InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Slave ❯ Chap 20 – Secrets and Nightmares ( Chapter 21 )
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By: sadeness 
What kind of nightmares and secrets are ridden under the layers of a Shinto priests outfit?
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Psychological / Hentai / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.24.2008 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.8K | Visits: 655 | Status: Work In Progress
What kind of nightmares and secrets are ridden under the layers of a Shinto priests outfit?
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Psychological / Hentai / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.24.2008 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.8K | Visits: 655 | Status: Work In Progress
Slave
Disclaimer: I do not own any of Inuyasha characters. I am making no money off this story. This applies to all future chapters. Inuyasha characters & story © 2003 Rumiko Takahashi.
Summary: what kind of nightmares and secrets are ridden under the layers of a Shinto priests outfit?
Special thanks to: All the readers
Very special thanks to: My Beta and The Reviewers.(sorry for my lack of dialogue with you)
Sorry for the taking so long to post.
But be happy I am posting 2 chapters this time, 20 and 21. I would like to inform you that this story is going to finish on chapter 25. I am finishing on chapter 24 probably this weekend. I will ask my Beta if she can work on chapters 22 and 23.
Please, be a little bit more patient with me, this story, my writing problems and my lack of time.
A.N.: ‘Thoughts’ / “Dialogues”
Chap 20 – Secrets and Nightmares.
(Back with Inuyasha)
A little bit farther into the woods, Inuyasha was still running, crying and regretting for exposing himself to those women. “How could they say my baby was a lie? How could they say Sesshoumaru was a lie? Just now that I thought that I could live with them.” Inuyasha was once again after so many years, wandering alone in the middle of the woods. Better physically but totally destroyed emotionally and mentally. He was completely lost in his thought and in his sorrow.
*~* Flashback *~*
“Inu-chan please, do you mind if we check on you? We promise that we won’t hurt you, we will only check your body and see what this Naraku has done to you.”
Inuyasha was very skeptical about it, but he would let them check on him just because he really trusted both sisters. He did what they asked; he pulled off his haori and laid down on the futon. Both sisters got closer the futon he was on, and then got on their knees.
Inuyasha closed his eyes in fear. He was doing his best, however after all the pain that had happened in Naraku’s castle, it was really difficult to lay there still knowing someone would touch him at any time.
When the two pairs of hands touched his upper belly, at first he could feel his body shiver all over, and then as he felt the warmth and the smooth touch, he slowly relaxed.
Both sisters touched Inuyasha’s body carefully, yet paying special attention in everything. Even the smallest fading blemish did not go unnoticed; every shiver, even every heart beat.
Since Inuyasha was a hanyou, almost all his cuts, bruises or any physical marks were already vanished by now, only trained eyes or healers would identify any damage caused in his body. Thanks to the sisters power it was possible for them to identify some of the damages caused by Naraku, as well as older ones.
They serenely exchanged words and they found out Inuyasha was never pregnant, and that he would never be.
Inuyasha was smaller due the lack of proper nourishment when he was in his childhood and when he entered the adolescence. Many muscles had their right development interrupted and his inner organs were also affected, if he was a human he would have many health problems in the future.
“Inu-chan, Naraku lied. You were not pregnant, and certainly the infant you had with you was one of his detachments,” Kikyo said, concealing his body with his haori.
Inu rose and was on his knees. “No, I-- I-- well-- at first I did not believe him, but later my belly started to develop. It got this big, really,” Inuyasha said and with his hands he showed the size of his stomach got.
“No my dear you were not, you did have many things placed inside you, but without a very powerful enchantment it is impossible for your body to bear a child,” Kaede said with a sad expression, because she could feel and see Inuyasha’s despair.
“But my baby… Hakudoshi-- he was like Sesshoumaru and me. He had pale skin, white hair, and yet he had no youkai marks. Though, I never had those either… He even had Sesshoumaru’s stoic face,” Inuyasha said, while both sisters got closer him holding his hands.
“Naraku could be this evil my dear. He must have deluded you as he had--” Kikyo said, her face was paler and she had got a dark expression, even her eyes were dark.
