InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The journey within ❯ Languid Thoughts ( Chapter 2 )

Kagome sat languidly at her desk finishing up her last trigonometry problem as she heard a thud near her window. "Shouldn't you be asleep?" Inuyasha scowled at her as he glanced past her to the alarm clock.

"Yeah, but I need to finish my school work. I still have to study for my test in European History." Kagome turned to look at him, now sitting on her bed. "Why don't you find something to do, I'm going to be a while." She smiled at him, trying to convince him to leave her in peace.

Inuyasha looked around at the room as Kagome continued to study. I can't play a video game, Sota is visiting a friend. Maybe Kagome still has that puzzle book. He placed tetsusaiga at the foot of Kagome's bed as he went to snoop in one of her many drawers. "What are you looking for Inuyasha?"

"That puzzle book, you always let me use." He continued to search, carefully avoiding the one drawer that would earn him a series of sits. Kagome had sat him straight down the stairs when she caught him in her underwear drawer a year ago. He had only wanted to know what smelt so intriguing.

"It's in the third drawer. Here's a pen." She handed him the pen as he drug out the book.

"Thanks." He resumed his perch on the bed, opening to the page where he last left off. Okay you damn bunny, I will find a way to get you to the carrot. He stuck his tongue out slightly as he followed the maze to the carrot at the end. He loved the puzzle book that Kagome let him use whenever he was at her house. He flipped the page to a new type of puzzle, carefully reading the instructions. I'm glad Kagome taught me how to read last year, I won't have to ask her what to do now. Hmm, I want to do something else. "Kag.." He froze, seeing Kagome conked out on her books. He placed the puzzle book on the side table as he went to carry her to bed. Doesn’t she ever know when enough is enough? He picked her up gently, placing her on the bed. He removed her shoes, then laid down beside her. At first he left a decent space, simply wanting to stay off the floor, her bed was very soft; but as he watched her silently sleep he couldn't help but place his arms around her, pulling her to him. I wish I could have another kiss, Kagome. They are magical. He placed a kiss on her forehead, hugging her close. I wish she would give me another kiss, she hasn't even acted like the one last week affected her or even happened. She hasn't said anything about it, or anything else for that matter, she's just been a shell of herself. I wish that she would talk to me about what's bothering her. I wonder if she never wanted me to kiss her? Maybe I made a big mistake by doing that.. I don't know. She cares for me I know, she told me she loved me as a half-demon, but did she really mean it or was she just trying to get me to not transform? I am so confused. I should just wait until morning to see if she will talk to me. If not, then I will just have to talk to her about some things. I hope I can tell her how I feel, I've never been able to before. I think it's because I feel I owe Kikyo for not protecting her, and I did kind of promise to go to hell with her, but I thought I still loved her then. I don't know what I was thinking, I said that if she wanted me to go to hell with her then I would, but now I have come to see that I can't be with her. Also, during the time I have spent with Kagome, I have come to care about her as much as I thought I did about Kikyo. I don't know, I said that I would go to hell with Kikyo, but now I regret ever saying it. I told Kagome that it was her that made me trust people and not feel alone, even though I loved Kikyo still, but I have been loving her less and less since my journey with Kagome began. I don't know why I can't figure this out. I still feel like I owe Kikyo for letting her die, but Kaede also told me that I could never be with Kikyo in this life and that I should embrace what I had with Kagome. Kagome told me once, that she wanted to stnd by me forever, but does she still feel that way? I know I had mixed feelings then. I still loved Kikyo, but I was also growing very fond of Kagome. I felt enamored by Kikyo and Comfortable around Kagome. He sighed, brushing Kagome's hair out of her face. I love Kagome now. Yes, I know I do, I have for some time, but for a long time I still had strong feelings for Kikyo, and I still feel I owe her, but what? I don't think it's going to hell with her when I love Kagome, but maybe I owe her revenge. Yes, I owe her revenge. I owe her the defeat of the one who killed her, Naraku. Maybe that will solve my debt, because I decided a while ago that I no longer wanted to hold my promise to Kikyo about hell. No, I want to spend a lifetime with Kagome, I don't care if it's here in her time or in mine, just as long as I have her. I know I care more for her now than I ever cared for Kikyo, because Kikyo had to convince me to want to grow old with her, but Kagome never had to suggest it, I just want to. He yawned, exhausted from his thinking. Maybe I should go to sleep. Inuyasha clasped Kagome protectively, slowly drifting off.

"Kagome! Inuyasha! Breakfast is ready!" Mrs. Higurashi yelled from downstairs. The aroma of the finished breakfast filled Kagome's slumbering nostrils, causing her to stretch and awaken.

"Mmm, Mom cooked." She tried to sit up, failing when an arm pulled her back down. "Huh?" She turned her head to see Inuyasha's lightly snoring form. * Awe, how cute! Mwahahaha!* Kagome reached up to his highly sensitive ears, slowly stroking one. She laughed as Inuyasha softly purred, nuzzling into her touch. "Inuyasha, wake up, mom cooked breakfast."

"Mmm, Kagome, mate." Kagome nearly fell through the floor when Inuyasha mumbled in his sleep. "Hey, Kagome. Mmm, What smells so good?" Inuyasha said lazily as he awoke to find Kagome looking like she had seen a ghost. "Kagome? Are you okay?"

"Huh? Umm, yeah, I'm fine. Let's go eat."

(A/N): sorry for such a short chapter, I've had tests this week, the next one will be better, I promise. R&R!! please?