InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Girl Next Door ❯ Go Figure ( Chapter 20 )
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Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha or any other characters I use in this fic. I also don't own the song `Go Figure' that is owned by this one band called Everlife, I think…its Ever..and then some word. I do think its everlife, but im not 100% sure. But just know, I don't own it.
Chapter 20: Go Figure
Kagome sat on her bed, still giggling. She had quieted down some, but still couldn't stop. It was just soooo funny. After all this time of crushing on InuYasha, he only wanted Kikyo. Just like everyone else. A part of her couldn't understand why her friends didn't find this funny.
“Kagome, are you sure you're okay?” Sango asked, concerned. When she realized it had been Kagome laughing maniacally at the game, she had rushed over to try to get her to calm down. She had reached Kagome about the same time that Ayame had.
Kagome nodded as a small giggle escaped her lips. She knew she had made a scene at the game and would be the talk of the school Monday morning, but it didn't bother her. Nothing could bother her right now. Everything seemed hilarious. In fact, she found the thought of people from school thinking she was crazy pretty funny, too.
Ayame and Sango glanced at each other, sharing a worried look. They were ignoring the fourth person in the room, considering it was most likely his fault that Kagome went hysterical. He never should have tried to get her to go to the game using reverse psychology. And he definitely shouldn't have kissed Kikyo, even if he didn't know Kagome was going to be there. That had been what set Kagome off in the first place.
“InuYasha, why don't you go home? I don't think you're helping.” Ayame said coldly. She was sick of him at the moment. All he ever did was hurt Kagome. And this time he seemed to have hurt her bad.
“No! I'm not leaving! I'm staying until I know she's okay!” InuYasha yelled stubbornly. He knew that this was his fault, so he was taking responsibility for it. He would stay until he was one hundred percent sure that Kagome was okay.
“InuYasha, this is your fault! She doesn't want you here!” Sango yelled, glaring at him.
“She never said that! She was to busy laughing!” InuYasha pointed out, yelling right back at her. Kagome sat on the edge of her bed, suddenly quiet, taking in the argument.
“And she was laughing because you messed with her head….and her heart!” Ayame shouted.
“Hey! If it hadn't been for me, you guys would still be at the field trying to get her to stop laughing! I was the one who carried her to the car!” InuYasha yelled. He knew damn well that this was his fault, and he didn't need someone telling him something he already knew. He hurt her; it was his job to keep her safe!
“If it hadn't been for you, we wouldn't be in this mess and Kagome wouldn't have laughed herself crazy!” Sango screamed, making Kagome jump and cover her ears.
“Well, if it hadn't been for Rin making that stupid bet, none of this would have happened! Everything would be normal!”
“And if it hadn't been for me, Kagome would still be getting ignored by Hojo. Sango and Ayame may not be with Miroku and Koga. And you, InuYasha, would think everything was fine. Kikyo would still be cheating on you, and you never would have thought to look next door to find the right girl for you. You wouldn't be in love with my sister right now, if everything was normal.” Rin said, coming in the room. She had been standing in the doorway, watching and listening to the small group. InuYasha was acting as if the bet had been an awful, evil thing, when really, it had actually caused a lot of good.
At this, Kagome erupted into laughter again, and fell off her bed. InuYasha in love with her? That would be the day! When InuYasha was in love with her she would wear a pink-pok-a-dot helmet, because purple pigs with green wings and blue stripes were flying!
“Get out. Just get out. Everyone. Kagome doesn't need this right now. Your fighting is making it worse. Leave. She will call you tomorrow.” Rin ordered, as she watched her little sister get back on her bed, her eyes devoid of laughter. Now all that showed in Kagome's eyes was pain and hurt. Rin knew that Kagome wouldn't want everyone around when she hit rock bottom.
“What? That's not fair! I want to know if she's okay!” Ayame declared.
“Me too! I'm not leaving until I'm positive that Kagome is back to normal.” Sango shouted. InuYasha shuffled over to the bed, unnoticed, and sat down next to Kagome.
“She will call you guys tomorrow, if she feels up to it. Just please, leave. I'm sure this is uncomfortable for her. You guys know how she likes to be alone when she's upset. She likes to work everything out on her own.” Rin explained. Ayame and Sango looked at each other for a few seconds, then moved towards the door. Rin was right. Kagome didn't like to let people see her tears. She would rather cry alone in her room.
“Bye Kag.” Sango said, over her shoulder.
