InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Speed of Pain ❯ Chapter 1
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: Shinobi-chan 
Catching Inuyasha doing something, Kagome does something about it.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): / Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 06.30.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.6K | Visits: 541 | Status: Completed
Catching Inuyasha doing something, Kagome does something about it.
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): / Angst | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 06.30.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.6K | Visits: 541 | Status: Completed
Speed of Pain
Rated: R
By: Shinobi-chan
Well, my first song fic in so very long. This story just popped into my mind when I listened to this song. Song is called Speed of pain by Marilyn Manson and it just inspired me to write. This One shot fic contains the gracious use of the word "Fuck" and really shouldn't be read by young kids. Reviews are welcome. Flames, I don't want. I really hope this story turns out ok, but *shrugs* I tried. This is an AU Fic, so everyone lives in the present.
Inuyasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi, not me. I've got no job, no money. Please don't sue.
"Talking"
'Thoughts'
//Lyrics\\
//They slit our throats
Like we were flowers
And our milk has been devoured
When you want it, it goes away too fast
Times you hate it, it always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me\\
Kagome sat on the cold floor of her room, absent eyes staring straight ahead. Her heart ached. Twisted with pain, with betrayal as the images constantly replaying in her mind. She felt tears fill her eyes, but she ignored them as they overflowed and fled down her cheeks, making pathways on her once, dry cheeks. Slowly, she unfolded her body and stood up, unsteadily on her feet before being able to stand straight. Walking over to her dresser, pulling it open to reach inside. Pulling out a small shoe box, she then closed her dresser with a hard push, causing the dresser to wobble and the items that stood on top of the dresser to shake, than fall, shattering onto the floor.
Slowly walking to her desk, she pulled out a pocketknife and a lighter, grabbing her trashcan before dropping onto the floor.
Pulling off the cardboard top of the box, she tossed it away and focused on the contents of the box. Reaching inside of the box, she pulled out pictures, mementos and several items over the years. Dropping the items in her hands onto the floor, she pushed the box away with her foot. Slowly, her gazed skimmed over the pictures. One particular picture caught her eye and she picked it up, looking at it with dead eyes.
It was the picture that was taken on her and Inuyasha's first date. In the picture, Inuyasha was blushing slightly as he held her hand, looking off into the opposite direction of her face.
Putting the picture off to the side, she picked up several others, some of her, her boyfriend, Inuyasha and her twin sister, Kikyou. In several pictures, she noticed that she was the only one looking into the camera while the other two where gazing at each other. She gave a sarcastic laugh as she tore the pictures of the three of them into pieces.
//I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...
I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...\\
Sifting through the pictures, she found a single one of Inuyasha, who was glaring off into the distance at some unknown picture. She remembered that she had taken this picture after school, at his house. While holding the picture of Inuyasha, she reached for her pocketknife, flipping it open. Putting the picture on her knee, she held her forefinger over the picture and pressed the blade against the front of her finger, barely wincing when the flesh broke and brought blood to the surface. Dropping the knife onto the floor, she let the blood drip onto the picture.
//I wish I could sleep
But I can't lay on my back
Because there's a knife for everyday
That I've known you\\
Going through the rest of the items, she separated them into piles. One pile for pictures of Her and Inuyasha, or the three of them and the presents, cards that Inuyasha had given to her. The second pile for pictures and other items from her other friends, friends that knew what was going on behind her back. Blinking her eyes, she rubbed her fingers over her cheeks and eyes, smearing the blood that still oozed from her cut on her finger.
Pulling her knees to her chest, she laid her arms on her knees and placed her head on her arms. This was it. Last night, she had caught her boyfriend of two years fucking her twin sister. The boyfriend, who had, the night before she caught him, proclaimed his love for her and had given her a promise ring.
She snorted. Promise ring, her ass. What promise? Promise to love her, yet fuck her sister on the side? The night before, she had gone over to his house to give him something she had been working up to save for. A specially ordered and designed ring for their anniversary, a ring that she worked hard to earn for him. But when she walked to his room, she noticed that the door to his room was ajar. Peeking around the corner, her eyes widened at the sight. Her so called boyfriend on his knees, fucking her sister like the bitch she was. Her hands trembled around the ring box that she held. Shocked, she stood there for a few minutes before the roar of "KIKYOU" brought her out of her stupor. Spinning on her heel, she walked quickly and quietly down the hall and down the stairs. She had paused at the front door, and gave one, last sad glance towards the stairs before silently opening the door, than closing it behind her.
