InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Suppossed to Be ❯ Chapter 1

Supposed to Be


Summary: Why did it happen this way? Why did it have to be like that?
Now all I have to do is think about my current situation, and what my decision will be.
Rating PG13
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It's raining. For some reason it always has been. I’m not sure why though.
I lie on my bed and look at my white ceiling, his face plaques my mind for the time being. I can see him smiling and, for once, laughing with the group. That, of course, was before I told him I could no longer stay in Feudal Japan and I had to return home for a while and contemplate what I would do. He looked at me painfully and agreed.
That memory plagues me like a sickness. It was two weeks ago and I still remember it clearly.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* Flash Back*~*~*~*~*~*~
I climbed through the well and entered Feudal Japan.
It was always calming to come here after school.
Any way I walk a short distance and as fate chooses, there was Kouga, as usual.
“Kagome there you are, I was waiting for you, considering mutt wasn’t.
Have you finally wised up and decided to come with me?” He says in his usual cocky voice
“Kouga-kun I will never go with you, I love you as a friend not a boyfriend or a potential lover ok “
“But Kagome… “
“NO Kouga now look I’m here to see InuYasha and that’s that. I won’t go back with you.”
“No I’m sick of it. You’re always with that stupid mutt, you’re coming with me”
He said forcefully and wrapped his arms around my waist.
He pulled me closer to him, our faces were nearly touching.
He leaned in about to kiss me. He closed his eyes, I tried to pull away.
“Kouga….NOOO stop…..please don’t”
I scream for him to stop but he doesn’t .He continues leaning in.
This time he got what he wanted. He kissed me …right as InuYasha showed up.
“Ka---Kagome…how could you” He asks.
His voice sounded broken. I look at him with pained eyes.
Kouga drops me….what a gentleman huh? But any way I look up from my sitting place and see InuYasha for only a split second and then I see him run.
Kouga had already left when he dropped me. So I sit there all alone.
InuYasha…what happened to us? How did this manage to happen?
I mean I was InuYasha’s. Well I didn’t technically belong to him yet, but soon I would. And Kouga knew that. So why did he kiss me?
I do the only thing I can. I run. I run straight for InuYasha and try to explain things.
I just hope…he’ll understand.
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I find him sitting next to the Goshinbuku. He is sitting on the root below the spot where he had been pinned. His eyes held pain. But for what a simple kiss…I mean I took allot from InuYasha and Kikyo, but….This was Kouga.
He looks broken. His bangs are limp against his face.
“InuYasha…”
“What do you want Kagome?”
“InuYasha I’m sorry….what you saw…what you saw was nothing but a mistake.
Kouga came out of nowhere and kissed me. I tried to back away. Honestly.
But he kept at it until he did…please forgive me” I say as calmly as possible.
I get on my knees next to him and sit holding his hand. I beg to him with my eyes but he blocks them. He won’t even look at me, he just stares at nothing.
“Kagome I had come to tell you something but now …it doesn’t matter.”
“Whaddya mean it doesn’t matter? “
“It just doesn’t any more.”
“Whaddya mean ‘any more’? Tell me InuYasha?”
“Well we’ve known each other for what three years now? “
“Hai and your point?”
“I was going to ask you to be my mate, but you’re with Kouga “
“WHAT?!?! NO I’M NOT. “
“But I saw you two kissing?”
“I told you, he caught me off guard. I would never kiss him. And you should have more faith in me”
“You’re right I’m sorry.”
“Ok and Hai, “
“Yes? Yes to what?”
“To being your mate”
“Really?”
“Of course, InuYasha” I say kissing him.
He stands up and deepens the kiss. After a few moments, we part for air but not before he leaves his mark on my neck.
“Early, just in case that wolf tries to make a move on you again”
“Thanks” I say laughing. I mean how do you respond to that?
He suggests we get back to camp, considering it’s getting dark.
We walk for a few moments. He stops and looks at me for a moment.
He looks down at me lovingly. He eyes piercing my every being.
“What Yash is there something on my face?”
“Just wondering what I did to get some one so perfect”
“I love you”
“I love you too”
He picked me up and held me in his arms as he carried me to camp.
Right then I felt that nothing could ever go wrong.
That if it was always just me and him, it would be ok.
He made me feel like I could fly and I could soar above all others.
It was like a fairytale. But as always, fairytales must end.
We got to the camp and some how Kouga had met us there.
“Time to go, Kagome.” He said forcefully …come to think of it, it sounded like before.
“What are you talking about Kouga?”
“You had time to say your goodbye. Now you’re coming with me”
“Time to say your goodbye….what is that supposed to mean?”
