InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Hidden Strength No Longer ❯ Chapter 4 ( Chapter 4 )
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By: pandora-of-the-south 
Sorry for the long and over due wait of an update
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Suspense / Romance / Drama / Adventure / Action | Type: Fanfiction Sequel | Uploaded On: 08.09.2011 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.5K | Visits: 289 | Status: Work In Progress
Sorry for the long and over due wait of an update
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Suspense / Romance / Drama / Adventure / Action | Type: Fanfiction Sequel | Uploaded On: 08.09.2011 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.5K | Visits: 289 | Status: Work In Progress
NO excuse but please enjoy!
Previously on Chapter 3
“See what type of mood swings you have to look forward to Sango!” Kagome laughed while ducking down to miss the pillow that Ayame threw towards her playfully.
The four females continued to play and gossip and chat about the old times all night and well into the morning hours until finally after eating breakfast decided to either lay down for a nap or just go ahead and get started on the day’s duty.
Kagome knew her friends would be leaving by the end of the week, she couldn’t blame them for wanting to get back to their daily lives and knew that she will eventually see less and less of Miroku and Ayame; especially since she didn’t want to alter time by interfering in her father’s life.
Chapter 4:
As Kagome returned to her quarters after breakfast she found ten dead animals strewn across her room and bed; obviously someone was sending her a warning. She spent a good hour cleaning her room and disposing of the dead animal bodies.
Just as she was about to destroy the bedding a knock came upon her shoji screen.
“Who is it?” her voice quivered.
“Lady Kagome it is I, Rin. Is everything alright? I came by to see if we could begin our training together.”
After bidding Rin entrance into her room, the young girl noticed the bloody bedding and Kagome passed it off as the monthly cycle that she had briefly explained to her the day before. Rin inwardly cringed at the large amount of blood, ‘Is it even possible to bleed that much and still live? Well of course you can since Lady Kagome is still alive, but still…’
“Rin do you know of a suitable place, which would be quiet and private enough, for us to have our talks of what you are to expect?”
Rin nodded her head, “We could do this in either Lord Sesshoumaru’s library or we can use the Lady’s of the West parlor, no one goes there since there is not a current Lady of the West.”
“So long as it is alright to use the parlor I think it would be a suitable place to have this type of conversation.”
The two ladies walked in silence as they made their way to the West wing’s parlor. Kagome couldn’t help but to marvel at the decoration. She also soon realized this was the only place so far that she has not felt someone watching her from the shadows, she felt at peace in here.
“Ok Rin, why don’t you tell me everything you know about becoming a lady of age. What do you know is to be expected of you?”
“Well I know that I will be of the age to mate, which Lord Sesshoumaru is apparently going to arrange for me. You had mentioned something about having a monthly bleeding cycle. Other than that I only know that once I am given away to my husband or mate that I will no longer be considered Lord Sesshoumaru’s ward or responsibility, my life will then be in the hands of my partner to handle as he would see fit.”
Upon seeing her depressed expression while talking about being wed off and going away from the palace Kagome decided to let her in on a little secret. “Lord Sesshoumaru is not ready for you to leave him Rin, he has to pretend that he is at least considering the proposed unions; he however, has no intention of letting you leave his side just yet. Lord Sesshoumaru is suffering from the same ailment most males suffer from when it comes to their daughters, he is not ready for another male to take his place in your life; all good fathers feel this way when their little girls start to become of age!”
Rin smiled at that thought, it made her less angry with her current situation; now if only there was a way for her to get in touch with Shippo to let him know this as well so that maybe he would stop shutting himself off to her. She held hope that everything would work out, she could mate Shippo and still be in Lord Sesshoumaru’s life; it was the perfect solution to everything.
“Rin, do you know how pups and children come about into the world?” Kagome asked hesitantly with a hint of sorrow.
“They come nine moon cycles after the wedding day, or a mating ceremony would only take six moon cycles.” Rin smiled proudly of her knowledge on this matter.
Kagome just stared wide eyed at the girl. “Sort of, it happens when the ceremony has been consummated.”
“You mean when you kiss someone on the lips?” Rin looked horrified, she has come close to kissing Shippo on the lips before; she knew Lord Sesshoumaru would kill him if she became pregnant without a proper ceremony.
