InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Special delivery ❯ Explosion ( Chapter 37 )

Chapter 37:Explosion

 

 

A/N: I've written, scratched down, and rewrote this chapter so many times! I'm kind of nervous about it, but do hope you will enjoy it. Ah and remember it is the holidays season, so be merciful on me lol.

 

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Jinxy-sama

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Mali (The normal length of a chapter for me is around 2,500-3,000 words, but lately I have been doing extremely long 4,000 words chapters depending on my dear muse. This one is super long, so I hope you enjoy.)

 

Kagura's number one fan (Strangely many people are blaming Sesshoumaru for his lack of honesty, but Kagura could have been more honest as well.)

 

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Disclaimer: If I owned Inuyasha, Sesshy and Kagura would be happily mated and working on silver haired baby number three by now…

 

 

“Talking”

`Thoughts'

 

 

'Damn that evil bastard of Naraku! I will not let him destroy the family I have gained. I will do whatever it takes to protect Kanna and Kagura from him.' The dog demon's thoughts were interrupted when none other than the woman he had just swore to protect barged into his office.

 

Noticing Kagura's upset by her facial expression, he did his best to school his features and pretend he had not just talked to Naraku. Even though he was worried about what Naraku might do next, Sesshoumaru did not want Kagura to worry or be involved with her father in any way.

 

“Is something the matter?” He asked, then as he realized only one thing could cause Kagura to be this upset he added fear gripping his chest “Is Kanna alright?”

 

“Yes she's fine, but I'm not. What the fuck does that mean?” The wind sorceress asked as she slammed the legal document she had found earlier on her boyfriend's desk.

 

“It is a proof of a payment being received…” He dismissed the matter. Considering the threat of Naraku over their heads, and the nature of the secret Kagura had been hiding and that he had just found out about, Sesshoumaru felt as if the deal he had made with Shinichi was quite unimportant.

 

“Duh! I got that part; even I'm not that stupid! Why didn't you tell me about buying off Shinichi? I thought you'd tell me something so important. You promised to be honest with me, didn't you?” The wind sorceress asked a dark frown still on her face.

 

Sesshoumaru twitched at her accusation and use of the word `honesty'. During his conversation with Naraku, he had done his best not to let his anger burst out, as he needed to keep a calm mind if he was to defeat the half spider demon. For this reason he had not pondered much about the sudden revelation on his girlfriend's past, and had nicely tucked the information away, aiming to sort it out later on when anger and resentment would not be the major things on his mind. On the other hand Kagura's sudden, and in his opinion unwarranted, accusatory words brought all his feelings up to the surface. Despite his frosty disposition towards outwardly showing his feelings, he could feel them coming to the surface.

 

'Being honest?!' The dog demon thought angrily. 'She who has been lying to my face from the start, who played me for a fool, she dares speak of honesty?!' He thought his protective feelings for Kagura being pushed away by a strong fury He felt hurt and betrayed, and all of a sudden he wanted to hurt Kagura in return, he felt as if seeing her in pain would make him feel better.

 

“What were you thinking?! You made Shinichi give up his parental rights on MY daughter, without asking me? Without even telling me?!” Kagura roared angrily, not even noticing the dog demon's own upset.

 

At the simple mention of her ex boyfriend's name, he felt his anger grow. Not wanting to scare Kagura, he took long, deep, calming breaths before answering. As much as earlier his mind had strayed and wondered about hurting the wind sorceress, the dog demon knew how ludicrous the idea was. He cared too much for her to be able to hurt her.

 

`As angry as I may be with her, I know I would never deliberately hurt her, or do her any harm.' Sesshoumaru told himself as he took to his feet. He then walked around his massive desk and faced the woman who had been sharing his bed for the past month and a half.

 

“Kagura. There is no reason to argue about this; it is quite simple. What I did, I did to protect you. All I want is to protect you and make you happy.” He let out, relieved to have managed to get a reign on his emotions before doing something he might have regretted.