Her hands trembled and shook with betrayal and anger. Tears flooded her eyes and spilled upon her cheeks. Taking off in a mad dash, she ran home, where sobs shook her body as she cried. Now she knew why her friends where acting weird around her. How they'd look away when Inuyasha was near her. They must have known that was going on.
Her head jolted up when the door to her room slammed opened. Her now red eyes stared at the intruder who stared at her as if he didn't know who she was.
//When you want it, it goes away too fast
Times you hate it, it always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me\\
Pushing herself up to her feet, she stared at him with betrayal etched in her eyes, yet he looked at her with confusion.
Inuyasha stood in the doorway of his girlfriend's room. The metallic smell of blood and tears reached his nose and he took a step forward, noticing the drying blood on her blank, yet flushed face.
"Kagome.." He whispered as he walked forward with his hand outstretched towards her arm, but was knocked away with a swing of her arm.
"Don't fucking touch me you bastard!" She hissed at him, causing him to take a step backwards. Inwardly, she smirked at his confusion and hurt on his face. She knelt down and picked up both the pocketknife and the lighter before giving Inuyasha her full attention.
"What's wrong, love?" he asked, confused at why she would act this way towards him. But deep inside of his heart, he knew why she was acting this way, but chose to ignore it.
"Love? You have some nerve calling me that. But hey, since you claim to love me, care to explain what you where doing last night?" She demanded, her lips curling into a snarl, unlike her.
//I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...
I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...\\
Inuyasha swallowed deeply as his heart clenched. She knew. How the fuck did she find out?
"Nothing happened baby, I was home all alone, doing homework." He explained while lying straight though his teeth. Maybe, just maybe he could weasel his way out of this with Kagome still being with him.
Kagome could feel her eyes widened, then narrow at his lousy attempt to lie to her. Her hand unconsciously tightened around the pocketknife, feeling the sharp blade dig into the palm of her right hand until blood started to flow from the fresh wound. 'How dare he lie to me, that little fuck. He's trying to save his sorry ass by pretending last night never happened.
Dropping the pocketknife, she raised her right hand and slapped him across the face, smearing her blood across his cheek.
"Don't you fucking lie to me you Bastard! I know what you did last night. Fucking my sister on your bed last night," she spat out, as she advanced on him, trying to corner him. "And on our Anniversary too." She shook her head and laughed menacingly.
//Lie to me cry to me give to me I would
Lie with me die with me give to me I would\\
"So what? Its not like you where giving me any, so why not take up an offer when its presented to me" He snorted, looking down at her with arrogance. Deep in his heart, he knew that what he had said was the wrong thing to say. He looked at his girlfriend, and noticed that she had taken a step back. He watched her pick up the items on the floor and dump them into trash can.
Taking a several steps forward, he also noticed that inside of the trash can was the recent birthday present he had given her, a bear holding a heart that said "Happy Birthday" as well as several of his items that he had left in her room over the two years that they where going out.
"So, that's what you really think? That because I didn't put out for you, didn't spread my legs like the whore my sister is, you'd go and fuck her?" She asked, laying the crude language on thick.
"That's just rich," She laughed sarcastically while looking at her soon to be ex-boyfriend. "You know, I had plan on giving you this," She reached over to her bed, and underneath her pillow, she pulled out the ring box. Popping the top open, she showed him the four hundred dollar ring that she worked so hard to save up for. "For our anniversary, since you gave me a ring. But now the ring you gave me is fucking useless now, isn't it?"
Inuyasha's eyes widened at the sight of the ring that she showed him. He knew that she had been working, but the sight of the ring caused his mind to click. She was working to buy him that.
"It would have been an anniversary present as well as a somewhat promise ring for you, but you blew it didn't you? Had to go chasing a slut just for some sex. How long Inuyasha? How long have you been fucking her?" She demanded of him. "A week? Two weeks? What? Too afraid to answer?"
//Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair...
Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair...\\
"But it doesn't matter now, does it? Since you've been fucking my sister, I guess that means the promise ring is useless now." Closing the box that was in her hand, she shoved it into the pocket of her jeans. Bringing her left hand, she pulled off the small gold band that held a single emerald and dropped into the trash with the rest of the items that he had given her.