“No Rin!” Kagome laughed at the poor girl’s horrified expression. “I mean when a male and female lay in bed together. Do you understand?”
Before Rin could respond the shoji screen door slid open so fast that Kagome was sure it was going to break something. Jaken came barging in yelling at them.
“What do you think you are doing in here you filthy disgusting whore? Are you so ignorant to not know that this room is reserved for the room that Lord Sesshoumaru’s mate will use? Do you honestly think your filthy self to be worthy enough to use this room? As if, and you; get your filthy human body out of here at once before I report this to m’lord at once.”
Kagome noticed Rin stiffen at once upon his intrusion; she figured that the toad youkai had gotten her in trouble many times in the past. “Master Jaken I humbly apologize, it was I who requested that Lady Rin bring us here for our private talks. As there is no Lady of the house I didn’t think that it would be an issue.”
“You insolent whore how dare you think you have free roam of this household just because there is no Lady. I should beat you where you stand for your insolence.”
Rin noticed with horrified wide eyes as Kagome lowered her head to accept the punishment, she also saw as Jaken smirked and raised his staff of two heads to swing down on her. Before Jaken or Kagome could comprehend what was happening, Rin grabbed Kagome’s hand and charged out of the room through the side door that went into the gardens.
Once outside Rin faced Kagome, “You must never submit to him Lady Kagome. I am sure that m’lord would not have a problem with us using that room, especially for the type of talk we were just having. Just promise to never submit to him again.”
“Rin I know that you are not use to beings talking as such in your presence but Master Jaken is right about me being tainted. My place is lower than the lowest servant that Lord Sesshoumaru has employed here. I apologize that you had to be witness to such talk but I receive that everywhere I go, it was only a matter of time before someone here started to say it as well.”
When she saw that Rin was going to dispute it and had tears forming in her eyes, she stated. “How about we call it a day for the time being; I’ll go and find another room to continue this in for tomorrow so we won’t be interrupted again. Why don’t you go and check on Captain Shippo, he was very upset last night when I last saw him.” Kagome finished with a bitter smile.
Rin reluctantly nodded in acceptance of Kagome’s request. ‘If nothing else maybe I can talk to Shippo about Jaken.’
After a few moments Kagome reigns in her emotions and decides it is time she finds Inuyasha and Miroku, they are the only ones that she has yet to try to talk to; that want to talk to her, she thought sadly about Shippo’s reluctant attitude to talk to her.
She sensed the two men to be within the teahouse, so turning in her current direction she started off for them; they had a lot to catch up on.
Rin reached Shippo’s location in only a matter of minutes from running nonstop. Shippo looked down at her, as she tried to catch her breath.
“Rin is everything alright? Why aren’t you with Lady Kagome?”
“She has dismissed me for the day. She told me that Lord Sesshoumaru is not ready to give me away to a mate yet, but he has to go through the act of acting as if he is. Isn’t that good news?”
A sparkle of hope glinted in his eyes as he looked down to the young woman again, “Yes it is very good news indeed!”
“Uh, Ship I also wanted to talk to you about Ja…ah never mind.” She stopped herself just as she noticed him approaching.
“Wench what are you doing up here harassing our hard working Captain? He cannot be bothered with your petty childish games any more. Get back to that whore who is supposed to be able to teach you how to be more of a lady; at least she can teach you what not to do.” Jaken snidely remarked, daring anyone to refute him.
“Now you listen here Jaken, you can not go around disrespecting Lady Rin or Lady Kagome. I should report you to Lord Sesshoumaru for your ill treatment towards the two ladies.” Shippo growled.
“Yes, young Captain, and while you are at it shall you also tell him of how you are neglecting your duties to play with this wench? M’lord would be most interested if I were to tell him about the constant touching you two keep having, don’t you agree Captain?”
Rin quickly pulled Shippo away from Jaken and just quickly whispered, “Lady Kagome needs you, you are her son; please go to her.”
When Shippo nodded his head towards her, she took off running yet again; only this time it was to her room, a place she knew she was safe from Jaken and his constant belittling.
Shippo continued to glare behind the little green toad as he waddled off, ‘One day he will out live his usefulness, and I can only hope that Lord Sesshoumaru will allow me to be the one that shows him out.’
