InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Slave ❯ Slave - Chap 14 – Despair ( Chapter 14 )
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By: sadeness 
A very (VERY!) different Sesshoumaru.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Psychological / Hentai / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 07.13.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 888 | Status: Work In Progress
A very (VERY!) different Sesshoumaru.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Psychological / Hentai / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 07.13.2007 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.2K | Visits: 888 | Status: Work In Progress
Slave - Chap 14 – Despair
Disclaimer: I do not own any of Inuyasha characters. I am making no money off this story. This applies to all future chapters. Inuyasha characters & story © 2003 Rumiko Takahashi.
Summary: A very (VERY!) different Sesshoumaru.
Special thanks to: All the readers
Very special thanks to: My Beta and The Reviewers
A.N. # 1: This was supposed to be a very short chapter, because I thought it was necessary to have a link to the other chapters and also a little explanation to why Sesshoumaru took so long to go and rescue Inuyasha. (This chapter was written almost two month after chapter 15.)
A.N. # 2: From the start I told that this fan fiction was going to be a sad story. - (Genre: Angst, Language, OC, PWP, Slave, WIP, Yaoi, Slash, Shonen-Ai, Inc, Anal, BDSM, CBT, Lemon, MaleDom, N/C, Oral, S/H, S&M, SoloM, Spank, Tort) Summary: Inuyasha’s life as a slave.
So please, do not think that I hate Inuyasha, actually I DO love him and I do think that we have a lot in common. I can not figure out a slave’s life being easy and happy. As well as this is not a Cinderella like story. Well I do know I am writing a fiction and I can add everything I want. Bear with his suffering a little bit more. I just do not think that I am able to add humor to the story. Sorry.
Chapters 14, 15, 16 and 17 are also very sad and with a lot of suffering. Maybe the ones I will start to write can change a little.
Chap 14 – Despair (better if you listen to Depeche Mode - “In your room” while reading it)
(Back with Sesshoumaru) -
Under the moonless sky, Sesshoumaru and Jaken were on their way back to the castle.
When they finally arrived, Sesshoumaru barely explained what had happen between him and the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan, letting the elders willing to know a little more about the battle and the whereabouts of Inuyasha. After that Sesshoumaru in a bad humor had to attend to the lesser lords’ complaints and or solicitations.
He got really annoyed with that and in a boost of rage, he said he was going to be in his studio and only Jaken was allowed in. He also demanded to know what the all so important things he had to look after were.
“Jaken, notify them that I am going to attend only the land problems, and I do not want to know any personal issue or be disturbed by useless solicitations or meaningless things. Send them in order and according to their solicitations. Let them know that as soon as these things were solved I am going to leave the castle for a while. Do not let them know about Inuyasha.”
“Hai, Sesshoumaru-sama.”
*
(Two days later)
Ever since Sesshoumaru was not available, Jaken was the one to listen the majority of the solicitations. What Jaken was not ready to listen was that Sesshoumaru himself was in a deep predicament.
“What kind of predicament? Sesshoumaru-sama had won the battle against the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan all by himself and he is now here dealing with the land affairs. What do you mean by that?”
“Jaken-sama, you know that the hanyou was in the verge of his heat period, don’t you?”
Jaken only nodded and he thought ‘Yes, that is why he was so easy to capture by the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan… Idiot hanyou, leave the castle in the brink of his heat…’
“Hm--but the predicament of Sesshoumaru-sama is-- as long as they are mates--” One of the other elders interrupted the one speaking.
“They are not mates; the hanyou is just Sesshoumaru-sama’s concubine,” said another one with a snarl.
“Stop talking nonsense and tell me what the predicaments are.” Jaken was already loosing his patience with all the noise elders around him.
“Jaken-sama, the hanyou is bounded with Sesshoumaru; their bodies are linked in a way, so the hanyou’s heat triggers Sesshoumaru-sama’s heat. It means that, soon Sesshoumaru-sama will start to feel the symptoms of a heat without a relief valve, nearby.”
“Oh…” Jaken could understand why some elders were worried about the hanyou whereabouts.
*
Sesshoumaru was in his studio, during the last two days he had listen to the land lesser lords about the land and its issues. Now in a rare moment of peace he could sit and thing about Inuyasha. ‘Inuyasha I expect you are fine, if that Naraku…’ He was wondering why the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan would send Inuyasha away with a youkai that was definitely not a Hyounekozuko, when a very much-stressed Jaken got inside the studio together with the elders.
“Sorry to interrupt you Sesshoumaru-sama, but we must discuss this issue now.”
Sesshoumaru realizing the strange mood around the group of elders and Jaken, decided to listen to them.
“What do you want?”
The elders told him about the heat period, the current bond ritual complication: Inuyasha’s heat was the trigger of Sesshoumaru’s heat. This report meant that Inuyasha’s absences would cause him some physical problems. They also add another very important piece of information; soon Sesshoumaru would need an heir.
“If the hanyou returns, and if he were not able to give you an heir in 2 years time, you must dispose of him and find a real and royal mate.”
