InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Boy Next Door ❯ Chapter 11

Disclaimer: I don't own Sesshomaru, nor Kagome, nor Kikyo, nor Sango and sure as hell not Inuyasha. I would have spanked him for being bad a long time ago if I did.

I don't own dashboard confessionals or vindicated either.

 

 

 

The Boy Next Door

 

 

 

They hadn't talked since that night. Kagome had flung herself into her relationship with Sebastian and Sesshomaru seemed to have retreated inside himself. Neither wanted to discuss what had been said.

 

Sesshomaru's friends were worried about him, as all he wanted to do was stay in his room and stare at the four walls. Kagome wasn't just avoiding Sesshomaru anymore. She had stopped talking to Sango and Hiten also. The ex couple seemed completely miserable and it was hard for their friends to watch.

 

Hiten was weary of the signs that Sesshomaru was giving of in his depression and Sango knew a rebound boyfriend when she saw one. Hiten and Sango had decided that they had seen enough. It was time that these two sit down and have a real conversation without outside distractions.

 

A devious plan was formed.

 

“Come on Kagome we haven't been to the cabin in how long? You said yourself that Sebastian was going out of town with his family. What else are you going to do?” Sango said leaning against the girl's locker.

 

“I guess. I really haven't been around much. It would give us time to catch up on everything that is going on. Okay get me in an hour.” Kagome smiled closing her locker.

 

Hiten had come over to Sesshomaru's house and watched as the girls packed up to leave from the window in the living. Sesshomaru had been watching with him. His eyes never once leaving Kagome as every giggle seemed to send a wave of pain to him.

 

“Aren't you going with them.” Sesshomaru asked watching the girls pull away.

 

“No, it is a girl's week or something. Anyway, I heard about this cabin in the woods that is having a week long party.” Hiten said getting up from his position by the window.

 

“Yeah so.” Sesshomaru said listlessly.

 

“Yeah so? What the hell, get off your ass and lets go.” Hiten huffed

 

Sesshomaru raised his eyes to his friends. He could see the worry staring back at him and it really what could it hurt. “How far away is this place?” Sesshomaru asked getting to his feet and stretching.

 

“Four hours, but its spring break. No problem right?” Hiten smirked evilly

 

“Yeah I can do for a change of scenery.” Sesshomaru said

 

Sango and Kagome had arrived in record time. Sango had made sure to stop for food and other supplies that would be needed. She also managed to sneak in a bottle of her parent's rum. It couldn't hurt and if they were hung over they couldn't hurt Hiten and her when they came back for them.

 

When Kagome finished unpacking she tried to use her cell phone to call Sebastian, but couldn't signal. Sango said that she needed to go and get one more thing leaving the girl on her own at the cabin. Kagome thought that maybe if she made it to the lake she could get a signal.

 

Hiten and Sesshomaru arrived at the cabin a short time after Sango had left. Sesshomaru gave his friend a weary look as he grabbed his bag from the back of the car. It sure didn't look like a huge party was going to happen there unless it was a search party. He hadn't noticed that Hiten still had his engine going when he stepped out of the car.

 

“You'll thank me for this later.” Hiten yelled as he peeled out.

 

“What did you say San…” Kagome froze mid sentence when she rounded the cabin. There she saw Sesshomaru standing and looking just as shocked.

 

“What are you doing here?” Sesshomaru asked dropping his bag.

 

“Me, Sango invited me. Why are you here?” She said hands on hips.

 

“Fuck, I am so going to kill him.” Sesshomaru snarled grabbing his cell.

 

“It will not work. No signal out here.” She said walking into the cabin and slamming the door angrily.

 

After an hour of cussing and signal hunting he walked into the cabin. It was dark, late and he was hungry. He just hoped she wouldn't be too much of a bitch and give him some food. When he walked in he noticed that she had left him a plate of food and gone to her room for the night. He sighed and ate alone once he finished he headed into one of the other rooms in the cabin.