Meanwhile in the teahouse, Kagome just walked in as the tea server was walking out.
“Kagome I was wandering when you would come around so we could catch up, seems our mates have been monopolizing your time since you got here.” Miroku smirked as he half way embraced her.
“Oye, wench, why did you become so anxious all of a sudden when I tried to hug you the other night? You don’t seem to have a problem with the pervert here.” Inuyasha grumbled.
Both males noticed the flinch she made at the usual nickname Inuyasha always used. “It’s nothing Inu. So what have you two been up to since we all last traveled together, other than the obvious with your mates being pupped?”
Inuyasha lowered his ears to the top of his head, “You know Kagome I really don’t mean anything by calling you that, it’s an old bad habit. Also I am sorry that I allowed Kikyo to talk me out of following after you back then, I could have protected you if I had been with you.”
Kagome lowered her gaze to the floor, “I know you are sorry Inu, but you have a mate now with a pup on its way; that was your destiny. You were not meant to be with me or to always protect me, everything has happened for a reason. If you had been with me then you would not have mated Sango and you more than likely would have died since I was meant to be taken by Nar…”
“You know I would give up everything if only I could have protected you from that monster. You are the last person that deserves this fate and outcome.”
When Kagome started the cry Inuyasha rushed to her side to try and comfort her, only to be pulled back by Miroku as he noticed her powers rising.
Kagome sat in the middle of the floor rocking back and forth, enveloped in her purification powers while her eyes glowed red with silver specks. Her low growl was barely audible to the human ear, but Miroku could hear it none the less.
“Kagome! What’s wrong with her Miroku? Can’t you do something?” Inuyasha pleaded with his friend.
The two males could tell that Kagome was reliving something other than what Naraku had apparently done, for she started to whimper about a lost pup; they knew that Naraku had not succeeded in that aspect.
Miroku inched closer and closer towards her until he was right beside her barrier; he stopped there because she instantly turned her brightly shining red eyes onto him. He could tell though that she was starting to calm due to his presence but it was going to take too long and anything could set her off if she didn’t calm down quickly.
Just as he was about to tell Inuyasha to go and retrieve Sesshoumaru, none other than Sesshoumaru and Shippo entered into the teahouse at the same time from two different doors; both completely focused on Kagome’s body.
Miroku leaned closer to her when he slowly started to hear her whisper something that was making all the demons go wide eyed.
“I killed it…I don’t deserve to live…the pup…I wish I were dead.”
“What the hell is she talking about Monk?” Inuyasha questioned when he saw dawning come across his face.
“I fear I do not completely understand and out of respect for Lady Kagome I refuse to bring forth my speculations.”
Shippo rushed to her side and embraced her, “Mama, please don’t do this…come back to me please.”
Again everyone was in shock as she did not lash out at the brash fox, instead her purification barrier dropped the minute he got to close; however she was still too far from being out of her sudden depressed trance.
“What the hell were you three talking about Hanyou? Why is she all of a sudden like this?”
“We were talking about the past bastard, how was I supposed to know this would happen?”
Shippo stood with pleading eyes directed at Sesshoumaru when he realized that he couldn’t bring her out either. “My Lord maybe you can bring her back, please try.” Shippo pleaded while bowing low to the ground.
Sesshoumaru stepped cautiously towards the red eyed demon, who was watching every step he took very meticulously. He was unsure if he would be able to do much of anything, if even Shippo and Miroku were unsuccessful.
However the minute Sesshoumaru placed a hand on her shoulder she slumped forward and effectively passed out.
Placing her bridal style in his arms Sesshoumaru declared then, “The past is not to be brought up again until she is ready to talk about it. When she begins her training she is to be in the presence of Miroku, Shippo, or myself. I don’t know why but subconsciously she trust us, I will not have her harming you, Inuyasha, when she is like this; it will only add to her nightmares.”
Reluctantly Inuyasha agreed he knew Sesshoumaru was right; Kagome would never forgive herself if she accidentally harmed one of her friends while she was mentally out of it.
Sesshoumaru turned to leave with Kagome, Shippo followed closely behind.
“Shippo you are to watch over your mother until she comes to, then I want her to be escorted to my study.”
