InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Taken ❯ Dear Diary ( Chapter 1 )

WARNING! This chapter describes a rape, maybe not well but still there it is. My reasons for writing this come from before many private sites warned you about content, some of them still don't and I don't go there anymore. Too disturbing. But I noticed that Often Kagome, as a person, would be there in thought and emotion until the time of the rape, then she became a prop, even after the event. Other stuff too, but this got stuck in my head as a half formed short story. I wrote this part, Kagome's part then sort of stopped. I will write the rest some day. But for now, for some reason, (just like for some reason I didn't eras it when I recovered My ideas folder from my old computer) I felt like I had to post it. I don't really want you to read it, and it probably won't be up long, but if you read it, tell me what you think. Just don't be cruel. I don't really think I had a choice with this one.

And I haven't been raped so don't worry about that, it's just a very difficult thing for me to think about. I guess that's why I had to write it.

Chapter 1: Dear Diary

We were yelling at each other in the well house about the latest interaction with Kouga. He had followed me through the well just so he could yell at me some more. That made me even more angry.

It was just a fight, he'd say something stupid and I'd let him know how stupid what he said really was. I don't even remember what we said now. I wish I did. Maybe I would understand why he did it.

I yelled something at him, then, and I remember this very well, he came at me yelling something about "making sure he knows". I wasn't scared. InuYasha never really scared me, not like other youkai. I was a little frightened though.

I tried to subdue him, but he was too fast. He covered my mouth with his hand, hard. He pushed me against the wall, next to the door, and pinned me there with the hand that still covered my mouth.

Not that I could have said anything by this point, I was already in shock, and I didn't even know what he was going to do. You see, He had never touched me before when we were fighting before.

I couldn't see much, the well, InuYasha's hair. His head was looking down at my left side. But I could feel. I felt my knees being nudged apart by his rough fire rat pants. He took his hand off of my mouth and I felt my underwear being ripped open at the crotch by a clawed finger. I closed my eyes then, I was still in shock but I think that is when I knew what was going to happen.

I felt something hot pressing into my… body, between my legs. Was this when I started to cry? I'm not sure.

I felt him push into me, I didn't know… I … it hurt. A shock ran through my whole body. I … I felt… him… moving inside me, it hurt. I know tears were running down my face by this point, I tasted them when they seeped into my mouth.

I felt him moving, near the end it didn't hurt as much, I guess. I felt his body tense, I think I heard him growl, and… something happened, inside me. Something hot and wet. I try not to think about it. My mind got cold, and white, my eyes opened but I didn't see anything, not that I remember.

Then he was gone.

From my body and from the well house.

I was alone.

I slumped to the floor once my support was gone. Slowly the coldness left my mind and let me think.

It happened so fast, faster than it takes to read about it. At least that's how it seemed.

My body hurt, where he had been. My head hurt where it had struck and then been pressed to the well house wall. My mouth hurt where it had been pinched between his hand and my teeth and bone. And my left arm hurt.

I looked down at it to find I was bleeding. The sleeve had been ripped off just above my elbow and there were strange symbols engraved in the skin on the inside of my arm from the elbow to just past halfway to my wrist. I was bleeding red from the cuts, but the symbols them selves were glowing a poisonous green.

I remember thinking that I should get inside and take care of my arm. The well house isn't the healthiest place.

I went inside, no one was home, and up to my room. I took a shower then. Threw away the underwear and the stained uniform. Funny, it was never my blood before.

I cleaned my arm and bandaged it. It was still glowing faintly green when I wrapped it up.