 

The next morning neither looked nor acknowledged the other. Sesshomaru had taken up a spot staring at the new ceiling from the bed he had slept in. The thought that Kagome was so close bothered him. Kagome was having the same reaction to the situation. It wasn't until dinnertime that Kagome thought it best that they at least try and get along.

 

It was the smell of hamburgers that had brought Sesshomaru from his room. He noticed that she had set two places at the table and guessed that he was going to be able to share her food. She looked over to him and motioned for him to come and sit with her.

 

“Look we are stuck together for awhile. I don't think it will kill us to social.” She said opening a soda and pouring it into a glass.

 

“Really, I thought that my presence made people want to kill themselves.” he gibed taking a seat across from her.

 

“Think what you want I don't care.” She said waving him off and taking a bite.

 

“Hn, so where's your boyfriend. Already run him off?” Sesshomaru asked taking a bite of his own food.

 

“He is with his family. They were going out of town.” She said ignoring his tone.

 

“How….nice for him.” Sesshomaru said taking another bite.

 

“I am not going to do this Sesshomaru. I refuse to sit here and toss insults back and forth. I think we have hurt each other enough don't you.” Kagome said leaning back in her chair to see his reaction.

 

“All right, then I want the truth.” Sesshomaru said sitting back his chair.

 

“Truth?” Kagome asked a little confused on which one he was referring.

 

“Did Tara tell you I was the reason my sister killed herself?” Sesshomaru asked

 

Kagome hadn't thought that was the truth he was referring to. Then she recalled the words that she had used against him and she guessed that was why he asked. As she looked at him, really looked at him she could see how much the words had truly hurt him. She had seen that look on Tara when she blamed herself for the death. She couldn't live with herself if Sesshomaru did that.

 

“No, Tara was convinced that your sister killed herself because of her.” She sighed.

 

“Do you know why she left her?” Sesshomaru asked tilting his head.

 

“She wanted to tell everyone, but your sister was scared. Tara said she couldn't take watching her with Hiten” Kagome said relaxing and realizing that all he really wanted were answers.

 

“Yeah I guess that really tore her up inside.” Sesshomaru said looking into her eyes.

 

“She really did love her Sesshomaru.” Kagome said sadly thinking of the two girls.

 

“Love, if she really loved her she would have stayed by her side.” He said harshly

 

“Really, I am sure that must have been fucking great to watch the one you gave your heart to practically fucking someone in front of you.” Kagome said gritting her teeth at the memory of him and Kagura.

 

“Kagome. I…”

 

Kagome jumped from the seat before he finished and headed to her room. She fell onto the bed and cradled her pillow for comfort. She had thought that if she drowned herself in her new boyfriend that all thoughts and feelings for Sesshomaru would go away. She was wrong, as the wound seemed to be deeper than she knew.

 

Sesshomaru didn't stop her or go after her. He had no right to do anything like that. She had a boyfriend and from what he had seen the guy was good to her. Maybe a better boyfriend than he had been to her. Sesshomaru placed the dishes in the sink and went into his room. He listened as her tears filled the empty otherwise silent cabin. He choked back any desire he had to go and comfort her.

 

It was early the next morning when the smell of bacon filled his nose and led him out the room. Kagome had her hair in a sloppy ponytail wearing a T-shirt and boy shorts. His eyes were following the curve of her legs and up her snug and hugged backside. She turned to see him standing there and his eyes snapped to hers.

 

“Wow you must like bacon. You're drooling.” She laughed

 

“Umm, yeah bacon. Love it. Can practically taste it in my mouth.” He groaned.

 

“Are you okay.” She asked leaning over to feel his head as he closed his eyes to her cool touch.

 

“I'm fine Kagome.” He said reopening his eyes and taking her hand from his head.

 

After breakfast they both cleaned up and dressed for the day. Kagome had convinced him to go hiking with her. He protested, but she had a point when she said there wasn't a lot to do. They didn't really talk and both seemed to be thinking of other things. It was when movement caught his eye to the right that he grabbed her to get her attention.