 

'As unfortunate as it is for Kagura to have found out, and try to confront me now, we shouldn't be arguing. Nor will I take my anger for Naraku out on her. He will have what is coming for him later on... that is if I manage to get my plan into action. To implement it I need to do many things, and therefore right now I really do not have time to quarrel with Kagura.' Sesshoumaru thought his mind already fast at work on punishing his lover's father. `He will find out what happens to anyone who dares mess with this Sesshoumaru.'

 

“Ugh stop it with this protecting crap! Don't you dare patronize me! I don't need protection. I can handle myself.” She spat at him, vexed he did not think her strong enough to take care of herself.

 

'It's so fucking infuriating! How can he not understand that I am able to look after myself, and that I don't want, or need to rely on anyone other than myself.' The wind sorceress thought angered.

 

“I wanted to do what would be best for both Kanna and you.” The dog demon said lightly, trying to dismiss the problem as he did during their last argument, which had taken place after their first night together. He was sure a few soothing words would be able to lay Kagura's mind to rest. Feeling reassured, he gave his wristwatch a quick glance, checking to see if he would have enough time to put his plan into action before midnight.

 

“I can take these kinds of decisions myself. I know what is best for us.” She retorted, her crimson eyes glinting brightly. “I'm tired of people trying to rule my life for me. Telling me what I should do or what would be best for me. My father did that enough...” The wind sorceress sighed.

 

“Don't you dare even insinuate this Sesshoumaru is anything like that scumbag!” He suddenly cut her, angry that she dared compare the two of them. Her words had gotten his full attention, and his plans of taking revenge on Naraku had suddenly been moved to the back of his mind. `Maybe this whole thing will be more complicated than I thought originally…' He thought keeping in a groan of despair, reassessing his take on the big argument he could feel coming.

 

“Oh yes like you're so different...” She spat scornfully. She quickly realized how hurtful her words were, but she however did not apologize. Kagura was at the time too consumed by her anger; not to mention that she aimed to use any means necessary to make her point come across, even if it might wound her lover. “You made decisions for me, and then lied to me about it. You knew I'd be mad; that's why you didn't tell me!”

 

“You were the one to say you were afraid Shinichi would take your daughter away.” Sesshoumaru reminded her.

 

“Yes, I did say that, but I wanted to find a solution by myself. Resolve my own problems!” She tried explaining her mind to him. “You can relate… I mean you don't go around telling me about your troubles and asking me to take care of them for you, do you?”

 

“That is a different matter; this Sesshoumaru can handle his own problems. In any case I doubt your help in such matters would be necessary.” He repressed the urge to wince when he noticed an expression of shock and sadness suddenly appear in Kagura's deep red eyes; she looked as if he had just slapped her.

 

“I didn't mean to say you are useless or hopeless. We are simply different people in different situations…” He trailed off, fumbling for a way to justify his behavior and words. Now that he was aware of Kagura's past occupation, and the inferior position she occupied under her father for so long, Sesshoumaru could better understand the wind sorceress's strong drive for independence.

 

`What she fails to understand is that the reasons behind Naraku's actions were to control her, take advantage of her, and make her suffer while all I want is to help and protect her!' The dog demon thought to himself.

 

“In any case is it not every woman's wish to have a man by her side who would take care of her? Tell me what is really so wrong with me taking care of your problems for you when I am more than able and willing to so?” He asked exasperated by her refusal to lean on him.

 

“First of all I'm not like every woman. Secondly helping me would be okay, but taking care of everything for me, is not! See that's what I meant earlier when I said I didn't want to be dependent on you! You don't see anything wrong with this, but I do! I already feel bad enough taking your money, but you making such life altering decisions for my daughter without even consulting me is way too much. It's true that I owe you a lot, and I'm very grateful for all you did for me… but being with you doesn't mean that it gives you power over me... or that you get to make decisions for Kanna… Maybe I really shouldn't have started working for you … it was surely a bad idea to begin with.” Kagura let out rubbing her forehead nervously. “It unbalances our relationship. You're way up there…” She interrupted herself to raise her left arm. “And I'm down here.” She added lowering her right hand; emphasizing the difference she felt existed between the two of them.

