with your address and the story(s) you are reading ok? I think it's the least I can do ^^;;
Anywho! Please enjoy this chapter and I'll try to have another one soon! Take care one and all!
~~Sami-chan
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A heavy fist slammed down on an old desk, easily denting the surface. "You're out of your fuckin' mind!"
After the meeting with Sesshomaru had ended, Yuka and asked to speak with Inu yasha privately. Thinking nothing of it, the hanyou had agreed and after returning Kagome to her room with instruction to wait for him, he had returned to his brother's office to meet with Yuka.
Unfortunately, the meeting had been nothing he had expected.
"I'm serious Inu yasha-sama."
A growl rumbled in his throat, hard gold eyes glaring at the girl before him. "You say that as if you really could."
"I can and I will," the girl glared back. "Kagome needs to be with people she can trust, friends and family. Not some rich pompous ass that barely knows her and would probably abandon her at the first sign of bad press!"
"The same 'friends' that abandoned her in the first place?? And how do you know what kinda of relationship Kagome and I have?? You don't know the first thing about her 'cause if you did, you'd know me!"
Yuka flinched at the hanyou's harsh words but never lost her air of confidence.
"I've known Kagome since second grade! You've known her what?? A month?? For Kami's sake, you found her in a strip club!! How trust worthy can you be if you were in a *STRIP CLUB*!??"
"I was in there *Looking* for Kagome, twit! I picked up her scent a block away and followed it! Before that I'd never been in a strip club!" He huffed and folded his arms. "Kagome and I have a far longer history then you think and if you really were her friend, you'd know that."
Yuka stared at Inu yasha for a long moment, brown eyes studying him for signs of deception. Finding none, her mind began to wonder.
"How *do* you know Kagome then?"
"Keh. That's for Kagome to tell but you won't be bothering her today. She's still sick."
Yuka frowned. "That's it. You can't keep me from her Inu yasha! I'll be by Thursday at 10 am to get her and her things." She turned and headed towards the door. "Have her ready by then." With that she disappeared into the hall, slamming the door behind her.
Inu yasha clenched his fist at his side, trying desperately to relieve the anger coursing through his veins.
"That stupid..." he muttered. "Thinks she knows everything..."
Glancing down at small dent he'd left in his brother's desk and wincing, knowing Sesshomaru was not going to be happy. His eyes caught sight of the small calender in the corner.
Tuesday, May 23.
With a sigh, Inu yasha let his body go limp. There was nothing he could do about Yuka today. He'd have to wait till Thursday to talk some sense into the girl. That or hide Kagome in a closet...
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Kagome lay out on her bed, staring blindly at the wall. Seeing it, but not really *seeing* it.
Today had been one hell of a day, not only seeing Kouga again after nearly 500 and some odd years but to see Yuka..
Kagome shivered involuntarily.
The last time she had seen any of her modern friends had been at Eri's funeral and even then only Ayumi had talked to her like a civilized person. Houjou choice to ignore her but Yuka..
She had been the most verbal about what she thought of Kagome, Eri *and* there 'profession', almost to the point that the family had threatened to remove her. Briefly, Kagome had even wondered why the girl had attended if she didn't want to come but figured it had been Ayumi that wanted to go, convincing Houjou and Yuka to come along.
She'd always like Ayumi.
Sighing, Kagome turned over to face the opposite wall.
Now that Kouga and Yuka knew her secret it would only be a matter of time before others would know. There weren't many people Kouga could tell- possibly Ayame- so she really wasn't too worried about him. But Yuka? She could just see Houjou and Ayumi on her doorstep tomorrow, begging to know why she hadn't told them.
A knock at the door startled Kagome from her thoughts.
Blinking, she stared in surprise at the door. "Come..in?"
The door opened and Kouga stepped into the room, a sad smile playing on his lips.
"Oi," he said softly, moving farther into the room and taking a seat on the end of the bed. "How you feeling?"
Kagome was a bit nervous and back up against the headboard of the bed. Kouga had a habit of kidnapping her in the past and it truly worried her that he might try something again. She didn't think she could handle it if he touched her.