“Seeya.” Ayame chimed in. Rin turned to InuYasha once the girls were out of the room. He was whispering something in Kagome's ear, and trying to put his arm around her shoulders. Kagome covered her ears, and shook her head so she didn't have to hear what he was saying to her. She kept shrugging off his arm.
Rin watched as InuYasha's movements became frantic and desperate. His amber eyes filled with sorrow. It was killing him that Kagome wouldn't listed to him. Maybe now he would finally feel some of the pain that Kagome was feeling.
“InuYasha…please…leave. Come back tomorrow, maybe.” Rin begged. She knew the fact was setting into Kagome's mind, and it was going to hurt both her and InuYasha.
“No.” He answered Rin. “Kagome, just listen to me!” His voice was stern, but begging.
“InuYasha! She doesn't want to listen!” Rin yelled. He grabbed Kagome's hands and pulled them away from her ears.
“Stop, InuYasha! Get away from me!” Kagome screamed, trying to get out of his grasp.
“Give me a chance to explain!”
“Leave her alone, InuYasha!” Rin shouted, she knew what was coming. This had happened to her once in high school. First it seemed hilarious, but intense anger soon followed, and finally the pain. The anger was probably worse for other people to be around to see.
Knowing it was a lost cause, Rin ran out of the room to find Sesshomaru. He would be able to get InuYasha out of there. She sprinted down the stairs, out the door, and over to his house. The pain was going to hit Kagome. There was no stopping that. The damage had been done. But InuYasha was a different story. He didn't have to feel the pain. Sure, when Kagome didn't listen to him it hurt him, but it didn't hurt him. Rin knew her sister. Kagome wasn't normally the if-I'm-going-down-I'm-taking-everybody-with-me kind of girl. But a broken heart changed people. And intense pain would cause her heart to try to hurt the person who hurt her. Even if she didn't really want to. If they could get InuYasha out of there before Kagome snapped, the couple might still have hope. There was a chance that Kagome would forgive him, and everything would get better. Rin just hoped that they got InuYasha out of there on time. She didn't want to think about how Kagome might hurt him.
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“I don't want to hear it! I don't care! I don't want your excuses! I don't care if you love Kikyo! I don't care! Just let me go!” Kagome screamed, still struggling to get free.
“I don't love Kikyo! Okay? I didn't mean to kiss her! I didn't want to!”
“Shut up! That's enough! You do love Kikyo! I don't care! I don't care! I don't care if you love her, or marry her, or have kids with her!” Kagome shrieked, ripping free of InuYasha's grasp and jumping up. She ran across the room and spun around to face him.
“I don't love Kikyo!” InuYasha screamed back, annoyed. “I love you, baka!”
“Liar! Stop lieing!” Kagome kicked InuYasha's shin.
“Dammit! I'm not lieing! I fucking love you Kagome! Get it through that thick fucking head of yours!” He shouted at her.
“STOP lying! You do not! I hate you! I HATE you! I never ever want to see you again!” Kagome screamed, glaring at InuYasha.
InuYasha's jaw dropped, as did his heart. He tore his gaze from Kagome and looked at the floor. As if someone else was controlling his body, InuYasha glided out of the room, and down the stairs.
Once he reached the front door his two silvery ears drooped, ever so slightly. He passed Rin and his brother and didn't look in either of their eyes. InuYasha didn't want to see or talk to any one. He just wanted to be alone.
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Kagome sat quietly on her bed, staring into space. Everything was so screwed up. Her heart ached from the fact that InuYasha had been sucking face with Kikyo. It hurt so bad. Kagome wished she could dry, it would probably make her feel better, but she couldn't. She was too sad to cry. She couldn't even show emotion. She felt completely blank and empty.
And the look that had been on InuYasha's face when she screamed at him, made everything worse. Truthfully, she had wanted to hurt InuYasha. Well, she thought she had. Until she saw his face. She hadn't meant to say she hated him. She didn't hate him. Kagome loved him.
Of course, she hadn't expected that reaction. Kagome had expected him to get pissed off, curse her out, and leave in a huff. Hell, she had even expected him to lose control. But not silence. A quiet InuYasha was common every now and then, if he was thinking about something important. But he never became silent when he was mad. Never. Loud? Yes. Obnoxious? Oh yeah. Scary? Maybe a little bit. But not silent. That had to mean something was way wrong.
