InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Darkness of One's Heart ❯ Paranoia ( Chapter 9 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Disclaimer: I know this will surprise and you won't believe it, but I still don't own Inuyasha… I told you, you wouldn't believe it. I also don't own Linkin Park's "Paper Cut".

Sorry this is late my computer's keyboard broke *cries in corner* now I have to use my old one. T_T

The song in last chapter was supposed to be in bold print but it didn't appear all the time, so sorry if it was confusing so from now on I'll do this for ~lyrics~. The memories were also supposed to be in that slanted font but something went wrong with that to, I'm not sure what will happen this time but if the memories aren't in the slanted font then know that they're supposed to be.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Memories

~Lyrics~

Paranoia

~Why does it feel like night today?

Something in here's not right today.~

Normal P.O.V.

Once again the second the taiyoukai's of the north, east, and west stepped inside of the chamber they were hit with an onslaught of unwanted and unneeded emotions, only this time they were feeling every uncertainty towards others they had ever felt… magnified by one hundred. After a few minutes the effects wore off and their emotions went back to normal.

"That's not fun." commented Haru.

"I think I agree with you Haru." Maseru and Intaisho agreed together.

"I didn't really feel a change." said Pride.

The lords all sweatdropped.

"How could you not have felt that?" Intaisho asked.

"I told you I'm used to feeling these things, there are only very few emotions Umbri has that could make me react the way you're acting and we won't be going after them until I've absorbed most of the other emotions." said Pride.

~Why am I so uptight today?

Paranoia's all I got left.~

With that they all took a look at they're surroundings. It was a maze of mirrors. (Have you ever been in a fun house and there was a room with a bunch of mirrors in it? It's really confusing; you run into the mirrors all the time lol)

"Oh, well… this is different." Intaisho said.

"It shouldn't be to hard just look at the ground and you'll see the path." Maseru said.

They all looked at the floor just to find that it was also a mirror.

"Looks like this just got harder. What do you think we should do Pride?" Intaisho asked.

"We'll do what I've always done to find my way when I come into this room…"

"Which is?"

"Keep going forward until you run into a mirror then go to your left and if you run into another mirror go to your right until you hit the next mirror, repeat this until Paranoia is found."

Once again the lords all sweatdropped.

"Won't she just be at the end of the maze?"

"This isn't a maze, just a room full of mirrors, there's no beginning or end, and Paranoia hides in there to confuse visitors. Only she knows how to get through there without bumping into mirrors, and before you ask, no the mirrors cannot be broken and even if they could be Paranoia would then put up a bigger fight then she already will. And I tell you this now when we find Paranoia I don't even want you to breath, she will think of everything as a threat, or think that you're lying to her to hurt her some way."

~I don't know what stressed me first

Or how the pressure was fed.~

"Well this will be fun." Haru said sarcastically.

"Shut up and lets go." Umbri said, once again annoyed.

If anyone had been there to see it, it would have been a very funny sight to see three taiyoukai and an over prideful girl running into mirrors, cursing under their breath every time they did so. Eventually when they all found the right way they started to get more of Umbri's memories. (but they were still running into mirrors every so often)

Umbri looked about nine she was once again standing in front of the mysterious figure again, 'It' was speaking to her. "You are never to trust anyone, they are all out to get you and will betray you. Remember Umbri, the world is against you anything and everything is out to get you. I am the only one you can trust. Believe that. Now on to your test." They felt Umbri's trust and belief. 'It' took her out side; there was a dark, thick forest. "I want you to run through there until you reach the end then come back" was all the figure said. 'It' then turned around and walked back into the castle. Umbri looked to the forest. They felt her uncertainty. She started to run through everywhere things started popping out. They were either trying to kill her, hurt her, or molest her. They felt scared and helpless. Soon Umbri was covered in cuts and bruises. She eventually made it to the end of the forest and turned around to go back, the same things happened when she was about to break through to the castle her way was blocked off. She was forced to turn around and go back to the other side of the forest, when she made it back to the castle she was once again forced to go back. This was done over and over again and again. Finally when Umbri found a safe place to rest she stopped and sat down, but every noise or movement caused by the wind would set her off. She was sure someone was there watching her and waiting for her to put down her guard. They felt paranoid.

They continued walking into mirrors muttering curses until they found the way through again.