Kouga, smelling her fear, sighed and dropped his head. "I'm not gonna touch you Kagome. I just came to check up on you and see how you were?"
Kagome relaxed but only slightly. "I'm.. I'm ok. Just a bit sick is all."
Kouga nodded and there was a long pauses.
"Is it true?"
Kagome looked up at the wolf prince, tilting her head in confusion. "Is what true?"
"What Sesshoumaru said.. That you were... were.." he looked away, unable to finish the thought.
"Oh.." she said softly. She nodded. "Yeah, it's true.. But Inu yasha, he saved me."
"I wish I could have been there, to help you out. If I had known Kagome.." He gentle reached out to touch her knee but she flinched away.
With a sigh, he stood, nodding softly. "I understand. Listen, if inu korro ever decides to be an ass, I remember him having a problem with that, Ayame and I always have room for you at our den."
"You and Ayame mated?"
Kouga smiled and nodded. "About 20 years after you left. It took me a while to get over the fact that you were gone but Ayame stayed by my side the whole time..." He shrugged his shoulders. "I guess it was only natural that we would fall in love."
Kagome smiled. "I'm happy for you."
He nodded, returning her warm smile. "But like I said Kagome, if you ever need anything you know I'll be there."
She nodded her thanks. "Arigato Kouga-kun."
And with that, the wolf prince left her to her thoughts, closing the door softly behind him
Kagome sighed and flopped back out on the bed, attempting to release some of the tension in her limbs. Sure it had been nice to see her old friend again but she still wasn't too comfortable around the male species.
Just then the door to her room flew open and Kagome shot up out of bed to face the intruder.
A raging inu hanyou paused momentarily in the door way, his nose twitching slightly as he inhaled a familiar scent. His eyes narrowed as he glanced around the room but finding no one else, he turned back to Kagome.
"Where is he?"
It took her a moment to register who he was talking about before she gasped. "Oh! You mean Kouga? He just left."
A growl rumbled in his throat. "What did he want?"
"Just- just to check on me." she stammered nervously. "Really. And to know if what Sesshoumaru said was true."
His eyes roamed over her body, looking for any sign of deception, his nose continued to twitch as he took in her scent and he nearly gagged at the heavy stench of fear radiating off of her.
'Crap', he cursed internally. He was probably scaring the shit out of the poor girl.
Inu yasha let of a dejected sigh as he plopped down on the end of the bed and allowed his head to drop into his hands.
Kagome watched his back for a moment, unsure of what to do next before slowly sliding out from under her covers and down to the end of the bed. She gently reached out and touched his shoulder.
"Inu yasha?"
"Are you afraid of me too?"
Kagome blinked for a moment. "Afraid?" Kagome smiled softly and moved to wrap the hanyou in a warm embrace from behind. A clawed hand carefully reached up to cover two very delicate one, a sharp contrast but still no less a beautiful picture. She gently nuzzled her cheek against his.
"No," she whispered softly into where his human ear would have been. "Never of you..."
For a long moment, the two just sat in the silence of the room. Kagome's eyes began to close and soon Inu yasha could feel her even breathing against his cheek.
With a sad smile, the hanyou gently picked her up and laid her down in the bed, pulling the covers up to her chin. He watched her for a long moment, content to stare at her peaceful face and dream of days long passed and days that could have been...
He stood then, the heavy memories becoming too much, and turned to leave the room when a small hand grabbed his sleeve.
"Where are you going?" her sleepy voice slurred.
He smiled and laid his hime back down. "Just some where to let you rest hime-sama." He chuckled at the disgruntled look on her face. "Now now, why the look hime-sama?"
"I'm not a princess..." she pulled him closer to her, almost pulling him to lay out beside her. "And I don't want you to go."
Inu yasha smiled and gently kissed her forehead. "I'll stay if you insist."
"I do."
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Inu yasha watched the sleeping girl beside him, dragging careful claws over her exposed arm.
"Kagome," he whispered softly into her sleeping ear, "Do you ever wonder what would have happened if you had not disappeared that day? I know that.. Sometimes.. I wonder what it was you were trying to say to me as you disappeared..."
He gently nuzzled her neck, moving to lay out beside the woman he held close to his heart.