Sesshoumaru who was in silence, simply got really mad and let the elders aware that Inuyasha was kidnapped by the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan and that the boy was in the possession of a youkai he, Sesshoumaru had never heard about before that incident. An Onigumo youkai, called Naraku.
That information in addition to the knowledge that Sesshoumaru would face a very difficult period due his heat without Inuyasha’s presence, were the spark off a huge uproar in the castle.
The opinions were divided; part of the castle inhabitants wanted to help with the rescue of the poor little hanyou, and another part celebrated and hoped the never returning of the filthy hanyou. Some were even preparing a list with possible future alliances with other powerful and influenced youkai lords from all over the Island.
Plots were being developed just in the intention to find a new mate, this time with someone much more suitable to Sesshoumaru.
*
At first Sesshoumaru simply tried his best and pretended he did not mind, but as soon as his heat was in a level he could not completely control it anymore, Sesshoumaru started some verbal conflict with some of the lesser lords and elders.
“I will find Inuyasha and bring him back, stop all these nonsense right now. I know my duties as the Western lands lord, but I am also responsible for the health and well being of my mate--”
“But, Sesshoumaru-sama, the hanyou is not your mate, he is only your concubine, the ritual was not a complete one. You know that you can just let him die--” The elder did not finish his sentence because Sesshoumaru was holding him by his neck; green acid poison leaking from Sesshoumaru’s fingers and burned the frightened youkai.
“If you want to grow even older, never again say anything like that about Inuyasha. Am I clear?” he said that threw the elder throughout the studio door.
“Jaken, come,” Sesshoumaru said that and simply left the studio.
His rage was so high that, he knew if he continued there in his studio or somewhere with others but Jaken, he would kill someone. He knew he could not leave the castle fortifications, because if he left, he would transform and try to find Inuyasha, leaving behind all those meaningless people and issues. His body was aching for his little brother. So in a rampant, he aimed Inuyasha’s chambers and once he was there; sensing Inuyasha’s scent, his youki and also he calmed a little.
“Jaken, did you get any information about that Naraku?” Sesshoumaru demanded as he sat on Inuyasha’s bed and wrapped his body with the blanket with the faint scent of Inuyasha still lingering on it.
“By now, we were only able to gather some little information, Sesshoumaru-sama. The main one is that Naraku is a hanyou. There are reports of his evil actions all through the last 70 years. Using magic and dark powers, he was able to absorb other youkai bodies, their youki and powers, and he has improved and increased his own powers. He is among some powerful manions. One of them is a deadly female youkai who flies in a boat-like-feather, and there are others.”
‘Why the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan would join such a youkai? They had never used alliances before. That is so strange.’ Sesshoumaru could not stop thinking on that odd union.
“Jaken, I have to go and find Inuyasha as soon as possible.”
“Unfortunately, not now Sesshoumaru-sama, your heat--”
“It was never a problem.”
“Sesshoumaru-sama, you had never had to deal with it alone before. During your last heat periods, you had already created a bond with the hanyou and mated with him so many times. Face this one alone is a huge change and challenge. You know, very well that if you decide to go out of the castle, you will be open and exposed to other youkai in heat or not. How will you control yourself?”
“What are you blabbing about Jaken?”
“I am telling you that, without a mate or a concubine, you are vulnerable to any other youkai or even a powerful hanyou as this Naraku. Your heat, as well as Inuyasha’s has just started, soon your fever will be higher, and you would not be able to do much. You know that the lack of release with your mate will cause you some physical deficiency.”
“This is ridiculous Jaken, I am Sesshoumaru. There must be a solution for that.”
“There would have one. A replacement. Another concubine or even a real and royal mate, but we did not have time to your youki find a suitable one.”
“This is certainly a joke from the elders...” Sesshoumaru said, leaning down on Inuyasha’s bed, Inuyasha’s scent invading his mind and his body responding to that by getting him aroused, even at the presence of Jaken.
“No, it is not. Look at you, Sesshoumaru-sama.” Jaken was shocked with the strange behavior of his master.
Sesshoumaru was ashamed, but could not avoid or stop the ministrations his hands and hips were in.
“Please Sesshoumaru-sama, listen to what I am saying, it is a new thing for you, but it is true. Without a mate or a concubine--” Sesshoumaru growled. “--without Inuyasha, during your heat period, you are vulnerable.”
“What will I do Jaken?” Sesshoumaru’s body was rocking on Inuyasha’s bed.
“By now, you must be in your chambers as Inuyasha was when he first got in here.”
“Don’t be ridiculous Jaken, I have meetings to attend and I must save Inuyasha.”
“Everything must be postponed or do you want the elders or the lesser lords to see you as you are now?”
Sesshoumaru was rubbing his hips on the bed, half-naked already. He needed to soothe the throbbing that was taking over his whole body, mainly between his legs, that was for sure a result of Inuyasha’s scent lingering in the room and on the sheets.
