InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Stories ❯ Star Flight ( Chapter 3 )

Star Flight

-Mistress Fluffy-

After I finally got Toru out of his confinement in his bedroom, I tried to talk to him; tried being the key word. He would barely look at me when I asked him what was bothering him he just shook his head mumbling, "Okaa San nothing is wrong." But now I as drive to the place He told me to meet him, I rethink about that encounter that we had but yesterday. I pulled up by a new model Jaguar in the color of a teal blue, it reminded me of a soft wave breaking on a jagged rock formation in the throes of a Spring storm. I shook my head as I neared the bench that was shadowed by a lovely Cherry Tree; it's bare leaves leaving twisted shadows on the cement way. I sat on the bench to tilt my head back to gaze at the millions of stars `How is it that so many stars can be seen here?' I slightly wondered to myself. I heard autumn leaves crunching under the weight of a human, I turned and there He was. An inaudible gasp left my lungs breathless as I saw SesshoMaru's gaze intensify.

I had never gotten used to his glory-no, his magnificence-even when we were dating. He always made fun of me when he would see me doing anything just to catch his glance. Now I just wished I was gone from this plane of existence. He didn't say anything but just took a seat next to me on the stone bench-to do the same thing I did when I sat down-gaze up at the darken sky. As my determination and everything that I (and He once) valued most returned, I spoke.

"So what did you want to see me for?" I inquired softly, possibly to soft for him to hear for he didn't answer. Right away at least.

"I needed to talk to you," He paused as he thought of the right word. "About stuff." This must have been a big deal if the best word he can come up with is `stuff'; the boy (and man) I knew always had something intelligent to say. Most of the times he impressed me with a variety of words that I barely knew when we were dating. Turning towards him, I noticed a new strain showed on his flawless face, a barely unnoticeable wrinkle in the middle of his forehead.

"What would that `stuff' be?" I wanted to talk to him about Toru but couldn't bring myself to voice that I needed help from him of all places. As I gazed at the man who was still staring at the darken sky, I wondered: what would have happened if he had accepted me and the child I held inside of me when I first told him that I was pregnant. Would we have a huge family by now? Would we be divorced? Or would we be still madly in love?

"I heard that you are going to be the Maid Of Honor at my wedding," He spoke in a soft, almost gentle voice. He clasped his hands together before tilting his head towards me before speaking. "I am scared of getting married, Kagome." I think I cried then. And I think I took him by surprise with my tears. But what ever it was, he took me into his arms, and just held me. I hadn't been held like that for so long I had forgotten what it felt like. To be comforted-to be cared for; I liked it. "What is wrong Kagome?" His soft velvety soft inquired.

"Toru," I breathed out the name, trying to collect my breath. "I think I ruined my relationship with him. Oh SesshoMaru I think he thinks I am a bad mother because I am not married to---…" I stopped there. My eyes shot opened when I felt his hands tighten on the back of my jacket. I couldn't very well say, `I am not married to you. His Father.' Now could I? I really wish that someone would help me when it came to parenting-well not parenting but my pathetic love life. I wanted a few seconds to speak but He beat me to it.

"Even though I haven't been there most of Toru's life. I will help you if you need it." He seemed sincere when he said it but I could never really know-I had always known SesshoMaru was a mighty liar. That is if lying helped him in any way; he could be truthful about the most trivial and deadly things to lying about the most idiotic things. It had amazed me that he never once in all the time I knew him, which was about my whole life, he never lied to me; it had amazed and frightened me when I knew we had an unbreakable bond.

"Don't bother your self with me," I blew him off. I pulled away to stand straighten out my jacket and rubbing away any evidence of tears from my face. "And SesshoMaru remember that you gave up the right to have any association with my son and I when you dumped me." I tried to walk away then, I turned my back to him before I remembered what he told me when he dumped me. "You made your bed Kagome now go lay in it. Sound familiar? Well now it's my turn-you made your bed SesshoMaru now go lay in it." I titled my head back at the stars then Him, smirking somewhat; and with that left.

When I finally got back to my house I walked right into my sons' room. Sat on the bed, curled up next to him and fell asleep. Even with the unrest feeling growing in me, I knew that something was wrong with the whole picture with SesshoMaru and Kikyo.

I awoke to the sunlight streaming through the cobalt blue curtains in Toru's room; I felt his small frame nestled into my embrace. He hadn't awoken up yet-I looked at the watch that I had forgotten to take off-it was five-thirty (am). Way to early for an eight year old. I didn't want to wake him up, so I did my best impersonation of one of those spy people in one of the games my son liked so much. This wasn't good considering that I hated those spy people, something incredible in it self because I am known for my instant fondness of everyone. But I did come out of the entanglement that my son had unconsciously put himself and I into. I felt like doing a little victory dance but I refined from doing so, I always seemed to destroy something when I did my victory dance. First it was the priceless vase my great aunt owned, then it was a china case that was in my first boyfriends' family since Nobunagas' rule oh and don't even make me tell you what happened when I did it in eighth grade in my Social Studies classroom! Let's just say that Mr. Brect wasn't a very happy man when I knocked over forty-forty $2,000 laptops that we were working with.

I stole a glance at the serene face of my son; I just hoped that he would forgive me for my mistakes and my idiotic hormones. I softly closed the door as I left his room, making my way to my own one to get in the shower to be out so I can wake him up at six-thirty. Taking out a silk lilac blouse, a black knee length skirt, and unmentionables, I made my way to my holiest of sanctuaries. I usually played music to occupy my thoughts but I needed to do some serious thinking involving my sisters' wedding. More importantly, why He seemed to be a little too interested in me. So instead of peacefully showering I was growing extremely furious with Him, Her, and myself. When I finally exited the steamy encasement I got dressed but wasn't able to put on my socks and tie my hair up in a bun; the phone rang.