"Sometimes, I can imagine that you said 'I love you' but that you weren't fading slowly from my site."
"That was what I was going to tell you, you know? I had it all planned out." He smiled sadly, "I was just waiting for the battle to be over, for us to be safe. Then I was going to tell you everything.. How much I loved you, how much my world revolved around you..."
He sighed then, his eyes closing tightly as he pulled Kagome into his chest. "I still love you... I'd die if anything happened to you..."
"Did I ever," her soft, whispered voice startled him, "Tell you about Eri?"
He looked puzzled for a moment but didn't reply.
He watched a sad smile form on her lips, her eyes remaining closed as if looking over the memories in her own mind.
"I remember, that was the last thing Eri said to me before she left..."
" 'I love you' she said. 'I would die if anything happened to you'. And then she left me. She had made plans, just after Aku had... had.. raped me..." she whispered the last part so softly he almost missed it completely.
"She was going," she continued on again in a strong voice. "She left to find us a safe place to hide. She couldn't stand to see that bastard touch me." She laughed. "She reminded me of you just then, as she stood in our doorway, looking back at me with those hard, determined eyes."
There was a long pause in the room as Kagome seemed to be gathering herself together. Inu yasha just waited silently, holding her as tightly as he could.
When she spoke again, you could hear the tears in her voice though, none rolled down her cheeks.
"The police found Eri's body a week later, just inside a construction site. She'd been raped and beaten. Probably tortured for hours based on all the stab wounds and cuts on her body."
Kagome sniffled. "She died to save me, Inu yasha and I can never forget that."
"You don't have to."
"But I will, if I let myself be happy, I'll forget and then what? Eri died alone and after all that I dare to be happy?!" She pushed herself up, whirling on the unsuspecting hanyou. "I have no right! NO RIGHT! She shouldn't have died!" Now the tears followed freely, cascading in sheets down her pale cheeks. "I should have been the one they killed! Not her!"
Inu yasha reached out and grabbed her by the shoulders, shaking her hard. "Don't EVER say that! You don't deserve to be died any more then you deserve what happen to you and what that bastard did to you! Eri knew that and you do her a great dishonor to wish for the very thing she sought to prevent!"
Kagome stared up at the hanyou that held her by the shoulders, whimpering softly. "Demo..."
"Iie! No buts. Eri wanted you to be happy and I want the same. Kagome, *Nothing* that happened was your fault. Onegi, understand that."
"Demo-"
A fierce kiss stopped her. A pair of warm lips pressed tightly against her own silenced any further protest and she felt herself give in instantly to their call.
He pulled back slowly, golden eyes opening to stare into soft blue. A gentle clawed finger brushed the hair that linger in her face behind her ear, a soft smile lighting his lips.
"Eri loved you Kagome. Sango, Miroku, Shippou..." He back the lump that had begun to form in his throat. "I love you. None of us want to see you like this. We want you to be happy." He kissed her forehead. "After everything, you deserve to be happy."
She couldn't hold back the tears that slipped down her face. Why was it, all the years she had spent with Aku she would never shed a tear, never allow herself to cry over the things he did to her but with this man's sweet words... With Inu yasha, she couldn't stop the tears?
She leaned foward, hiding her face in his chest and cowering in his embrace. She sobbed, for the first time, for all the things she lost and all the friends she had missed and Inu yasha just held her. Even long after her tears had dried up, he held her, protected her.
"All I ever wanted Kagome," he whispered softly, gently nuzzling the top of her head, "Is for you to be happy."
Sniffling, she pressed herself harder against Inu yasha. "I am happy... As long as I'm with you."
He smiled then, kissing the top of her head and squeezing her gently. "I want us to be together Kagome. Happy and together forever. Do you... Do you think...we could...?"
A small smile lit her delicate features. Her eyes closed and all she could see was the only dream she'd ever had since finding the stubborn and surly hanyou pinned to the Go-shin-boku on her 15th birthday. A dream of a little house, a few small childern.. and the one man that was offering it to her without hesitation.
"Yeah," she managed to whisper though happy tears. "I think we could..."