In a burst of consciousness, Sesshoumaru jumped out of the bed, finally realizing the extension of the problem.
“Jaken, ask someone to bring some of my personal belongings. I’ll be staying in here till this heat is over.” Sesshoumaru resolved he would be looked up in Inuyasha’s chambers.
*
In the interim, the lesser lords and the elders were gathered to decide who royal mate would be suitable to Sesshoumaru-sama and when she should be at the castle. They decided that Jaken, who was totally under Sesshoumaru’s control, could not know about the plot at all.
“It is already too difficult to contain Sesshoumaru-sama without him knowing about the entire situation, imagine if Jaken tells him about the new mate meetings.”
“It’s too sad to see our lord this way, InuTaisho-sama would be really mad at us, if he were alive--”
“If InuTaisho-sama was alive, this entire situation would not exist at all! He would not allow both of his sons to be mated.”
“It is time to us to guide our young lord again. He needs our guidance. We will find him a suitable mate, get new and powerful alliances and make him forget this hanyou.”
“But do not you forget that the hanyou is his half brother, the hanyou is InuTaisho-sama’s son as well. If we simply let him die, would not that be something against our principles to our former Lord?”
“We first need find Sesshoumaru-sama a mate, after that we will mind with the hanyou.”
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Sesshoumaru spent the heat torturing days locked inside Inuyasha’s chambers.
The heat was taking its toll on him; he could barely stay out of the bed. Sesshoumaru was shocked with his body and his reactions and actions, for the first time in centuries he was ashamed of himself. He could not recall, even once that he was that weak and totally unable to control his body and his sexual needs.
He would fall asleep and woke up touching his body and trying even unknown ways to self pleasure himself.
And only after theses self pleasurable games he could talk with Jaken and get aware of what was going on in the Western lands and get some news of Inuyasha’s whereabouts.
*
But Sesshoumaru was not only sexual and physically missing Inuyasha, his youki; his heart and his mind were calling for Inuyasha.
And Sesshoumaru would be wrapped by dreams and hallucinations of Inuyasha.
*
He slid his hand over Inuyasha upper cloth and squeezed one of the soft nipples of the hanyou. Tender flesh gave under his hands, and left him aching for more. His tongue found its way inside Inuyasha’s mouth. His eyes were closed, but his nostrils picked up Inuyasha’s alluring scent, so unbearably close, and so unlike the others. The pounding of his heart resounded in his ears, and only grew with exponential intensity with each breathless moment that passed. His hands slid up Inuyasha’s thighs, gliding over the silky skin there. Inuyasha spread his legs in invitation and his quivering hands reached the apex of Inuyasha’s thighs. He reached inside the hanyou’s underclothes and gripped Inuyasha’s small but hard cock, a sudden wave of arousal washed over his body, until the realization made his eyes shot open...
“Aah, another dream…” Sesshoumaru realized as he woke up again from one of the many short slumber moments during his heat period. He was naked and alone in Inuyasha’s chambers and his heat was driving him crazy. This time he was on the room next to the bedroom in one of the couches, he had fallen asleep holding one of Inuyasha’s kimono which still hold the hanyou’s scent.
Lazily Sesshoumaru decided the he would continue to sleep but this time he would return to the bed. Much more comfortable.
Sesshoumaru got onto the bed, once again his heat taking control of his body and mind. He had learned in the worst way that deny it or fight it was something not so healthy and lately he had got used to some eccentric and even audacious actions while alone.
So using one hand he rubbed his length while other hand grabbed his balls. He moaned at the sight of pleasure and the faint image of Inuyasha while he fell onto the pillows looking up to the ceiling, he felt his sheath growing tighter. He placed one hand into the sheets, stroking slowly at himself with the other hand. He started off slowly; gently pumping his member as he closed his eyes and quietly moaned. He searched through his mind until he found the mental image he'd been looking for. "Inuyasha…" he moaned, as his pace quickened, "my Inuyasha--I miss you so much--" the hanyou’s image and scent were so strongly stood in his mind. Sesshoumaru began to speed up as the image of Inuyasha submitting and performing innumerous sensual tasks.
Sesshoumaru was reaching his end, he was pounding at his cock harder and faster than before, almost to the point of pain. "Yes," gasped the Daiyoukai, "do it-- " Moaning he began to lean back speeding up the strokes, slowly beginning to grasp at the ascending cock, which pushed out and he began to rub around it, without letting the pace decrease, his eyes closing in his ecstatic state. The motions getting heavier as the sheets began to move. As his climaxed came near, Sesshoumaru lifted his body, eyes still shut and as soon as he was drained he was asleep once again.
*
Inuyasha’s image was sat down in the chair, next to the bed, and he was smiling and pulling the soft silk blanket from around him exposing his small body."I mean it, come on Goshujin-sama" Inuyasha smiled over to his older brother, "there is nothing wrong with it, we've got nothing to hide.” Slowly the hanyou began to finger fuck his own hole, letting soft moans out of his mouth; Sesshoumaru was feeling awkward, as he watched Inuyasha’s little show. He smiled as the slim hanyou began to tremble in pleasure, he could not help but look upon the hanyou self thrusting in his ass, in and out. The hanyou began to push fast and harder moaning at the feeling, his rear opening swelling as he neared a potential climax.