“It means mutt face, that I gave Kagome a short amount of time to say her goodbyes before she comes with me.”
“Kagome…what’s he talking about”
I can’t answer because I don’t know so I shake my head and look up at him then back at Kouga.
“Ready to go Kagome?” He says cockily and pulls me away from InuYasha.
He holds my hips tightly, his claws digging into my hips.
His face comes closer to mine. I’m in pain and I can’t move. InuYasha is staring at us for the time being.
“Kouga let me go!” I say as fiercely as possible. But his deep icy blue eyes are so full of intenseness and I can’t.
“Never again, you’re my woman.”
“YOU BETTER GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY MATE WOLF!!!”
“YOUR MATE? HA THAT’S FUNNY MUTT”
“Keep laughing cuz I aint lying “
“Better let me go Kouga” I say showing him my mark.
Kouga studies the mark carefully.
“Kagome that isn’t a mating mark, that’s a bite mark. All that means is he may one day make you his.
And that’s if he doesn’t take Kikyo. What did the mutt tell you that was a mating mark?”
“Well no. He just said it was a mark, I expected it to be mating mark.
I mean he said it would make you leave if you saw it”
“Mutt, how dare you lie to my woman.”
“I didn’t lie to her. I just told her that mark was there till I gave her the real one”
Kouga raised an eyebrow. InuYasha shifted uneasily under his weight.
“You lied to me, InuYasha?”
“Not in so many words, but in a way…yes”
“Why?” That is the only thing I can say. Why would he lie to me about
something like that? I mean it was so trivial and yet…now I get it.
“Wait a second. Now I understand. You wanted others to think I belonged to you,
but it was only a fake one so you…so you wouldn’t be tied down…so you could
still …still go and see …Kikyo…..InuYasha …how could you?” I almost begin to cry. I feel the tears forming in my eyes. I start to feel some sliding down my cheeks and onto my lips where I wipe them away.
“Kagome I …look it wasn’t…ummm I “
“That’s all I needed to hear. You just confirmed what I was afraid of. Thank you so much InuYasha” I spat the last bit at him.
Tears flow freely down my cheeks as I picture him and Kikyo going behind my back and all I can do is sit there and look pretty as I pretend I have no clue what’s happening. I wipe away a few tears before realizing Kouga was comforting me rather then InuYasha.
“Kouga …how could …..I have not ……seen …..this coming?”
“Kagome it’s ok. He is a loser…..I’m sure he didn’t mean to hurt you”
“Kouga, I’m going to take a walk, please don’t follow me.”
“Fine” he says reluctantly.
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I walk out of the hut with out even looking back at either of them, I don’t continue walking. This time I begin running, straight to the well. How could he? How could he just …make me his and then leave me? I loved him, and I still do. Why do I have to love him? Why are the fates against me always? I’m crying freely now. I can’t see clearly as I run , but I have memorized the forests, It was Sango’s wish that I always knew where I was going. So she made me memorize every tree, every turn and twist. So I did. It came in handy now because I couldn’t see. I finally reached the well, and surprisingly InuYasha was there. I can’t believe he would show his face at the well after what he had just done. My tears turn to tears of anger. How could he be standing right there after what he had just done?
“What are you doing here?” I say with an angry and hurt voice
“I …I knew you would come here and I wanted to say I’m sorry”
“What are you sorry for? Telling me the truth for once? “
“Kagome please don’t make a big deal outta this “
“I’ll make a big deal because it is. You lied to me about something so trivial and then you back it up with ‘oh yea by the way I’m gonna cheat on you with my ex while you can’t do a thing’ yea that’s really nice Yash but I aint buying it””Kagome please”
“No Yash I’m going home. I’ll come back in about an hour and tell you what I’m going to do”
“Fine”
And with that I jumped down the well. I passed through the weird time passage that connected our two worlds.
I reach my time. I climb out of the well, to hear the birds chirping on the branches of the Goshinbuku. They all sound so …happy.
Me, on the other hand, I would sound sad and broken.
I walk towards the tree and touch the spot where InuYasha had been pinned for the 100 year time period.
I don’t go inside. I just sit on the roots that sit on the sidewalk.
I already know what I have to do. I have to tell InuYasha that I can never go back. That I have to stay here in my time. I mean the shard hunt is over. The only reason I stay there is because of him.
The only reason I continue with this is him.
Now my heart is braking once again and the reason is him.
I was here only an hour and now I can go back and tell him.
