InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Special delivery ❯ Doubt ( Chapter 26 )

Chapter 26: Doubt

 

 

A/N: I know the title of this chapter made you worry, now let's see if your worries were warranted :)

 

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Disclaimer: If I owned Inuyasha, Sesshy and Kagura would be happily mated and working on silver haired baby number three by now…

 

 

 

“Talking”

`Thoughts'

 

 

“I can't feel my arm...” The wind sorceress complained with a huff as she lay on her side completely naked in Sesshoumaru's bed, her head turned to the side, looking towards the window.

 

“When can I move? Can I even speak?” She asked, a grin on her lips as she turned her face to the left to look at her lover who was sitting next to her on the bed they had just shared.

 

“You can speak if you stop moving around.” He informed her as he made some small strokes of his pencil. “Before you start complaining again let me remind you, you were the one who asked to pose for this Sesshoumaru.”

 

“Shut up. Just so you know I didn't know it would take this freaking long. All I wanted to say was that I'm starving.” She retorted this time careful not to move.

 

“Just keep the pose a little while longer.” Sesshoumaru said on a gentler tone, doing his best to finish his drawing as fast as possible. “Once I will be done, I will make you breakfast.” He added making some more strokes on his piece of paper.

 

“It's fine I can cook breakfast. It's just on my list of chores for the day along with the huge pile of laundry...” She said with a small shrug. 'Maybe if I stopped dressing Kanna in white, I'd gain time when doing laundry. But she loves it, and she looks so cute in white...' Kagura could not help but think, a fond smile appearing on her lips at thinking about her dear daughter.

 

“You don't have to. In fact you should not have to do all these chores to begin with. You are already working at the office, which is enough. I will hire a housekeeper as soon as possible to lighten your workload... Actually I will call Jaken, that retainer father assigned to my service so long ago. He might as well do something useful for a change, and get the problem solved by tonight.” The dog demon said thoughtfully as he put down the sketch he had just finished.

 

“Why would you do that? There's no need to hire a housekeeper to do work that I can do. It's a waste of money.” Kagura said massaging the arm she had been resting on and turned around to face her lover.

 

“Money is really not an issue...” Sesshoumaru answered with a shrug. 'Why wouldn't she want me to make her life easier?' He wondered. A light frown formed on his brows as he remembered how Kagura had spent most of her free time on the past weekend scrubbing the entire penthouse. 'As much as I enjoy having a spotless environment for a change, Kagura does need to take it easy.' He thought to himself.

 

“And that's an issue...” Kagura muttered and she got to her feet.

 

`Now that we slept together, all of a sudden he's going to try to buy me off?! What? Does he think that he has to buy me things in order for me to sleep with him? Or is he trying to reward me for having sex with him by hiring help?!' She wondered her eyes suddenly burning in intensity. Meaning to cover herself, she picked up the blue satin dress she had been wearing the night before, which angered her even more.

 

“What is wrong?” The dog demon asked getting out of the bed as well. He was indeed confused by Kagura's sudden and, in his opinion unwarranted, apparent upset.

 

“Here! This is wrong.” The wind sorceress said brandishing the sapphire satin gown. “I told you before; I don't like having people spend money on me. And you've been ignoring my simple request to stop buying me stuff. I mean it's one thing to buy things for Kanna, but it's an entire different thing to spend all this on me.” She said running her fingers over the necklace at her throat.

 

“Kagura. Do not be ridiculous. So, I did not return your dress, and I let you borrow a necklace from my father's family… or are you upset because I offered to hire help? You have no reason to be mad; it is really not such a big deal.” Sesshoumaru said calmly. Even though he could not understand why she was getting this upset, he figured that trying to calm his lover down would be sure to dispel the growing tension between them.

 

'I see now why father used to say relationships are complicated. We barely started dating and are already arguing; maybe we jumped into a relationship too fast. We might have been better off staying friends...' He lamented resisting the urge to let out a tired sigh. 'What was I expecting? I should have guessed things would turn out this way, Kagura is infuriating and irresistible at the same time. Our personalities are too different for us not to butt heads...' He suddenly interrupted his dark thoughts, and as he looked at Kagura's beautiful naked figure, could not help but think 'We are strikingly different, but I doubt I would have been able to resist having a taste of her. As I should have expected, our relationship will probably be tried several times, but this only means we will have to work harder to make it work.'

 

Noticing that his earlier words had not appeased her in the least, Sesshoumaru then decided to compromise. “It was not my intention to make you feel uncomfortable. I promise to do my best to heed your demands from now on. However you should know it is my pleasure to buy things for you, therefore I will continue do to so. I do not have any ulterior motives other than my pleasure... In any case, I do not know if you realize it, but you always work hard to please the people around you. You have no need to do everything, let me take care of you for a change. Anyway why is it so hard for you to accept a simple gift?” He said the corners of his mouth turning downwards.