Sesshoumaru reached for his own cock under the sheets until, slowly his mind began to flow, and as he was reaching his climax, a strong pain hit his body.
Sesshoumaru woke up and sat on the bed. He began to feel the guilt run through him for being at the palace safe and having no idea where, how and with whom Inuyasha might be. His heart pounded and Sesshoumaru wrapped up the covers around him, looking bewildered at the empty chambers. His eyes closed tight as he began thinking about his mate
Sesshoumaru threw himself onto the pillows again, giving a frown as he shivered and twitched at his thoughts.
Few moments passed and Sesshoumaru shook his head, his eyes seeming down, before he looked over to the door. Sesshoumaru heard the door and shook his head; he stood up, feeling no need to put clothes over his naked body.Finding his way through the chambers, something called his attention, much more than the sound coming from the front door of the chambers. He looked to the direction of the dojo where some light seemed to run throughout the blinds. Sesshoumaru shook his head not thinking too much on the strange occurrence.
Once again the sharp pain hit him. It ran through Sesshoumaru's chest like a katana and right through the heart, Sesshoumaru fell to his knees breathing slowly, almost to a halt as he felt a tiny hand touch his shoulder. Sesshoumaru's eyes widened and slowly moved to his side, he saw Jaken, with big-round yellow eyes, noticeable scared. The frightened retainer stared into Sesshoumaru's eyes with respectable intent.
“Is that you Jaken or another dream?” Sesshoumaru managed to ask Jaken, before the pain hit him for the third time and he tried to fight it back, hitting on the nearest thing around him.
Everything was so fast and once again darkness engulfed him for a while.
*
To the blurry ceiling of Inuyasha’s chambers, Sesshoumaru blinked in confusion, and looked to the phantom essence that still held in the chambers.
Sesshoumaru could not shake the feeling that there should be someone there, but he also could not recognize who that one could even be. He felt dizzy. He sat up, and held his throbbing temples; massaging the sides of his head, he convinced himself that he had just experienced another very disturbing dream.Sesshoumaru pushed the tangled mess of covers off of him; he blinked groggily and looked around.
Just then he saw Jaken, unconscious on the opposite wall.
Sesshoumaru wondered why Jaken was in that spot. He called him out while he, scratched the scruff of the back of his neck, and yawned, eyes searching for another much more important presence. But it was missing.
“Jaken, what are you doing here, I have not allowed you to come in.” Jaken was till unconscious so no reply for a while.After a few minutes Sesshoumaru gave up trying to figure out what was going on. His head did feel strange, so maybe he had been even sicker than he though he would be by the annoying heat.
Sesshoumaru walked to the washing area to clean himself while Jaken finally started to regain consciousness.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, are you better this morning?” the small toad was standing up and fixing his clothes, he also looked throughout the chambers to see what Sesshoumaru had done during the previous night.
Sesshoumaru did not answer Jaken, and Jaken just continue talking.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, by today you probably will be feeling better, your heat is almost over and soon you will be able to attend the meetings and return to your usual life.”
“This means that I can soon leave and finally be able rescue my mate,” Sesshoumaru said while he was taking his morning bath.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, you do mean that?” asked Jaken with a worried tone in his voice.
“That was the treaty, I would return solve some western land issues and then I would go to rescue Inuyasha. The only thing that avoided that to happen sooner was this troublesome heat.”
“No, Sesshoumaru-sama, you have just called Inuyasha your mate. You really mean that? You really accepted him as your mate?”
“Yes Jaken, I had accepted him long ago. I would make my wish acknowledge, the following night after the new moon night, but than the Hyounekozuko clan came and all my plans were postponed. As soon as this disgusting heat is over, I am going to return to my path. I will rescue Inuyasha and make it clear to the entire world that he, Inuyasha, is not only my otouto, he is also my only and for life mate,” Sesshoumaru said that and left the bathing area. He aimed at his clothes and later on, his chambers and studio.
Two days later he was leaving the western land with Jaken by his side.
“Soon I am going to be with you Inuyasha…” Sesshoumaru said when he transformed in his energy ball form, and then he spread his senses to feel Inuyasha’s youki. “I will not accept that anything or anybody keep us apart any longer.”
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End of chap 14 – Despair
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Glossary
*Hai = yes, okay - in Japanese, "hai" doesn't always mean “yes”; it may mean, "I hear you".
*Youkai = demon
*Daiyoukai = great mythical creature/ great demon
*Youki = demon spirit energy / demonic energy (life energy) possessed by demons
*Hanyou = half youkai, half human (“half breed”)
*Onigumo = A spider demon (youkai?) or A man who was full of deceit and hatred for others.