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Japanese translations:
oyasumi nasai (Or the short version 'Oyasumi') : Good night
honto/honto ne : Really? (or Really)
jii-chan : Grandpa
nee-chan or onee-chan : sister
nii-chan or onii-chan : brother
ja ne : see ya
hanyou : half breed
youkai : demon
jaki : evil air/that stuff that Naraku's always throwing around ;
koiishi : lover
daisuki : (I think I spelled that right) I love you. Not quite as hardcore a confession as Aishitaru but still ; It's pronounced 'Dai skee' (the su is really soft and hardly pronounced)
hai : yes
kitsune : fox demon
miko : priestess, unusally a virgin woman
otouto : brother
baka : idiot, stupid, you're an idoit/stupid.
Arigato : thank you
Kami : Kami is the word of 'God' or 'God(s)' in japanese. It is both purlar and singlar but in my stories you can assume it is the purlar.
minna-san : Everyone (formal)
Gomen nasai : I am very sorry
Gomen : I'm sorry
Anataka suki desu, (name here). Itsumo. Itsumademo : I love you, (name here) I always have. I always will.
Shikon no Tama : Jewel of Four Souls
kakera : pieces or shards (aka: Shikon no Kakera, or piece of the jewel)
Goshinboku : God Tree
Kuso : Shit
Sengoku Jidai : Feudal Age
inu : dog (together with hanyou we have half dog demon )
hime : princess (with sama added as a term of respect)
oi : hey
Ohiyou gozimasu : Good Morning (Ohiyou would just be like " Morning!" but is not the word for Morning.. that would be asu )
mou : the word that accompanies a pout (example : "Mou!" she pouted. )
daijobu : are you all right, it'll be all right, it is all right. Depending on puncation.
taijiya : demon exterminator
houshin : monk
neko : cat
iie : no
onegai : please
aniyome : sister in law
ginkei : brother in law
ookami : wolf
daijou desu ka? : are you alright?
Chapter 9 Crying Eyes
Rating : PG-13
A/N: Hey minna-san! I am SOOOOO sorry it's still taking me forever to update. Life just doesn't want to work with me on this one... But I do promise you, no matter how long it takes for me to update I *WILL* finish all of my stories! Just give me time ok? Since it does take me so long to update, if any of you want me to e-mail you when I do, just send me an e-mail with your address and the story(s) you are reading ok? I think it's the least I can do ^^;;
Anywho! Please enjoy this chapter and I'll try to have another one soon! Take care one and all!
~~Sami-chan
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A heavy fist slammed down on an old desk, easily denting the surface. "You're out of your fuckin' mind!"
After the meeting with Sesshomaru had ended, Yuka and asked to speak with Inu yasha privately. Thinking nothing of it, the hanyou had agreed and after returning Kagome to her room with instruction to wait for him, he had returned to his brother's office to meet with Yuka.
Unfortunately, the meeting had been nothing he had expected.
"I'm serious Inu yasha-sama."
A growl rumbled in his throat, hard gold eyes glaring at the girl before him. "You say that as if you really could."
"I can and I will," the girl glared back. "Kagome needs to be with people she can trust, friends and family. Not some rich pompous ass that barely knows her and would probably abandon her at the first sign of bad press!"
"The same 'friends' that abandoned her in the first place?? And how do you know what kinda of relationship Kagome and I have?? You don't know the first thing about her 'cause if you did, you'd know me!"
Yuka flinched at the hanyou's harsh words but never lost her air of confidence.
"I've known Kagome since second grade! You've known her what?? A month?? For Kami's sake, you found her in a strip club!! How trust worthy can you be if you were in a *STRIP CLUB*!??"
"I was in there *Looking* for Kagome, twit! I picked up her scent a block away and followed it! Before that I'd never been in a strip club!" He huffed and folded his arms. "Kagome and I have a far longer history then you think and if you really were her friend, you'd know that."
Yuka stared at Inu yasha for a long moment, brown eyes studying him for signs of deception. Finding none, her mind began to wonder.
"How *do* you know Kagome then?"
"Keh. That's for Kagome to tell but you won't be bothering her today. She's still sick."