Ignoring the stunned Inuyasha, she pulled open the top drawer of her desk and pulled out an white envelope. Turning back to Inuyasha, she waved it at him.
"Know what this is?" She waited for a second before continuing. "Probably not, but then, you've been busy." Opening the envelope, she pulled out a large glossy picture of both her and Inuyasha on their prom night, both dressed up for the special day. Glaring at the picture, she turned it over and showed it to Inuyasha. "See? I bet, right after this night, you where bedding her after dropping me off. Hell, no wonder she came home late that night and limping. Probably fucked her hard, several times, huh?"
//Lie to me cry to me give to me I would
Lie with me die with me give to me I would\\
Dropping the white envelope into the trash, she held the large picture in her left hand while she flicked the lighter on, holding it up to a corner of the picture, watching it catch fire quickly. Dropping the picture into the trashcan, she stepped back, watching as the items in the trash catch fire. Her eyes gleamed as she looked at the trashcan, than at Inuyasha.
"Just think of it this way, Inuyasha. We're over. No promise, no nothing. Get the fuck out of my life, I never want to see you sorry ass again. We're through!" She stated angrily, crossing her arms over her chest, enjoying the pain that etched his face. Even laughing at his pain.
"But Kagome, please, let me explain" he uttered, wishing he could take back the comment of his cheating on her because she wouldn't put out for him. Pain washed over him and his heart clenched at her words. Wishing that he never took up Kikyou's offer to fuck.
"Hurts, doesn't it? What we had together was nothing to you, wasn't it? I hope, the next time you see me on the street, you feel the pain as I embrace a lover. I hope you remember the pain you caused me the next time you fuck Kikyou because the next time I see you, it won't be you that I'll be holding, it will be a lover who will please me and not cheat on me like your sorry ass did"
With that, she walked past Inuyasha, leaving him standing silently in her room as pain of her words hit him.
//Hope that we die holding hands always...
Hope that we die holding hands always...
Hope that we die holding hands always...\\
And in the background, he heard the sounds of slapping and yelling at Kikyou. She was gone, and it was his entire fault.
~~~~
Well that kind of sucked, didn't it? I hope its ok, since it's my first try at an angst fic. It's been so long since I've written a song fic.
Rated: R
By: Shinobi-chan
Well, my first song fic in so very long. This story just popped into my mind when I listened to this song. Song is called Speed of pain by Marilyn Manson and it just inspired me to write. This One shot fic contains the gracious use of the word "Fuck" and really shouldn't be read by young kids. Reviews are welcome. Flames, I don't want. I really hope this story turns out ok, but *shrugs* I tried. This is an AU Fic, so everyone lives in the present.
Inuyasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi, not me. I've got no job, no money. Please don't sue.
"Talking"
'Thoughts'
//Lyrics\\
//They slit our throats
Like we were flowers
And our milk has been devoured
When you want it, it goes away too fast
Times you hate it, it always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me\\
Kagome sat on the cold floor of her room, absent eyes staring straight ahead. Her heart ached. Twisted with pain, with betrayal as the images constantly replaying in her mind. She felt tears fill her eyes, but she ignored them as they overflowed and fled down her cheeks, making pathways on her once, dry cheeks. Slowly, she unfolded her body and stood up, unsteadily on her feet before being able to stand straight. Walking over to her dresser, pulling it open to reach inside. Pulling out a small shoe box, she then closed her dresser with a hard push, causing the dresser to wobble and the items that stood on top of the dresser to shake, than fall, shattering onto the floor.
Slowly walking to her desk, she pulled out a pocketknife and a lighter, grabbing her trashcan before dropping onto the floor.
Pulling off the cardboard top of the box, she tossed it away and focused on the contents of the box. Reaching inside of the box, she pulled out pictures, mementos and several items over the years. Dropping the items in her hands onto the floor, she pushed the box away with her foot. Slowly, her gazed skimmed over the pictures. One particular picture caught her eye and she picked it up, looking at it with dead eyes.
It was the picture that was taken on her and Inuyasha's first date. In the picture, Inuyasha was blushing slightly as he held her hand, looking off into the opposite direction of her face.