*Otouto: Younger brother
*Hyounekozuko-youkai - The 4 Divas or the Cat demons or the Tiger - Panther demon, or fire cat, youkai. Panther demon, fire cat, tribe - I myself did not get the real thing until now. You can get a better Idea about them at the episodes 75, 76, 77; by the way Sess is really cool on these episodes.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of Inuyasha characters. I am making no money off this story. This applies to all future chapters. Inuyasha characters & story © 2003 Rumiko Takahashi.
Summary: A very (VERY!) different Sesshoumaru.
Special thanks to: All the readers
Very special thanks to: My Beta and The Reviewers
A.N. # 1: This was supposed to be a very short chapter, because I thought it was necessary to have a link to the other chapters and also a little explanation to why Sesshoumaru took so long to go and rescue Inuyasha. (This chapter was written almost two month after chapter 15.)
A.N. # 2: From the start I told that this fan fiction was going to be a sad story. - (Genre: Angst, Language, OC, PWP, Slave, WIP, Yaoi, Slash, Shonen-Ai, Inc, Anal, BDSM, CBT, Lemon, MaleDom, N/C, Oral, S/H, S&M, SoloM, Spank, Tort) Summary: Inuyasha’s life as a slave.
So please, do not think that I hate Inuyasha, actually I DO love him and I do think that we have a lot in common. I can not figure out a slave’s life being easy and happy. As well as this is not a Cinderella like story. Well I do know I am writing a fiction and I can add everything I want. Bear with his suffering a little bit more. I just do not think that I am able to add humor to the story. Sorry.
Chapters 14, 15, 16 and 17 are also very sad and with a lot of suffering. Maybe the ones I will start to write can change a little.
Chap 14 – Despair (better if you listen to Depeche Mode - “In your room” while reading it)
(Back with Sesshoumaru) -
Under the moonless sky, Sesshoumaru and Jaken were on their way back to the castle.
When they finally arrived, Sesshoumaru barely explained what had happen between him and the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan, letting the elders willing to know a little more about the battle and the whereabouts of Inuyasha. After that Sesshoumaru in a bad humor had to attend to the lesser lords’ complaints and or solicitations.
He got really annoyed with that and in a boost of rage, he said he was going to be in his studio and only Jaken was allowed in. He also demanded to know what the all so important things he had to look after were.
“Jaken, notify them that I am going to attend only the land problems, and I do not want to know any personal issue or be disturbed by useless solicitations or meaningless things. Send them in order and according to their solicitations. Let them know that as soon as these things were solved I am going to leave the castle for a while. Do not let them know about Inuyasha.”
“Hai, Sesshoumaru-sama.”
*
(Two days later)
Ever since Sesshoumaru was not available, Jaken was the one to listen the majority of the solicitations. What Jaken was not ready to listen was that Sesshoumaru himself was in a deep predicament.
“What kind of predicament? Sesshoumaru-sama had won the battle against the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan all by himself and he is now here dealing with the land affairs. What do you mean by that?”
“Jaken-sama, you know that the hanyou was in the verge of his heat period, don’t you?”
Jaken only nodded and he thought ‘Yes, that is why he was so easy to capture by the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan… Idiot hanyou, leave the castle in the brink of his heat…’
“Hm--but the predicament of Sesshoumaru-sama is-- as long as they are mates--” One of the other elders interrupted the one speaking.
“They are not mates; the hanyou is just Sesshoumaru-sama’s concubine,” said another one with a snarl.
“Stop talking nonsense and tell me what the predicaments are.” Jaken was already loosing his patience with all the noise elders around him.
“Jaken-sama, the hanyou is bounded with Sesshoumaru; their bodies are linked in a way, so the hanyou’s heat triggers Sesshoumaru-sama’s heat. It means that, soon Sesshoumaru-sama will start to feel the symptoms of a heat without a relief valve, nearby.”
“Oh…” Jaken could understand why some elders were worried about the hanyou whereabouts.
*
Sesshoumaru was in his studio, during the last two days he had listen to the land lesser lords about the land and its issues. Now in a rare moment of peace he could sit and thing about Inuyasha. ‘Inuyasha I expect you are fine, if that Naraku…’ He was wondering why the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan would send Inuyasha away with a youkai that was definitely not a Hyounekozuko, when a very much-stressed Jaken got inside the studio together with the elders.
“Sorry to interrupt you Sesshoumaru-sama, but we must discuss this issue now.”
Sesshoumaru realizing the strange mood around the group of elders and Jaken, decided to listen to them.
“What do you want?”
The elders told him about the heat period, the current bond ritual complication: Inuyasha’s heat was the trigger of Sesshoumaru’s heat. This report meant that Inuyasha’s absences would cause him some physical problems. They also add another very important piece of information; soon Sesshoumaru would need an heir.
“If the hanyou returns, and if he were not able to give you an heir in 2 years time, you must dispose of him and find a real and royal mate.”
Sesshoumaru who was in silence, simply got really mad and let the elders aware that Inuyasha was kidnapped by the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan and that the boy was in the possession of a youkai he, Sesshoumaru had never heard about before that incident. An Onigumo youkai, called Naraku.