Yuka frowned. "That's it. You can't keep me from her Inu yasha! I'll be by Thursday at 10 am to get her and her things." She turned and headed towards the door. "Have her ready by then." With that she disappeared into the hall, slamming the door behind her.
Inu yasha clenched his fist at his side, trying desperately to relieve the anger coursing through his veins.
"That stupid..." he muttered. "Thinks she knows everything..."
Glancing down at small dent he'd left in his brother's desk and wincing, knowing Sesshomaru was not going to be happy. His eyes caught sight of the small calender in the corner.
Tuesday, May 23.
With a sigh, Inu yasha let his body go limp. There was nothing he could do about Yuka today. He'd have to wait till Thursday to talk some sense into the girl. That or hide Kagome in a closet...
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Kagome lay out on her bed, staring blindly at the wall. Seeing it, but not really *seeing* it.
Today had been one hell of a day, not only seeing Kouga again after nearly 500 and some odd years but to see Yuka..
Kagome shivered involuntarily.
The last time she had seen any of her modern friends had been at Eri's funeral and even then only Ayumi had talked to her like a civilized person. Houjou choice to ignore her but Yuka..
She had been the most verbal about what she thought of Kagome, Eri *and* there 'profession', almost to the point that the family had threatened to remove her. Briefly, Kagome had even wondered why the girl had attended if she didn't want to come but figured it had been Ayumi that wanted to go, convincing Houjou and Yuka to come along.
She'd always like Ayumi.
Sighing, Kagome turned over to face the opposite wall.
Now that Kouga and Yuka knew her secret it would only be a matter of time before others would know. There weren't many people Kouga could tell- possibly Ayame- so she really wasn't too worried about him. But Yuka? She could just see Houjou and Ayumi on her doorstep tomorrow, begging to know why she hadn't told them.
A knock at the door startled Kagome from her thoughts.
Blinking, she stared in surprise at the door. "Come..in?"
The door opened and Kouga stepped into the room, a sad smile playing on his lips.
"Oi," he said softly, moving farther into the room and taking a seat on the end of the bed. "How you feeling?"
Kagome was a bit nervous and back up against the headboard of the bed. Kouga had a habit of kidnapping her in the past and it truly worried her that he might try something again. She didn't think she could handle it if he touched her.
Kouga, smelling her fear, sighed and dropped his head. "I'm not gonna touch you Kagome. I just came to check up on you and see how you were?"
Kagome relaxed but only slightly. "I'm.. I'm ok. Just a bit sick is all."
Kouga nodded and there was a long pauses.
"Is it true?"
Kagome looked up at the wolf prince, tilting her head in confusion. "Is what true?"
"What Sesshoumaru said.. That you were... were.." he looked away, unable to finish the thought.
"Oh.." she said softly. She nodded. "Yeah, it's true.. But Inu yasha, he saved me."
"I wish I could have been there, to help you out. If I had known Kagome.." He gentle reached out to touch her knee but she flinched away.
With a sigh, he stood, nodding softly. "I understand. Listen, if inu korro ever decides to be an ass, I remember him having a problem with that, Ayame and I always have room for you at our den."
"You and Ayame mated?"
Kouga smiled and nodded. "About 20 years after you left. It took me a while to get over the fact that you were gone but Ayame stayed by my side the whole time..." He shrugged his shoulders. "I guess it was only natural that we would fall in love."
Kagome smiled. "I'm happy for you."
He nodded, returning her warm smile. "But like I said Kagome, if you ever need anything you know I'll be there."
She nodded her thanks. "Arigato Kouga-kun."
And with that, the wolf prince left her to her thoughts, closing the door softly behind him
Kagome sighed and flopped back out on the bed, attempting to release some of the tension in her limbs. Sure it had been nice to see her old friend again but she still wasn't too comfortable around the male species.
Just then the door to her room flew open and Kagome shot up out of bed to face the intruder.
A raging inu hanyou paused momentarily in the door way, his nose twitching slightly as he inhaled a familiar scent. His eyes narrowed as he glanced around the room but finding no one else, he turned back to Kagome.
"Where is he?"
It took her a moment to register who he was talking about before she gasped. "Oh! You mean Kouga? He just left."
