InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Soiled ❯ Something's Not Right ( Chapter 6 )
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By: Inuyasha_SIT 
I just want to take a moment to say two very important things. One: thank you soooooooo soo soooooooooooooooo much to my reviewers. Reviews are like cat-nip to me, and you all have been so kind. I may not have a mountain of reviews, but I greatly appreciate the ones I do have. Please keep it up. :)
Two: Inuyasha & Co. belong to the wonderful Rumiko Takahashi. I. am. not. her. I'm just borrowing her characters because not only is it fun, but I also heard that imitation was the highest form of flattery, and, well, she deserves it. :D
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 04.17.2008 | Updated On: 04.17.2008 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 449 | Status: Work In Progress
I just want to take a moment to say two very important things. One: thank you soooooooo soo soooooooooooooooo much to my reviewers. Reviews are like cat-nip to me, and you all have been so kind. I may not have a mountain of reviews, but I greatly appreciate the ones I do have. Please keep it up. :)
Two: Inuyasha & Co. belong to the wonderful Rumiko Takahashi. I. am. not. her. I'm just borrowing her characters because not only is it fun, but I also heard that imitation was the highest form of flattery, and, well, she deserves it. :D
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Angst | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 04.17.2008 | Updated On: 04.17.2008 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 449 | Status: Work In Progress
I know this chapter is a bit shorter, but the last one was super long, so hopefully that makes up for it. I really felt that this scene needed special attention and deserved its own chapter. With that said,
here we go!
At noon, Kagome could be found sitting in her room, looking out the window. She had been there for a couple of hours. The activity in her brain was at a minimum. She just couldn't think. She was numb. She had cried herself dry a long time ago. Now she sat and waited.
She felt dirty. She felt ashamed. She was afraid. She watched the well because she couldn't bring herself to go down it. She wanted to. She wanted to run to the shrinehouse and leap down the well and into Inuyasha's arms, but at the same time she wanted to destroy it. She wanted to make sure that nothing could ever go through that well again.
Ishiro's words rang clear in her mind: Dogs mate for life, and if you have already been touched, if you belong to another, then he will not have you. Her heart told her that this could never be true. Inuyasha wouldn't hate her for something that she could not help. But her mind told her something else. Ishiro was right, dog youkai did mate for life. Perhaps he was right about the rest. Maybe Inuyasha would distance himself from her. Maybe this would prevent Inuyasha from ever loving her. She would be reduced, once again, to a simple shard detector.
Of course, she could never tell him what happened, even if she wanted to. Ishiro had told her not to. Her family's life was at stake. She could not risk harming them. That thought led her directly into the implication that her silence posed. If she wanted to keep her family alive, she would have to endure what had happened last night again, who knows how many times. Who knows how long Ishiro would keep this up. He could keep her to himself for the rest of her life. He could kill her. Kagome thought the latter scenario more likely. He would probably get bored with her and get rid of her.
Her heart felt so heavy, she was half surprised that it had any strength left to beat. Eventually though, she decided that she needed to get up and do something. It was time to go back. She had to try to move on. She had to learn to live with her new life. She decided to take one more shower before packing her bag full of ramen and other supplies, then walked (it seemed so long now) out to the well.
Inuyasha was sharpening his sword when he thought he smelled a familiar scent. It was faint, but as he breathed it in, he was sure: Kagome was home. “I didn't expect her to come back for another couple of days. Kagome hardly ever comes home on time, let alone early,” he thought as he ran after her. When he found her, she was standing, staring at the Tree of Ages, her yellow bag abandoned on the ground a few feet away. He slowed to a walk as he approached her.
“Kagome?”
She jumped with a gasp and whipped around while backing up. Inuyasha could see the utter terror in here eyes.
“Kagome,” he rushed towards towards her, desperate to take her out of whatever terror she was holding inside her. For an instant, it looked like she was going to run from him. “Kagome,” he said again, his voice barely more than a whisper.
“Inuyasha?”
“Yeah.”
Slowly, the fear drained from her eyes, to be replaced by sadness and defeat. She leaned back against the tree and slid down until she was sitting on its roots as if her body didn't have the energy left to hold her up. Inuyasha couldn't understand stand seeing her like this, and he couldn't think of a reason for it.
“I'm sorry, you startled me.”