 

“It's not really like that... And anyway just so you know, I don't need to be taken care of.” Kagura corrected him with a sigh, feeling anger simmering inside her.

 

“Then enlighten me, for I am confused by what you want.” He said with caution as he walked towards her. The dog demon was growing slightly exasperated, but knew that showing his anger to Kagura would not do any good.

 

“I've lived in a materialistic world for a long time. Meaning that I've seen how money corrupts people's hearts and minds. But I want things to be different in my life this time around, and especially between us. Not to mention that I already owe you so much money...” She said with a sigh, recalling the abuse she had to endure under Naraku.

 

“Forget about that debt.” Sesshoumaru said not willing to explain to her it had all been a ploy to make sure she would not leave his side before he had had the time to make her his.

 

“I can't do that. We had an agreement and I intend to stick to it! No questions on that.” She exclaimed with determination. 'Besides with the crazy huge paycheck I received a few weeks ago I was able to pay most of the debt, and with the new one that's coming in two days I'll be able to pay Sesshoumaru back entirely and even put some money aside.' The wind sorceress thought once again amazed by her salary.

 

When she looked up at Sesshoumaru and noticed the small frown on his brows, she decided to elaborate what she meant.

 

“The truth is that I fear that this whole money thing will come between us. I may not know much about relationships and stuff, but at least I know that the two people kind of have to be on equal footing... or rather there has to be an exchange... and oh well what I mean is that you provide everything for Kanna and me, but I don't do anything for you…” She confessed, a cloud of sadness veiling her eyes. 'When we were just friends it wouldn't be an issue, but now that our relationship has evolved, it's different. I don't see why he can't understand that!'

 

“First of all the issue will not come between us if we don't let it.” Sesshoumaru stated as he stopped in front of her. “You are right. It is true that I come from a privileged environment and that money has never been lacking in my life. I am also aware that consequently I may not realize the value of money, not to mention that I can in some occasions be inconsiderate of other people's feelings...” Sesshoumaru said lowering his head to look in his lover's eyes.

 

“Hey! I didn't mean it like that. Don't put yourself down like that; you're not a monster like Naraku is.” Kagura frowned taking a fistful of Sesshoumaru's hair to pull on it, effectively getting his attention.

 

“Let me finish witch.” He said his lips twitching in amusement at her apparent obsession with his hair. “On the other hand I will not lie. I enjoy money. I enjoy the power it gives me. What I enjoy the most about it is that it gives me the power to create things I appreciate. Like this...” He interrupted to trace a finger over Kagura's lips. “I enjoy seeing you smile. You can not lie and have to admit that you do enjoy it when I offer you gifts. It is an expected reaction and there is nothing wrong with it.”

 

Sesshoumaru ended his sentence with a small nod, and removed his fingers from his lover's face. “A successful relationship is not a competition Kagura. There is no need to keep tabs on who did what, or gave what to the other. All you really need to do is feel good about yourself, and about us.”

 

'Feel good? I think I can do that, but I don't know if it's enough to make things work between us.' The wind sorceress thought with a sigh.

 

“I have spent some money on both you and your daughter, but you are working on paying me back. Not to mention that you do give me things in return…” The dog demon trailed off, not keen on admitting aloud how much the presence of Kagura and her daughter had brightened and changed his life for the better.

 

“Like what for example?” Kagura asked eager to find out. `Please don't answer sex.' She thought to herself, secretly hoping he would give an answer that would please her.

 

“To cite just an example... your friendship” Sesshoumaru grudgingly said. “I also trust you and care about you and your daughter.” He said recalling Kagura's confession of the previous night and expressing feelings similar to the wind sorceress's. “Many have tried to gain this Sesshoumaru's favor, but have failed. Kagura you have given me a true friendship, and that is priceless.” His words had warmed Kagura's heart, but it had not completely fought off some of her doubts.

 

“I guess you're right...” She had to admit, unable not to prevent some of her shame and bitterness from coming through to Sesshoumaru. She however now felt slightly foolish over her previous outburst.

 

The dog demon felt bad at Kagura's saddened expression, and tried to cheer her up.

 

“In my eyes, money would be an issue for us only if you were with me because of it. Usually women expect me to provide for them everything, and also to buy for them the most expensive things possible. You are different however. I am aware that had it not been for the desperate situation you found yourself in when we met, you never would have asked me for help. You are too proud for that, and in that respect we are similar...” He trailed off, a faint smile gracing his lips before he continued speaking.

 

“Even since back then you asked only the bare minimum from me, which was mainly shelter. Not many would have taken this road. Unlike you who decided to work in exchange for my help, I am sure someone else would have asked me to give them a check, and would then be on their way. Even now, despite all that has happened between us, you are still insisting on repaying me. This is a proof of your strength, which I admire.” His softly spoken words made Kagura flush in pure pleasure.