“No–no–no… Hakudoshi could not have anything with Naraku, that sick bastard could not make or even be acquaintance of something so pure. No…no…no…” Inuyasha was clearly confident that Hakudoshi was his baby.
“Inuyasha, Naraku could do many evil things and you also had almost all your youki and life force drained. Naraku… I really do not know if I could say that, but Naraku… he could have any of his creatures to do that to you or anybody else,” Kikyo said her voice had changed; she was much more serious than she normally was. “Inuyasha--” Kikyo started but was interrupted by Inuyasha.
“No, I-- I--I…” Inuyasha stood up and both sisters could feel how desperate he was, “I need to breathe…” Inuyasha was hyperventilating, and tore open his haori in an attempt to help him breathe. He dashed from the hut to the forest, leaving both sisters behind.
Inuyasha kept on running and in tears, ‘How could Hakudoshi be not my baby? These crazy old hags were wrong. I am a hanyou, an Inu-hanyou. Kiramaru-san told me that I could bear children. I could bear one of Sesshoumaru-sama’s children - Hakudoshi was Sesshoumaru-sama’s. And in the future I would--I would - if Sesshoumaru-sama wanted me back, I would bear all of our children and I would be able to raise them all properly.’
*~* Flashback End *~*
He kept on running aimlessly till he achieved a river bench and finally stopped. “Yeah, those crazy old hags; they’re wrong,” Inuyasha said sitting down on a rock watching the river; calming down as he listened to the soothing sound of the water and the cicadas nearby.
*
It was almost sundown when Kikyo found him. He was sitting by a tree trunk, eyes closed; he only could sense her when she was just some meters away from him.
“Hello Inu-chan, can we talk?” Kikyo using her calm tone asked him.
“Hai, Kikyo-sama.” Inuyasha was not angry with them anymore. Actually he could not be, not after all the good things they did to him. But he could not deny that he was confused with all they had said.
Kikyo sat by his side and held his hand. “Dear child, long time ago. When I was a young miko, and Kaede-imouto was a little girl--” both giggle. ‘Wow that really was a long time ago’ they thought. They kept looking at each other in silence for some time and then Kikyou re-started to talk while Inuyasha paid attention to what she had to say.
“Well, that time I was not only a miko, I held also the title and the responsibility of the “Shikon no tama’s” keeper, the Shikon is a jewel stone able to transform any weak youkai into monsters much more powerful than the Daiyoukai or anything we could ever think. It also could give the holder anything wanted,” she said. “My family had the task to protect and purify that jewel , because when it is totally purified it can not be used by any lesser youkai and none powerful one would be interested by it either.
“Since I was born I had to take that task as my utterly responsibility, and I did my job properly until one day, in my early adulthood when I met a person.
“At first this person was a very sick and injured man, he was almost dead. All his body had been burnet and he could not walk or anything. I took care of him for sometime, everyday after my chores at the shrine; I would go and visit him. I feed him and used my healing powers and knowledge to help him get well.
“I could see in his eyes, that he was evil and malicious, even so, I continued to help him.
“Even little Kaede-imouto, when she met him, being a child told me he was dangerous. But I did not mind with that. He was a sick man, he could not walk. ‘What a person in such a bad condition could do to harm somebody else?’ I thought.
“But, in an afternoon when I was bringing him dinner, I noticed that he had gone, I could not find him he had simply vanished, the place was empty and the futon was burnet.
“At first I got really worried and I thought that maybe a wild animal could have attacked him or even a youkai. That was when I could sense an evil presence, a very dark youki and the air was fulfilled with miasma. It was really suffocating, so I left the place as fast as I could and came back to the shrine. I said a prayer to the man’s soul and started with my evening shores.
“During a couple of days I tried to go back to the cave, but the evil presence and the miasma had taken all the area nearby and it was killing all the animals and plants.
“Weeks had passed and I had given up trying to go to that place again. That was when I met in the forest a young man he had long black hair, he was barely conscious and naked. It was a summer morning, but he was as cold as a dead fish and he could not stand up alone. I return to the shrine, got a horse and brought the young man back to the shrine with me.