I go back and jump through the time stream and once I arrive 500 years ago I hear laughter. I peak out of the top of the well and see InuYasha, Sango, Miroku and Shippoe all around and camp fire, laughing.
Kilala was lying in Sango’s lap. InuYasha was gesturing something stupid and Miroku was going along with it.
Shippoe was probably confused and sat there.
The winds passed and I saw InuYasha’s nose twitch as he smelt my scent.
“Kagome you’re back” He sounded so happy.
He ran over and picked me up out of the well. He kissed me and we walked over to the others.
“InuYasha just told us that you two were together!!!! I’m so happy for yall.”
“Sango we’re ….not” It takes allot to say that and it was painful. I said it so quiet. If the forest hadn’t have been holding its breath no one would have heard.
“Whaddya mean you’re not?”
“It was a fake …it wasn’t real. And it wasn’t meant. We were never supposed to be together and a few hours ago proved it.:
“But Kagome….”
“I know…it broke my heart too. “ This time I was crying on her shoulder. She patted my back to let me know she understood my decision and would support me no matter how painful for everyone.
We walk back to the rest of the group
“So Kagome, congrats you two should be happy.” Miroku sounded cheerful. Sango shook her head basically saying ‘No Miroku not the right time….I’ll explain later.’
“Guys can I talk to InuYasha…alone”
They all understood and went back to Keade’s hut.
I look sadly at InuYasha. He looks at me and can automatically tell something is wrong. He wrapped his arms around me.
“Kagome… what’s wrong?”
I push away from him and look towards the ground, trying to gather all the strength I had.
“InuYasha, I can no longer stay in Feudal Japan. I need to stay in my time. We…we were never meant to be, and some how I think we both knew it. But now that it has come down to it, we need to separate and never see each other again. I’m sorry InuYasha.”
He didn’t say anything. He looked at me and looked down at the ground. After a few moments he looks at me with sad eyes.
“Kagome….please don’t do this. We can make it work please.”
“No InuYasha I’m sorry … we….we can’t “
Now he wouldn’t even look at me, he just looked at the ground.
I saw a tear fall from his shaking form. I reach out to touch him but he pushes me away.
“Fine Kagome if it’s what you want then go….well what are you waiting for GO ALLREADY “
He spats out the last few words. He doesn’t even look up.
I take his advice and jump down the well. I hear him run through the forests I hear a few trees crack before I enter an infinite abyss.
In my time, I hear the same birds chirping, but it’s a different more of a melancholy song.
I climb out of the well, and into my house.
I walk up to my room and fall face first on my bed and begin to pour out tears. I clench the sheets till my knuckles turn ghostly white.
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It’s been almost six months since I last saw InuYasha.
I wonder how he is. He has Kikyo so he must be well.
I, on the other hand, have only grown weaker since our last encounter,
I can barely speak above a whisper. I can’t move out of my bed.
I have lost fifty pounds which brings me down to about eighty.
My face is white, not pale, but white. I don’t feel like going outside.
I shut my windows so I can no longer hear the birds who mourn for me.
I closed all my blinds and locked my doors, until my brother who learned how to pick the lock. He claims to only have learned for my sake so he could force feed me when I wouldn’t eat.
I lean up to try to get out of bed to open my windows.
I now want a little bit of light.
When I open the window I see a familiar face.
I almost scream from the shock.
“Inu---Yasha”
“Kagome” he doesn’t bother to say more. He slides open my window.
I no longer see the beautiful tanned face, but a pale sad face.
His hair is limp and lifeless,
“So you were never coming back”
“Afraid not besides you have Kikyo”
“I got rid of her; I killed her and spread her remains in the rivers.”
My eyes widen. I could never believe him to kill her.
“She wasn’t you. She wasn’t even real. I realized shortly after you left that no matter how she looked or who she was, she would never be real or make up for the one I truly wanted “
“InuYasha” I struggle to breathe.
“I love you Kagome, I mean that, I don’t want to lose you”
Tears fill my eyes as I look at him.
“InuYasha I love you too”
He kisses me and sets me on my bed as we deepen the kiss.
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I lie in his arms, his arms held possessively around my waist.
I look up at him. Then I lay my head of on his chest.
“I wish we could be like this forever” I think, and then I realize we can’t be. I begin to cry on his chest
“Kagome?”
“We still can’t be together. Our times…it would never work”
“It won’t …. unless you wish for it”
I lay my head back down on his chest.
“That’s it then”
“That’s what?”
“I’ll wish to stay in your arms forever….where I’m supposed to be”
And with that I go back to sleep in my loves arms.
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A/N that’s not fair, stories have happy ending why cant real life,
Any way r/r