InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Demons Within Us ❯ No One is Innocent ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

InuYasha flicked the spent joint from his fingers and blew out the tingling smoke. God he hated Mondays. He shut his eyes slightly and let his body shiver away his inhibitions. `Fuck yeah.'

Leaning against the wall of the warehouse, InuYasha waited with crossed arms. He'd been working the new drummer hard to the point where he stumbled home too exhausted to speak. Fuck, he never even had the time or energy to get himself wasted since she started. Well, aside from the two-four he polished off over the weekend. Fucking Sesshomaru and fucking damned….

He growled and shook his head from the thought. The only thing that would make him feel better now was the thought of making the drummer suffer. But Kagome never wavered. She never once cried, yelled or complained. She just watched him with those insufferable eyes. He insulted, he degraded, hell, even come close to wanting to hit her sometimes. But she just kept going. She acted so high above it all that nothing he said or did touched her. The times he thought he brought her down, cut her deep to the core, she would just shut her eyes and smile softly, before looking at him so openly he thought for certain he'd fall to his knees before her. And he hated her all the more for it. How was it possible for something so frail to stand so strong against his assault? He cringed slightly at what he had to do, but he had no choice. It was time to step it up a notch.

His eyes rolled open as he heard the wail of a fan belt come closer. He winced at the noise as Kagome's car came into view to park in the alleyway where he stood. `Bitch has got to get herself a better set of fucking wheels.'

Kagome stepped out of her car, pulling a yellow backpack out with her. InuYasha frowned at her beige cargo Capri's and loose baby blue tank that she wore. She looked too cute, and the last thing he needed from her was to be cute.

“Bitch, what the fuck did I tell you about image?”

Kagome jumped and rounded on him. Her eyes relaxed as she finally took notice of him and she smiled brightly. “Oh, InuYasha, thank goodness. It's just you.”

InuYasha roamed his eyes up and down her fully and moved to stand in front of her. The world seemed to melt away, leaving only him to gaze at this small innocent before him as she stared wide-eyed up at him. How easily she was swallowed in his shadow.

He looked deeply into her soft eyes and cupped her chin. “Why do you always park here? A small thing like you can get hurt out here all alone.” He murmured and his golden eyes flicked up and down her cherub face.

Kagome blushed as she pulled her chin from his grasp and looked down. “Nothing can hurt me, InuYasha.”

The man's eyes darkened and he stepped back. “What makes you so sure? Your God tell you that?”

Kagome lifted her eyes to meet his and she smiled softly. “Yes.”

InuYasha clenched his teeth in anger and he had to fist his hands to keep from pounding something. It was no secret he held contempt for faith and those who followed it, but his reasons were his own. People just accepted the fact that when it came to God, they best shut up about it. Yet Kagome never feared his wrath. Though she never openly acknowledged her beliefs, her entire being radiated it. Each time he called her on it, argued against it and even blasphemed her God, she never said a word. She just smiled softly and waited for him to get tired of yelling.

Even now, she just smiled.

“I know because you are here, InuYasha. No one can hurt me when you're around.”

Golden eyes searched her face intently. Was she serious? InuYasha felt his chest tighten at her harmless response. `She actually trusts me?' His heart sped up slightly and he felt sick all of a sudden. He grimaced as if in pain. “Don't be so fucking sure.”

Kagome looked up at him in worry. “InuYasha?” She reached up to touch his face but he slapped her hand away, making her look at him in concerned confusion.

InuYasha shut his eyes and smirked. “I rather you were afraid, Kagome.” He opened his eyes slightly and moved closer to her. He grinned lustily as she instinctively backed up against the wall behind her. He pressed his body against hers and stared down into her wide blue eyes before he dipped his mouth down to brush against her neck. He grinned softly against her flesh when he heard her gasp.

He whispered huskily against the pulse in her throat, his hot breath tickling in her ear. “In fact, it would be safer for you to be terrified of me.”

