InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Surrounded Yet Alone ❯ True Feelings Revealed ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Disclaimer: Rumiko Takahashi owns Inu Yasha and the characters that appear in my story.

True Feelings Revealed


The family was kind enough to let them all stay till Sango awoke from her state of unconsciousness.

It has almost been three days and Miroku has not left Sango's side. Kagome was starting to worry, "Inu Yasha, I'm worried about Miroku. He hasn't slept since that first night. Now he won't leave her side not even to get some food. He hasn't slept or eaten in three days. Talk to him Inu Yasha."

"Me why do I have to talk to him?"

"Because, Inu Yasha, you're a guy you can talk guy things with him. And he'll listen to you, you're his friend."

"Feh, whatever."

"I'll take that as a yes." Kagome shoved Inu Yasha into the room that Miroku was in so that they both could talk.

"Hey Miroku, is there anything you want to talk about?" asked Inu Yasha

"No, not really" and with that Inu Yasha started to turn to the door. When he did, he saw Kagome standing there her arms crossed over her chest with a look directed straight at him that warned him if he didn't do as told there would be 'sits' to be heard. Inu Yasha thought it best to stay in the room and talk with Miroku, it was better than leaving and having to face Kagome.

"Would you like some food, you should eat," Suggested Inu Yasha

"No thank you." Miroku replied never taking his eyes off of Sango. Not even once since he had woken up that morning. Just than Sango's eyes began to flutter and slowly they started to open. Miroku saw this and moved in closer "Sango" he brought his hand up to her face and started to rub her cheek. Her eyes were fully open now but everything was all blurry. Objects started to come into focus then she saw Miroku next to her holding her hand and rubbing the side of her face with his other hand.

"What happened?" inquired Sango groggily. No one said a word. But it all slowly came back to her, Miroku that girl the dagger, all of it. She ripped her hand out of Miroku's and turned away.

Kagome came rushing in when she saw Sango waking up "Sango, your ok, I was so worried about you," she said as she ran over to her friend to give her a great big hug.

While in the embrace of a loving friend Sango whispered into Kagome's ear, "Can I talk to you alone?"

After Kagome released her from her embrace Kagome asked, "Could everyone give me and Sango a chance to talk alone please?"

Inu Yasha and Miroku nodded in agreement and walked out of the room. Miroku didn't want to leave her side ever again but he knew that Sango needed this so he complied. They headed towards the kitchen where Shippou was and they all sat down and had some breakfast, waiting for the two girls to finish talking.

"So what did you want to talk about Sango?" Kagome asked as Sango slowly sat herself up.

"You know I like that stupid monk right?" Kagome shook her head yes. "Well, the other night I was looking for him because I wanted to talk to him. We've been doing talking a lot lately, and he hasn't even tried to grope me and we were 'really' close too. Close like I could feel the heat of his body close. We were becoming really close and I was starting to think that maybe we could be something more then friend you know."

"Yeah."

"Well, I was looking for him and I found him, but he wasn't alone. He had the owners daughter straddling him as he laid on the floor." Kagome gasped, "I was so upset I went into the bathroom and cut my wrist"

"You did that to yourself?" Kagome was stunned; she had always thought that Sango dealt with problems really well. But she realized how hard it was to see some one you love with someone else. She remembered the time stuck to the tree watching Inu Yasha and Kikyo kissing. Knowing how much that hurt, remembering all she wanted to do was curl up in a corner and just die. She understood why Sango did what she did and she sympathized with her.

"Yeah" Sango replied ashamed of her actions. No longer able to look at Kagome in the eye, she spoke to the floor instead. "You know how he asks everybody to bear his children?"

"Yeah."

"Do you know he never asked me?" Kagome shook her head no, not that Sango saw Kagome's actions, her gaze was fixed on a spot on the floor. "I guess he thought that slut was fit to be a better mother than me. So while I was laying in her half dead he was probably out there with her making sure he finished the job."

"Actually he never left your side." Kagome sadly corrected.

"Now, why would he do a thing like that? Just when you think you got a guy figured out then he goes and does something like this, which goes against who he is. I will never understand men, let alone monks."

"Monks go figure," they both laughed together. After a few moments of laughter Kagome asked, "Are you hungry?"

"Famished, but I don't think I could look at him."

"Then don't, just look everywhere else. Not looking at him should give him some hint that you are mad at him. By the way does he know you saw him making out?

"No I don't think so, when I saw them she was starting to undress, but I didn't stay there long I didn't want to see any more. I couldn't bear it"

"Oh, okay I understand now. Now lets get some food before you pass out again." Kagome emphasized the again in a humorous way and they both laughed.

Kagome and Sango made their way into the kitchen. "Sango, are you okay?" posed the worried monk. Sango just sat down and ate off the plate that she was given. She ignored the fact that the monk even existed.