“As you wish m’lord.” He said while bowing as Sesshoumaru placed the sleeping demigoddess onto her bed.
“Your past has not been kind to you one bit has it my demigoddess. I vow to do all that is within my power to rectify that starting now, if you would let me.”
Curiosity ate at all of the males as they tried to figure out what Kagome had been reliving. Whose pup was she referring too? Who or what did she kill? Why was she begging to be dead? What could have possibly happened to make her wish for her own demise?
Miroku sat in a dark corner of his bed chambers with a half empty bottle of Saki in one hand and a drying cup in the other. The words echoing again in his head as he moved to pour yet another drink.
“By the gods; what did your child of the heavens, my grandchild, ever do to deserve this fate? How much more will she be put through before you finally break her and have her return to you before her time?”
“Miroku her path is a difficult one indeed and she will need all the support she can get from all of you. Every heroine must meet a pinnacle; they have their peaks of good time and of the bad. Unfortunately, Kagome had yet to reach that part for the bad. Her destiny is difficult but as a child of gods we have faith in her surviving. Remember you are her present but also her past; we are her present, past, and future.”
“Who are you?” Miroku asked though he had a vague feeling he knew already.
“I am the Goddess Selene, and Kagome is my granddaughter. I wish her fate could have been different but the gods especially made her heart big enough so that it could handle and survive what is in store for her. She is already growing to hate us, that path will only lead her to more sorrow I’m afraid. We can not meddle in her life to help her choose her paths but I foresee a very sad and dangerous path if she keeps on this track.”
Miroku nodded his head in understanding, the Goddess’s hands were tied to the point that she couldn’t directly help her granddaughter to get back on the right track but she could go through a third party for help and who better than the other set of grandparents!
“I will do all within my power to protect my granddaughter and see that her happiness once and for all comes to fruition.” Miroku vowed to the Goddess Selene.
“I knew you would!”
Author’s Note:
Well like I said at the very beginning, there are no excuses for being gone for almost a year and a half. I honestly don’t know where the time went. I am hoping that I haven’t lost too many readers of this story and that not all of you are completely angry with me.
The villain is a little hard to work with, having to change his whole personality almost. Also it is difficult having Kagome be so submissive, I haven’t personally gone through everything in life that I have made her go through but I have gone through quite a bit of it and I became more guarded and take shit from no one type attitude, the complete opposite of Kagome here…it is a little hard to get into her head at times!
I hope again all can for give my long inexcusable absence. Please R&R
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Previously on Chapter 3
“See what type of mood swings you have to look forward to Sango!” Kagome laughed while ducking down to miss the pillow that Ayame threw towards her playfully.
The four females continued to play and gossip and chat about the old times all night and well into the morning hours until finally after eating breakfast decided to either lay down for a nap or just go ahead and get started on the day’s duty.
Kagome knew her friends would be leaving by the end of the week, she couldn’t blame them for wanting to get back to their daily lives and knew that she will eventually see less and less of Miroku and Ayame; especially since she didn’t want to alter time by interfering in her father’s life.
Chapter 4:
As Kagome returned to her quarters after breakfast she found ten dead animals strewn across her room and bed; obviously someone was sending her a warning. She spent a good hour cleaning her room and disposing of the dead animal bodies.
Just as she was about to destroy the bedding a knock came upon her shoji screen.
“Who is it?” her voice quivered.
“Lady Kagome it is I, Rin. Is everything alright? I came by to see if we could begin our training together.”
After bidding Rin entrance into her room, the young girl noticed the bloody bedding and Kagome passed it off as the monthly cycle that she had briefly explained to her the day before. Rin inwardly cringed at the large amount of blood, ‘Is it even possible to bleed that much and still live? Well of course you can since Lady Kagome is still alive, but still…’
“Rin do you know of a suitable place, which would be quiet and private enough, for us to have our talks of what you are to expect?”
Rin nodded her head, “We could do this in either Lord Sesshoumaru’s library or we can use the Lady’s of the West parlor, no one goes there since there is not a current Lady of the West.”
“So long as it is alright to use the parlor I think it would be a suitable place to have this type of conversation.”
The two ladies walked in silence as they made their way to the West wing’s parlor. Kagome couldn’t help but to marvel at the decoration. She also soon realized this was the only place so far that she has not felt someone watching her from the shadows, she felt at peace in here.