 

“Do not start with this again.” He sighed slightly exasperated. 'We already went over this balance and working at the agency business.'

 

“I'm sorry if you feel annoyed by this, but the truth is that I need to stop relying on you for everything, and maybe it starts with stopping to work for you.” She stated a frown on her brows.

 

“What else can you do Kagura? You do have to take care of your daughter, and as things stand you do not really have the means to do so, nor any other alternatives than accepting my help.” He wanted to make Kagura realize that staying by his side was the best option for Kanna and her, but as soon as the words left his lips, he once again regretted them. Knowing Kagura he was sure she was not going to take his remark well.

 

“Wow you think that the reason I've been with you all this time was to get money in order to take care of Kanna?!”

 

“Do not twist my words! I never said such a thing, nor do I believe you are this kind of woman. From the moment I met you, you did insist on working in exchange for your living expanses... Kagura we already covered this issue weeks ago and do not see why we are discussing it again. The difference of money between us is of no consequence… ”

 

“No consequence? Are you kidding me?!” She interrupted him. “That's what you'd like to think, but be honest on this one, with you money is everything. Anyways as you admitted yourself you enjoy the power money gives you, but not as you said to please people, but rather to manipulate them.” She took paused thinking back to what Sesshoumaru had said before adding. “Wait. What do you feel like you bought me and my daughter from Shin?... Oh no of course how did you put it again? Oh yes, it was to protect us! Well sorry to break it to you, but everything isn't about money and I can assure you money isn't what's been keeping me here… ” Trembling with rage, Kagura took the time to take a deep breath took a small pause to reorganize her thoughts

 

“You know you can't get power over everyone by throwing a few bills in their direction. I'm not like that bastard of Shin, and your money won't keep my by your side. I took that position at the agency because I wanted to, not because I had to in order to provide for my daughter. Besides I don't have any reasons to worry when it comes to taking care of Kanna since if you must know ever since I finished paying you back, I started saving up money. Not to mention that your agency is not the only damn place where I could get hired. Maybe I wasn't making as much money at the time I worked at Tsubaki's coffee shop as I do working for you, but I'm sure I could get a job as a waitress again and do a living out of it.” The wind sorceress said trying her best to keep her anger in.

 

`Does he think that without him I'm completely hopeless?! No wonder he thinks he can get away with orchestrating my life. I need to prove to him that I can be my own person and that I don't need his help to get by in life. I'm with him because I want to, not because I need his help.' The wind sorceress thought reassessing her relationship with Sesshoumaru. Suddenly the words Sousuke Yamashita had spoken to her the night of the gala came back to her mind.

 

*Flashback*

 

“How you make me laugh Kaze. You pretend to be such a strong woman, when in truth you are always hiding behind a man. You find me repulsive, but you're no different. You use men and throw them away. How is it different from what I do?”

 

*End of Flashback*

 

`That asshole was wrong. I am a strong woman, and I can make it without a man.' She repeated to herself, finding comfort in her own words .

 

“Maybe I should seriously get another job.” She murmured more to herself than to her boyfriend.

 

After her words were spoken, the two of them stayed in silence for a long time, staring at each other intently.

 

“Kagura.” Sesshoumaru suddenly broke the silence. “Why are sounding as if you are leaving?” He asked cautiously, apprehensive of what she might say,

 

“I don't know what to do Sesshoumaru. I really don't know. I've realized how much power you've come to have over my life… I mean you sign my weekly paychecks, you put a roof over my head, and I'm grateful for that, but I feel like you're directing my life or something, and I hate this feeling. Also the fact that you don't see where I'm coming from, that you don't see why I'm this angry... well it makes me think... maybe the two of us in a relationship is not working... maybe we need some time apart or something.” Kagura said her heart heavy in her chest, and tears budding in her eyes.