“He told me his name was Naraku and that he was traveling back to his land but he got ambushed by bandits and was left there on the forest to die. All my senses were telling me that he was dangerous, but once again I fought with it. I thought ‘I could not let this one die, not as the other one had.’ So I kept that man in the spare room at the back of the shrine.
“Days later I noticed that the jewel had become light purple (it was normally a light shade of pink, as a pearl), at that time it was purple, light, but purple and I was also different.
“Till that moment, I had never been “proud” or something like that, about my powers, my face, body or anything about me. I realized that I was worried with my physical appearance. I wanted to be as the girls from the villages. I wanted different clothes, girly clothes; I wanted to be attractive, but not in general. I wanted all of that to be able to attract the young man that was living with us in the spare room of the shrine, I wanted to be his.
“I was jealous of how he looked to the women that went to the shrine.
“He was much better after some days. He had regained his health; his body was not as cold as it was at first. Day by day not only his healthy was increasing, he was an extremely handsome young man and as the time was passing by, it was impossible to deny that he was getting even better.
“I was completely crazy for him. I had fallen in love and I confessed my love in a day that I was really afraid that he could left the shrine and let me alone. He said he was happy and honored, and that he would marry me. But first I had to do two things for him: ‘First you must stop to be a miko; you must leave the shrine and forget all your activities in here. Second you must go with me to my home; the western lands, because only there you could be my queen.’”
“I did not think twice.
“I called Kaede-imouto and passed her all my responsibilities; my duties as a Shinto miko and the “Shikon no tama’s” keeper.
“On the next morning I was leaving my old live behind. My beloved one was by my side and he had a necklace on his hands, a necklace with a huge black pearl on it. ‘Isn’t it beautiful, my flower?’ he told me with a big smile on his face. ‘Yes it is, but, where have you got it?’ I asked him, as soon as I recognized the necklace beads. ‘I got this for us my beloved; it is the symbol of our love,’ he said when he kissed me, and as magic I simply forget or worried that the necklace beads where the same beads that hold together the enchanting to hold the evil far from the “shikon no tama”.
“After that we left the shrine surroundings and the wonderful life he had promised me as the lady of his home was in fact a nightmare.
“Soon I discovered that he was not a lord and that he was not from the western lands. He was creepy and he killed people for pleasure. He abused me every night. Some time later, he would disappear for days. He would return with jewels and other valuable things. Every time he returned he would be wealthier, more powerful and a little bit different physically.
“We were living together for some years already; I did not get pregnant even once during all that time and one night he arrived at the place we used to live, bleeding a very dark blood and with a small little girl with white hair and with-purplish-blue eyes. He was almost fainting, he was naked and dirty. The girl was almost as unconscious as he was, but she was not bleeding, she was cold, her small frail body was very cold.
“He told me that she was OUR daughter and that I might took care of her. I said I would not take care of some other woman’s child and that I wanted an explanation about that.
“That was then that he showed me for the first time, that he was not human, but a youkai. Later I discovered that he was a hanyou. Not a hanyou as you, a child of a human and a youkai. He was in fact a hybrid of many youkai and a single human wicked body, with a very evil mind and soul. Afterward I also discovered that from time to time he would recluse somewhere to “improve” his body, by discarding some parts as well as absorbing other youkai, and that the power of the “shikon no tama” was helping him in this process all along, since we left the shrine.
“That night, in his youkai form, he spanked me. I was spanked almost to death, during weeks I could not move. The little girl in the end was the one taking care of me, while him-- he would come and he would abuse me violently all nights. I have to confess that I wanted to die when all the reality was shown to me. I was the only to blame. I was the responsible for all that evil.”Kikyou paused for a while and gave a small sigh.
“No Kikyou-sama, you where not, you left the shrine with him, he was not with the jewel.” Inuyasha for the first time since she started to tell her past life interrupted her.
“Yes he was,” She said clearly ashamed.
“That was impossible; you had left the jewel at the shrine, hadn’t you?” Inuyasha asked confused
“I had, but he didn’t, the jewel was with him all the time,” She replied again.
“But how? You said that…”
“Do you remember the necklace with the black pearl? It was the jewel.
