InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Beast Inside ❯ The Beast Inside ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I don't know why, but I feel a beast inside, ready to rear it's head and let loose a scream that'll shatter who I am.

Everytime someone tries to get close, I pull back, leaving a gap that I thought could never be filled.

When I met you it was the same routine, you trying to get close, me pulling away, you had to give up.

But instead of leaving, you stayed and tried to help me calm the beast inside.

Trying as hard as you could you still couldn't get it to leave me alone, so I told you to get lost, hoping that once you and everyone left it would lie down and die.

After you left I isolated myself, never letting anyone come close for fear that I would get pushed over by the beast.

Day after day passed until the days faded to weeks, weeks into months and months into a year. And still the feeling inside me, the beast, would not lie.

Soon I startd to doubt my sanity, and began leaving spots on the floor, hoping beyond hope that I could cut the beast out.

Then one day the beast succeed in pushing me over the edge.

I grabbed the nearest gun and placed it against my temple.

I closed my eyes and whispered my final goodbye, your name the last thing to leave my lips, before the gun shot exploded in my head.

One last thought before my mind went black was, I should have let you stay close because now I realised that the only thing keeping the beast at bay was you.

So it wasn't yours or anybody else's fault, just mine. Please, forgive me.

Wishing I had pulled you closer that last time,

Kagome