InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Eternal Curse ❯ Life Moves On and So Will You ( Chapter 22 )

The Eternal Curse

Chapter Twenty Two:

Life Moves On and So Will You

Notes: Only a few more chapters left guys!

Disclaimer: Do I really have to repeat myself?

Chapter Summary: Kagome is going through a deep stage of depression. She also figures out more about her relationship with Inuyasha, and how it could be effected by Kikyou's betrayal.

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He knew something was wrong. He could tell by the way she fell asleep during the table, the way puffy, purple bags formed under her eyes, and the way her usually bright brown eyes were dull and lifeless. Kagome was going through depression. It was as clear as the ears on his head. Inuyasha shifted in the uncomfortable wooden chair, stirring his soup with his chopsticks, which were held between his limp fingers. His eyes fell on Kagome by his side who was looking straight ahead, at nothing. He didn't like to see her so sad when she was always so optimistic.

He lied to her.

Well, not flat out lied, but he assured her he could help her, and he couldn't. Kikyou's scrolls were as worthless as he was. Inuyasha hated himself for it. Why did he always have to mess things up? Why couldn't his romantic love life go right for once? Why couldn't they both be happy? It didn't seem that comforting words or soothing caresses would be able to penetrate the thick barrier she had created around herself.

Kagome suddenly snapped her head towards him, as if she could hear his thoughts. Deep brown eyes bore through him, as if they were reading his soul. Inuyasha's ear twitched furiously, as if hoping to pick up a fragment of her voice. She smiled dryly.

"Nothing seems to work out, eh?" she asked, poking at her cold oden. Inuyasha was now positive that she could read his mind.

"Kagome, don't be sad," Inuyasha murmured softly. She paused and looked at him, shaking her dark hair from her pale face.

"It's not your fault. Maybe fate won't be so cruel and I'll find some guy who loves me." Inuyasha started choking on air. Didn't she know that he had feelings for her? After how loyally he stayed by her side, how fiercely he protected her during their battle with Sesshomaru, how he held her tight. But, how would she know if he didn't tell her? Dammit! He drummed his claws against the wood, scarring deep marks in the hand-carved mahogany. If she didn't even consider him as a someone who loved her, then maybe…maybe she didn't have feelings for him! Inuyasha scowled mentally, his ears pressed against his skull. He had considered earlier telling her how he felt, but maybe that wasn't such a good idea?...

"Kagome you have to snap out of it!" he growled. She froze.

"Snap out of what?"

"Out of depression! You think being a hanyou is that bad?" Inuyasha yelled, balling his hands into fists, claws cutting into his palms. "Does that mean you don't like having a hanyou…friend?" She shook her head ardently.

"No! Inuyasha you're taking this the wrong way," Kagome said, end of her chopsticks skating across the smooth shell of her cold, brown soup. A piece of celery floated by in the murky mass. "I like you! You're one of my best friends, but everyone thinks of me as a disgrace to the bloodline. My own sister hated me." She sniffled, and rubbed her wet eyes with her sleeve. Crap! I made her cry again! Inuyasha put an unsure hand on the small of her back, and suddenly locked eyes with Queen Higurashi who was watching the innocent exchange with wide eyes that much resembled Kagome's. He growled at her. She smiled, then returned her attention to her forgotten rice, and slowly put a bleached white grain in her mouth.

Inuyasha shook his head, and looked at Kagome, who looked tense with his hand on her. So he withdrew it, and she relaxed. He looked her imploringly, amber eyes shimmering with deep hurt.

"You don't like me…do you?" he mumbled. "You lied to me! Didn't you?" Kagome jumped and looked at him with mild surprise.

"Inuyasha! Why would I ever lie to you?" she cried, a few tears leaking from the corners of her eyes. Sango and Miroku turned from their chatting to stare at the sobbing girl. Sango glared at Inuyasha, Miroku quirked an eyebrow, then put a comforting hand on her shoulder and whispered something in her ear. She sighed and turned away from her best friend. Inuyasha decided to ignore them and glared at Kagome, but paused for a second. With her eyes narrowed, with tears glistening in those dark brown depths, with hurt dancing through them, she almost looked like Kikyou. Inuyasha swallowed hard, then bit his lip. He didn't like her looking that way. Not at all.