 

“Time apart? I am not sure I follow what you are saying” He said surprised, a feeling of fear and dread growing inside him.

 

“I mean as in a break 'time apart'.” She elaborated.

 

'I don't want to be away from Sesshoumaru, but I think it's necessary. He doesn't see eye to eye with me, and until that happens I doubt we'll be able to have a good healthy relationship. Not to mention that I now realize I need to be independent from him. From the moment he took Kanna and me out of Naraku's house, I've relied too much on him and that is a problem. Because of that he thinks that he can dictate my life... but he can't. I'm my own person and I need to prove it to him. He told me before that he thought I was strong, but now I have to prove it to him… and to myself. I have gone from Naraku's roof to Sesshoumaru's, and I haven't taken the time to find myself. I need to start fighting my own battles and stop counting on Sesshoumaru.' The wind sorceress thought quickly fighting the tears she could feel coming.

 

“What exactly do you think taking a break could possibly accomplish?” He asked, when what he really wanted to do was beg her not to leave him. He had grown extremely attached to both Kagura and her daughter, and the prospect of not having them near him filled his heart with an indescribable feeling of loss.

 

“I don't know. Maybe the fact that we live together made us burn stages we would have gone through had we met in different circumstances. I mean we went directly from being friends and roommates to dating...”

 

“You were not opposed to a relationship at the time.” He interrupted the wind sorceress.

 

“Yes, and I'm not saying us dating was… is a bad idea; I really love being with you. All I'm saying is that before going further, we should reassess this all us thing.”

 

“One stupid argument and now all of a sudden you want out?!” He asked as he thought 'Instead of going too fast, the problem is rather that we lacked honesty. This is a problem that can easily be resolved. There is no need for a break.' The anger coursing through him was so strong he was forced to clench his fists at his side to prevent himself from smashing them into the wall.

 

“No. I … we just ignored the signs that something wasn't right. I didn't say we're going to stop, but rather that...” She started, but was suddenly interrupted by a piercing look her boyfriend sent her.

 

“Make your decision Kagura. This Sesshoumaru does not do breaks. If you want to be with me, then your place is by my side, if not...” He trailed off, his threat hanging, staring straight into her eyes. 'She will of course realize how ludicrous her idea really is. She has feelings for me and therefore will easily forget this break business.' He thought confidently, his fists relaxing as he realized he probably had no actual reason to fear.

 

“Wow you're so full of yourself. Are you saying I'm selfish or something? Do you think I enjoy this situation? I don't. And besides I'm not the only one to blame. Had you not lied to me... Do you realize it was Shinichi of all people who told me the truth! Not you, my boyfriend, but Shin, my bastard of an ex.” Kagura spat at him angrily, blood red eyes burning in anger like bloody coals.

 

“Shinichi?!”Sesshoumaru growled, his eyes flashing red briefly. “I was not aware you were even still in contact with him.” It then occurred to the dog demon that although the legal papers Kagura had acquired on his desk were a proof of payment had been made to Kanna's biological father, they did not state the reason for said payment.

 

`How could I be so stupid?!' Sesshoumaru asked himself as Naraku's earlier words played in his head. Even though he could not see Kagura as the kind of woman to do such things, her father's words still rung in his head.

 

*Flashback*

 

I wonder why you are so protective of my daughter considering she is a blatant liar and a back stabbing bitch. I should know, she had no trouble betraying me to run away with you and her spawn. I shall give you a piece of advice, do not get too attached to my dear daughter. She uses men and will have no trouble lying to you to get whatever she wants from you.”

 

*End of Flashback*

 

“I haven't spoken to Shin since we broke up. The reason I even called him is that I wanted to get to the bottom of the truth.” The wind sorceress said looking away from her lover.

 

“Why not ask me for the truth? Do not tell me you would trust this bastard of Shinichi over me!” Even if he did not show it, the dog demon was deeply hurt. True Kagura had been dishonest about her past, but he still had hope that she trusted him, which to his dismay was apparently not the case.