“Ok Rin, why don’t you tell me everything you know about becoming a lady of age. What do you know is to be expected of you?”
“Well I know that I will be of the age to mate, which Lord Sesshoumaru is apparently going to arrange for me. You had mentioned something about having a monthly bleeding cycle. Other than that I only know that once I am given away to my husband or mate that I will no longer be considered Lord Sesshoumaru’s ward or responsibility, my life will then be in the hands of my partner to handle as he would see fit.”
Upon seeing her depressed expression while talking about being wed off and going away from the palace Kagome decided to let her in on a little secret. “Lord Sesshoumaru is not ready for you to leave him Rin, he has to pretend that he is at least considering the proposed unions; he however, has no intention of letting you leave his side just yet. Lord Sesshoumaru is suffering from the same ailment most males suffer from when it comes to their daughters, he is not ready for another male to take his place in your life; all good fathers feel this way when their little girls start to become of age!”
Rin smiled at that thought, it made her less angry with her current situation; now if only there was a way for her to get in touch with Shippo to let him know this as well so that maybe he would stop shutting himself off to her. She held hope that everything would work out, she could mate Shippo and still be in Lord Sesshoumaru’s life; it was the perfect solution to everything.
“Rin, do you know how pups and children come about into the world?” Kagome asked hesitantly with a hint of sorrow.
“They come nine moon cycles after the wedding day, or a mating ceremony would only take six moon cycles.” Rin smiled proudly of her knowledge on this matter.
Kagome just stared wide eyed at the girl. “Sort of, it happens when the ceremony has been consummated.”
“You mean when you kiss someone on the lips?” Rin looked horrified, she has come close to kissing Shippo on the lips before; she knew Lord Sesshoumaru would kill him if she became pregnant without a proper ceremony.
“No Rin!” Kagome laughed at the poor girl’s horrified expression. “I mean when a male and female lay in bed together. Do you understand?”
Before Rin could respond the shoji screen door slid open so fast that Kagome was sure it was going to break something. Jaken came barging in yelling at them.
“What do you think you are doing in here you filthy disgusting whore? Are you so ignorant to not know that this room is reserved for the room that Lord Sesshoumaru’s mate will use? Do you honestly think your filthy self to be worthy enough to use this room? As if, and you; get your filthy human body out of here at once before I report this to m’lord at once.”
Kagome noticed Rin stiffen at once upon his intrusion; she figured that the toad youkai had gotten her in trouble many times in the past. “Master Jaken I humbly apologize, it was I who requested that Lady Rin bring us here for our private talks. As there is no Lady of the house I didn’t think that it would be an issue.”
“You insolent whore how dare you think you have free roam of this household just because there is no Lady. I should beat you where you stand for your insolence.”
Rin noticed with horrified wide eyes as Kagome lowered her head to accept the punishment, she also saw as Jaken smirked and raised his staff of two heads to swing down on her. Before Jaken or Kagome could comprehend what was happening, Rin grabbed Kagome’s hand and charged out of the room through the side door that went into the gardens.
Once outside Rin faced Kagome, “You must never submit to him Lady Kagome. I am sure that m’lord would not have a problem with us using that room, especially for the type of talk we were just having. Just promise to never submit to him again.”
“Rin I know that you are not use to beings talking as such in your presence but Master Jaken is right about me being tainted. My place is lower than the lowest servant that Lord Sesshoumaru has employed here. I apologize that you had to be witness to such talk but I receive that everywhere I go, it was only a matter of time before someone here started to say it as well.”
When she saw that Rin was going to dispute it and had tears forming in her eyes, she stated. “How about we call it a day for the time being; I’ll go and find another room to continue this in for tomorrow so we won’t be interrupted again. Why don’t you go and check on Captain Shippo, he was very upset last night when I last saw him.” Kagome finished with a bitter smile.
Rin reluctantly nodded in acceptance of Kagome’s request. ‘If nothing else maybe I can talk to Shippo about Jaken.’
After a few moments Kagome reigns in her emotions and decides it is time she finds Inuyasha and Miroku, they are the only ones that she has yet to try to talk to; that want to talk to her, she thought sadly about Shippo’s reluctant attitude to talk to her.