~/ but I know just what it feels like

To have a voice in the back of my head.~

They saw Umbri at multiple ages anywhere from a pup to the age she is now being betrayed be those she trusted the most. They felt hurt, betrayal, and anger. They then saw other trying to make friends with Umbri, but her previous encounters with others held her back from making friends with them and trusting them. They felt paranoid.

And they continued walking into mirrors muttering curses until they found the way through again.

~It's like a face that I hold inside.

A face that awakes when I close my eyes.

A face watches every time I lie

A face that laughs every time I fall.~

Umbri looked the age that she is now, she was walking through the forest but at every little sound she would turn her head towards it as though expecting something to jump out at her and attack her. They felt paranoid.

And they continued walking into mirrors muttering curses until they found the way through again.

~[And watches everything]

So I know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is hearing me / right underneath my skin.~

Umbri once again looked the same as she does now. She was standing in the middle of a clearing there was a group of inu youkai, they were talking. "Shita I need your help." gasped Umbri as she fell to the cold, wet, and muddy ground. They felt her exhaustion.

"Umbri we've been looking for you. We need to talk." said Shita, neither she nor any of the group made a move towards Umbri to help her. "Now is not the time, I need your help, please!" Umbri gritted out. They felt her annoyance "Well you see," Shita started "it is. We were looking for you to call off the alliance. We're sorry Umbri but you just bring trouble. We're constantly fighting off your enemies and your "admirers"; it's just not worth putting the whole pack in danger. You should have told us about all your enemies, if we'd had known than we never would have excepted the alliance and you wouldn't have been hurt." explained Shita. "I DID TELL YOU! I told you beforehand that the world was against me. How can you say I didn't warn you? I'd say that saying the worlds against me would have told you something you traitors!" yelled Umbri. They felt her anger, disbelief, sadness, betrayed, and hatred. "Normally we would kill youkai or whatever you are that we break alliances with, but seeing as how you're hurt and will most likely die anyways it would be dishonorable for us to attack you in your weakened state." Shita said. "You lost your honor when you broke the alliance for your own selfish reasons you hiretsukan!" screamed Umbri. All they felt was anger. Shita narrowed his eyes at Umbri. "You have one hour before your "admirers" get here. We just fought off a group of them but they've probably smelled you and know that you're weak. I suggest that you get out of here before they find you." Shita said as he turned around and started walking away, the group followed. "If we ever see you again we'll kill you." Shita said over his shoulder. They then heard Umbri's thoughts. 'I know those lords are looking for me, can I trust them?' they felt paranoid.

~It's like I'm / paranoid lookin' over my back

It's like a / whirlwind inside of my head

It's like I / can't stop what I'm hearing within

It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin.~

Intaisho, Maseru, Haru, and pride saw many more instances when Umbri was paranoid, eventually the memories stopped. They still hadn't found Paranoia.

"Where the hell is she?… kuso." Intaisho said as he walked into another mirror.

"She's in here somewhere be patient." Pride said "Kuso!" she added as she walked into another wall. She then looked around to make sure no one saw that.

"Can't she just come out? It would make our job a lot easier if she would just suck up her fear and face us… KUSO!" Haru yelled, as he walked into another mirror.

"Paranoia can't feel fear, she's not coming out because she's paranoid about us, and thinks were going to try to trick her in some way."

"Gee, you think?" Haru said sarcastically.

"It's not my fault that I can't make her come out! I'm doing the best I can, she at least knows who I am, you're the reasons she won't come out." Pride said as she tried to point at the taiyoukai, but a mirror was in front of her that she couldn't see so her hand slammed into it. "KUSO!!!!!!!!!" Pride then noticed the lords looking at her "I meant to do that."

"Sure." Intaisho snickered.

"Ya right." Haru said, while hiding his smile with his hand.

"We believe you." Maseru said managing to keep a straight face.

"Oh shut up, you over egotistical bastards." Pride yelled.

"Why you," Haru started but as he made a move towards Pride he slammed into a mirror. Pride thinking this was very funny burst out laughing. Though Intaisho and Maseru would have agreed with Pride that this was amusing wisely decided to try and hide their laughter. Intaisho went into a "coughing fit" while Maseru held his breath for as long as he possibly could, however it was very easy to tell he was trying not to laugh considering his shoulders were shaking heavily. But before any of them could speak up a new voice started speaking.