 

“Yeah well. You haven't been honest with me otherwise you would have told me without me having to ask… Who knows what else you could be hiding from me?!” The wind sorceress accused him, a frown distorting her beautiful facial features.

 

“It is true that you on the other hand have been a model of honesty.” He snorted thinking back to Naraku's revelations, and especially to her past employment she had hid from him.

 

“What are you talking about? Is this about Shinichi? I told you I've had nothing to do with him in months, and anyways he has absolutely nothing to do with you and me!” The wind sorceress cried out, misunderstanding her lover's words.

 

“You are the one who brought him up not me.” The dog demon retorted not even bothering to hide the contempt in his voice.

 

“And more accusations… Damn it! I better get out of here before my head fucking explodes. I'm going to leave for a little while to breathe, think and clear my head before I get really mad and say something I will regret...if I haven't already done so.” She said doing her best to bottle in her anger and frustration before turning around and aiming for the door.

 

“Where are you going? Running away is not going to solve anything. We are not done discussing here.” Once he realized she was ignoring him and was still moving forward, he added “Kagura if you go through this door, we are finished.”

 

Her response to his words was immediate. Livid she turned around to scream at him “What the hell?! You're giving me ultimatums now? I am free, and you can't keep me locked inside your damn office against my will.”

 

Without another word she continued her progression towards the door, then just as she was about to reach it, she looked over her shoulder, and noticing the cold look of fury inside Sesshoumaru's eyes she spat at him “You really are more like Naraku than I thought.”

 

Her last accusation was the last straw for him. It caused a growl of fury to escape Sesshoumaru's lips.

 

“Kagura.” He called after her. Not getting any response from her, he used his demonic speed, and quickly caught up with the wind sorceress, and clutched her thin arm into his palm. “Do not be ridiculous, where would you go?” He asked her worried about the fact that Naraku was out there somewhere ready to use Kagura to get some money out of him. Based on what little he knew about the spider hanyou, the dog demon was sure he would not hesitate to harm either Kagura or Kanna, or even both, and only the idea of it sickened and frightened him.

 

“I'll figure something out. I've known how to take care of myself before meeting you, and I am sure I can still do it now!” She struggled against the grip he had on her arm.

 

She was moving so much that it was getting hard for the dog demon to hold on to her. Just as he was about to release her arm, his talons caught inside the sleeve of her shirt, tearing the white material apart. As soon as he the fabric let under his fingers, he immediately let go of her. The wind sorceress hissed in surprise then looked down at the tattered remains of her shirt's sleeve.

 

“Kagura I...” Sesshoumaru started, unable to finish his sentence. His gaze lowered claws, a mix of shock, worry and fear coursing through him. `Damn it. I could have hurt her badly.' Only thinking of the prospect made him wince.

 

“This was an accident. ...” The wind sorceress tried dismissing the matter quickly when she noticed the confused look on Sesshoumaru's face. “Besides you did pay for the shirt...” She tried a small note of humor, hoping to make him feel better. She frowned when she noticed he did not seem to have relaxed one bit. Little did she know that he was still contemplating what might have happened had his claws made actual contact with her soft pale skin.

 

“Hey Sessh look at me.” Kagura called for him, shaking him out of his dark thoughts. She rested her hand on his stripped cheek, gently cradling his face. “As I said, this was an accident; I know you'd never hurt me. Besides it's nothing; it's not like I was hurt or anything. It's just fabric, and I bet I could stitch it back up…”

 

“I am sorry.” He said in a grave voice, his eyes bearing down into hers. The wind sorceress knew that he was not only apologizing for tearing her shirt by accident, but also for the way she was feeling. A part of her knew it had never been his intention to control, manipulate, or hurt her, but she could not help but feel like this was what he had been doing to her.

 

“Not more than I am.” Kagura sighed throwing a small glance towards the door before averting her gaze back to her boyfriend. “I am to blame for a lot too. We both said some very hurtful and horrible things, and I think we need to calm down and cool our heads... for a bit. I'm going to take Kanna, and the two of us are going to leave for a little while. This time I'm not saying that out of anger... I really do think we need a little break.”