Toru was already up, which in it self was odd because I usually had to forcefully wake him up; he already had on most of his clothes (pants and shirt). He looked at me as I passed his look as cool as His was and when I smiled Toru's looks got colder and with it my heart broke. I shook off the feeling when I answered the phone, hoping it was someone I wanted to talk to.

"Hello, Kagome speaking," it was Her of all the people in the world. "Oh hi Kik, why would you want to know? Oh, yeah Higurashi Sama told me that you wanted poor little me to be your Maid of Honor. Which is in itself something odd, don't you think? Oh I didn't mean it like that! But why?--because I am your sister? Kik, you have to admit that that's a pretty sad excuse. Next week is Spring Break Kik. Yeah Toru Kun is going to be with Ken most of the time, I guess. Monday? Yeah I have time then, why? The wedding is on Monday?" The shocked and volume cause Toru to duck his head out of his room. I didn't notice the look of panic that spread across his features at the time. "Shut up Corpse," ah the nicknames that I called her when I was younger. I called her "Corpse" because most of the time I wondered if she was really alive because she never seemed to feel anything or show any emotion of any kind. "Yeah, yeah. I understand. I guess I can go---Shut up Corpse." With that I hung up; I really had to learn to stop hanging up on people.

"Toru Kun do you want anything to eat before school? I called Mrs. Wolf yesterday before I fell asleep saying that I was going to drive you to school." Toru came out of his room as I spoke; I think something akin to panic and shock played across his features, his school friends never really saw me-that is except for when they came over which was few and far between. So really the only friend of Toru's that saw me even remotely regularly was Ken, Ken was a nine year old and was astoundingly smart.

Toru regained his wits before he spoke, in that damned cold voice, that brought back long forgotten emotions that raged (silently) in me. "No Okaa San I do not want anything." A half an hour later my son and I were speeding down the highway going directly to his elementary school. I wanted to ask him why he suddenly spoke to me in such a tone and why he looked at me as if I had killed his dog in front of him but he beat me to it.

"Mom," ah how I missed that word. "Why aren't you married to anyone? And why do I look like that one man-SesshoMaru?" My grip on the steering wheel got suddenly tight and my palms started to sweat as if I had just lead eyes on the first handsome man I had ever seen.

"Um," that was the most intelligent thing I could think to say. Maybe I should tell him the truth. "Toru when I was younger, older than you, I was around eighteen going on nineteen. I made the worst mistake I could make."

"What was that mistake?" His knowledgeable eyes shone with something like amusement and curiosity.

"Well-um-I huh. I don't know how to tell you!" My voice shook under the pressure. I didn't know how to tell my eight-year old son that I slept with a man and made him in the heat of passion! I wasn't ready to talk to him about that kind of stuff-that is not until he is at least fifteen.

Toru's smile was quick and easy, as it had always been. "Mom you are so funny sometimes." OK since he wanted to joke around then I will joke around with him.

"Oh you wound me with your words my dear son, am I not funny all the time?" I put enough hurt in my voice and pouted enough to make it seem like I was a poor actor and as always Toru fell into the trap. His laugh was high and vibrant that made you want to smile yourself (he got his laugh from me) and I smiled at the thought that at least I could make my son laugh.

"Oh mom but you really do make me laugh," he paused a beat before continuing, "all the time." I pulled up to Kino Elementary School; I had already got off the highway while I was trying to explain why he didn't have a father. The school was impressive with its old Japanese architecture and wide lawns not to mention its academic records. I picked it out because I went to it when I was in school. But thankfully even the teachers I had when I went to the three parts in the school-Kino Elementary School, Kino Middle School, and Kino High School--had retired or transferred to a different school. Toru still went to Kino Elementary School and I worked in the most modern part, Kino High School. Though we never really saw each other because we were both in different parts.

"Well do you want me to pick you up after school?"

"Uh sure, ja matte ne Haha-ue." With that Toru ran out of my car towards a group of small kids. Some were waving, some were smiling, but they were all happy. `Happiness? I remember it-the sheer joy when I gave birth to Toru…but after that?' I parked, got my things then headed towards them high school office. `There was birthdays and things like that. But real happiness where I forgot everything except that happi---…Oh Kannon Sama no!' Why was Haha-ue and sister here? At my work? Sister looked as calm as ever but Mother looked quite mad-but then why would she be here? They saw me coming and my boss greeted me with a "warm" smile. There was a group of high school-ers near by, watching.

"Oh here is Kagome San," my boss said smiling as though her life depended on it. It was extremely pathetic.

"I am quite aware of that." My mother could still make a person feel like a total idiot-I hated that but I admire it now. "Kagome it really has been to long." I bowed before I started talking. Old ways of life still stuck to me like a second skin.

"It is a pleasure Haha-ue, I would never expect you to come to my job."

"Oh but we must talk and since you seem to never hold a phone conversation long enough," she smiled a small grin here. I forgot how her eyes would sparkle when she was amused. "I decided to come to you."

"Yes dear sister-we must talk to you." Kikyo spoke her voice like finger nails being raked upon a chalkboard.

"Ah, well I really wish you would have come to my home. Though I would never expect you to come, my home is much lower than your normal standards I am afraid."

"Nonsense Kagome you must not be so cynical. It does not suite you," my mother's regal voice broke through the fight that was going to start between my sister and I. My mother had did always have this sixth sense about the bouts between my sister and I, kind of strange ne? "Now Kagome San, Kikyo has your address so we will speak with you later. I did not know that meeting you here would cause a problem but I can see-" she looked around at the gathering crowd of high school students, "that it indeed has." With that my parent and evil sister walked away giving me a splendid afternoon and "talk" to look forward to. How utterly joyous.