“Why should I be afraid of you, InuYasha?” Kagome asked quietly.

Lifting his head to search her face, InuYasha growled angrily. Her eyes were wide, but only in curiosity. That damn innocence, untainted and unmarred, reflected in those warm depths. Did the woman not know pain? Did she not know fear and hatred? Fuck, he was practically assaulting her and she just stood there oblivious to it all. Didn't she know what he was capable of? He grinned sadistically to himself. No, but she will soon enough.

He pushed himself off of her and leered down at her clothing. “I told you to not wear that shit.”

Kagome looked at her clothing and then to her bag. “I have my other clothes here.”

InuYasha thrust his fist against the wall beside her head, making the siding shudder and ring in the assault, yet she never even flinched. His eyes flashed fury as he looked down at her. “You are supposed to be wearing them.” He stated through clenched teeth. He knew he was acting like a complete asshole, but damn it all that he could never gain control of her.

Kagome looked up at him in concern. “InuYasha, please understand. I can't wear that type of clothing at work.”

“This is your work, girl. I am your boss and I am your job, and if I catch you not wearing what I want, then consider yourself out on your worthless ass.” He grabbed her bag from her hand and thrust it against her chest. “Not saying it just about isn't already.” He sneered and pushed her body roughly against the wall before walking around the corner and out of her sight.

Kagome clutched her bag tightly to her and watched him disappear. Looking back down at her belongings, she let out the breath she had been holding and shut her eyes to gain back her composure. InuYasha always made it difficult on her, but she refused to give him the satisfaction. She knew he was trying to make her quit or submit to him, but she also knew if she did, she would never gain his respect.

She opened her eyes to stare up at the sky. “Dear Lord, give me patience.” She sighed and nodded to herself. “Step one, get changed before you get here, you never know if InuYasha will be early.” She smiled slightly and followed InuYasha's trail to the warehouse door.

“Hey, Kags.” Kouga grinned lazily as she entered.

Kagome smiled and opened her mouth to respond before InuYasha cut her off.

“Hey, shit brick, watch what you're doing.” He yelled as Kouga shifted the base drum.

Kagome couldn't see anything wrong with how Kouga was handling the drum before InuYasha hissed at her. He nodded his head to the bathroom, signalling her to get changed. She nodded softly and jogged to the bathroom, oblivious to two sets of eyes watching her intently.

“What the fuck are you doing?” Kouga griped once Kagome was in the bathroom.

“What's it to you, jackass?” InuYasha frowned as he began wiring the mikes and amps.

“You're treating her like shit, man. There's no need for it.” Kouga growled as he finished setting up the drums.

“What the fuck are you getting on with?” The silver haired singer turned his back to the dark haired man, hoping to end the conversation.

“You know exactly what I'm getting on with. Insulting her, working her the way you have….” Kouga pulled at InuYasha's shoulder to force him to face him. “You've been on her case since she started. What's your deal?”

InuYasha shoved Kouga away from him. “I don't have to explain myself to you.”

“You do if you keep treating her like that.” Kouga seethed.

“Keh, worried I'm upsetting your girlfriend?” InuYasha grinned though his eyes shot poison at the man.

“I'm telling you to back off, man. There's no reason to treat her like that. She knows the songs. She isn't going to fuck up the band if that's what you're worried about.”

“Don't matter what she knows, it's what she is that's the problem.” InuYasha hissed and turned back to what he was doing.

“And just what the fuck is she?” Kouga growled.

InuYasha rounded on him. “A fucking bible pusher. A holier-than-thou-Mother-fucking-Mary. The girl doesn't know anything. She never felt the pain any of us knew. She doesn't have any fucking clue about us or of what we are. All she knows are rainbows and unicorns in that fucking daydream she calls a life.”

“How do you know, InuYasha?” Miroku walked up casually beside him, having entered the warehouse to overhear their conversation. “Ever ask her?”

