InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Herbal Shop ❯ Admissions ( Chapter 4 )

Kouga had held his breath for a second as he hovered over Ella. They both froze when they had heard Kagome come out, but he quickly refocused on the petit hanyou beneath him. Her face was quite red. He smirked at her and her heart skipped a beat, that toothy grin got her every time.

 

“Kouga, do you, um, think we might be moving to fast?” she asked meekly just before his fangs descended on her throat. She moaned at the short contact.

 

“What do you mean?” he raised an eyebrow at her and raised himself up to look at her face. He was quickly distracted by her round, blushing cheeks and how they set off the glow in her green eyes.

 

“I mean, we barely know each other and we aren't even dating, you don't even know if there's someone else.” He growled at that, gripping her wrist tightly. The thought of some other man touching her and kissing her; it made him so angry and he couldn't even explain why. She wasn't his after all, she had just said as much.

 

“Well?” he asked her, his voice rough.

 

“Well, what?” she tilted her head and she reminded him of a puppy.

 

“Are you seeing someone?” he had let go of her wrist and was moving to sit up.

 

“Well, no. Not after the most recent train wreck.” She sat and pulled her legs up, resting her chin on her knees.

 

“What do you mean?” he didn't want to know, but at the same time he was curious.

 

“I mean, I just want you to be sure of you want and I want a relationship. I'm not just looking for a fuck buddy, Kouga.” She looked away from and sighed.

 

He took her hand from her thigh and held it gently, looking at her as she shyly avoided eye contact. It was a sign of submission, but he felt odd that she would give in so easily.

 

“Ella, that's not what I want either, but, I don't know if I want to be tied down in a relationship right now.” He watched her intently and noticed her box cap was twitching. He pulled it off and was greeted by the sight of flattened, little, black triangles. They were so close to her skull they almost disappeared in her unruly nest of hair. He felt bad, but he had to be honest with her.

 

“Listen, I have things to do in the morning, Kouga, I need to turn in.” she rose off the couch and walked to the front door, opening it and standing aside, never looking him in the eye. She held her elbow as she held the door open for him. He desperately wanted to hold her and calm her, kiss her. Anything, but he could feel the unease flowing off her, he could smell the oncoming tears and the fear in her and it hurt him that he had pained her so much.

 

“Can I see you tomorrow?” he asked quietly.

 

“Maybe, I don't get off work till late, though.” She rested her weight on one leg and turned her head, still avoiding eye contact.

 

“Alright, goodnight, Ella.” He stepped out the door and it quickly shut and locked behind him. He sighed and strained to listen. He heard a whimper and the sound of her feet quickly fleeing away from the door.

 

“Fuck!” he growled. He didn't want to be tied down to one person. He didn't want that obligation, to have to be with someone, to have to set aside time for them and make them his top priority. He was so busy with things and getting his business off the ground right now, it wouldn't be fair to her. He quickly went down the stairs and opened the door, only to have Kagome bump into him. She nearly fell backwards, but he quickly grabbed her hand and steadied her.

 

“I'm so sorry! Oh, Kouga, going home so soon?” she smiled coyly at him and he felt his cheeks heat.

 

“Well, it's been quite a while, really and Ella said she had some things to do in the morning. How was your date?” he was already smelling her, he could tell something was off.

 

“It was wonderful!” she smiled widely at him, “He's very sweet, you know.”

 

“Good, good. I better get.”

 

“Goodnight!” she quickly went upstairs and the little breeze she created wafted the scent to him. It was a dog, half dog anyways. He scoffed, so many goddamn demons here. He hadn't counted on that when he moved to the US, but it wasn't really bad thing.

 

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Kagome was whistling and tapping her foot excitedly as she unlocked the door to her apartment. She closed it and locked it back up before setting her keys and purse on the counter. She went to the couch and saw that Ella wasn't waiting up for her. She frowned. Kagome walked to the hallway when she heard it. It was a high keening whine, like when someone tied up a dog and slowly walked away from it; abandoning it. She had heard Ella make that noise many times and it pulled at her heart to hear it now.

 

“Ella, honey, what's wrong?” she asked from the girls closed door. Kagome heard some shuffling and a thunk, and a curse, and then Ella meekly opened the door, peeking through the crack.

 

“Kagome, how was your date?” she tried to sound like she hadn't been crying, but her face was streaked with moisture and her eyes were dull green.

 

“Later, what happened?” she pushed the door lightly and Ella gave in, letting Kagome into her room. They sat on her bed and Ella clutched a pillow.

 

“Well, Kouga and I talked.” She sighed and Kagome stayed silent, “Well, to make a long story short, I said I wanted a relationship and he said he didn't. Not right now.” She looked away.

 

“I know it's silly of me to be so upset, but, you know. I get so attached so quickly.”

 

“Ella, it's ok, it's his loss anyways, maybe he's just coming out of a bad relationship? Maybe he's still settling in or something.” She rubbed Ella's back and the hanyou clung to her.

 

“I'm just so tired of being lonely and dating all these losers. I finally find a great guy and of course he doesn't want me!” she sobbed into her roommate's chest. Kagome simply rubbed her back with one hand and scratched her scalp with the other. She had had to comfort her dear friend many times over relationships. Ella simply clung to her shirt, her sharp nails nearly ripping the fabric.

 

“Ella, come on, lay down.” She pulled her friend down onto the mattress with her and kicked off her slides, getting comfortable. She held her and they fell asleep soon, wrapped up in each other. Ella was so dependant on Kagome; they had been through thick and thin together and always supported the other.

 

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Kouga got home and tossed his keys on the counter, kicked off his boots and fell into his leather recliner with a thud. He rubbed his temples and reached for the remote, turning on the television and flicking through the channels aimlessly. Maybe he should have just lied to her, but then if they went to far he would have hurt her even more and he didn't want that. He growled at himself and threw the remote at the sofa, leaping out of the chair and going into the bathroom. Kouga turned the faucet on and let the hot water run before sliding out of his jeans and jockeys and tossing his shirt into the hamper. He stepped into the shower and leaned his head against the cold tiles, while the hot water rushed over his body.

 

Thoughts of what had happened before and what might have happened tonight flooded his mind and he quickly turned up the cold water, letting out a yelp. His long black hair fell all around him and he lathered up his soap and rinsed quickly before taking on the task of shampooing his hair. He wished she was there, doing it for him and he shuddered, heat going to his groin again. He rolled his eyes and turned off the faucet and walked, naked to his bedroom. The window was open and he shivered at the breeze, going over and closing it.

 

He could hear the front door open and close and the lock slide into place. He walked to the doorway.

 

“That you Ginta?” he hollered.

 

“Yeah, boss.” The man hollered back and Kouga could hear the fridge open and close. He threw on a towel and headed for the kitchen.

 

“I hate when you walk around here naked, you know.” Ginta gave him a sidelong glance and rolled his eyes.

 

“At least I'm wearing a towel this time.” Kouga scoffed, before taking a piece of meat Ginta had pulled from the fridge and taking a large bite out of it.

 

“Hey! That's mine!” Ginta protested but stopped when Kouga gave him “the look.”

 

“Jerk,” he grumbled as he ducked back into the fridge for a new, less attractive piece of flesh.

 

 

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yeah, that's right, it was raw meat -_- sorry it's so short, the next chapter will take right up from this scene. But it's late and I'm tired, so this what you get. AS ALWAYS REVIEWS ARE FUEL. If no one likes it, why will I continue?