“From the moment I started to feel proud and etc, it started too got ‘impure’ and as long as I was leading to the path of self-righteousness and vanity. The jewel became tainted and from light pink the jewel stone became as black as charcoal and completely able to satisfy all of that man’s evil desires.
“He had made me lost my mind, my soul and had broken my heart, he had used and abused of my body. For him, I had abandoned my duties as a miko and my duties as an older sister. I had abandoned my little Kaede-imouto, a young little girl all alone in a Shinto shrine with all my former responsibilities.
“And to complete my realization of what I had made of my life, I had got too sick, weak and old.
“Needless to say, in a few years the house, I used to share with Naraku, was too small. All his children or rather, his detachments, were living there with us.
“Inuyasha-chan, Naraku can’t sire or bear children. He only has youkai coming out of his body, all with different and evil personalities, different species and some in adult stage. They were from different colors, sizes and shapes. Yet all, different from him, are youkai, and even not as powerful as he was, all were born with deadly powers. Even thought, they could not be far from him, because he holds their hearts inside of him. He was so evil, even to them; that to show or prove his power over them. He would absorb the stubborn ones, and constantly would abuse them; it did not matter if they were male or female. As much, it did not matter if they were in the humanoid form or animal or monster form. He is so sexually perverted that he would do anything with anyone to achieve his maximum pleasure.
“And I had during years watched everything. I was unable to do much, other than be his slave. One day, he just got tired of me and disposed me as garbage.
“Kami-sama is really merciful with me and days later when I was begging for food in a village, Kaede-imouto saw me and I do not know how she recognized me and she brought me back to the shrine. From that moment on, I had to reorganize my life. We did many cleanse rituals and I could return to my old tasks, as the second in the shrine.
“After all that I told you Inu-chan, will you believe in me and return with me to the shrine?” Kikyou asked him. She was with tears on her face and her voice was as painful as all she had told him.
Inuyasha hugged her and crying he said he would return and live with them, no matter what. When they got back to the shrine they found Kaede, preparing their supper. Inuyasha then begged to both sisters to excuse him for all the bad things he said and had done.
“Do not worry Inu-chan, you will redeem yourself by doing all the shrine heavy duties,” Kaede said laughing and going to sleep in her futon.
“But…”
“No but’s. Now go to you futon and sleep, tomorrow will be a very long day,” Kikyou said giggling.
*
Their lives were calmer, everyday Inuyasha would improve. They worked in the shrine all day long. Inuyasha was very handy for the sisters, from time to time they would send him to get supplies in one of the villages or deeper in the forest.
And during one of those tours Inuyasha was face to face with Sesshoumaru.
It was late afternoon, the sun had just set and it was a new moon night, Inuyasha had just went into his ningen form. All Sesshoumaru saw, was a ningen dressed as a miko. The scent he from that ningen was ningen’s fear, herbs among with incense and other ningen scents.
‘Probably it is lost and now it is scared to see a youkai,’ that was all, Sesshoumaru thought with a tint of disdain.
*
Inuyasha, on the other hand, was scared to death of Sesshoumaru’s reaction. First came the biggest fear, Sesshoumaru would not accept him back after what Naraku had done to him. In addition, Sesshoumaru would not forgive him for the death of Hakudoshi– Inuyasha still believed Hakudoshi was their kid. To make the matters worst, Inuyasha was a ningen at that moment and he knew Sesshoumaru hated ningen.
So as fast as he could, without a second thought Inuyasha ran.
However, without his hanyou abilities, Inuyasha got lost easily and run to a different direction while Sesshoumaru decided to follow the scent that came from the nearby village…
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End of chap 20 Secrets and Nightmares –
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Glossary
*Hai = yes, okay - in Japanese, "hai" doesn't always mean “yes”; it may mean, "I hear you".
***O- for added respect. // -san can be replaced with -sama or -chan. /// -ue: (humble, respectful, archaic)
(O)neesan: Older sister. The 'ee' is pronounced as if saying the letter 'A'
Imouto: Younger sister. (-chan or -san can be added) Otouto: Younger brother [ie. Toguro Otouto]. (-chan or -san can be added) *Ningen = human
*Youkai = demon
*Daiyoukai = great mythical creature/ great demon
*Youki = demon spirit energy / demonic energy (life energy) possessed by demons
*Hanyou = half youkai , half human (“half breed”)
* haori = long-sleeved blouse
Hakudôshi (”’“¶Žq, ‚Í‚ ‚Ç‚¤ ‚µ) = white child
Disclaimer: I do not own any of Inuyasha characters. I am making no money off this story. This applies to all future chapters. Inuyasha characters & story © 2003 Rumiko Takahashi.