InuYasha shot his gaze to his friend. “All you have to do is look at the bitch to know. She's just so goddamned….”

“Pure?” Miroku grinned softly as he bent over to fiddle with his amp. “She does seem very tender towards the darker side of life. Almost as if she is untouched by it.”

InuYasha studied the man quickly before he smirked. “Is that why I have never seen you grope her? Fuck, Miro, she is the only thing with a cunt you've never grabbed.”

Miroku sighed and looked up at the silver haired man. “I have my reasons for not pursuing her.”

“Yeah, the fact Sango will have your balls on a platter.”

Miroku grinned sheepishly and looked back down to the amp. “Perhaps.”

“Listen, dogshit,” Kouga grounded out, “back off on Kagome. She's a great girl, works hard and doesn't judge. Doesn't matter what she thinks. She's never pushed it on us. She leaves us alone so we should leave her alone.”

“Speak for yourself.” InuYasha grumbled. “God doesn't exist and people like her shouldn't either.”

Miroku gave him a queer look before turning back to the instruments.

“What?” The irate man barked.

“I have faith, InuYasha.” Miroku stated quietly. “You know that.”

InuYasha studied his friend quietly before turning to glare at the wall. “Yeah, but you're different.”

“And why is that?”

InuYasha glanced at Miroku's gloved hand. “You just are.”

Miroku shook his head. “Don't let my past be the reason why you tolerate my beliefs, InuYasha. We all have our reasons for living the way we do. She just happens to have her own. It shouldn't be up to us to ask her why.”

“Feh. Why can't she be bloody normal?” InuYasha crossed his arms and closed his eyes in irritation.

Miroku looked him over for a few moments and he smiled slightly. “Oh, I see.”

“What?” Kouga asked.

InuYasha glared hard at guitarist before turning away.

“You like her.” Miroku stated quietly.

“What?” Kouga asked stunned before looking at the fuming singer. He began to laugh. “Oh my fucking god! You like her? The man with no fucking soul is in love with God girl? Oh this is fucking rich!”

InuYasha flared. “Don't talk shit, you fucking son of a bitch! She is just damn whore like the rest of them.”

“Yeah, and you can't wait to be her little puppy.” Kouga leered before InuYasha's fist connected with his jaw, sending him to the floor.

Kouga shook his head and looked up in vehemence before launching himself at InuYasha. Both men rolled heavily on the floor, punching and thrashing on each other.

“InuYasha!” Miroku tried to pull the man off of Kouga but got knocked back in the process.

“Miroku!” Sango emerged from the bathroom and ran over to the fallen man, helping him to stand.

Kagome had followed Sango out of the bathroom, now dressed in her black outfit, and her shadowed eyes widened in fright from the scene. She ran over and stopped short of the fight. “InuYasha!”

InuYasha lifted his head instinctively from the terror laced in her voice. His eyes met hers and he felt his heart stop when he saw tears rim her eyes as she looked at him in worried panic. Unfortunately it left an opening for Kouga to punch the side of his face, knocking him off the man completely.

Kouga stood and was about to wail on the prone singer some more before Kagome rushed over and wrapped her arms around his chest.

“Kouga! Stop!” She whimpered into his black tank shirt.

Kouga looked down at the frail girl in his arms in shock. “Kagome?”

“Don't hurt him, please.”

InuYasha struggled to heave his body up from the floor. He coughed heavily and spat out blood before he looked up to see Kagome hugging onto Kouga. His eyes flashed fire as he stood up shakily.

“Fuck this!” He rasped in fury while clutching at his side. “I'm out of here.” He stumbled over to the warehouse door and staggered out of sight.

Kagome immediately pulled herself from Kouga and looked up at him. “Oh, you're bleeding!” She rushed to the bathroom to gather some tissue, wetting a few bunches in the process.

Sango looked from Kouga to Miroku in shocked anger. “What the fuck was that about?”

Miroku looked up at Kouga, seeing his busted lip and bruised jaw. “A misunderstanding.”