A growl rumbled in his throat. "What did he want?"
"Just- just to check on me." she stammered nervously. "Really. And to know if what Sesshoumaru said was true."
His eyes roamed over her body, looking for any sign of deception, his nose continued to twitch as he took in her scent and he nearly gagged at the heavy stench of fear radiating off of her.
'Crap', he cursed internally. He was probably scaring the shit out of the poor girl.
Inu yasha let of a dejected sigh as he plopped down on the end of the bed and allowed his head to drop into his hands.
Kagome watched his back for a moment, unsure of what to do next before slowly sliding out from under her covers and down to the end of the bed. She gently reached out and touched his shoulder.
"Inu yasha?"
"Are you afraid of me too?"
Kagome blinked for a moment. "Afraid?" Kagome smiled softly and moved to wrap the hanyou in a warm embrace from behind. A clawed hand carefully reached up to cover two very delicate one, a sharp contrast but still no less a beautiful picture. She gently nuzzled her cheek against his.
"No," she whispered softly into where his human ear would have been. "Never of you..."
For a long moment, the two just sat in the silence of the room. Kagome's eyes began to close and soon Inu yasha could feel her even breathing against his cheek.
With a sad smile, the hanyou gently picked her up and laid her down in the bed, pulling the covers up to her chin. He watched her for a long moment, content to stare at her peaceful face and dream of days long passed and days that could have been...
He stood then, the heavy memories becoming too much, and turned to leave the room when a small hand grabbed his sleeve.
"Where are you going?" her sleepy voice slurred.
He smiled and laid his hime back down. "Just some where to let you rest hime-sama." He chuckled at the disgruntled look on her face. "Now now, why the look hime-sama?"
"I'm not a princess..." she pulled him closer to her, almost pulling him to lay out beside her. "And I don't want you to go."
Inu yasha smiled and gently kissed her forehead. "I'll stay if you insist."
"I do."
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Inu yasha watched the sleeping girl beside him, dragging careful claws over her exposed arm.
"Kagome," he whispered softly into her sleeping ear, "Do you ever wonder what would have happened if you had not disappeared that day? I know that.. Sometimes.. I wonder what it was you were trying to say to me as you disappeared..."
He gently nuzzled her neck, moving to lay out beside the woman he held close to his heart.
"Sometimes, I can imagine that you said 'I love you' but that you weren't fading slowly from my site."
"That was what I was going to tell you, you know? I had it all planned out." He smiled sadly, "I was just waiting for the battle to be over, for us to be safe. Then I was going to tell you everything.. How much I loved you, how much my world revolved around you..."
He sighed then, his eyes closing tightly as he pulled Kagome into his chest. "I still love you... I'd die if anything happened to you..."
"Did I ever," her soft, whispered voice startled him, "Tell you about Eri?"
He looked puzzled for a moment but didn't reply.
He watched a sad smile form on her lips, her eyes remaining closed as if looking over the memories in her own mind.
"I remember, that was the last thing Eri said to me before she left..."
" 'I love you' she said. 'I would die if anything happened to you'. And then she left me. She had made plans, just after Aku had... had.. raped me..." she whispered the last part so softly he almost missed it completely.
"She was going," she continued on again in a strong voice. "She left to find us a safe place to hide. She couldn't stand to see that bastard touch me." She laughed. "She reminded me of you just then, as she stood in our doorway, looking back at me with those hard, determined eyes."
There was a long pause in the room as Kagome seemed to be gathering herself together. Inu yasha just waited silently, holding her as tightly as he could.
When she spoke again, you could hear the tears in her voice though, none rolled down her cheeks.
"The police found Eri's body a week later, just inside a construction site. She'd been raped and beaten. Probably tortured for hours based on all the stab wounds and cuts on her body."
Kagome sniffled. "She died to save me, Inu yasha and I can never forget that."
"You don't have to."
"But I will, if I let myself be happy, I'll forget and then what? Eri died alone and after all that I dare to be happy?!" She pushed herself up, whirling on the unsuspecting hanyou. "I have no right! NO RIGHT! She shouldn't have died!" Now the tears followed freely, cascading in sheets down her pale cheeks. "I should have been the one they killed! Not her!"