He closed the distance between them and knelt down right in front of her so he could see into her eyes, “I can see that.” He studied her closely, trying to figure out what was going on. At first she held his gaze, but when the fear started to creep back, she turned away. Now that he was this close, he noticed something else that startled him. Her scent was different. He didn't quite know what it was, and it was very faint, but he didn't like it. He pushed that aside though for later. Now he had to make sure she was alright.
He placed a finger under her chin to make her face him again. She closed her eyes at his touch, placed a shaking hand on his, pulled it away and stood up, “We should probably head back to Kaede's, Inuyasha.”
Inuyasha stood with her, “Ok, do you want a ride?” He allowed her to push away for now. He needed to find out what was wrong, and he would make sure to find out, but not here, and not now. He needed to get her out of this forest. He would have to wait to talk to here until the fear loosened its grip on her heart.
“Actually, can we just walk?”
“She felt his grip tighten on her hand, “Yeah, sure, Kagome.”
She knew she should have let him carry her, but she felt so safe when she was with him. More than that, she knew any thoughts she may have had about having a life with him were over now. She just wanted to spend as much time with him as she could, while she still had this chance.
They walked together in silence, her hand clutching his as if she thought he would leave her behind if she didn't. He watched her as they walked. Her eyes never left the ground. She had only been gone a day and a half. He desperately wanted to know what had happened. They finally reached the edge of the forest and the village came into view. Inuyasha stopped and turned to face her.
“Kagome, what's wrong?”
She briefly glanced up at him before returning her gaze to the ground, “I — what do you mean? I didn't say anything.”
“That's part of what I'm talking about. Normally, you won't STOP talking, and you always want to get back to Kaede's as soon as possible, not to mention the fact that you're back early, and that never happens.”
“Well, if you didn't want me to…”
“That's not what I meant and you know it,” he reached up to her face again, trying to get her to look at him, but when his finger touched her chin, she flinched and looked away. “This is what I'm talking about. You didn't just come back early, you came back terrified. And other than this,” he held up their entwined hands, “you won't let me touch you.”
“I…um…i-it's nothing. I…um…just had a nightmare last night.”
He narrowed his eyes at her. She was lying again, and now she was desperately trying to avoid looking him in the eyes, “Kagome, you smell different.”
He knew he had shocked her; her eyes were now fixed upon his, and horror was seeping out of them. Something had happened to her, and she did not want him to find out what it was. She had probably gone so far as to wash it off of her.
“N-no I don't.”
Now it was his turn to be shocked. He had caught her in her lie. She knew that; he could see it in her face, and yet, she still denied him. Why wouldn't she tell him? Did she still not trust him to protect her? He sighed and decided to let the point pass for the moment. Maybe she just wasn't ready to talk about it now. He hoped she would feel better in the morning.
There we are. As always, please R&R! Stay tuned for chapter 6: Dreams. :)
here we go!
At noon, Kagome could be found sitting in her room, looking out the window. She had been there for a couple of hours. The activity in her brain was at a minimum. She just couldn't think. She was numb. She had cried herself dry a long time ago. Now she sat and waited.
She felt dirty. She felt ashamed. She was afraid. She watched the well because she couldn't bring herself to go down it. She wanted to. She wanted to run to the shrinehouse and leap down the well and into Inuyasha's arms, but at the same time she wanted to destroy it. She wanted to make sure that nothing could ever go through that well again.
Ishiro's words rang clear in her mind: Dogs mate for life, and if you have already been touched, if you belong to another, then he will not have you. Her heart told her that this could never be true. Inuyasha wouldn't hate her for something that she could not help. But her mind told her something else. Ishiro was right, dog youkai did mate for life. Perhaps he was right about the rest. Maybe Inuyasha would distance himself from her. Maybe this would prevent Inuyasha from ever loving her. She would be reduced, once again, to a simple shard detector.
Of course, she could never tell him what happened, even if she wanted to. Ishiro had told her not to. Her family's life was at stake. She could not risk harming them. That thought led her directly into the implication that her silence posed. If she wanted to keep her family alive, she would have to endure what had happened last night again, who knows how many times. Who knows how long Ishiro would keep this up. He could keep her to himself for the rest of her life. He could kill her. Kagome thought the latter scenario more likely. He would probably get bored with her and get rid of her.