Putting the picture off to the side, she picked up several others, some of her, her boyfriend, Inuyasha and her twin sister, Kikyou. In several pictures, she noticed that she was the only one looking into the camera while the other two where gazing at each other. She gave a sarcastic laugh as she tore the pictures of the three of them into pieces.
//I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...
I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...\\
Sifting through the pictures, she found a single one of Inuyasha, who was glaring off into the distance at some unknown picture. She remembered that she had taken this picture after school, at his house. While holding the picture of Inuyasha, she reached for her pocketknife, flipping it open. Putting the picture on her knee, she held her forefinger over the picture and pressed the blade against the front of her finger, barely wincing when the flesh broke and brought blood to the surface. Dropping the knife onto the floor, she let the blood drip onto the picture.
//I wish I could sleep
But I can't lay on my back
Because there's a knife for everyday
That I've known you\\
Going through the rest of the items, she separated them into piles. One pile for pictures of Her and Inuyasha, or the three of them and the presents, cards that Inuyasha had given to her. The second pile for pictures and other items from her other friends, friends that knew what was going on behind her back. Blinking her eyes, she rubbed her fingers over her cheeks and eyes, smearing the blood that still oozed from her cut on her finger.
Pulling her knees to her chest, she laid her arms on her knees and placed her head on her arms. This was it. Last night, she had caught her boyfriend of two years fucking her twin sister. The boyfriend, who had, the night before she caught him, proclaimed his love for her and had given her a promise ring.
She snorted. Promise ring, her ass. What promise? Promise to love her, yet fuck her sister on the side? The night before, she had gone over to his house to give him something she had been working up to save for. A specially ordered and designed ring for their anniversary, a ring that she worked hard to earn for him. But when she walked to his room, she noticed that the door to his room was ajar. Peeking around the corner, her eyes widened at the sight. Her so called boyfriend on his knees, fucking her sister like the bitch she was. Her hands trembled around the ring box that she held. Shocked, she stood there for a few minutes before the roar of "KIKYOU" brought her out of her stupor. Spinning on her heel, she walked quickly and quietly down the hall and down the stairs. She had paused at the front door, and gave one, last sad glance towards the stairs before silently opening the door, than closing it behind her.
Her hands trembled and shook with betrayal and anger. Tears flooded her eyes and spilled upon her cheeks. Taking off in a mad dash, she ran home, where sobs shook her body as she cried. Now she knew why her friends where acting weird around her. How they'd look away when Inuyasha was near her. They must have known that was going on.
Her head jolted up when the door to her room slammed opened. Her now red eyes stared at the intruder who stared at her as if he didn't know who she was.
//When you want it, it goes away too fast
Times you hate it, it always seems to last
But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me\\
Pushing herself up to her feet, she stared at him with betrayal etched in her eyes, yet he looked at her with confusion.
Inuyasha stood in the doorway of his girlfriend's room. The metallic smell of blood and tears reached his nose and he took a step forward, noticing the drying blood on her blank, yet flushed face.
"Kagome.." He whispered as he walked forward with his hand outstretched towards her arm, but was knocked away with a swing of her arm.
"Don't fucking touch me you bastard!" She hissed at him, causing him to take a step backwards. Inwardly, she smirked at his confusion and hurt on his face. She knelt down and picked up both the pocketknife and the lighter before giving Inuyasha her full attention.
"What's wrong, love?" he asked, confused at why she would act this way towards him. But deep inside of his heart, he knew why she was acting this way, but chose to ignore it.
"Love? You have some nerve calling me that. But hey, since you claim to love me, care to explain what you where doing last night?" She demanded, her lips curling into a snarl, unlike her.
//I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...
I wanna outrace the speed of pain
For another day...\\
Inuyasha swallowed deeply as his heart clenched. She knew. How the fuck did she find out?
"Nothing happened baby, I was home all alone, doing homework." He explained while lying straight though his teeth. Maybe, just maybe he could weasel his way out of this with Kagome still being with him.
Kagome could feel her eyes widened, then narrow at his lousy attempt to lie to her. Her hand unconsciously tightened around the pocketknife, feeling the sharp blade dig into the palm of her right hand until blood started to flow from the fresh wound. 'How dare he lie to me, that little fuck. He's trying to save his sorry ass by pretending last night never happened.
Dropping the pocketknife, she raised her right hand and slapped him across the face, smearing her blood across his cheek.
