InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ sub conscious love ❯ Truth?! for real?! ( Chapter 3 )

Rin slowly woke up to the birds chirping and the suns bright yellow rays shining down at her with all the grace a morning has.

She sat up as quiet as she could so not to disturb the others. She felt immensly thirsty and her head felt heavy as if she hadn't got any sleep at all, so she decided to go down towards the river to ease the thirst.

She tip-toed out of the camp were Jaken, Aun slept peacefully. About Sesshomaru she didn't know wether he slept or not, but it didn't matter, Jaken and Aun were sleeping and so it was necessary for her to be as quiet as possible.

The river came in sight and she gasped for air as the sight was shockingly beautiful, the glittery water flowing in a never ending flow. Rin could feel her energy return to her, she felt so alive at moments like theese. She smiled as wide as her mouth allowed. Happiness was the feeling to describe Rin now, everything seemed so well. The last meters she ran, not able to resist the sudden urge. There on bank she kneeled before the magnificent blue liquid and cupped her hand as to fill space with morning fresh water. It tasted so good! She filled her hans multiple times before satisfaction came.

Then she just sat there, with closed eyes, just feeling the beginning of new wonderful day.

 

Sesshomaru watched Rin make her way towards the river, he studied her for a while, looking at how she walked, her every move, (every curve) her way to set down her toes first, then the heel, (oh, those legs), how she was able to move almost quiet, (the swaying of her hips)....

Can those stupid thoughts just STOP! What was fucking freaking wrong with him!?

Couldn't he watch Rin normally anymore? He had watched her for so long, why would there be a change? (beacause....) No, STOP, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT! (you might just....)

Sesshomaru really felt like killing something now. Slowly his head turned to a sleeping Jaken. A wicked grin rooted itself on his lips. (well now, that's just the right attitude, go killing someone beacause you can't face the truth!) Since when did I have a inner voice like that he wondered angrily. Well, guess it can't be helped, Jaken could still be of some use. He sighed heavily and was about to rise. (ah! Let me continue!....you might just....) Sesshomaru started sweat really bad, his stomach twitched and he almost bent double. (you might just....).

No....he pleaded like a broken dog, don't tell, I don't want to know, just leave me alone! I don't want to look like a freaking half-blood like my detesteble brother! (you..might...just...love....Rin...) At those two last words somethng inside him just snapped, his legs gave away and he just fell back on his bum, wordless, spechless, but definetly not emotionless.

How could this happen?

When did it happen?

Why him?

Why her?

Why not kill Jaken?

Or myself?

How the fucking hell did it get to this point!?

For as long as he could remember he had never once cried, but right now....well...he really felt like ha could have a breakdown. He was a....he was lower than his disgusting “so-called” brother. He a full blood youkai, possibly in love with a filthy human, how?! He was probably in fact even lower than his father too. How could he sink so?

And the most important question. Is there a way out of this misery, all this trouble I have caused myself? Could my pride be saved? Can I ever return to being proud of the name Sesshomaru?

Anyway, he couldn't let anybody know about this! Especially not Rin, the real cause to all his trouble! Would he let her stay with him, could he even be near her now?

Oh, how he wished he had never woken up!

He calmed down a little and began to regain his composure, at least on the outside.

There is always a solution, good or bad, there still is one or more available. Always.

 

 

 

So, that was nr 3...sorry for the delay...much to do in school so...but I guess I will come with another chapter soon! =) Hope you really do enjoy this fic ^^