Inu yasha reached out and grabbed her by the shoulders, shaking her hard. "Don't EVER say that! You don't deserve to be died any more then you deserve what happen to you and what that bastard did to you! Eri knew that and you do her a great dishonor to wish for the very thing she sought to prevent!"
Kagome stared up at the hanyou that held her by the shoulders, whimpering softly. "Demo..."
"Iie! No buts. Eri wanted you to be happy and I want the same. Kagome, *Nothing* that happened was your fault. Onegi, understand that."
"Demo-"
A fierce kiss stopped her. A pair of warm lips pressed tightly against her own silenced any further protest and she felt herself give in instantly to their call.
He pulled back slowly, golden eyes opening to stare into soft blue. A gentle clawed finger brushed the hair that linger in her face behind her ear, a soft smile lighting his lips.
"Eri loved you Kagome. Sango, Miroku, Shippou..." He back the lump that had begun to form in his throat. "I love you. None of us want to see you like this. We want you to be happy." He kissed her forehead. "After everything, you deserve to be happy."
She couldn't hold back the tears that slipped down her face. Why was it, all the years she had spent with Aku she would never shed a tear, never allow herself to cry over the things he did to her but with this man's sweet words... With Inu yasha, she couldn't stop the tears?
She leaned foward, hiding her face in his chest and cowering in his embrace. She sobbed, for the first time, for all the things she lost and all the friends she had missed and Inu yasha just held her. Even long after her tears had dried up, he held her, protected her.
"All I ever wanted Kagome," he whispered softly, gently nuzzling the top of her head, "Is for you to be happy."
Sniffling, she pressed herself harder against Inu yasha. "I am happy... As long as I'm with you."
He smiled then, kissing the top of her head and squeezing her gently. "I want us to be together Kagome. Happy and together forever. Do you... Do you think...we could...?"
A small smile lit her delicate features. Her eyes closed and all she could see was the only dream she'd ever had since finding the stubborn and surly hanyou pinned to the Go-shin-boku on her 15th birthday. A dream of a little house, a few small childern.. and the one man that was offering it to her without hesitation.
"Yeah," she managed to whisper though happy tears. "I think we could..."
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Japanese translations:
oyasumi nasai (Or the short version 'Oyasumi') : Good night
honto/honto ne : Really? (or Really)
jii-chan : Grandpa
nee-chan or onee-chan : sister
nii-chan or onii-chan : brother
ja ne : see ya
hanyou : half breed
youkai : demon
jaki : evil air/that stuff that Naraku's always throwing around ;
koiishi : lover
daisuki : (I think I spelled that right) I love you. Not quite as hardcore a confession as Aishitaru but still ; It's pronounced 'Dai skee' (the su is really soft and hardly pronounced)
hai : yes
kitsune : fox demon
miko : priestess, unusally a virgin woman
otouto : brother
baka : idiot, stupid, you're an idoit/stupid.
Arigato : thank you
Kami : Kami is the word of 'God' or 'God(s)' in japanese. It is both purlar and singlar but in my stories you can assume it is the purlar.
minna-san : Everyone (formal)
Gomen nasai : I am very sorry
Gomen : I'm sorry
Anataka suki desu, (name here). Itsumo. Itsumademo : I love you, (name here) I always have. I always will.
Shikon no Tama : Jewel of Four Souls
kakera : pieces or shards (aka: Shikon no Kakera, or piece of the jewel)
Goshinboku : God Tree
Kuso : Shit
Sengoku Jidai : Feudal Age
inu : dog (together with hanyou we have half dog demon )
hime : princess (with sama added as a term of respect)
oi : hey
Ohiyou gozimasu : Good Morning (Ohiyou would just be like " Morning!" but is not the word for Morning.. that would be asu )
mou : the word that accompanies a pout (example : "Mou!" she pouted. )
daijobu : are you all right, it'll be all right, it is all right. Depending on puncation.
taijiya : demon exterminator
houshin : monk
neko : cat
iie : no
onegai : please
aniyome : sister in law
ginkei : brother in law
ookami : wolf
daijou desu ka? : are you alright?