 

“You find me strong?” She gasped in surprise. `No one has ever said that to me.' She told herself, a delightful warm feeling forming in her chest as her eyes shinned brightly.

 

“You are.” Sesshoumaru simply answered bending down to press a tender kiss to her lips. “I trust this conversation will dispel any discomfort that may have existed. I am glad we spoke; at least there will not be any more confusion or lies between us. We probably should have talked about all this before taking our friendship to the… next level, but in the end it all worked out for the best.” The dog demon said cautiously hoping things would go smoothly from now on between them.

 

Kagura turned her head to the side a wave of disgust suddenly rising into her throat. She was not even able to look at her lover anymore 'He's opening up and being so honest with me, but I'm so pathetic that I still can't bring myself to tell him the whole truth about who I truly am...'

 

“Oh shit! It's already so late?! We've got to go pick up Kanna.” The wind sorceress gasped in shock as she saw that it was already three o'clock in the afternoon. Even though it was true that they were late, she was also glad to have managed to change the subject.

 

“Let us get dressed then.” Sesshoumaru said with a regretful sigh. Even if he dared not voice his apprehension, the dog demon feared how things would be between Kagura and him once Kanna came back. 'Will Kagura still welcome my caresses so eagerly?' He wondered as he put a T-shirt on.

 

 

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“Keh! You and that kid are so alike it's fucking creepy!” Inuyasha growled addressing his brother as soon as he and Kagura stepped inside the hanyou's apartment.

 

“She does that stare thingy when she won't even speak to me and looks at me in silence forever, just like you enjoy doing. If I didn't know any better, I'd say that kid is yours. Fucking creepy.” Inuyasha then added crossing his arms over his chest.

 

“Kanna simply does not like speaking with people whose intellectual abilities are lacking. It is true that in this regard she is indeed similar to me.” Sesshoumaru said a hint of almost fatherly pride shining in his voice.

 

'What are these two talking about? Damn maybe we should discuss Sesshoumaru's role with Kanna... I didn't even think about that. Well at least I know she likes him and he'll treat her well... Still I've got to address that issue with the two of them...' Kagura thoughts were interrupted when she heard light footsteps running towards her.

 

“Mommy!” Kanna squealed happily as she ran towards her mother and Sesshoumaru a smile on her lips.

 

“Looks like someone had a nice night.” Kagura said as she happily took her daughter in her arms, pressing a kiss to both of her cheeks.

 

“Feh! Looks like she's not the only one...” The half dog demon grumbled as he observed Kagura and his brother thoughtfully. His keen sense of smell had just told him everything that had transpired between the two lovers the night before.

 

“Oh hey Kagura! Sesshoumaru.” Kagome said with a smile as she walked towards the entrance hall of her boyfriend's apartment, Shippou in her arms. “So, how was the gala? I want details!” She exclaimed happily.

 

Kagura blushed uncomfortably at her friend's question before answering “It was nice, but we didn't stay long...” She hoped her evasive answer would be enough to satisfy Kagome.

 

“Oh? Why not?” Kagome asked in surprise as she put down the red haired fox demon next to his father.

 

The wind sorceress tried coming up with a decent excuse, but her mind drew blank. Thankfully a sudden interruption from her daughter saved her.

 

“Sesshoumaru” Kanna breathed out as she extended her arms expectantly towards the dog demon. To the wind sorceress's surprise, he directly understood what the toddler wanted and took Kanna from her mother's embrace and tenderly cradled her in his arms before caressing her head.

 

“Kagome, why don't you give Kagura a tour of my brother's apartment? Inuyasha and I have some catching up to do.” The dog demon addressed his brother's secretary.

 

“Oh hell no, I so don't want to talk about your romantic life, that's right up Miroku's alley, not mine!” Inuyasha complained a horrified expression on his face.

 

“Let us go.” Sesshoumaru said ignoring his brother's retort and verbal protest as he shoved Inuyasha towards the corridor of his own apartment. “Kanna, you can resume playing with Shippou.” The dog demon addressed the child in his arms as he put her softly on the ground. Kanna wasted no time to comply as she walked towards her best friend.

 

“Walk faster.” Sesshoumaru instructed as he pushed his brother forward once more.

 

“I believe it is time to put father's heirloom in the west to use.” The dog demon said bearing his golden eyes into his younger brother's. The two of them were standing in Inuyasha's bedroom, facing each other, the door tightly closed.

 

Sesshoumaru did his best not to show any reaction to the lingering scents of both Inuyasha and Kagome, which gave him an open window into the couple's private life, which was more information than he cared to have ever found out.

