InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Taming of the Wolf ❯ Ushimawareta Kokoro ( Chapter 9 )

Chapter 9-Ushimawareta Kokoro

(Translation: Lost mind)

Kouga walked outside, glancing at the remaining Yorozoku who were still out. They appeared to be watching the sunset. Kouga climbed atop the same boulder he and Achika had once sat on to glare at the moon together. As he gazed at the sunset, with it's brilliant shades of red, orange and yellow. He thought to himself, the same questions running through his mind over and over.

**Why do I love Kagome? ** He repeated the question Achika had asked him earlier. **Do I even truly love her? Or is it for the power of the Shikkon no Tama fueling me to believe I love her because she can detect the shards? Is that all I want her for? Am I any better then Inuyasha? He wants her for the same purpose....So does that mean I am like Inuyasha?**

Kouga looked thoughtful. He was too perplexed in his thoughts to even enjoy the scenery. The inner struggle of his emotions began.

Every time he thought about it, the answers clashed and questions arose from answers. Then questions arose from questions, and they would grow so rapidly and Kouga would forget about the majority and eventually he would contradict himself, which would make him even more confused then previously. (A/N: Ok, now that I have confused the general public, as well as myself, I am just going to end this paragraph ^_^;;;)

Kouga wanted nothing more then to rid himself of the torment of the contradicting thoughts. The time seemed to pass and the number of fellow Yorozoku dwindled at the sun sunk down and the dark night approached and aligned the sky with a blanket of scattered stars. Kouga remained on the boulder, still thinking to himself about all that had happened.

Kouga was in-between two thoughts. Achika or Kagome? Which should he choose, and what would become of the other if he made his decision? Kouga's head began to hang and his vision blurred in and out. Finally, after struggling with the constant blurred, everything seemed to grow black for a while, and a wave of images came to mind.

There appeared to be flashbacks of he and Achika as cubs, rolling in the flower field and playing in the mountains. Then the dream reverted to Kagome smacking him. It changed pace once more to Achika talking to Kouga after the Juuroumaru battle. Then it changed pace yet again to Kagome and Inuyasha fighting at the end of the battle as he took off, and it continued to go back and fourth between them.

After the series of flashbacks, there was darkness once more. Then he appeared in the center of this darkness, as did Kagome and Achika.

"Which one do I choose?" Kouga said.

"Choose me. I can help you, but I also will help Inuyasha.." The soft imaged Kagome trailed.

"Choose me, for I will be faithful. I may not be able to detect the Shikkon no Tama, but my love is unconditional, and you would not have to leave the Yorozoku to be with me." The soft imaged Achika said to him.

"I don't know..." Kouga trailed.

"I don't know!"

Kouga's eyes popped open and he looked around. Some of the Yorozoku were staring at him strangely.

"What are you staring at?" Kouga asked harshly as they turned their heads.

Kouga rose up and sat cross-legged on the rock. He put his elbows on his knees and rested his head in them. Achika walked up from the fire they had made. She was dressed as the other tribe members had been. You could usually detect Achika from a mile away because she had dressed more like a human then a Yorozoku. Now she had seemed to fit in with the rest of the tribe, except for the fact that she was a female.

Kouga stared at her in a semi awe. It had struck him that she was even more beautiful then he had thought before. Now she was dressed as a true Yorozoku, instead of in those human clothes.

"Are you all right Kouga?" Achika asked. "You look stressed out."

"Fine." Kouga responded roughly.

He got up and walked passed Achika, brushing her shoulder on his way over to the fire. He sat beside Ginta and Hakkaku and began to start a conversation with them. Achika was surprised, Kouga has really shunned her this time.

Achika walked over to Ginta, Hakkaku and Kouga, who were laughing at something.

"Ahem." She stifled as the three looked at her.

"I said I was fine, Achika." Kouga said with a sigh.

"I don't think you're sure about that. Something seems to be bothering you, you should talk to me." She said as she sat beside of Ginta, who was on Kouga's left side.

"I'm just having a hard time with something right now. I'd rather not talk about it." He responded.

"Oh," Achika said, since it pained her friend to talk. "Well, you don't have to ignore me."

"Sorry, I'm just..." Kouga trailed off.

"I won't bother you anymore." She responded.

"No," Kouga shot out. He did not know what compelled him to say the word, but somehow he was thankful he had.

"You want me to stay?" She asked, her rear end slightly raised off of the rock.

"Yes," Kouga said, slightly above a whisper.

Achika sat down and resumed her place by Ginta.

"Ok," Achika responded. "I'm here."

"Excuse me." Ginta said as he and Hakkaku left, realizing that Kouga and Achika wanted to be alone.

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Yes, I know. How evil of me. Chapter 10 is next! Will Kouga ever get over Kagome? Who knows!

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Do you guys know how hard it is to get Kouga to fall in love with someone else? Geez >< I hope I'm, doing a good job. Please tell me so and R&R!