Summary: what kind of nightmares and secrets are ridden under the layers of a Shinto priests outfit?
Special thanks to: All the readers
Very special thanks to: My Beta and The Reviewers.(sorry for my lack of dialogue with you)
Sorry for the taking so long to post.
But be happy I am posting 2 chapters this time, 20 and 21. I would like to inform you that this story is going to finish on chapter 25. I am finishing on chapter 24 probably this weekend. I will ask my Beta if she can work on chapters 22 and 23.
Please, be a little bit more patient with me, this story, my writing problems and my lack of time.
A.N.: ‘Thoughts’ / “Dialogues”
Chap 20 – Secrets and Nightmares.
(Back with Inuyasha)
A little bit farther into the woods, Inuyasha was still running, crying and regretting for exposing himself to those women. “How could they say my baby was a lie? How could they say Sesshoumaru was a lie? Just now that I thought that I could live with them.” Inuyasha was once again after so many years, wandering alone in the middle of the woods. Better physically but totally destroyed emotionally and mentally. He was completely lost in his thought and in his sorrow.
*~* Flashback *~*
“Inu-chan please, do you mind if we check on you? We promise that we won’t hurt you, we will only check your body and see what this Naraku has done to you.”
Inuyasha was very skeptical about it, but he would let them check on him just because he really trusted both sisters. He did what they asked; he pulled off his haori and laid down on the futon. Both sisters got closer the futon he was on, and then got on their knees.
Inuyasha closed his eyes in fear. He was doing his best, however after all the pain that had happened in Naraku’s castle, it was really difficult to lay there still knowing someone would touch him at any time.
When the two pairs of hands touched his upper belly, at first he could feel his body shiver all over, and then as he felt the warmth and the smooth touch, he slowly relaxed.
Both sisters touched Inuyasha’s body carefully, yet paying special attention in everything. Even the smallest fading blemish did not go unnoticed; every shiver, even every heart beat.
Since Inuyasha was a hanyou, almost all his cuts, bruises or any physical marks were already vanished by now, only trained eyes or healers would identify any damage caused in his body. Thanks to the sisters power it was possible for them to identify some of the damages caused by Naraku, as well as older ones.
They serenely exchanged words and they found out Inuyasha was never pregnant, and that he would never be.
Inuyasha was smaller due the lack of proper nourishment when he was in his childhood and when he entered the adolescence. Many muscles had their right development interrupted and his inner organs were also affected, if he was a human he would have many health problems in the future.
“Inu-chan, Naraku lied. You were not pregnant, and certainly the infant you had with you was one of his detachments,” Kikyo said, concealing his body with his haori.
Inu rose and was on his knees. “No, I-- I-- well-- at first I did not believe him, but later my belly started to develop. It got this big, really,” Inuyasha said and with his hands he showed the size of his stomach got.
“No my dear you were not, you did have many things placed inside you, but without a very powerful enchantment it is impossible for your body to bear a child,” Kaede said with a sad expression, because she could feel and see Inuyasha’s despair.
“But my baby… Hakudoshi-- he was like Sesshoumaru and me. He had pale skin, white hair, and yet he had no youkai marks. Though, I never had those either… He even had Sesshoumaru’s stoic face,” Inuyasha said, while both sisters got closer him holding his hands.
“Naraku could be this evil my dear. He must have deluded you as he had--” Kikyo said, her face was paler and she had got a dark expression, even her eyes were dark.
“No–no–no… Hakudoshi could not have anything with Naraku, that sick bastard could not make or even be acquaintance of something so pure. No…no…no…” Inuyasha was clearly confident that Hakudoshi was his baby.