"Don't you fucking lie to me you Bastard! I know what you did last night. Fucking my sister on your bed last night," she spat out, as she advanced on him, trying to corner him. "And on our Anniversary too." She shook her head and laughed menacingly.
//Lie to me cry to me give to me I would
Lie with me die with me give to me I would\\
"So what? Its not like you where giving me any, so why not take up an offer when its presented to me" He snorted, looking down at her with arrogance. Deep in his heart, he knew that what he had said was the wrong thing to say. He looked at his girlfriend, and noticed that she had taken a step back. He watched her pick up the items on the floor and dump them into trash can.
Taking a several steps forward, he also noticed that inside of the trash can was the recent birthday present he had given her, a bear holding a heart that said "Happy Birthday" as well as several of his items that he had left in her room over the two years that they where going out.
"So, that's what you really think? That because I didn't put out for you, didn't spread my legs like the whore my sister is, you'd go and fuck her?" She asked, laying the crude language on thick.
"That's just rich," She laughed sarcastically while looking at her soon to be ex-boyfriend. "You know, I had plan on giving you this," She reached over to her bed, and underneath her pillow, she pulled out the ring box. Popping the top open, she showed him the four hundred dollar ring that she worked so hard to save up for. "For our anniversary, since you gave me a ring. But now the ring you gave me is fucking useless now, isn't it?"
Inuyasha's eyes widened at the sight of the ring that she showed him. He knew that she had been working, but the sight of the ring caused his mind to click. She was working to buy him that.
"It would have been an anniversary present as well as a somewhat promise ring for you, but you blew it didn't you? Had to go chasing a slut just for some sex. How long Inuyasha? How long have you been fucking her?" She demanded of him. "A week? Two weeks? What? Too afraid to answer?"
//Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair...
Keep all your secrets wrapped in dead hair...\\
"But it doesn't matter now, does it? Since you've been fucking my sister, I guess that means the promise ring is useless now." Closing the box that was in her hand, she shoved it into the pocket of her jeans. Bringing her left hand, she pulled off the small gold band that held a single emerald and dropped into the trash with the rest of the items that he had given her.
Ignoring the stunned Inuyasha, she pulled open the top drawer of her desk and pulled out an white envelope. Turning back to Inuyasha, she waved it at him.
"Know what this is?" She waited for a second before continuing. "Probably not, but then, you've been busy." Opening the envelope, she pulled out a large glossy picture of both her and Inuyasha on their prom night, both dressed up for the special day. Glaring at the picture, she turned it over and showed it to Inuyasha. "See? I bet, right after this night, you where bedding her after dropping me off. Hell, no wonder she came home late that night and limping. Probably fucked her hard, several times, huh?"
//Lie to me cry to me give to me I would
Lie with me die with me give to me I would\\
Dropping the white envelope into the trash, she held the large picture in her left hand while she flicked the lighter on, holding it up to a corner of the picture, watching it catch fire quickly. Dropping the picture into the trashcan, she stepped back, watching as the items in the trash catch fire. Her eyes gleamed as she looked at the trashcan, than at Inuyasha.
"Just think of it this way, Inuyasha. We're over. No promise, no nothing. Get the fuck out of my life, I never want to see you sorry ass again. We're through!" She stated angrily, crossing her arms over her chest, enjoying the pain that etched his face. Even laughing at his pain.
"But Kagome, please, let me explain" he uttered, wishing he could take back the comment of his cheating on her because she wouldn't put out for him. Pain washed over him and his heart clenched at her words. Wishing that he never took up Kikyou's offer to fuck.
"Hurts, doesn't it? What we had together was nothing to you, wasn't it? I hope, the next time you see me on the street, you feel the pain as I embrace a lover. I hope you remember the pain you caused me the next time you fuck Kikyou because the next time I see you, it won't be you that I'll be holding, it will be a lover who will please me and not cheat on me like your sorry ass did"
With that, she walked past Inuyasha, leaving him standing silently in her room as pain of her words hit him.
//Hope that we die holding hands always...
Hope that we die holding hands always...
Hope that we die holding hands always...\\
And in the background, he heard the sounds of slapping and yelling at Kikyou. She was gone, and it was his entire fault.
~~~~
Well that kind of sucked, didn't it? I hope its ok, since it's my first try at an angst fic. It's been so long since I've written a song fic.