Her heart felt so heavy, she was half surprised that it had any strength left to beat. Eventually though, she decided that she needed to get up and do something. It was time to go back. She had to try to move on. She had to learn to live with her new life. She decided to take one more shower before packing her bag full of ramen and other supplies, then walked (it seemed so long now) out to the well.
Inuyasha was sharpening his sword when he thought he smelled a familiar scent. It was faint, but as he breathed it in, he was sure: Kagome was home. “I didn't expect her to come back for another couple of days. Kagome hardly ever comes home on time, let alone early,” he thought as he ran after her. When he found her, she was standing, staring at the Tree of Ages, her yellow bag abandoned on the ground a few feet away. He slowed to a walk as he approached her.
“Kagome?”
She jumped with a gasp and whipped around while backing up. Inuyasha could see the utter terror in here eyes.
“Kagome,” he rushed towards towards her, desperate to take her out of whatever terror she was holding inside her. For an instant, it looked like she was going to run from him. “Kagome,” he said again, his voice barely more than a whisper.
“Inuyasha?”
“Yeah.”
Slowly, the fear drained from her eyes, to be replaced by sadness and defeat. She leaned back against the tree and slid down until she was sitting on its roots as if her body didn't have the energy left to hold her up. Inuyasha couldn't understand stand seeing her like this, and he couldn't think of a reason for it.
“I'm sorry, you startled me.”
He closed the distance between them and knelt down right in front of her so he could see into her eyes, “I can see that.” He studied her closely, trying to figure out what was going on. At first she held his gaze, but when the fear started to creep back, she turned away. Now that he was this close, he noticed something else that startled him. Her scent was different. He didn't quite know what it was, and it was very faint, but he didn't like it. He pushed that aside though for later. Now he had to make sure she was alright.
He placed a finger under her chin to make her face him again. She closed her eyes at his touch, placed a shaking hand on his, pulled it away and stood up, “We should probably head back to Kaede's, Inuyasha.”
Inuyasha stood with her, “Ok, do you want a ride?” He allowed her to push away for now. He needed to find out what was wrong, and he would make sure to find out, but not here, and not now. He needed to get her out of this forest. He would have to wait to talk to here until the fear loosened its grip on her heart.
“Actually, can we just walk?”
“She felt his grip tighten on her hand, “Yeah, sure, Kagome.”
She knew she should have let him carry her, but she felt so safe when she was with him. More than that, she knew any thoughts she may have had about having a life with him were over now. She just wanted to spend as much time with him as she could, while she still had this chance.
They walked together in silence, her hand clutching his as if she thought he would leave her behind if she didn't. He watched her as they walked. Her eyes never left the ground. She had only been gone a day and a half. He desperately wanted to know what had happened. They finally reached the edge of the forest and the village came into view. Inuyasha stopped and turned to face her.
“Kagome, what's wrong?”
She briefly glanced up at him before returning her gaze to the ground, “I — what do you mean? I didn't say anything.”
“That's part of what I'm talking about. Normally, you won't STOP talking, and you always want to get back to Kaede's as soon as possible, not to mention the fact that you're back early, and that never happens.”
“Well, if you didn't want me to…”
“That's not what I meant and you know it,” he reached up to her face again, trying to get her to look at him, but when his finger touched her chin, she flinched and looked away. “This is what I'm talking about. You didn't just come back early, you came back terrified. And other than this,” he held up their entwined hands, “you won't let me touch you.”
“I…um…i-it's nothing. I…um…just had a nightmare last night.”
He narrowed his eyes at her. She was lying again, and now she was desperately trying to avoid looking him in the eyes, “Kagome, you smell different.”
He knew he had shocked her; her eyes were now fixed upon his, and horror was seeping out of them. Something had happened to her, and she did not want him to find out what it was. She had probably gone so far as to wash it off of her.
“N-no I don't.”
Now it was his turn to be shocked. He had caught her in her lie. She knew that; he could see it in her face, and yet, she still denied him. Why wouldn't she tell him? Did she still not trust him to protect her? He sighed and decided to let the point pass for the moment. Maybe she just wasn't ready to talk about it now. He hoped she would feel better in the morning.
There we are. As always, please R&R! Stay tuned for chapter 6: Dreams. :)