"Sango?" Miroku asked more worriedly. He couldn't take it he loved her too much to be ignored by her. If he stayed he would continue to be ignored, so he decided to leave.

Later that afternoon they all decided to leave and continue on their journey to find more of the jewel shards. "Thank you sir for letting us stay at your lovely home till I woke up it was very kind of you not many people would have been as hospitable as you were. Thank you again for all you have done for us."

"It was no problem, have a safe journey, and I wish you all well." He said to them all as they were leaving.

After a while of waking Miroku noticed that Sango was not even acknowledging his presence. "Sango are you mad at me?" no answer came

Noticing the tension Kagome interrupted "Inu Yasha, its getting late don't you think we should be setting up camp soon. Maybe now."

Inu Yasha took the hint Kagome dropped "Sure, fine, whatever."

They all started to set up in order to turn in; but Sango slithered away. Miroku noticed and thought to himself 'I'm not going to let her leave me, not now, not ever again, and especially not at night. It is too dangerous.' And with that he hurried of after her.

They were to far away from camp for even Inu Yasha to her with his demon senses. "Sango if you were lonely you should have come to me."

"I wasn't lonely but I was looking for you. However you were preoccupied with the owners daughter."

"Huh? Sango what are you talking about?"

"I saw you." She blurted out "I guess you finally found someone to bear your children."

"Sango, I'm not quite sure what your talk-" he was cut off

"Don't you dare tell me you don't know what I'm talking about, I saw you with her she was all over you in that hidden room."

Miroku was going to make a joke about her being jealous, but he decided not to when he saw the hurt in her eyes. He thought it best to explain, now that he knew what she was talking about. "Sango, I know what it seemed like, but it was not that at all. "

"Then explain monk, please do make this more clear for me." Each and every word in that sentence was drenched with disdain.

Disregarding the sarcasm in her last sentence he continued, "I heard from the outside someone call my name from within. When I went inside the room I didn't see anyone. Then out of nowhere this girl pounces me knocking me to the floor. I tried to get up but she was sitting on top of me. I suppose that is when you saw us; because she started to come on to me..." 'I am not going to tell her about the owners daughter starting to undress her self that would only make things more hard to explain,' Miroku thought silently to himself. "But a second later I was out from underneath her. I asked her about her forwardness and she said that she was lonely and just needed some one. I told her that if this had happened a month ago I probably would have taken her up on her proposition." Thinking to himself the reason why he didn't want to sleep with her was because he would have preferred to be with Sango instead.

"And what was so different from a month ago?"

Wanting to say 'I wasn't so close to you then' but unable to form the words. Instead he answered, "I just didn't like her and that was my excuse, I guess that is why I never asked her to bear my children."

"You never asked me to bear your children, does that mean that you don't like me?" Her statement startled Miroku, he gazed into her eyes searching but he only found hurt within them.

"Sango did you slit your wrist this time because you thought that I was sleeping with the owners daughter?"

Sango noticed the way he avoided answering her question and thought to herself 'well two can play at that game.' "Lord Monk, do you honestly think that you hold that much influence over my feelings, that if you were to sleep with someone that I would consider suicide?"

"So then why did you slit your wrist?"

"What does it matter to you? You obviously dislike me. What am I, some charity case to you, that you felt you should talk to me and be all-sincere when you found out that I cut my wrist?"

"I never said I dislike you. And as for talking with you I don't fell as I should have to explain my actions."

"Well do you or don't you?"

"Do I or don't I what?"

"Like me" said the exasperated Sango

"Sango, I thought it was obvious."

Sango waited for him to continue but he did not. "Again, you did it again"

"Did what again?" not understanding where Sango was coming from.

"Avoided answering my question; before you never answered me, and again now you never said whether you liked me or not. No you're right it is obvious, you hate me. You never wanted me. I was just a plaything for you to grope on our journey. What is it am I not good enough for you?"

"Sango..." he trailed off. "...Is this truly what you think of me?"

"Well, how else can I make sense of what you do? When I couldn't sleep I would cry myself to sleep thinking that I would always be alone..." she hesitated a little before she let out the rest of her sentence but not caring anymore she decided to continue anyway, "...thinking I could never have you. That you never wanted me." Miroku moved in to hold Sango close, but Sango moved away from him and his embrace. For the first time since she met him she used his true name, "Miroku no. I couldn't take it that night when I saw you with her. And now, now that I know how you feel... I don't want your sympathy."

Tears started to stream down from her eyes down her cheeks and landing in the grass beneath their feet. He wanted to hold her so bad but knew that if he did that that would only push her away from him. So he did the only thing he could and he watched her turn and run away from him.

Sango watched his face as she turned streams of tears running down her face. She started to run away not wanting him to hear as she screamed out in anguish realizing her love was one that was and always will be unrequited.



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