What had she done? Had it really hurt him? And he had been lying when he said he loved her, right? No one used the words `baka' or `fuck' the first time they told someone they loved them. Right? When that was said, it was supposed to be tender and romantic. Not rough and mean. But…rough was InuYasha. He wasn't exactly the touchy feely, romantic, goo-goo eyed, poem writing kind of guy. InuYasha was the kind of guy that told you how it was going to be. He was a take it or leave it kind of person.
“Kagome! What did you do to him?” Rin asked, running into the room. Kagome shrugged, lost in thought. She didn't even look up at Rin. She just continued staring ar the floor.
“Are you okay?” Rin asked, sitting next to her. All she got in reply was a weak nod. “How do you feel?”
“Hollow.” Kagome answered, her voice held no emotion. “I feel numb.” She mumbled.
“What did you say to InuYasha?” Rin asked again. Kagome's mood seem to darken even more, and she sighed.
“I told him I hated him.” Kagome whispered, ashamed. She looked up at Rin and searched her face for the answer. “Did I hurt him?”
“Yeah, Kagome. I think you really really did. Not that he would admit it, but he didn't seem like he was himself. I think Sesshomaru is trying to talk to him right now.” Rin said, looking into the window next door.
InuYasha was screaming at the door, which Sesshomaru was probably behind. He had really heavy metal music playing. It sounded much like Slipknot's Wait and Bleed. This was really not good for any future that Kagome and InuYasha might have had together.
“Why did he get so….sad?” Kagome asked, completely oblivious to the fact that InuYasha was in love with her.
“Because Kagome. He loves you, he has since he started crawling in your window to plan on how to get your friends together.” Rin said. “Get some sleep. Worry about everything in the mourning.” Rin got up, left the room and shut the door behind her.
All night, Kagome tossed and turned. She couldn't sleep. All she could think about was what Rin said, and what InuYasha had said. And what she had said to him. She had to fix it. Kagome had to tell him that she hadn't meant what she said. She had just been mad at him. She couldn't go on with him thinking she hated him.
But what if he rejected her? She couldn't stand the thought of him telling her to leave. Was it wrong to even try to fix everything, if he was only going to reject her? But what if he didn't reject her?
Just when you learn the game of life
All the rules change overnight
(ooo ooo go figure)
It seems so wrong to even try
But taking a chance never felt so right
(ooo ooo go figure)
Kagome sat on her bed and watched the son rise. She waited until she saw movement in InuYasha's room, then she quickly got a shower. She dressed in a purple Little Mermaid T-shirt, pair of jeans, her purple chucks, and a black Linkin Park sweatshirt.
You have a dream
You want to be the center of the story
Just when you think it's gone
You find a way to keep it going on
Kagome watched through her window as InuYasha got out of bed and stretched. She had to at least try to apologize to him. She ran out of her room and down the stairs.
“Mom, I'm going over to InuYasha's house real quick!” Kagome called into the kitchen, where her mom was making breakfast. She dashed out of the house, and across the yard. Taking a deep breath she knocked on the door.
“Yes? Oh, hey Kagome.” Izayoi greeted, smiling a little bit.
“Hi. Can I see InuYasha?” Kagome asked hesitantly. What if his mom wouldn't let her see him because of how she treated him. Or what if he refused to see her?
“Umm…come on in. I'm not sure if InuYasha will agree to see anyone. He came home very moody last night. I'm not sure what his problem is.” Izayoi said, she let Kagome standing in the hallway, and went up the stairs.
She came back down a few minutes later with a grim expression on her face.
“Kagome, he said he would rather not see anyone right now. Sorry.” Izayoi apologized.
“No! I said I didn't want to see anyone, ESPCIALLY her!” InuYasha screamed from somewhere upstairs. “I don't want to ever see her again!” He said, his voice mocking Kagome's.
“InuYasha! I'm sorry! Okay? Just listen to me! Please?” Kagome pleaded, running up the steps. She got the sudden feeling of déjà vu. Hadn't this been what InuYasha was asking her to do last night?
“Why would I listen to you, when you wouldn't listen to me?” InuYasha yelled at her, then slammed his bedroom door. Kagome, reached his bedroom door, and knocked softly.
“InuYasha, I was mad about you and Kikyo kissing. I didn't know what I was saying.” She whispered to the door. “I didn't mean it.”
“I didn't think you cared if I kissed Kikyo. Just go away Kagome. I don't feel like dealing with your crap right now!” He yelled, then threw something hard at the door. Kagome looked at her shoes. He wasn't going to listen.