 

“The two of you do not have to actually leave. We could work something out. Maybe you could stop working here, and in exchange I could find you an employment somewhere else.” He said for two reasons. The first being that he simply did not want to part way with them, and the other that he was worried about Naraku being out there and intent on using Kagura and Kanna to get to his bank account.

 

“That won't cut it.” 'I guess he really doesn't get what I mean... seems like I'll have to show it to him then… and prove to him that I was serious.' “ I told you I want to be completely independent from you, and if it means leaving... then I'm ready to do it.”

 

“Independence is not an easy thing to have. We are all somehow bound… even I am.” He said his gaze straying to the office desk his father used to occupy, and that was now his. After his dad's passing Sesshoumaru had had no other choice than to take by the agency, even if it had not been in his immediate plans. `Would my life be different had I dared to try being independent of the Takahashi name? At the time of father's death, I was too worried about the family's future and of course the fear of losing my inheritance, and let both dictate my decisions. In a way maybe I envy the wind witch's strive for independence. From the moment I met Kagura, I knew she was a strong woman… It is possible that I have been a tad over protective, and that I should give her a chance to make her own decision…'

 

“At least I could try. I never really got a chance before.” Kagura sighed wondering about the strange look that had come over her boyfriend's face.

 

Sesshoumaru rested his hands on both of her shoulders, gently rubbing her skin with his thumbs. “I see… So... you are really leaving me…?” He then asked her, a sick feeling settling inside him, his heart feeling unusually heavy in his chest.

 

“No it's not like that... I mean yeah... I don't really want to, but I think it's necessary. Anyways I may be going, but it's not a goodbye. It's just a break... I promise I'll be back.” She mustered a smile even if she had to work hard not to have tears leak from her eyes, which had lost some of their previous bright red hue, and were now a dull red.

 

Rising on the tip of her toes, Kagura placed a kiss on Sesshoumaru's lips. It took him a while to respond, but having her delicious red lips working his was a temptation too great for even his legendary self control to resist. A small moan caught in her throat when he pushed his tongue pass her lips. The two of them closed their eyes enjoying their deep kiss, trying to make it last as long as possible.

 

Once they broke apart, breathless, she took the time to give him a bone crushing hug, which he eagerly returned. After taking the time to commit to his mind the way her curves fit perfectly into his body, without exchanging any words, he let go of her. Afraid she might change her mind, Kagura quickly left his office.

 

As he saw the woman he had come to care for so much leave his side, the dog demon clenched his fists, having to physically refrain himself from following her, and dragging her back to his side, where he felt she belonged.

 

`There is no need to go to such an extreme.' He unclenched his fist. `The witch will be back. I will make sure of it.' He vowed to himself as he took his cell phone and dialed the number of his lawyer; he had an annoying hanyou to get rid of.

 

 

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When Kagura heard the door of Sesshoumaru's office close behind her, panic gripped her chest once she realized how big of a mistake she might have just made. She had barely made a few steps on her own, and she was already missing the comfort and security of Sesshoumaru's arms. It took a lot of effort from her part not to turn around and go back to him. 'No. I've made a decision and I will stick to it.' She tried encouraging herself.

 

After somewhat reassuring herself, she took a deep calming breath and focused her mind on her daughter who was waiting for her in the nursery.

 

“Now what?” Kagura asked herself as she looked towards the empty hallway leading out of Sesshoumaru's office, and possibly his life.

 

 

To be continued...

 

 

 

 

A/N: I guess that's the part where I'm supposed to hide from you guys lol. You may be angry with me right now, but you've got to agree that this was necessary, no? I know Sesshoumaru came off a little arrogant, but he was mad and a little over confident...

 

We'll see next time how Kagura will try getting back on her feet, and how Sesshoumaru is going to deal with the situation. The next chapter will be named Dispersal.