But, being Inuyasha, that stubborn, egotistical hanyou, he took in all of that hurt, and turned it into anger.

"KIKYOU BETRAYED YOU! SHE'S YOUR SISTER SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK?" he yelled in her face, hands trembling in rage. Kagome gasped, then flinched, as if she were scared of him, scared of those long, white claws that seemed to catch and reflect the sunlight. A few more tears ran down from her eyes, and soaked the collar of her silk dress.

"Inuyasha…" she muttered.

"COME ON! SAY SOMETHING YOU STUPID GIRL!" Inuyasha didn't know what hit him. All he knew was that she was trembling in her chair, and suddenly something small, yet hard ran across his cheek. He winced, them stumbled back a few steps, clutching his face, staring at Kagome in shock. I…I slapped him! Kagome cried, looking down at her hand, which was pink and was throbbing crazily. She sniffled, then fled from the room, face in her hands. Inuyasha continued to glare after her, before his eyes softened. I made her angry. I hurt her. But she didn't have to hit so hard! Inuyasha thought, rubbing his jaw angrily. Just then he realized he was being watched. He slowly turned, to find the whole table, staring at him in shock.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING AT?" he roared. Everyone jumped, and returned their attention to their cold food, muttering occasionally about "abusive boyfriends" and "bitch slapping." Miroku opened his mouth to berate the hanyou, but Inuyasha cut him off. "Save it monk, alright?" He looked at his friend warily, with slitted blue eyes, then turned to Sango. Kagome's friend, however, wasn't that easily subdued.

"INUYASHA YOU IDIOT!" Sango roared. "You need to go apologize to Kagome. Of course she likes you or else she wouldn't be spending all of her time with you! You also need to sort out some of your own feelings. Everyone can see plainly that you love her!" Inuyasha opened his mouth to retort, but closed it. Of course I like her…but love her! How could I tell her something so serious when she has no feelings for me? Inuyasha thought, then scolded himself. But if I'm supposed to make her love me, too, then why did I get her mad? So mad that she slapped me! He stroked his sore face in recollection then looked up the passageway she had fled down. It wasn't the one that led to her room, so where was so going?

The gardens.

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I hit him! I slapped him! Kagome cried, burying her face in her hands, which were drenched with her tears. Inuyasha will never love me now! I hurt him! He was probably better off with Kikyou! He was so callous to me before, and now he's better, but what if he hates me because I lost control? More loud sobs wracked her body as she sniffled harshly; crying too hard always made her nose run. Kagome ripped a flower from the ground angrily, and proceeded to tear the petals up. They floated down and formed a wreathe on her head. Kagome shook it, then bit her lip when she heard hurried footsteps. She froze, and looked up into Inuyasha's golden eyes. She gasped, scooting back on her bum, desperately trying to get away from him.

"Get away from me!" Kagome screeched, as a few of her tears soaked the dirt around her. Inuyasha growled at her.

"What are you babbling about wench?" he rumbled. She sniffed loudly and moaned.

"I'm sorry," she said in a small voice. "You made me so angry, but really sad. After all this time, almost a whole month, you don't think I care about you?" She squinted her eyes, drawing him in, as if it would help her better understand the conflict. "You think I'm a liar! You don't trust me even though I trust you with my life!" Inuyasha felt his heart sting with those strong words, and he had to admit to himself that he had almost been mean enough to deserve that slap.

"Kagome…Kagome…I'm…I'm sorry," he muttered, fixating his gaze on an interesting petunia close by. She looked up at him, and blinked away her furious tears.

"W-What? What did you say?" Inuyasha clenched and unclenched his fists in anger. A blush appeared on his normally tan face as he glared at her.

"I SAID I WAS SORRY! YOU HAPPY?" He felt her suddenly cling to his neck and he patted her arm awkwardly. "Well um…yeah."

"Why do you say such hurtful things?" she asked, burying her face into his neck. He felt warm tears gush from her eyes, and run down his skin. Her proximity and her strong scent were doing things to him.

"Kagome…I've been meaning to say this for a long time…I love you."

Cliffhanger! Muwahahaha! I got my report card! Nine A's(four 100s) and one stupid B, a 91 for math. I depise it! Midterm exams are over! Hallelujah praise the lord! Lol. Aloha.