That information in addition to the knowledge that Sesshoumaru would face a very difficult period due his heat without Inuyasha’s presence, were the spark off a huge uproar in the castle.
The opinions were divided; part of the castle inhabitants wanted to help with the rescue of the poor little hanyou, and another part celebrated and hoped the never returning of the filthy hanyou. Some were even preparing a list with possible future alliances with other powerful and influenced youkai lords from all over the Island.
Plots were being developed just in the intention to find a new mate, this time with someone much more suitable to Sesshoumaru.
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At first Sesshoumaru simply tried his best and pretended he did not mind, but as soon as his heat was in a level he could not completely control it anymore, Sesshoumaru started some verbal conflict with some of the lesser lords and elders.
“I will find Inuyasha and bring him back, stop all these nonsense right now. I know my duties as the Western lands lord, but I am also responsible for the health and well being of my mate--”
“But, Sesshoumaru-sama, the hanyou is not your mate, he is only your concubine, the ritual was not a complete one. You know that you can just let him die--” The elder did not finish his sentence because Sesshoumaru was holding him by his neck; green acid poison leaking from Sesshoumaru’s fingers and burned the frightened youkai.
“If you want to grow even older, never again say anything like that about Inuyasha. Am I clear?” he said that threw the elder throughout the studio door.
“Jaken, come,” Sesshoumaru said that and simply left the studio.
His rage was so high that, he knew if he continued there in his studio or somewhere with others but Jaken, he would kill someone. He knew he could not leave the castle fortifications, because if he left, he would transform and try to find Inuyasha, leaving behind all those meaningless people and issues. His body was aching for his little brother. So in a rampant, he aimed Inuyasha’s chambers and once he was there; sensing Inuyasha’s scent, his youki and also he calmed a little.
“Jaken, did you get any information about that Naraku?” Sesshoumaru demanded as he sat on Inuyasha’s bed and wrapped his body with the blanket with the faint scent of Inuyasha still lingering on it.
“By now, we were only able to gather some little information, Sesshoumaru-sama. The main one is that Naraku is a hanyou. There are reports of his evil actions all through the last 70 years. Using magic and dark powers, he was able to absorb other youkai bodies, their youki and powers, and he has improved and increased his own powers. He is among some powerful manions. One of them is a deadly female youkai who flies in a boat-like-feather, and there are others.”
‘Why the Hyounekozuko-youkai clan would join such a youkai? They had never used alliances before. That is so strange.’ Sesshoumaru could not stop thinking on that odd union.
“Jaken, I have to go and find Inuyasha as soon as possible.”
“Unfortunately, not now Sesshoumaru-sama, your heat--”
“It was never a problem.”
“Sesshoumaru-sama, you had never had to deal with it alone before. During your last heat periods, you had already created a bond with the hanyou and mated with him so many times. Face this one alone is a huge change and challenge. You know, very well that if you decide to go out of the castle, you will be open and exposed to other youkai in heat or not. How will you control yourself?”
“What are you blabbing about Jaken?”
“I am telling you that, without a mate or a concubine, you are vulnerable to any other youkai or even a powerful hanyou as this Naraku. Your heat, as well as Inuyasha’s has just started, soon your fever will be higher, and you would not be able to do much. You know that the lack of release with your mate will cause you some physical deficiency.”
“This is ridiculous Jaken, I am Sesshoumaru. There must be a solution for that.”
“There would have one. A replacement. Another concubine or even a real and royal mate, but we did not have time to your youki find a suitable one.”
“This is certainly a joke from the elders...” Sesshoumaru said, leaning down on Inuyasha’s bed, Inuyasha’s scent invading his mind and his body responding to that by getting him aroused, even at the presence of Jaken.
“No, it is not. Look at you, Sesshoumaru-sama.” Jaken was shocked with the strange behavior of his master.
Sesshoumaru was ashamed, but could not avoid or stop the ministrations his hands and hips were in.
“Please Sesshoumaru-sama, listen to what I am saying, it is a new thing for you, but it is true. Without a mate or a concubine--” Sesshoumaru growled. “--without Inuyasha, during your heat period, you are vulnerable.”
“What will I do Jaken?” Sesshoumaru’s body was rocking on Inuyasha’s bed.
“By now, you must be in your chambers as Inuyasha was when he first got in here.”
“Don’t be ridiculous Jaken, I have meetings to attend and I must save Inuyasha.”
“Everything must be postponed or do you want the elders or the lesser lords to see you as you are now?”
Sesshoumaru was rubbing his hips on the bed, half-naked already. He needed to soothe the throbbing that was taking over his whole body, mainly between his legs, that was for sure a result of Inuyasha’s scent lingering in the room and on the sheets.
In a burst of consciousness, Sesshoumaru jumped out of the bed, finally realizing the extension of the problem.
“Jaken, ask someone to bring some of my personal belongings. I’ll be staying in here till this heat is over.” Sesshoumaru resolved he would be looked up in Inuyasha’s chambers.