She sensed the two men to be within the teahouse, so turning in her current direction she started off for them; they had a lot to catch up on.
Rin reached Shippo’s location in only a matter of minutes from running nonstop. Shippo looked down at her, as she tried to catch her breath.
“Rin is everything alright? Why aren’t you with Lady Kagome?”
“She has dismissed me for the day. She told me that Lord Sesshoumaru is not ready to give me away to a mate yet, but he has to go through the act of acting as if he is. Isn’t that good news?”
A sparkle of hope glinted in his eyes as he looked down to the young woman again, “Yes it is very good news indeed!”
“Uh, Ship I also wanted to talk to you about Ja…ah never mind.” She stopped herself just as she noticed him approaching.
“Wench what are you doing up here harassing our hard working Captain? He cannot be bothered with your petty childish games any more. Get back to that whore who is supposed to be able to teach you how to be more of a lady; at least she can teach you what not to do.” Jaken snidely remarked, daring anyone to refute him.
“Now you listen here Jaken, you can not go around disrespecting Lady Rin or Lady Kagome. I should report you to Lord Sesshoumaru for your ill treatment towards the two ladies.” Shippo growled.
“Yes, young Captain, and while you are at it shall you also tell him of how you are neglecting your duties to play with this wench? M’lord would be most interested if I were to tell him about the constant touching you two keep having, don’t you agree Captain?”
Rin quickly pulled Shippo away from Jaken and just quickly whispered, “Lady Kagome needs you, you are her son; please go to her.”
When Shippo nodded his head towards her, she took off running yet again; only this time it was to her room, a place she knew she was safe from Jaken and his constant belittling.
Shippo continued to glare behind the little green toad as he waddled off, ‘One day he will out live his usefulness, and I can only hope that Lord Sesshoumaru will allow me to be the one that shows him out.’
Meanwhile in the teahouse, Kagome just walked in as the tea server was walking out.
“Kagome I was wandering when you would come around so we could catch up, seems our mates have been monopolizing your time since you got here.” Miroku smirked as he half way embraced her.
“Oye, wench, why did you become so anxious all of a sudden when I tried to hug you the other night? You don’t seem to have a problem with the pervert here.” Inuyasha grumbled.
Both males noticed the flinch she made at the usual nickname Inuyasha always used. “It’s nothing Inu. So what have you two been up to since we all last traveled together, other than the obvious with your mates being pupped?”
Inuyasha lowered his ears to the top of his head, “You know Kagome I really don’t mean anything by calling you that, it’s an old bad habit. Also I am sorry that I allowed Kikyo to talk me out of following after you back then, I could have protected you if I had been with you.”
Kagome lowered her gaze to the floor, “I know you are sorry Inu, but you have a mate now with a pup on its way; that was your destiny. You were not meant to be with me or to always protect me, everything has happened for a reason. If you had been with me then you would not have mated Sango and you more than likely would have died since I was meant to be taken by Nar…”
“You know I would give up everything if only I could have protected you from that monster. You are the last person that deserves this fate and outcome.”
When Kagome started the cry Inuyasha rushed to her side to try and comfort her, only to be pulled back by Miroku as he noticed her powers rising.
Kagome sat in the middle of the floor rocking back and forth, enveloped in her purification powers while her eyes glowed red with silver specks. Her low growl was barely audible to the human ear, but Miroku could hear it none the less.
“Kagome! What’s wrong with her Miroku? Can’t you do something?” Inuyasha pleaded with his friend.
The two males could tell that Kagome was reliving something other than what Naraku had apparently done, for she started to whimper about a lost pup; they knew that Naraku had not succeeded in that aspect.
Miroku inched closer and closer towards her until he was right beside her barrier; he stopped there because she instantly turned her brightly shining red eyes onto him. He could tell though that she was starting to calm due to his presence but it was going to take too long and anything could set her off if she didn’t calm down quickly.
Just as he was about to tell Inuyasha to go and retrieve Sesshoumaru, none other than Sesshoumaru and Shippo entered into the teahouse at the same time from two different doors; both completely focused on Kagome’s body.
Miroku leaned closer to her when he slowly started to hear her whisper something that was making all the demons go wide eyed.
“I killed it…I don’t deserve to live…the pup…I wish I were dead.”