Kouga looked back at the man and reluctantly nodded. “Yeah, just a bad choice of words.”

“Damn it, Kouga.” Sango tilted his face to the side. “Look at you.”

Kagome came running out of the bathroom just then and pulled a chair beside her. “Sit!”

Kouga didn't need to be told twice, the icy fire in Kagome's eyes was terrifying enough for him to not refuse. He sat on the chair and grunted in pain. He winced when Kagome dabbed at his lip. “Fuck, Kagome! That hurts!”

“Oh shush, why must you swear so much? It's just a darned cut!” She scolded.

Kouga flinched his face away. “Still hurts.”

“And here I thought a punch in the face felt like kitten kisses.” Kagome frowned and shook her head. “Honestly, you act worse than the children at the Shikon House.”

Kouga looked down and frowned. Having being called on something like this never normally fazed him. Hell, he spent most of his life fighting and being chased by cops for his violence when he was involved in the gang wars. Fighting was his life and his reason for survival. But it hurt being scolded by Kagome. It was if he disappointed her, and it cut deep.

Sango and Miroku looked at each other then at Kagome. The girl had no qualms at seeing blood or handling fights. She never even seemed to think as she put herself between InuYasha and Kouga.

Miroku frowned. Whatever InuYasha had against her, he knew it was unwarranted. The more he watched Kagome, the more he knew she was not the naïve girl they took her for.

“Sango?”

Sango looked startled by Kagome's serious tone. “Yeah?”

“Take this, please, and clean him off.” She thrust some tissue at Sango before stalking over to the warehouse door. “I'm going to check on InuYasha.”

Sango looked from the tissue to the girl. “Kagome, I don't think….”

Kagome turned and smiled gently at her. “It's ok, just dab at the cut until it stops bleeding and get some ice for his jaw. I'll only be a minute.” She disappeared around the door.

“That's not what I meant.” Sango frowned but she did as Kagome instructed. “Miroku, I think you should follow her.”

Miroku shook his head. “She can handle him fine. Besides, knowing InuYasha, he's got ride coming for him.”

Sango looked up at him before shaking her head angrily and continued to dab at Kouga's lip, annoyed that the tissue kept breaking off and getting in the cut.

Kagome looked into the alleyway and frowned. No InuYasha. She sighed and closed her eyes. Breathing deep, she grimaced, and moved down the alley to emerge behind the warehouse. She smiled softly in relief to see that InuYasha was sitting on the curb smoking on a cigarette.

“Damn, bitch, can't seem to get rid of you.” He growled, exhaling grey smoke.

Kagome breathed out softly as she stepped quietly over to him and sat down beside him.

“You going to say anything?” InuYasha said numbly as he picked blood from his fingernails.

Kagome smiled softly and looked at the pavement in front of her. “Do I need to say anything?”

“Keh.” He inhaled another drag.

Kagome studied him from the corner of her eye. He didn't seem worse for wear. There were a few bruises, but nothing that wouldn't heal over time. Her eyes drifted to his hand. “You're bleeding.” She stated softly.

“Does it scare you?” He raked his tongue across his teeth and coughed, spitting out a little blood. “Think I'll give you some disease if you touch me?”

She turned her head and looked at him fully with gentle grace. “Will you let me take care of you?”

He glanced at her before rolling his eyes and stared off ahead of him. “Don't.”

“Don't what?”

“Don't talk to me like that.” He growled.

Kagome opened her mouth to ask what he meant but then shut it. She lifted her fist and opened her hand in front of him. A soft white handkerchief, sodden with water, lay crumpled in her hand. “Here.”

InuYasha looked at it and pushed her hand away. “I'm sure your boyfriend needs it more.”

“I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm giving it to you.” She opened her hand again in offering.

InuYasha studied it for a few moments before he hesitantly reached for it. He held the small cloth in one hand, looking at it intently before tossing his smoke away and dabbing the blood from his knuckles. He leered at it as he watched his blood stain the pure white cotton. “So you giving me this thing make me your boyfriend?”