 

“Hum interesting. Keh! What do you have in mind? A little road trip?” Inuyasha asked raising an eyebrow in surprise.

 

“What is it to you? This Sesshoumaru did not say you were invited...” The eldest sibling growled.

 

“Well as I do, you do know that in order to use the house you'd need my permission. Since we both own the it after all...” Inuyasha trailed off inspecting his claws with a tiny smirk on his lips.

 

“Are you threatening me little brother?” The full fledged demon asked towering over Inuyasha, his golden eyes darkening in annoyance.

 

“No. My wench has been bugging me about the fact that I don't ever do anything special for her. She's been blabbering on and on about how I can be more romantic now that we don't have to hide no more...” He frowned remembering Kagome's words of the previous night. 'If only she knew I had reservations to that French restaurant she heard about, she wouldn't be bugging me that much.'

 

“Why do you always have to try to steal what is mine? Even my ideas you have to try and appropriate Inuyasha.” Sesshoumaru reflected on his relationship with his brother.

 

“Keh! Be honest don't you think that your witch would be glad to have her friends around?” The younger half sibling then suggested.

 

'That idiot may not be wrong on this point...' Sesshoumaru thought. “Fine you may come along.”

 

“That road trip idea does sound good. Can the lecher come too?” Inuyasha asked scratching his twitching ear.

 

“I guess so. This Sesshoumaru is aware the two of you are inseparable, and have been for quite a long time.” The older sibling answered with a mocking smirk.

 

“Very funny bastard. So when do we leave?” Inuyasha asked already picturing their trip.

 

“As soon as possible half-breed.” Sesshoumaru shot back with a smirk as he turned around and walked out of his younger half sibling's bedroom.

 

 

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“Hey Kagome I have a question.” Kagura said softly after she made sure Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru were gone.

 

“I will answer if you tell me about what happened between Sesshoumaru and you. The way he looks at you makes me guess that something went on yesterday night...” The chocolate eyed woman retorted a shining light in her eyes.

 

“Forget it then” Kagura muttered with a frown.

 

“Okay, fine I'm sorry. What was it you wanted to ask?” The human said apologetically doing her best to keep a pout off her lips.

 

“How do you deal with your relationship with Inuyasha?... In particular the monetary aspect of it.” Kagura let out, unsure if confiding into Kagome was a good idea. 'Then again it's not like I have anyone else to talk with...'

 

“When I started seeing Inuyasha I was afraid of that. I'm sure you know all about the 'secretary dating her boss for his money and a promotion stereotype'. He wanted to protect me, in truth that's mostly why we had kept our relationship a secret for so long.” The dark haired human said as she settled on the couch and with a hand gesture invited Kagura to join her.

 

“Protect and provide... I have more of a problem with the provide part...” The wind sorceress remarked with a snort, rolling her eyes as she sat down on Inuyasha's dark red leather couch.

 

“If I were you, I wouldn't worry too much about it. Not only are they men, but they're also dog demons, which explains their protective behavior. All you have to do is slap his doggie paw away when he goes too far. For example I had to put my foot down when Inuyasha wanted to buy me a new car. One matching his vibrant red sports car to be precise...” Kagome trailed off with an amused chuckle. “The reason I'm with Inuyasha is because I love him, not because of his bank account. Inuyasha knows it, and so do I. And when all is said and done, it's all that matters, no?” Kagome finished a broad smile on her lips.

 

“I see.” Kagura breathed out, her mind working fast. 'I guess Kagome and Sesshoumaru are right, I shouldn't worry about the whole money angle of our relationship. Damn it Kagura! You finally have a relationship with a caring, intelligent man, who gets along with your daughter, and all you can find to do is doubt?! I need to stop being a fool.' She berated herself. 'Where was this sense of doubt when I was getting deceived by Shinichi?' She thought with a snort.

 

“If you're asking me all this, does it mean that you and Sesshoumaru are together?” Kagome asked a hopeful glint in her dark eyes.

 

“I'm still not telling.” Kagura informed her with a smirk as she stood up.

 

“Fine! I'm giving up.” The miko promised. 'At least for now...' She mentally added with a smirk. “Why don't we go to the park?” She then proposed a smile on her lips. Since she wanted to change Kagura's mind, and maybe make her confide some more into her, Kagome supposed a change of setting would help. The young human also figured playing outside would do the children some good.

 

“Oh yeah I want to play on the swings with Kanna.” Shippou answered smiling broadly.

 

“I want to play too.” Kanna said sending a smile at her mother.

 

“Then you guys put your coats on and we can leave.” The wind sorceress smiled back.

 

 

To be continued...

 

 

A/N: Kagura's doubts have been laid to rest, for now? How will Kanna deal with the relationship of our fave couple? Next time we may find out what Sesshy has been plotting with Inuyasha. The chapter will be named Explanations.