 

It was a meadow filled with deer and Kagome was giddy at the discovery. They sneaked to a low branch to the side of the meadow to watch the deer. The scene was so sweet and nice that she had forgot whom she was with and leaned her head onto shoulder. He tensed and her eyes widened sending her to sit up.

 

The sudden movement had scared the deer, but Kagome wanted to see the meadow closer up anyway. She walked from the branch and did not look to see if he followed. She still felt stupid by her actions. The sound of footfall behind her let her know that he was there.

 

“Did you ever really love me?” She asked picking a flower from the ground.

 

“What?” He asked moving closer

 

“Nothing.” She said not looking at him and wiping a tear she hoped he didn't see.

 

“I do love you Kagome.” He said moving to stand behind her.

 

“Yeah okay. That was why you had sex with every girl that asked your name.” She said lowering herself to the ground and closing her eyes.

 

“I didn't have sex with them, but I was wrong. I shouldn't have even kissed them…I was…angry and hurt…I felt betrayed and sad…I just lost my best friend and then I find out that she sleeping with my sister…I am sorry…I didn't mean it. Any of it and if there was a jewel that I could wish on and make it right I would.” Sesshomaru said lowering himself to sit behind her.

 

“I am with a great guy.” Kagome sniffled clenching the flowers.

 

“I am happy for you then.” He whispered, as his eyes seemed a little glassy with the knowledge she liked the guy she was with and he no longer held her heart.

 

She couldn't do this and she was so mad at Sango and Hiten. She couldn't stay here with him and be unaffected. She couldn't hear his voice and his apologies without wanting to crash her lips onto his. He and she were both hurting, but it was the fact that they had hurt each that bothered her most. She jumped to her feet and took off back to the cabin.

 

As she entered she started to look for anything that would distract her from him. Anything to stop the pain in her heart from his words and the words that she had said. Then she saw it and like it was the Holy Grail itself lifted it from the cabinet. It was at the time that Sesshomaru entered the cabin and saw what she holding.

 

“You don't drink Kagome.” He said collapsing from the run and event that brought him there.

 

“I think it is time that I start.” She said grabbing a cup and soda. “Want one.”

 

“Sure why not?” Sesshomaru said deciding if she was going to be wasted then so was he.

 

After five cups Kagome was feeling pretty good about life. Hell she was feeling pretty good about everything. She had flipped the cd player on and was attempting to make some sort of food. Sesshomaru was laughing as she kept dropping ingredients on the floor.

 

“Are …you laugh..ing…at me.” She asked taking another drink and holding the holding the flour in her other arm like a baby.

 

“You're not much of a drinker.” He laughed sucking the last of his down. Truth was neither was he, but she didn't know that.

 

“I…am fine.” She said trying to march over to him, but somewhere along the line tripped and tossed the flour into the air. It found a new home as it covered Sesshomaru's head.

 

When she looked up to apologize she lost it. He was covered in the thick powder and a wide gaping look of shock was across his face. She was balled on the floor laughing in hysterics at him when he finally realized what had happened. In the background Vindicated by Dashboard Confessionals began to play and fill the air along with laughter.

 

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of which has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

 

“You look. You look like…a ..ghost.” She giggled trying to catch her breath.

 

He finally blinked looking at her once more and began to shake the flour off of him self. This only made Kagome laugh more at him.

 

“Now..now you remind me of a dog.” She said wiping a tear away.

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

 

He looked down and dropped to his hands and knees crawling over to her. Kagome stopped laughing trying to figure out what he was doing. It wasn't till their faces were inches away from each that he licked the side of her face.

 

“A dog am I.” He smirked as she sat surprised, but smiling.

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

 

“A dog.” She said with a mischievous twinkle that gave him pause. She lunged forward knocking him backwards and licked his face. He shook his head trying to figure out how he was on his back, but then he realized she was straddling him and licking him. It was strange, but he liked it.

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

 

“If I'm a dog doesn't that make you a bitch.” He laughed as her eyes widened.