"You should be more careful, you never know when there's something out to get you. You could get hurt."

~I know I've got a face in me

Points out all my mistakes to me.~

"Paranoia, please come out. I just want to talk." Pride said getting over her laughter instantly.

"No." the voice sounded.

"Why not?"

You're trying to trick me. How do I know you're really Pride? After all those demons got into here. How do I know you're not trying to screw up Umbri further? And even if you are Pride why would I want to go back to a place where I'm feeling constant paranoia?"

"At least come out where we can see you. We can just talk for now."

"Fine."

In the mirrors appeared another version of Umbri. This one looked like it hadn't slept in weeks, she was skinny, had bags under her eyes, cloths were messed up, and she slouched. But her eyes were ever aware, they were always looking from side to side as though expecting something to jump out and attack her.

~You've got a face on the inside too and

Your paranoia's probably worse.~

"Well… you look, good." Pride started out.

"I look like shit." Paranoia said, but she didn't sound like she cared all that much.

"Yes, well… come on Paranoia you know what we have to do."

"NO!!! I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK!"

"None of us want to go back." Pride said while looking at all the reflections of Paranoia.

"Then why do you do this? Umbri doesn't want to live just let her die, we both know that if Umbri's in here long enough her body will shut down. Then we can all be happy again."

"Yes, Umbri does want to die but not like this. If we're going to die it will be for a noble reason. Don't you remember the promises we made?" She was still looking at all the reflections.

"Of coarse I remember."

"Well now you know why we have to keep going. Rico knew that this would happen if he were to die so he made us promise before hand that if something should ever happen to him that we would never die like the way we're about to die, so hurry up we don't have all day." Her eyes fell on one particular reflection to the right of her.

"Not all of us have the will to live as you do Pride that is why you're the only one that looks for Umbri's emotions to put her back together."

"Yes well if you let me absorb you then you can have some of that "will to live"."

"I'm sorry Pride but I just can't do it. You're just going to have to go on without me."

~I don't know what set me off first but I know what I can't stand

Everybody acts like the fact of the matter is

I can't add up to what you can.~

"Yes well I'd love to but you're the only one that knows the way through here so I'm going to have to do this…" with that said Pride jumped towards the reflection of Paranoia to the right of her that she had been looking at earlier. However instead of a reflection it turned out to be the real Paranoia. Pride hugged Paranoia to her and whispered to her.

"Just a little longer, soon we'll be complete."

Will that Paranoia turned into an orange mist and was absorbed into Pride. Once again Pride's appearance changed. She looked a little weaker and more tired, she was also breathing more heavily.

"Are you alright?" Intaisho asked.

~But

Everybody has a face that they hold inside~

"I'm fine." Pride breathed as she answered. The lords decided not to push it.

"How did you know which one was the real Paranoia?" Maseru asked.

"When you look in a mirror it shows the opposite of everything you do. While Paranoia was talking I was looking at the reflections, the one that I jumped was the only one doing the opposite of the others (wow this is hard to explain but I hope you get it) so I knew it wasn't a reflection. With that said Pride walked up to a mirror and punched it, it shattered and behind it was a door. "Damn." She whispered softly.

~A face that awakes when I close my eyes

A face watches every time they lie~

"What is it? What's wrong?" Maseru asked.

"Our next destination."

"What is it?" Intaisho asked.

"Fear."

~A face that laughs every time they fall

[And watches everything]

So you know that when it's time to sink or swim

That the face inside is watching you too / right inside your skin~

The lords turned pale.

"Just out of curiosity, does Umbri have any good emotions?" Haru questioned.

"A few but they're so weak they wouldn't help at all, they would just fuel up the bad emotions because every happy thing that Umbri has ever felt has always ended as a disaster. So there's no point to getting them, all I need to get are Umbri's strongest emotions then when I go to the heart and they're absorbed the weaker emotions will be forced to come. Now come on, this one is not going to be fun." With that Pride walked through the door and was shortly followed by three lords.

~The sun goes down.

I feel the light betray me.~

End Chapter

Next Chapter: Fear

If any of you have any good songs that would fit fear please send them to me. Thank for reading and remember R&R!!!!!!!! Sorry is the spelling is bad I suck at it!!1 so please forgive me if it sucks.