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In the interim, the lesser lords and the elders were gathered to decide who royal mate would be suitable to Sesshoumaru-sama and when she should be at the castle. They decided that Jaken, who was totally under Sesshoumaru’s control, could not know about the plot at all.
“It is already too difficult to contain Sesshoumaru-sama without him knowing about the entire situation, imagine if Jaken tells him about the new mate meetings.”
“It’s too sad to see our lord this way, InuTaisho-sama would be really mad at us, if he were alive--”
“If InuTaisho-sama was alive, this entire situation would not exist at all! He would not allow both of his sons to be mated.”
“It is time to us to guide our young lord again. He needs our guidance. We will find him a suitable mate, get new and powerful alliances and make him forget this hanyou.”
“But do not you forget that the hanyou is his half brother, the hanyou is InuTaisho-sama’s son as well. If we simply let him die, would not that be something against our principles to our former Lord?”
“We first need find Sesshoumaru-sama a mate, after that we will mind with the hanyou.”
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Sesshoumaru spent the heat torturing days locked inside Inuyasha’s chambers.
The heat was taking its toll on him; he could barely stay out of the bed. Sesshoumaru was shocked with his body and his reactions and actions, for the first time in centuries he was ashamed of himself. He could not recall, even once that he was that weak and totally unable to control his body and his sexual needs.
He would fall asleep and woke up touching his body and trying even unknown ways to self pleasure himself.
And only after theses self pleasurable games he could talk with Jaken and get aware of what was going on in the Western lands and get some news of Inuyasha’s whereabouts.
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But Sesshoumaru was not only sexual and physically missing Inuyasha, his youki; his heart and his mind were calling for Inuyasha.
And Sesshoumaru would be wrapped by dreams and hallucinations of Inuyasha.
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He slid his hand over Inuyasha upper cloth and squeezed one of the soft nipples of the hanyou. Tender flesh gave under his hands, and left him aching for more. His tongue found its way inside Inuyasha’s mouth. His eyes were closed, but his nostrils picked up Inuyasha’s alluring scent, so unbearably close, and so unlike the others. The pounding of his heart resounded in his ears, and only grew with exponential intensity with each breathless moment that passed. His hands slid up Inuyasha’s thighs, gliding over the silky skin there. Inuyasha spread his legs in invitation and his quivering hands reached the apex of Inuyasha’s thighs. He reached inside the hanyou’s underclothes and gripped Inuyasha’s small but hard cock, a sudden wave of arousal washed over his body, until the realization made his eyes shot open...
“Aah, another dream…” Sesshoumaru realized as he woke up again from one of the many short slumber moments during his heat period. He was naked and alone in Inuyasha’s chambers and his heat was driving him crazy. This time he was on the room next to the bedroom in one of the couches, he had fallen asleep holding one of Inuyasha’s kimono which still hold the hanyou’s scent.
Lazily Sesshoumaru decided the he would continue to sleep but this time he would return to the bed. Much more comfortable.
Sesshoumaru got onto the bed, once again his heat taking control of his body and mind. He had learned in the worst way that deny it or fight it was something not so healthy and lately he had got used to some eccentric and even audacious actions while alone.
So using one hand he rubbed his length while other hand grabbed his balls. He moaned at the sight of pleasure and the faint image of Inuyasha while he fell onto the pillows looking up to the ceiling, he felt his sheath growing tighter. He placed one hand into the sheets, stroking slowly at himself with the other hand. He started off slowly; gently pumping his member as he closed his eyes and quietly moaned. He searched through his mind until he found the mental image he'd been looking for. "Inuyasha…" he moaned, as his pace quickened, "my Inuyasha--I miss you so much--" the hanyou’s image and scent were so strongly stood in his mind. Sesshoumaru began to speed up as the image of Inuyasha submitting and performing innumerous sensual tasks.
Sesshoumaru was reaching his end, he was pounding at his cock harder and faster than before, almost to the point of pain. "Yes," gasped the Daiyoukai, "do it-- " Moaning he began to lean back speeding up the strokes, slowly beginning to grasp at the ascending cock, which pushed out and he began to rub around it, without letting the pace decrease, his eyes closing in his ecstatic state. The motions getting heavier as the sheets began to move. As his climaxed came near, Sesshoumaru lifted his body, eyes still shut and as soon as he was drained he was asleep once again.
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Inuyasha’s image was sat down in the chair, next to the bed, and he was smiling and pulling the soft silk blanket from around him exposing his small body."I mean it, come on Goshujin-sama" Inuyasha smiled over to his older brother, "there is nothing wrong with it, we've got nothing to hide.” Slowly the hanyou began to finger fuck his own hole, letting soft moans out of his mouth; Sesshoumaru was feeling awkward, as he watched Inuyasha’s little show. He smiled as the slim hanyou began to tremble in pleasure, he could not help but look upon the hanyou self thrusting in his ass, in and out. The hanyou began to push fast and harder moaning at the feeling, his rear opening swelling as he neared a potential climax.