Sometimes you will fall,
Before you fly,
Sometimes you will laugh
When you should cry,
Go figure
Why did it seem like every time Kagome and InuYasha got a little bit closer to become a couple, something ALWAYS went wrong? It was like they would take one step forward, then get pushed back four steps.
`Everything is so messed up. Maybe I should just go home. Maybe InuYasha and I aren't meant to be together. Maybe it's time for me to give up.' Kagome thought as she stared at InuYasha's wooden door. Why stick around and bug his entire family if he wasn't going to listen. If he didn't want her, then he really didn't want her. It would be best to just leave.
When things got messed up,
You wanted to give up,
Nothing seemed right but it turned out fine,
Go figure (go figure)
No, she couldn't give up. She had to keep trying. Why give up on something that you really want? She was going to be a rock star, and if someone didn't like her music, she would just keep trying until she showed them just how good she was. Just like Def Leppard. England, the place they had grown up had called them bums and said they would never be a big rock band. Now they had the 39th top selling rock album in history. They were huge. They hadn't given up when England wrote them off. Slipknot had been written off by magazines in America. They said that Slipknot would never make it. Now they had a triple platinum album. They hadn't given up. Neither could she. She had to stay strong, like they did.
Kagome couldn't give up after only trying one or two times. She had to keep trying. Some of the greatest bands got what they wanted because they kept trying. Maybe if she kept trying, she would get InuYasha.
Its so dangerous to play it safe,
You get what you want by giving it away,
Go figure
“InuYasha, if you wont open the damn door, I will just talk through it. It really hurt when I saw you kissing Kikyo. I had gone to your game to show you that I cared, and you were kissing her. Of course I got mad.” She paused to see if InuYasha would say anything but he kept quiet. Kagome hoped that he was listening.
“I care if you love Kikyo, because I hate her, and because I don't want to see you with anyone else. It's selfish, but hey, so are you. I want you all to myself. I didn't mean what I said last night, when I said that I never wanted to see you again. I would probably go crazy if I never ever saw you again. More crazy then my laughing fit last night. I just wanted to be her so bad, in that moment. I just wished it was me that you were kissing.”
You tried so hard to be someone else,
When all you needed was to be yourself
Go figure
“I didn't believe you when you said you loved me last night. I don't know if you really do, or if you were just trying to shut me up. But I know that I didn't mean it when I hated you. Everything had just seemed so weird at the time. Everything seemed so wrong. It didn't make any sense to tell you that, because I could never hate you. Hey! Are you even listening? Your not, are you? I swear if you are listening to your ipod and I'm blubbering on to this stupid door, I will hurt you!” Kagome yelled. He had been quiet this entire time. She had expected him to be yelling at her for droning on and on.
On the other side of the door, InuYasha had been listening intently. He didn't want to say anything when she stopped though, then she would know that he actually did care. He couldn't let her know that he was hanging on to her every word. That wasn't him.
Not everything is what it seems
There's never just one meaning
When it starts making sense
The world is upside down again
“Well, I really don't hate you InuYasha. I…love you. Okay?” She asked, hoping he would answer. After a few moments of silence, Kagome sighed. “Well, I tried. And…I wont bother you anymore. See ya later.” Kagome whispered broken hearted. InuYasha didn't love her. There was no use sticking around, and annoying him further.
Kagome walked slowly down the stairs, in a daze. It hadn't worked. Maybe she had really screwed up last night when she said she hated him. Kagome reached the front door, when a strong, clawed hand grasped her wrist.
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A/N: Well, that's it for this week. Sorry I didn't get this out sooner. My mom was here, and kept coming into my room and bugging me. I finally put an InuYasha movie in to get her to stay out. (she's not a fan of InuYasha). Plus I sort of got side tracked on youtube watching InuYasha amvs. It's a guilty pleasure. I hope you liked this chapter. I have been working on it all week. This is the third time I rewrote it.
The song is called Go Figure by Everlife, and the whole song is not in this chapter. I only put half of it in. I thought it sort of went with what was going on since Kagome had the laughing fit when she should have been crying.
Umm…I will be able to update next weekend. But probably not the weekend after that. Report cards come out then, and I don't think I got my Spanish grade up in time. I'm doing better, but it might be to late to bring it up. So, that will be a month I will lose my computer. (even though its not a core class.) Just to warn you.
Thanx 4 all the reviews. I'm sorry im not going to address any right now. My dad is screaming at me to get off the damn computer, and eat supper. So thanks a bunch!!