InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sumire wa Kuroi Kiri スミレは黒い霧 ❯ Forgotten ( Chapter 4 )

Chapter 4- Forgotten

 

“Here KyÅzame-san, take these!!” exclaimed Nikko as she placed a tray covered with food on to the counter. KyÅzame looked down at the tray and his eyes widened as they brimmed with curiosity. Nikko had piled the tray with all kinds of snacks, Ramen, Udon and left-over's from the dinner the night before.

 

“What is all of this??? You humans eat this?” asked KyÅzame as his eyebrows scrunched up together.

 

“Of course silly! *giggling* What kind of food do you Shinigami's eat?” replied Nikko as she tilted her head sideways.

 

“Usually bread, fish and wine…it is what was eaten in the Biblical times.”

 

“Ah, I see!”

 

“Mmm…” he said as he continued to stare at one of the snacks in amazement. He began to reach out to it but pulled back his arm when he noticed Nikko was staring at him.

 

“Go ahead! Eat one! *giggling* It's good, you'll like it!” she stated as she handed him one of the yellow snack bags. KyÅzame took it from her, eyed it for a while and then opened it, grabbed a chip from inside and popped it into his mouth. Nikko began giggling as she watched what she could now see of his eyes which were hidden behind his bangs turn into large saucers. “You see! I knew you would like it!” she exclaimed as she climbed up on a stool on her knees and grabbed his face. KyÅzame continued to eat the snack as she seemed to be watching him intensely with big curious eyes.

 

“Why do you cover your eyes KyÅzame-san?” she asked as she watched him put down the snack.

 

“Because, I do not like my eyes.” he replied as he looked down at her.

 

“Why?”

 

“Because of their color.”

 

“What color are they?”

 

“Why don't you see for yourself.”

 

“Ah really, you'll let me!??” she asked as she watched him smile slightly and nod his head. She then moved his long raven bangs away from his eyes. She stared in amazement as she said “Your eyes…look just like…”

 

The Shinigami blinked her eyes a few times so they could adjust to the light dimmed room. She looked around to realize that she was in a bedroom. Turning her head to face Sesshomaru, she took a deep breathe and then realized that he had spoken. “You asked why? Why what?” she replied as she sat up in the bed to stare at Sesshomaru who had a mix of emotions displayed on his face. “Oh yes…I'm human now…” she thought as she put her hand to her forehead feeling a sharp pain at her temple. “Why…are you staring at me like that…Daiyoukai?” she asked again as her features changed to that of an annoyed one.

 

“Tell me Shinigami, is this what you always look like, or can you take on the forms of other people who have previously died?” asked Sesshomaru as a very cold expression took over his previously confused features.

 

“Yes we can take on the forms of people who have died…but wh-”

 

“Do you always look this way?”

 

“What?”

 

“Do NOT make this Sesshomaru repeat himself!”

 

“Yes I always look this way. Is there a problem?” she replied as her voice became dark to mimic his.

 

“Don't take this Sesshomaru for a fool!!!”

 

“What? WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT DAIYOUKAI!? I did not lie to you!” she yelled as she glared at him. Sesshomaru stood up as he remembered the conversation he had with Juza.

 

“They are no longer alive. But no longer human” said Juza as he stared at Sesshomaru.

 

“No longer human you say?”

 

“Precisely. The both of them became Shinigami's.”

 

Sesshomaru's heart skipped a beat as he looked down at the woman before him. “Could it be that…could she really be…it explains why I've been having so many memories of…her…” he thought as he overlooked the woman in front of him. Her big brown eyes stared back at him brimming with curiosity and lots of sadness. His heart twisted as he tried to understand what was happening. “Daiyoukai? Why did you yell at me suddenly? Explain yourself.” She ordered as she watched a whirlpool of love and despair twirl in his amber eyes. She suddenly felt a pain in her heart but she couldn't figure out why. “Daiyoukai??? Sesshomaru???” she asked as she waved a hand in front of his face to get his attention. He was suddenly snapped out of his thoughts when he heard her name. He raised his eyebrows and his expression became calm as he looked at her and stared into her eyes that seemed to breathe in the very essence of his being.

 

“That is your name correct? If I remember correctly, and I have an excellent memory.” She said as she tilted her head the way Nikko does when she's curious.

 

“…Rin…” he replied barely above a whisper as his breathe hitched slightly in his chest.

 

“How do you…why…”

 

“…Rin…do you not remember…”

 

“Remember?”

 

“Ah, you're awake I see. Nikko has prepared you some food…” said KyÅzame as he and Nikko entered the room to see Sesshomaru staring intensely at the female Shinigami “You've found out I see…” Sesshomaru's head jerked in his direction as he said this. “You meant to keep it a secret from me? From Nikko? Explain yourself!!!” exclaimed Sesshomaru as his eyes turned to blood red as he glared at KyÅzame. “KyÅzame…what is he talking about? And how does he know my name? What are you hiding???” asked the Shinigami as she stood up and walked over to KyÅzame “Answer me.” KyÅzame put the tray on the dresser and turned his back to face her.

 

“He knows your name because you are his late wife.” Said KyÅzame as he turned his head slightly to look at her.