“Inuyasha, Naraku could do many evil things and you also had almost all your youki and life force drained. Naraku… I really do not know if I could say that, but Naraku… he could have any of his creatures to do that to you or anybody else,” Kikyo said her voice had changed; she was much more serious than she normally was. “Inuyasha--” Kikyo started but was interrupted by Inuyasha.
“No, I-- I--I…” Inuyasha stood up and both sisters could feel how desperate he was, “I need to breathe…” Inuyasha was hyperventilating, and tore open his haori in an attempt to help him breathe. He dashed from the hut to the forest, leaving both sisters behind.
Inuyasha kept on running and in tears, ‘How could Hakudoshi be not my baby? These crazy old hags were wrong. I am a hanyou, an Inu-hanyou. Kiramaru-san told me that I could bear children. I could bear one of Sesshoumaru-sama’s children - Hakudoshi was Sesshoumaru-sama’s. And in the future I would--I would - if Sesshoumaru-sama wanted me back, I would bear all of our children and I would be able to raise them all properly.’
*~* Flashback End *~*
He kept on running aimlessly till he achieved a river bench and finally stopped. “Yeah, those crazy old hags; they’re wrong,” Inuyasha said sitting down on a rock watching the river; calming down as he listened to the soothing sound of the water and the cicadas nearby.
*
It was almost sundown when Kikyo found him. He was sitting by a tree trunk, eyes closed; he only could sense her when she was just some meters away from him.
“Hello Inu-chan, can we talk?” Kikyo using her calm tone asked him.
“Hai, Kikyo-sama.” Inuyasha was not angry with them anymore. Actually he could not be, not after all the good things they did to him. But he could not deny that he was confused with all they had said.
Kikyo sat by his side and held his hand. “Dear child, long time ago. When I was a young miko, and Kaede-imouto was a little girl--” both giggle. ‘Wow that really was a long time ago’ they thought. They kept looking at each other in silence for some time and then Kikyou re-started to talk while Inuyasha paid attention to what she had to say.
“Well, that time I was not only a miko, I held also the title and the responsibility of the “Shikon no tama’s” keeper, the Shikon is a jewel stone able to transform any weak youkai into monsters much more powerful than the Daiyoukai or anything we could ever think. It also could give the holder anything wanted,” she said. “My family had the task to protect and purify that jewel , because when it is totally purified it can not be used by any lesser youkai and none powerful one would be interested by it either.
“Since I was born I had to take that task as my utterly responsibility, and I did my job properly until one day, in my early adulthood when I met a person.
“At first this person was a very sick and injured man, he was almost dead. All his body had been burnet and he could not walk or anything. I took care of him for sometime, everyday after my chores at the shrine; I would go and visit him. I feed him and used my healing powers and knowledge to help him get well.
“I could see in his eyes, that he was evil and malicious, even so, I continued to help him.
“Even little Kaede-imouto, when she met him, being a child told me he was dangerous. But I did not mind with that. He was a sick man, he could not walk. ‘What a person in such a bad condition could do to harm somebody else?’ I thought.
“But, in an afternoon when I was bringing him dinner, I noticed that he had gone, I could not find him he had simply vanished, the place was empty and the futon was burnet.
“At first I got really worried and I thought that maybe a wild animal could have attacked him or even a youkai. That was when I could sense an evil presence, a very dark youki and the air was fulfilled with miasma. It was really suffocating, so I left the place as fast as I could and came back to the shrine. I said a prayer to the man’s soul and started with my evening shores.
“During a couple of days I tried to go back to the cave, but the evil presence and the miasma had taken all the area nearby and it was killing all the animals and plants.
“Weeks had passed and I had given up trying to go to that place again. That was when I met in the forest a young man he had long black hair, he was barely conscious and naked. It was a summer morning, but he was as cold as a dead fish and he could not stand up alone. I return to the shrine, got a horse and brought the young man back to the shrine with me.
“He told me his name was Naraku and that he was traveling back to his land but he got ambushed by bandits and was left there on the forest to die. All my senses were telling me that he was dangerous, but once again I fought with it. I thought ‘I could not let this one die, not as the other one had.’ So I kept that man in the spare room at the back of the shrine.