“What the hell is she talking about Monk?” Inuyasha questioned when he saw dawning come across his face.
“I fear I do not completely understand and out of respect for Lady Kagome I refuse to bring forth my speculations.”
Shippo rushed to her side and embraced her, “Mama, please don’t do this…come back to me please.”
Again everyone was in shock as she did not lash out at the brash fox, instead her purification barrier dropped the minute he got to close; however she was still too far from being out of her sudden depressed trance.
“What the hell were you three talking about Hanyou? Why is she all of a sudden like this?”
“We were talking about the past bastard, how was I supposed to know this would happen?”
Shippo stood with pleading eyes directed at Sesshoumaru when he realized that he couldn’t bring her out either. “My Lord maybe you can bring her back, please try.” Shippo pleaded while bowing low to the ground.
Sesshoumaru stepped cautiously towards the red eyed demon, who was watching every step he took very meticulously. He was unsure if he would be able to do much of anything, if even Shippo and Miroku were unsuccessful.
However the minute Sesshoumaru placed a hand on her shoulder she slumped forward and effectively passed out.
Placing her bridal style in his arms Sesshoumaru declared then, “The past is not to be brought up again until she is ready to talk about it. When she begins her training she is to be in the presence of Miroku, Shippo, or myself. I don’t know why but subconsciously she trust us, I will not have her harming you, Inuyasha, when she is like this; it will only add to her nightmares.”
Reluctantly Inuyasha agreed he knew Sesshoumaru was right; Kagome would never forgive herself if she accidentally harmed one of her friends while she was mentally out of it.
Sesshoumaru turned to leave with Kagome, Shippo followed closely behind.
“Shippo you are to watch over your mother until she comes to, then I want her to be escorted to my study.”
“As you wish m’lord.” He said while bowing as Sesshoumaru placed the sleeping demigoddess onto her bed.
“Your past has not been kind to you one bit has it my demigoddess. I vow to do all that is within my power to rectify that starting now, if you would let me.”
Curiosity ate at all of the males as they tried to figure out what Kagome had been reliving. Whose pup was she referring too? Who or what did she kill? Why was she begging to be dead? What could have possibly happened to make her wish for her own demise?
Miroku sat in a dark corner of his bed chambers with a half empty bottle of Saki in one hand and a drying cup in the other. The words echoing again in his head as he moved to pour yet another drink.
“By the gods; what did your child of the heavens, my grandchild, ever do to deserve this fate? How much more will she be put through before you finally break her and have her return to you before her time?”
“Miroku her path is a difficult one indeed and she will need all the support she can get from all of you. Every heroine must meet a pinnacle; they have their peaks of good time and of the bad. Unfortunately, Kagome had yet to reach that part for the bad. Her destiny is difficult but as a child of gods we have faith in her surviving. Remember you are her present but also her past; we are her present, past, and future.”
“Who are you?” Miroku asked though he had a vague feeling he knew already.
“I am the Goddess Selene, and Kagome is my granddaughter. I wish her fate could have been different but the gods especially made her heart big enough so that it could handle and survive what is in store for her. She is already growing to hate us, that path will only lead her to more sorrow I’m afraid. We can not meddle in her life to help her choose her paths but I foresee a very sad and dangerous path if she keeps on this track.”
Miroku nodded his head in understanding, the Goddess’s hands were tied to the point that she couldn’t directly help her granddaughter to get back on the right track but she could go through a third party for help and who better than the other set of grandparents!
“I will do all within my power to protect my granddaughter and see that her happiness once and for all comes to fruition.” Miroku vowed to the Goddess Selene.
“I knew you would!”
Author’s Note:
Well like I said at the very beginning, there are no excuses for being gone for almost a year and a half. I honestly don’t know where the time went. I am hoping that I haven’t lost too many readers of this story and that not all of you are completely angry with me.
The villain is a little hard to work with, having to change his whole personality almost. Also it is difficult having Kagome be so submissive, I haven’t personally gone through everything in life that I have made her go through but I have gone through quite a bit of it and I became more guarded and take shit from no one type attitude, the complete opposite of Kagome here…it is a little hard to get into her head at times!
I hope again all can for give my long inexcusable absence. Please R&R
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