 

“What…how? Why don't I remember any of this? How long have you known?” asked Rin as her face became enveloped in confusion and anger.

 

“I found out yesterday. Juza did not want me to tell you. He wanted you to find out on your own. I am sorry…You don't remember anything because your memory was erased…the Shinigami who took your soul thought your death was too tragic for you to remember…he wanted you to be happy…”

 

“But…I see…that should have been my decision!!! WHAT IF I WANTED TO REMEMBER!!!”

 

“I was not even born yet when you died. Please don't act as if I did something to you.”

 

“You're right…I'm…I'm sorry…” she said as she fell to her knees “Damn…these human emotions…”

 

“And you know what that means as well right?”

 

“That means…but-“

 

“Mo…mommy…” said Nikko as a tear fell down her cheek. She walked over to her and stared into Rin's eyes as her body began to shiver. Rin looked up to face the child standing in front of her. A sharp pain went through her chest as she saw the sadness in her eyes. “Nikko…I'm sorry…I…I need to leave this place…” said Rin as she stood up and ran out of the room as fast as she could. “Rin…” said KyÅzame as he let out a loud sigh. Nikko only stood there shivering as she stared at the empty space Rin had been in. “No…no…NO!!!!!” she yelled as she ran out of the room, tears pouring down her cheeks “NO!!!! I'VE ALREADY LOST YOU ONCE I'M NOT LOSING YOU AGAIN!!!!!!!!” Rin stopped in her tracks just as her hand touched the door knob.

 

“Nikko…I can't…” replied Rin as she grabbed the area over her chest where her heart threatened to jump out of her chest.

 

“Don't leave me!!! Don't leave daddy!!!”

 

“Nikko…”

 

“Don't leave us again!!! MOMMY!!!” she cried as she ran to her wrapping her small arms around her legs “PLEASE STAY!!!” Sesshomaru walked out of the room and watched as Nikko held onto Rin as if she were about to die. “Nikko…let her go. If Rin…If she wants to leave…then-” said Sesshomaru as his face became cold; he was hiding his emotions of pain and regret as he watched the scene before him. “NO! You want mommy to stay too!!! I KNOW YOU DO DADDY!!!” exclaimed Nikko as she continued to cry. “It can't hurt to stay…your daughter has missed you immensely…it's been 5 years.” Stated KyÅzame as he walked out of the room and past Sesshomaru, to stand behind Nikko and Rin “I don't mind. I'll even stay here as well if you want.” Rin swallowed, feeling her heart go back down her throat as she turned around to see Sesshomaru staring straight at her. Something inside her began to stir as his cold sorrow-filled eyes gazed at her. “My…my stomach…AHHHHH!!!!” she exclaimed as she fell to the floor on her knees and grabbed her tummy. “It…hurts…AHHH!!!!!!!” “Mommy??? WHAT'S WRONG WITH MOMMY!???” yelled Nikko as she watched her mother suffer right before her eyes. “It's the pain she felt when she died…I'm assuming every time she becomes human, she suffers…a great deal…” said Sesshomaru as he left them and went into his room, locking the door behind him.

 

“Why…why doesn't daddy want to help mommy?” asked Nikko as she watched KyÅzame pick up Rin and take her back into the room.

 

“Your father is suffering. Seeing your mother again brought back old feelings…and he is reminded of her death every time he sees her and you. He's always in pain Nikko…” replied KyÅzame as he placed her back on the bed and watched her curl up in a ball.

 

“Why is she suffering?”

 

“It is as your father said…she feels the pain from when she died…do you know how?”

 

“…Yes…”

 

“Then I do not need to explain…”

 

“Is there anything I can do to help…I can't stand to see mommy in pain…” she said as tears fell down her cheeks again and rolled down her chin.

 

“She will be fine soon…she just needs to rest and regain her energy…running like that made the pain more intense.”

 

“Alright then…thank you KyÅzame-san…I feel like…like I know you very well.”

 

“And I you Nikko.”

 

“Huh?” she said as a puzzled expression appeared on her face.

 

“What's wrong?” he asked as he raised an eyebrow behind his long dark bangs.

 

“Umm…it's nothing…for a minute…Never mind. Make sure mommy eats ok?”

 

“Of course. How about you take a nap? She should be fine by the time you wake up.”

 

“OK KyÅzame-san. Bye…Bye…mommy…I'll be back…I love you…” she said as she slowly walked out of the room and closed the door behind her.

 

Nikko stood in the hallway for a few minutes just thinking to herself about the past few minutes that just occurred. Silently, she cried as she made her way to her room and closed the door. She got on her bed and hugged her blanket and read the Rose pink writing sewn into it; it said `My Little Ball of Sunshine' and had little hearts around it. Below it, sewn in white were the words `Rin & Nikko, Forever in my Heart'; there were also hearts around it. “You're forever in my heart mommy…but..I'm not in yours anymore…neither is daddy…” she thought as she continued to cry into the blanket “No! I'll make you remember me…both me and daddy…you'll remember how much you loved us and how much we love you…God…please don't take my mommy away from me and daddy again…”

 

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