Kagome blushed slightly. “It doesn't make you anything to me. You are what you already are.”

“And that is?” He looked at her with a mock grin.

Kagome just smiled her soft smile. “You.”

InuYasha held his snide grin as he wrapped the handkerchief around his hand. Even after the fight she just witnessed she acted as if all was right with the world. “Keh. When are you going to realize the truth?”

“Truth?” She tilted her head.

“God doesn't exist and the world is a fucking mess.” He stood and dusted his pants off.

Kagome stood up beside him. “Everyone has their own truth.” She stated softly.

“Stupid bitch.” He chuckled. “The truth is I think you're afraid.”

“Afraid?”

“Yeah, afraid to realize faith is just a sham to make everyone think things will get better by miraculous means when all they do is fuck up the world more by waiting for God to fix it.”

Kagome nodded. “Yes. That happens.”

InuYasha looked down at her stunned. “So you agree that faith is a crock of shit?”

Kagome shook her head and looked down. “No, I'm saying that everyone makes it into something they want it to be. And some do use it for harm than good. It then becomes a matter of seeing who does what with it.”

InuYasha shook his head. “Whatever, I've seen enough in my life to know God doesn't exist, and to have anyone think otherwise makes them the most ignorant person on the fucking planet.”

Kagome just smiled softly.

InuYasha's eyes narrowed at her. “We lived through the most bloodiest war this world had ever seen. If it wasn't bombs, guns or people that killed, it was poison, sickness and disease. Where was God when the world was going to hell in a hand basket?”

Kagome shrugged. “Where He needed to be.”

“Oh for fuck sakes, there's no getting through to you is there?” He snarled.

Kagome looked up at him curiously.

“You're a sick bitch.” He growled. “You tell those orphans you work with that their parents are with God. That there's no pain and everyone is happy and everything happens for a fucking reason?”

Kagome looked down.

“Those kids should know one thing and one thing only. Stick to their own. God's not real. He was made up so people wouldn't be afraid of dying and that their pathetic existence would actually be worth something even when they did shit all.” He lifted her face abruptly to look up at him. “This world is made by those who make it something. And I'm going to be one of them. My name is going to be remembered, bitch, and I will be revered as a god. And people will know I exist.”

Kagome pulled her face from his grasp. “Things exist if we believe in them or not.”

InuYasha blinked and stepped back. “What?”

Kagome looked up at him sadly. “I know the truth, InuYasha. Even if people don't believe in something, doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. You have a name, InuYasha, and even though many don't know it, you do exist.”

InuYasha looked at her in hateful fear and began to back away from her. “What the fuck are you getting on with?”

She looked into his eyes, her pale blue orbs like whispers of heaven. “I believe in you.”

Undeniable rage flooded his body and he lunged at her. “Shut the fuck up!” He pushed her hard, making her stumble and fall back heavily, hitting her head hard against the cement.

Kagome gasped as the pain stunned her briefly. She gripped the back of her head and winced as she tried to sit up.

InuYasha shook his head in confusion, anger and guilt. He wanted to reach for her, to apologize and comfort her, but she stirred things in him he never wanted to surface. He opened his mouth to say something, anything, but stopped when her eyes opened to look into his own.

Instead of anger and hate, they were filled with sadness and understanding.

His heart lurched in his chest and his concern was swallowed by terror. “Stay the fuck away from me!”

A loud beep made him jump and he turned to see the familiar grey Lexus drive up beside him. He spared Kagome a glance before he ran over to the passenger side and quickly got in.

Kagome stood up and looked at him through the windshield, but he avoided her gaze. Her eyes flicked to the woman in the driver's side. Cold calculating eyes leered back at her with disdain before the car pulled away.

Kagome shook her head sadly as she watched them drive off. “Oh, InuYasha. I believe in you.”