Sesshoumaru reached for his own cock under the sheets until, slowly his mind began to flow, and as he was reaching his climax, a strong pain hit his body.
Sesshoumaru woke up and sat on the bed. He began to feel the guilt run through him for being at the palace safe and having no idea where, how and with whom Inuyasha might be. His heart pounded and Sesshoumaru wrapped up the covers around him, looking bewildered at the empty chambers. His eyes closed tight as he began thinking about his mate
Sesshoumaru threw himself onto the pillows again, giving a frown as he shivered and twitched at his thoughts.
Few moments passed and Sesshoumaru shook his head, his eyes seeming down, before he looked over to the door. Sesshoumaru heard the door and shook his head; he stood up, feeling no need to put clothes over his naked body.Finding his way through the chambers, something called his attention, much more than the sound coming from the front door of the chambers. He looked to the direction of the dojo where some light seemed to run throughout the blinds. Sesshoumaru shook his head not thinking too much on the strange occurrence.
Once again the sharp pain hit him. It ran through Sesshoumaru's chest like a katana and right through the heart, Sesshoumaru fell to his knees breathing slowly, almost to a halt as he felt a tiny hand touch his shoulder. Sesshoumaru's eyes widened and slowly moved to his side, he saw Jaken, with big-round yellow eyes, noticeable scared. The frightened retainer stared into Sesshoumaru's eyes with respectable intent.
“Is that you Jaken or another dream?” Sesshoumaru managed to ask Jaken, before the pain hit him for the third time and he tried to fight it back, hitting on the nearest thing around him.
Everything was so fast and once again darkness engulfed him for a while.
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To the blurry ceiling of Inuyasha’s chambers, Sesshoumaru blinked in confusion, and looked to the phantom essence that still held in the chambers.
Sesshoumaru could not shake the feeling that there should be someone there, but he also could not recognize who that one could even be. He felt dizzy. He sat up, and held his throbbing temples; massaging the sides of his head, he convinced himself that he had just experienced another very disturbing dream.Sesshoumaru pushed the tangled mess of covers off of him; he blinked groggily and looked around.
Just then he saw Jaken, unconscious on the opposite wall.
Sesshoumaru wondered why Jaken was in that spot. He called him out while he, scratched the scruff of the back of his neck, and yawned, eyes searching for another much more important presence. But it was missing.
“Jaken, what are you doing here, I have not allowed you to come in.” Jaken was till unconscious so no reply for a while.After a few minutes Sesshoumaru gave up trying to figure out what was going on. His head did feel strange, so maybe he had been even sicker than he though he would be by the annoying heat.
Sesshoumaru walked to the washing area to clean himself while Jaken finally started to regain consciousness.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, are you better this morning?” the small toad was standing up and fixing his clothes, he also looked throughout the chambers to see what Sesshoumaru had done during the previous night.
Sesshoumaru did not answer Jaken, and Jaken just continue talking.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, by today you probably will be feeling better, your heat is almost over and soon you will be able to attend the meetings and return to your usual life.”
“This means that I can soon leave and finally be able rescue my mate,” Sesshoumaru said while he was taking his morning bath.
“Sesshoumaru-sama, you do mean that?” asked Jaken with a worried tone in his voice.
“That was the treaty, I would return solve some western land issues and then I would go to rescue Inuyasha. The only thing that avoided that to happen sooner was this troublesome heat.”
“No, Sesshoumaru-sama, you have just called Inuyasha your mate. You really mean that? You really accepted him as your mate?”
“Yes Jaken, I had accepted him long ago. I would make my wish acknowledge, the following night after the new moon night, but than the Hyounekozuko clan came and all my plans were postponed. As soon as this disgusting heat is over, I am going to return to my path. I will rescue Inuyasha and make it clear to the entire world that he, Inuyasha, is not only my otouto, he is also my only and for life mate,” Sesshoumaru said that and left the bathing area. He aimed at his clothes and later on, his chambers and studio.
Two days later he was leaving the western land with Jaken by his side.
“Soon I am going to be with you Inuyasha…” Sesshoumaru said when he transformed in his energy ball form, and then he spread his senses to feel Inuyasha’s youki. “I will not accept that anything or anybody keep us apart any longer.”
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End of chap 14 – Despair
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Glossary
*Hai = yes, okay - in Japanese, "hai" doesn't always mean “yes”; it may mean, "I hear you".
*Youkai = demon
*Daiyoukai = great mythical creature/ great demon
*Youki = demon spirit energy / demonic energy (life energy) possessed by demons
*Hanyou = half youkai, half human (“half breed”)
*Onigumo = A spider demon (youkai?) or A man who was full of deceit and hatred for others.
*Otouto: Younger brother
*Hyounekozuko-youkai - The 4 Divas or the Cat demons or the Tiger - Panther demon, or fire cat, youkai. Panther demon, fire cat, tribe - I myself did not get the real thing until now. You can get a better Idea about them at the episodes 75, 76, 77; by the way Sess is really cool on these episodes.