“Days later I noticed that the jewel had become light purple (it was normally a light shade of pink, as a pearl), at that time it was purple, light, but purple and I was also different.
“Till that moment, I had never been “proud” or something like that, about my powers, my face, body or anything about me. I realized that I was worried with my physical appearance. I wanted to be as the girls from the villages. I wanted different clothes, girly clothes; I wanted to be attractive, but not in general. I wanted all of that to be able to attract the young man that was living with us in the spare room of the shrine, I wanted to be his.
“I was jealous of how he looked to the women that went to the shrine.
“He was much better after some days. He had regained his health; his body was not as cold as it was at first. Day by day not only his healthy was increasing, he was an extremely handsome young man and as the time was passing by, it was impossible to deny that he was getting even better.
“I was completely crazy for him. I had fallen in love and I confessed my love in a day that I was really afraid that he could left the shrine and let me alone. He said he was happy and honored, and that he would marry me. But first I had to do two things for him: ‘First you must stop to be a miko; you must leave the shrine and forget all your activities in here. Second you must go with me to my home; the western lands, because only there you could be my queen.’”
“I did not think twice.
“I called Kaede-imouto and passed her all my responsibilities; my duties as a Shinto miko and the “Shikon no tama’s” keeper.
“On the next morning I was leaving my old live behind. My beloved one was by my side and he had a necklace on his hands, a necklace with a huge black pearl on it. ‘Isn’t it beautiful, my flower?’ he told me with a big smile on his face. ‘Yes it is, but, where have you got it?’ I asked him, as soon as I recognized the necklace beads. ‘I got this for us my beloved; it is the symbol of our love,’ he said when he kissed me, and as magic I simply forget or worried that the necklace beads where the same beads that hold together the enchanting to hold the evil far from the “shikon no tama”.
“After that we left the shrine surroundings and the wonderful life he had promised me as the lady of his home was in fact a nightmare.
“Soon I discovered that he was not a lord and that he was not from the western lands. He was creepy and he killed people for pleasure. He abused me every night. Some time later, he would disappear for days. He would return with jewels and other valuable things. Every time he returned he would be wealthier, more powerful and a little bit different physically.
“We were living together for some years already; I did not get pregnant even once during all that time and one night he arrived at the place we used to live, bleeding a very dark blood and with a small little girl with white hair and with-purplish-blue eyes. He was almost fainting, he was naked and dirty. The girl was almost as unconscious as he was, but she was not bleeding, she was cold, her small frail body was very cold.
“He told me that she was OUR daughter and that I might took care of her. I said I would not take care of some other woman’s child and that I wanted an explanation about that.
“That was then that he showed me for the first time, that he was not human, but a youkai. Later I discovered that he was a hanyou. Not a hanyou as you, a child of a human and a youkai. He was in fact a hybrid of many youkai and a single human wicked body, with a very evil mind and soul. Afterward I also discovered that from time to time he would recluse somewhere to “improve” his body, by discarding some parts as well as absorbing other youkai, and that the power of the “shikon no tama” was helping him in this process all along, since we left the shrine.
“That night, in his youkai form, he spanked me. I was spanked almost to death, during weeks I could not move. The little girl in the end was the one taking care of me, while him-- he would come and he would abuse me violently all nights. I have to confess that I wanted to die when all the reality was shown to me. I was the only to blame. I was the responsible for all that evil.”Kikyou paused for a while and gave a small sigh.
“No Kikyou-sama, you where not, you left the shrine with him, he was not with the jewel.” Inuyasha for the first time since she started to tell her past life interrupted her.
“Yes he was,” She said clearly ashamed.
“That was impossible; you had left the jewel at the shrine, hadn’t you?” Inuyasha asked confused
“I had, but he didn’t, the jewel was with him all the time,” She replied again.
“But how? You said that…”
“Do you remember the necklace with the black pearl? It was the jewel.
“From the moment I started to feel proud and etc, it started too got ‘impure’ and as long as I was leading to the path of self-righteousness and vanity. The jewel became tainted and from light pink the jewel stone became as black as charcoal and completely able to satisfy all of that man’s evil desires.