 

He quickly rolled her over before she could say anything. He swooped down to lick her again, but she grabbed his face and pulled his mouth to hers. It started as a strange licking kiss that turned into a deep moaning kiss. Her legs wrapping around his waist as she ground against him. She had missed him and he had missed her.

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away

So let me slip against the current
And let me slip away

 

They broke the kiss to breathe and pant. Staring in want and need they tore at each clothing. Neither thinking that this may complicate things further. He sucked at her neck and she grew tired of having no control. Kagome rolled him and sat up to look down at him. Both were covered in a fine white from the forgotten flour. She grabbed his length and lowered her self slowly listening to the sounds he made underneath her. He watched as she rode him with slow ease.

 

His moaning and her panting made her move faster on top of him. He grabbed her hair to pull her down to him. Deep surrendering kisses as they moved together the flour becoming a strange paste from the sweat on their bodies. She broke the kiss leaning her forehead on his as she stared into his eyes and slammed onto his length in pure aggressiveness. His body tensed as hers convulsed around him, squeezing him and milking him. She fell to the side as he pulled her into his arms and they both passed out.

 

It was hours later when they both began to stir. Pounding throbbing headaches and then they looked at each other. The cabin was in shambles and they were naked covered in a sticky goo. Memories flooded from the back to the front of their mind. Sesshomaru went to say something, but Kagome jumped up and ran into the bathroom.

 

After she finished he went to clean himself up. When he finished he walked out to find Kagome picking up the cabin. He helped her in silence, as neither knew what to say to the other after that. Questions, so many questions as Kagome started to make dinner. Sesshomaru decided he needed to know where he stood with her.

“Do you love him?” Sesshomaru asked walking up behind her.

 

“Umm, I…care about him.” She said staring at the frying chicken.

 

“You care about everyone Kagome.” He breathed into her hair causing a shiver.

 

“I don't want to hurt him.” Kagome said trying to ignore the warm body behind her.

 

“I'll change the question. Do you love me?” He asked slipping his arm around her.

 

“Were bad for each other. We hurt each other and bad things happen when we are together.” She whispered closing her eyes when he leaned his head on her shoulder. His breath caressing her ear as he held her closer.

 

“You didn't answer. Chicken.” He said releasing her.

 

“I am not!” She turned to yell balling her fists and he pointed into the pan.

 

“I meant that the chicken is burning.” He laughed

 

“OH NO!” She yelled quickly turning it off. “Why are you doing this to me?”

 

“Kagome I only asked if you still loved me nothing else.” He replied walking away and slamming the door to his room. She sighed looking at the charred chicken.

 

“This is so stupid.” She said heading to his room. She knocked lightly and he tossed it open. “Let's talk Sesshomaru. I mean really talk. No secrets and no holding back.”

 

“Okay.” He said and moved so she could walk in and sit down.

 

“I am sorry that I kept it a secret. Tara pleaded with me not to say anything. I knew that you would hate me, but the look in her eyes. I just couldn't.” She said fumbling with her fingers on the bed.

 

“I don't blame you Kagome. I fucked up. I know that. I pushed away physically and mentally. I am glad that you are in love, but I'm not happy that it isn't me.” Sesshomaru said sitting next to her on the bed.

 

“I love you.” She breathed quickly and threw her hand over her mouth.

 

“What?” He asked and she moved to look away, but he stopped her retreat.

 

“I didn't mean what I said. It was a terrible thing to say and I wanted to hurt you. I know that you are so much more than you think you are. I care about Sebastian, but I don't love him. It was easy to be with him, because I could imagine he was you. That makes me such a bad person and I even screwed up a few times and called him your name.” She gabbled as he tried to follow along.

 

When she finally finished apologizing and spilling her guts about everything the room went stone silent. He for the first time in a long time was actually nervous.

 

“I want you back, Kagome. I mean if you love me shouldn't we be together.” His voice more unsure than she had ever heard. Her arms went wrapped around him as she lay little kisses on his neck. His arm going around her back as his heart beat faster. “I love you too. I want to come back.” She whispered in his ear.