“He had made me lost my mind, my soul and had broken my heart, he had used and abused of my body. For him, I had abandoned my duties as a miko and my duties as an older sister. I had abandoned my little Kaede-imouto, a young little girl all alone in a Shinto shrine with all my former responsibilities.
“And to complete my realization of what I had made of my life, I had got too sick, weak and old.
“Needless to say, in a few years the house, I used to share with Naraku, was too small. All his children or rather, his detachments, were living there with us.
“Inuyasha-chan, Naraku can’t sire or bear children. He only has youkai coming out of his body, all with different and evil personalities, different species and some in adult stage. They were from different colors, sizes and shapes. Yet all, different from him, are youkai, and even not as powerful as he was, all were born with deadly powers. Even thought, they could not be far from him, because he holds their hearts inside of him. He was so evil, even to them; that to show or prove his power over them. He would absorb the stubborn ones, and constantly would abuse them; it did not matter if they were male or female. As much, it did not matter if they were in the humanoid form or animal or monster form. He is so sexually perverted that he would do anything with anyone to achieve his maximum pleasure.
“And I had during years watched everything. I was unable to do much, other than be his slave. One day, he just got tired of me and disposed me as garbage.
“Kami-sama is really merciful with me and days later when I was begging for food in a village, Kaede-imouto saw me and I do not know how she recognized me and she brought me back to the shrine. From that moment on, I had to reorganize my life. We did many cleanse rituals and I could return to my old tasks, as the second in the shrine.
“After all that I told you Inu-chan, will you believe in me and return with me to the shrine?” Kikyou asked him. She was with tears on her face and her voice was as painful as all she had told him.
Inuyasha hugged her and crying he said he would return and live with them, no matter what. When they got back to the shrine they found Kaede, preparing their supper. Inuyasha then begged to both sisters to excuse him for all the bad things he said and had done.
“Do not worry Inu-chan, you will redeem yourself by doing all the shrine heavy duties,” Kaede said laughing and going to sleep in her futon.
“But…”
“No but’s. Now go to you futon and sleep, tomorrow will be a very long day,” Kikyou said giggling.
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Their lives were calmer, everyday Inuyasha would improve. They worked in the shrine all day long. Inuyasha was very handy for the sisters, from time to time they would send him to get supplies in one of the villages or deeper in the forest.
And during one of those tours Inuyasha was face to face with Sesshoumaru.
It was late afternoon, the sun had just set and it was a new moon night, Inuyasha had just went into his ningen form. All Sesshoumaru saw, was a ningen dressed as a miko. The scent he from that ningen was ningen’s fear, herbs among with incense and other ningen scents.
‘Probably it is lost and now it is scared to see a youkai,’ that was all, Sesshoumaru thought with a tint of disdain.
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Inuyasha, on the other hand, was scared to death of Sesshoumaru’s reaction. First came the biggest fear, Sesshoumaru would not accept him back after what Naraku had done to him. In addition, Sesshoumaru would not forgive him for the death of Hakudoshi– Inuyasha still believed Hakudoshi was their kid. To make the matters worst, Inuyasha was a ningen at that moment and he knew Sesshoumaru hated ningen.
So as fast as he could, without a second thought Inuyasha ran.
However, without his hanyou abilities, Inuyasha got lost easily and run to a different direction while Sesshoumaru decided to follow the scent that came from the nearby village…
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End of chap 20 Secrets and Nightmares –
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Glossary
*Hai = yes, okay - in Japanese, "hai" doesn't always mean “yes”; it may mean, "I hear you".
***O- for added respect. // -san can be replaced with -sama or -chan. /// -ue: (humble, respectful, archaic)
(O)neesan: Older sister. The 'ee' is pronounced as if saying the letter 'A'
Imouto: Younger sister. (-chan or -san can be added) Otouto: Younger brother [ie. Toguro Otouto]. (-chan or -san can be added) *Ningen = human
*Youkai = demon
*Daiyoukai = great mythical creature/ great demon
*Youki = demon spirit energy / demonic energy (life energy) possessed by demons
*Hanyou = half youkai , half human (“half breed”)
* haori = long-sleeved blouse
Hakudôshi (”’“¶Žq, ‚Í‚ ‚Ç‚¤ ‚µ) = white child